0:04 Hi y'all. I feel like it's been so long
0:05 since I've uploaded a YouTube video
0:09 because it has been a while. Um, but
0:12 things are looking up. I feel the energy
0:15 starting to come back and um, we are
0:18 still in winter. So, um, I am moving a
0:21 little bit slower um, than
0:24 during the summertime for sure. So, what
0:26 has been up with me?
0:30 So, um, as I've mentioned on my channel,
0:31 maybe you know about it, maybe you
0:32 don't, maybe you've listened to my
0:34 podcast, but last year I really went
0:37 through a huge transformation.
0:41 Um, I really wanted to go all in on this
0:44 entrepreneurial journey and I've learned
0:47 so much about myself and what I'm able
0:50 to accomplish. I really was able to do
0:51 some things that I never thought were
0:55 possible. And it's all thanks to me
0:57 saying yes to myself in all of these
1:00 ways that I have never done before. And
1:02 so it really required me to step out of
1:05 my comfort zone in order to do that. And
1:07 um I kept doing it over and over and
1:09 over again. And
1:13 part of that was I was I said yes to
1:17 being in these containers. I invested
1:20 quite a bit of money in myself um over
1:23 five figures um to be in these
1:26 containers in these spaces where I was
1:29 with other people who were also on their
1:30 their entrepreneurial journey, you know.
1:33 Um and
1:37 so my time has ended. Um, I I jumped
1:40 into one container that was focused with
1:42 the business side of entrepreneurs and
1:48 having help. And um I another container
1:50 was to help me regulate my nervous
1:55 system. And so for a while um when my
1:58 time was up in those containers, I kind
2:01 of was just like floating around like,
2:04 okay, so now what do I do? you know, I I
2:07 didn't have like those things outside of
2:10 me to hold me accountable. And so, I
2:12 really had to like sit with myself and
2:14 see like, okay, so why are you actually
2:15 doing the things that you're doing? And
2:18 in some ways, it's been good um and bad
2:21 because I had a period of time where I
2:24 felt like, why am I not doing anything?
2:26 Like, what's wrong with me because I'm
2:28 not continuing to move forward. I made
2:32 so many moves last year. like I became a
2:34 best-selling author. I was making so
2:36 much art. I was putting out my podcast.
2:39 It just felt like I had I was doing so
2:41 much. And then
2:43 when the period came where it all kind
2:47 of started to settle, it felt wrong. It
2:49 felt like uhoh,
2:52 is that it? Am I done? Like, you know,
2:54 does that mean that I'm like, you know,
2:57 that I have failed? Because I have been
3:00 programmed for so long to be in that
3:02 constant hustle productive capitalistic,
3:04 capitalistic,
3:07 you know, society programming us into
3:09 that that mode of you have to be doing
3:11 something. You have to be productive all
3:13 of the time or else you're not
3:15 contributing, you're not worthy, you're
3:18 not this or or that. And um so this has
3:21 been a really good time for me to settle
3:22 into it. And and it's not always been
3:25 easy. I had I did have a little bit of
3:26 rest rest rest rest rest rest rest rest
3:28 restlessness happening but I also felt
3:31 like um I had to sit with it. I really
3:35 had to sit with it and and and and
3:36 understand like where is that coming
3:39 from? Is that really something? Is this
3:43 pressure, that itchiness, this uh this
3:46 this agitation? Is it because I have
3:47 been programmed so long to be doing doing?
3:49 doing?
3:50 Or is it something that I actually want
3:52 to do because it feels real from my
3:56 heart, you know? Um, and
3:58 like I said, I really had to work with
3:59 my nervous system. I really had to
4:01 regulate myself in all of these news new
4:04 ways. And I had to be okay with not
4:06 doing anything. I had to be okay with
4:10 not being productive or as productive.
4:15 And um what's crazy is that it's allowed
4:17 me I can feel I can feel that I've made
4:21 the shift. Um I I feel like I'm I'm in
4:23 this new level. It's it's so hard to
4:25 explain where I just feel more
4:28 comfortable in my own skin. I feel more
4:30 confident in the actions that I'm
4:32 taking. like me being able to finally
4:35 speak into the camera. Um, you know, I I
4:37 had to wait until now to be able to do
4:40 that because every other time there was
4:42 still something about it that felt a
4:46 little bit forced. And um, also, funny
4:48 enough, I have jumped into new
4:51 containers. I am continuing to invest in
4:54 myself. Um, and
4:57 I am I'm focusing uh so one of these
5:01 containers is a a quantum healing group.
5:04 Um, and wow has that just been so
5:07 amazing because I've had so many so many
5:09 revelations, so many things come up
5:11 where I'm just like, "Holy I am
5:15 truly healing these parts of myself that
5:16 I did not have access to before because
5:18 I was still so blocked in so many ways.
5:21 I was still running on this old program.
5:25 Um, and so once I like released that, it
5:27 allowed other things to come up to the
5:29 surface for me to address. And I'm like,
5:31 ah, I don't have to work on autopilot. I
5:32 don't have to move through life on
5:35 autopilot during certain things. I can
5:38 see now I get a different choice. You
5:40 always have a choice, by the way. But if
5:42 you're so programmed, if you're so
5:44 conditioned, you won't be able to see
5:47 those things. So, anyways, I've just had
5:49 some things come up. I've had a lot of
5:52 stuff come up with money. um for me
5:55 lately and one of the containers that I
5:59 have um invested in is specifically
6:02 about money and um it's something that I
6:05 I feel like I've kind of skirted around
6:06 like you know I've always managed to
6:10 just do barely enough to get me by and I
6:11 still had a lot of shame and guilt that
6:14 was associated with with it and um as
6:16 y'all know I I well maybe you don't know
6:19 but I also love astrology and so there
6:21 is an astrology ology element that is
6:25 woven into this um this money story
6:28 um and in in this particular container
6:30 that I'm in and it's helping me
6:32 understand my own astrology so much
6:34 better because I know like I have Pluto
6:37 in Scorpio in my second house which is
6:39 where all the money's at. So I am I have
6:42 a deep transformational
6:45 thing that's happening with money and um
6:46 you know a lot of this stuff is being
6:48 activated too with um all of the
6:50 transits that are happening. I spoke to
6:52 an astrologer at the beginning of this
6:54 year to help give me um you know like
6:57 what to look forward forward to through
6:59 this year and money is a huge thing and
7:01 I just want to share that out here
7:03 because I've been so scared to even talk
7:05 about money and um like I don't have it
7:10 figured out by any means but I feel like
7:12 I've learned so much about how to
7:14 regulate my nervous system, how to catch
7:16 when I start to feel those like ah those
7:18 moments and regulate myself so that I
7:21 can come back to center and ride those
7:24 waves. So, I have that going on. Like
7:27 the quantum healing feels amazing and
7:32 I'm just like so so grateful like just I
7:35 and being in this place I I can't tell
7:36 you how many other little
7:38 synchronicities have been lining up for
7:41 me. And it's just when I follow that
7:44 it's not a logical thing by any means.
7:46 Anytime I follow that gut feeling, when
7:49 I have those, you know, I let my soul
7:52 lead, um, whenever intuition is like
7:54 pulling me in a direction, it always
7:57 works out in ways I just cannot explain.
7:59 And that's what I that's what I am I'm
8:02 wanting to share on this journey. That's
8:04 why I want to share my story and these
8:06 things to YouTube, to my podcast, all
8:11 those things to help show just like you
8:12 can't explain it. And I'm not going to
8:14 say that what's happening to me will
8:15 happen to you. You will have your own
8:17 version of if you listen to your
8:20 intuition, if you like learn to trust
8:22 yourself and you build that up, life
8:24 will unfold for you in all of these
8:27 magical ways. And that's that's why I'm
8:29 sharing this today. So anyways, I'm just
8:31 going to stop that there. By the way, I
8:34 didn't even talk about Oh my gosh, I'm
8:36 going to see Queen Herby later this
8:39 year. I got tickets to see her and I
8:41 cannot wait. I have a painting that I've
8:44 done of her and I have shared it on my
8:47 channel multiple times. I cannot wait to
8:49 share that. I am I I am going to give
8:51 this piece of art to her. This piece of
8:54 art that meant so much to me that helped
8:57 helped me on social media that I've been
8:59 able to share with other people. And h
9:01 it's just
9:04 this year I just there's just going to
9:06 be more and more and more unfolding and
9:08 I'm just so excited. So, I have to get
9:10 on here and document it and share it
9:12 with y'all. And I hope that this can
9:13 spark some kind of inspiration for you,
9:17 too. That maybe you can see that this is
9:20 possible for you, too, in your own life.
9:22 So, anyways, that's all for now, and
