0:02 hi everyone i just uh started off by
0:05 saying um i'm sure everyone have saw the
0:09 video i posted on friday um
0:11 um to be honest i posted the video um
0:14 that was a a dark time in my my life
0:16 that nobody really know
0:18 but i posted it because i wanted to
0:20 encourage others to seek help whenever
0:21 they are
0:24 they're down
0:26 i didn't know
0:27 really really didn't take in
0:29 consideration what depression really was
0:31 i always just brushed it off that's how
0:34 i grew i grew up
0:36 i just brushed off my feelings and uh
0:38 and uh it got the best of me you know
0:40 and i just wanted to
0:42 put out a positive message that uh that
0:43 i'm still here i'm still i'm still
0:46 growing i'm still learning i'm blessed i
0:48 got a lot of things to be grateful for
0:50 and uh someone was there for me so um
0:53 reach out to your loved ones and ask
0:54 them how they're doing and listen to
0:56 them you know because it's important you
0:57 know so yeah
0:59 yeah
1:00 widely positive were you were you
1:02 pleased by that
1:05 uh yeah a lot of guys a lot of guys
1:07 reached out to me um
1:09 told me what i did was powerful um
1:10 um
1:12 a lot of guys on my team um
1:14 sat down and talked to me one-on-one
1:16 about their struggles which
1:17 which we need to do more often you know
1:19 we need to need to look out for one
1:20 another you know i know we play this
1:22 beautiful game but you know life is
1:25 beautiful too
1:26 thanks for putting out so message second
1:28 of all um
1:30 um sorry
1:32 sorry
1:34 it's okay
1:37 um just what made you kind of come out and
1:38 and
1:40 want to talk about that i'm so sorry
1:42 you're fine you're fine it's okay uh
1:46 like i said it was a a dark moment and
1:48 it was a year ago uh
1:50 where i had thought about
1:53 you know taking my life you know um
1:54 and it was it was special to me because
1:56 um it just came with my heart that i
1:58 wanted to share with others and help
2:00 others as much as i can like i said i'm
2:02 here i'm so much to be grateful for i'm blessed
2:04 blessed
2:05 i know i wake up every day and get to
2:07 play the game that i love but you know i
2:09 have loved ones around me that love me
2:11 dearly you know and i just wanted to
2:13 help someone hopefully i could save a
2:16 life or anything so
2:18 personal understand if it's too personal
2:21 but what prompted you to feel that way
2:23 um i won't get into all that you know
2:26 that's that's between me but uh yeah
2:28 yeah
2:30 you talked about was there for you was
2:31 it teammate was a family member maybe
2:39 um he was a elijah moore uh
2:41 yeah it was elijah moore that's
2:43 he's he's more than family he's more
2:46 than family um i love him like he's my
2:49 brother and he is my my brother but
2:52 um he's a special special person and
2:55 i appreciate him each and every day
2:57 for somebody in your position
2:59 like you said to come out and speak out
3:00 about it because a lot of people from
3:02 the outside will say you know you're an
3:04 nfl football player pro bowler you make
3:05 a lot of money you know you have a lot
3:08 of notoriety what could you possibly be
3:11 down about right yeah um life happens to
3:13 everyone you know i'm human just like
3:15 everyone else just because i i play this
3:18 beautiful game just doesn't mean life is
3:20 not going to happen to me too
3:22 so like i'm grateful for the person that
3:24 was there for me and
3:25 and
3:27 i just wanted to encourage everyone to
3:28 seek help if you're down and you're
3:31 depressed and just try to get help good
3:34 example aj though of like john was
3:35 saying you
3:36 on the outside
3:38 you know everything looks like it's it's
3:39 great for aj but
3:41 people just don't know right what's
3:43 going on inside somebody yeah most
3:46 definitely man some uh i know for me um
3:48 walking around with a smile that's easy
3:49 to put on everybody can do it you know
3:52 but you know we go on we some of us have
3:53 real life problems
3:54 you know um so
3:56 just how you deal with those things and
3:58 that's why i said just talk to someone
4:00 reach out you know us as men you know to
4:02 be honest our feelings are aren't too
4:05 much cared about you know so
4:07 um especially men just
4:08 you know get things off your chest you
4:10 know um it's okay to talk to talk to
4:12 someone seek help you're not too tough
4:15 to talk to someone you know so
4:16 to have a coach like mike rabel who
4:19 makes those emotional deposits with you
4:21 guys you know and is open to
4:24 conversation into things like this um
4:30 it means a lot it means a lot uh
4:32 i appreciate uh coach braid
4:39 i i just try not to
4:40 i try not to um
4:45 you know sometimes i know it's a
4:47 business and sometimes you don't want to get
4:48 get
4:50 emotionally attached or tied with
4:52 someone you know because it's a it's a
4:54 business side of it but
4:56 man i appreciate him so much um
4:59 and and people like that i think no
5:01 matter how this business may go i think um
5:02 um
5:04 forever i'll be a friend of his and
5:07 he'll be a friend of mine you know um
5:09 but i appreciate him so much from just
5:11 opening his door just listening trying
5:14 to help me as much as i can
5:17 it doesn't go unnoticed with me so uh
5:19 he's definitely family in my book
5:21 regardless of we have a part ways down
5:23 the line i wish i hope not but you know
5:25 but i appreciate him so much you still
5:28 confront that that darkness from time to
5:30 time or you've been been pretty good for
5:32 the last year no i'm i'm in a better
5:34 place mentally
5:36 that was that's behind me
5:38 that's behind me now i know how to
5:40 deal with certain things if something
5:42 comes up in my life now
5:43 like i said growing up i just kind of
5:45 brushed off my feelings and you know i
5:46 buried them
5:48 and uh you know you don't need to do
5:49 that you know you need to get things off
5:52 your chest and talk to someone you know
5:55 uh elijah moore was the one who had kind
5:57 of helped you in that particularly uh
5:59 dark moment i guess what is
6:01 kind of made you guys so close beyond
6:04 the fact that you guys were teammates at
6:05 ole miss why is he kind of like more
6:06 than a
6:10 like a brother to you um
6:12 um i live with him
6:13 he's seen my struggles i've seen his struggles
6:14 struggles
6:16 you know i know what he wants to
6:17 accomplish he knows what i want to
6:19 accomplish you know in life period you
6:21 know this is this is not just football
6:24 talk it's life talk you know so uh
6:26 just being around them so much
6:27 you know uh
6:32 to a point where i feel like i kind of
6:34 kind of raised them and as at the point
6:35 you know in college you know i've seen
6:37 them grow seeing them do all the things
6:39 you want to do and um
6:40 just being there for one another you
6:42 know so
6:44 you think you did you maybe
6:46 think about posting that video and maybe
6:49 what was that kind of got you the point
6:51 could be maybe brave enough to do it uh
6:53 i thought long long and hard about
6:56 posting the video uh
6:58 it was on my phone for a while
7:00 i actually recorded that video earlier
7:01 that day
7:03 but i didn't post until later that night
7:06 so um it was it was an all-day process
7:08 and i was kind of nervous to to post it
7:09 but you know something gave me the
7:12 courage some came over me to
7:14 just do it
7:15 i know you've been very
7:17 open about your relationship with your
7:18 little girl on social media and how much
7:21 she's meant to you how how much has she
7:22 been in your life how much does she kind
7:25 of push you to kind of keep going and to
7:26 be strong for her
7:33 it's the reason why i'm still going today
7:34 today um
7:39 i don't even have the words for it i
7:41 don't know she she gives me strength
7:43 she's who i play for
7:47 without without my little my little girl
7:50 i don't know where i'd be
7:53 so was was it a year exactly uh i'm
7:54 trying to remember to to the date that
7:56 you know that you thought about
7:57 you know as you said you had
7:59 contemplated you know taking your life
8:02 was that yes it was uh november 12. okay
8:04 did you i mean and again whatever's
8:05 private is private but i mean did you
8:07 feel like you would you were you're
8:10 right there on the edge or or um
8:12 i won't get too much into detail about
8:14 it but uh
8:20 but
8:22 how important is it your message and you
8:24 coming out to try and fight that
8:27 negative stigma that surrounds mental
8:29 health right uh
8:31 i just wanted to come out and just try
8:32 to just
8:34 put that to rest you know uh mental
8:35 health is real
8:36 just like
8:37 physical health you take care of your
8:39 body when you're sick just like when
8:40 something's going on with you you need
8:42 to get stuff off your chest you need to
8:43 talk to someone seek professional help
8:45 if it needs so
8:46 but uh you got to take care of your
8:48 brain just like you take care of your
8:51 body too you know so find ways to
8:53 a safe safe place for you um do the
8:54 things you love
8:56 you know so
8:58 enjoy every moment
9:00 in addition to elijah did you talk to a
9:02 professional to get further help yes i
9:04 did i i did out there i still do to this
9:06 day so
9:08 how much of uh
9:11 football-wise how much of of what's gone
9:13 out for you the last two weeks was about
9:16 the ramsey and the lattimore match-ups
9:17 do you think
9:19 uh what about it in that
9:20 your production
9:24 um you know i i i try to control what i
9:26 can control you know i can't uh throw
9:28 myself the ball or anything like that
9:30 whatever i can do is i can just get open
9:32 you know and if i if i have to clear it
9:33 out for someone else like marcus had a
9:35 big day this past sunday i'll do it again
9:36 again
9:38 you know so uh it's it's all about
9:40 trying to get to nine and two you know
9:42 one week at a time that's the only thing
9:43 i care about you know uh that's the
9:48 seeing
9:50 differences in defense the last couple
9:51 weeks you know with with derek being out
9:54 a.j have you seen that much more um not
9:55 these two past weeks
9:58 because uh they had jaylen ramsey and
10:00 lattimore you know those guys matched up
10:02 on me so um
10:04 but you definitely know i get a lot more
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