0:09 hello everybody celtic fairy tarot back
0:12 with another pick a card reading and
0:14 today we're going to be getting into
0:15 your inner child what would your inner
0:17 child like to tell you is this about
0:19 healing is this about creativity is this
0:22 about just having fun
0:24 what needs to be brought to your
0:25 attention all right so we have pile one
0:28 pile two pile three and pile four you
0:32 are more than welcome to pause the video
0:34 take as much time as you need to really
0:36 navigate which pile is yours and the
0:38 time stamps are down below
0:42 hi pi one all right we're gonna be
0:45 jumping into what your inner child would
0:47 like you to know
0:49 um
0:50 i do feel like this does have to do with
0:52 healing
0:54 um
0:57 and this does involve a family member
1:03 let's see
1:04 there's also um a lot of grounding and
1:07 cleansing of your energy needed
1:10 there's
1:15 there's an element of being in fight or
1:17 flight or in survival mode right now
1:20 where you i i feel as though there's
1:22 something surfacing with your inner
1:24 child about a revelation about a family
1:26 member that you've had recently
1:29 um but it feels like throughout the day
1:32 you don't really have time to think
1:33 about it so it's just kind of sitting on
1:35 the back burner right now
1:37 let's get more into this
1:41 all right i do shuffle this deck um
1:44 before
1:45 i start the video so we're just going to
1:47 shuffle it a couple of extra times
2:01 okay
2:05 all right pile one's inner child please
2:07 tell me more about this
2:10 please tell me more about this
2:12 inner child
2:15 [Applause]
2:17 all right we have the page of pentacles
2:29 all right we have the five of swords in
2:31 reverse okay i think
2:34 what i'm picking up with even just these
2:36 two popping out and when i just felt
2:37 prior i almost feel like
2:40 you're you're in a new area of life that
2:42 you've never been in before maybe you're
2:44 just starting school maybe you're just
2:45 starting a family maybe you're just
2:47 starting something and you need this
2:49 person
2:52 it's almost like there can't be conflict
2:55 but your inner child really
2:57 there is still conflict your inner child
2:59 does not feel like
3:03 something has been unjustified something
3:05 has has been left um
3:08 up in the air since childhood there's
3:10 things that you're you can't talk about
3:12 or you can't
3:14 speak about without this person getting
3:16 upset but they're really just unresolved
3:18 let's see
3:20 please tell me more about kylian's inner
3:23 child situation
3:24 [Music]
3:30 all right we have the ten of wands in
3:32 reverse
3:35 and we're going to clarify this page of
3:37 pentacles please
3:46 all right we have the eight of pentacles
3:51 okay
3:53 five of swords
3:57 we have judgment in reverse under the
3:59 five of swords
4:04 yeah it's almost like you're starting
4:06 something new and you really need this
4:07 person but there's also something you
4:10 really want to talk to them about that's
4:11 really bothering you but you feel like
4:12 you can't a ton of wands please your
4:15 inner child is very anxious about this
4:18 we have the hermit under the ten of
4:20 wands in reverse
4:30 yeah this feels like a revelation it
4:31 feels like you didn't think about things
4:34 from this perspective before
4:36 um and it's just coming to light now
4:40 you're re-going over
4:42 um things from the past and you're
4:44 really
4:45 it's confusing for you this feels very
4:47 confusing
4:49 and unstable
4:51 let's see judgment i'm not unstable in
4:53 the in the sense that you're emotionally
4:54 unstable it just means you're you're
4:56 confused about these memories you're
4:58 confused about how to feel about um
5:02 the situation judgment please
5:05 okay eight of cups
5:08 yeah and you're starting something new
5:10 and i think that part of you um
5:13 starting this new venture is very
5:15 excited and wants to get out there but
5:18 your inner child is is afraid your inner
5:20 child is i kind of feel like you don't
5:22 know what your reality is i don't really
5:24 know how to explain this but it almost
5:25 feels like your reality doesn't belong
5:27 to you like you were just kind of like
5:30 going along your way and then somehow
5:32 found yourself here
5:34 um only to find out that how you got
5:37 here
5:39 was like on autopilot right or
5:42 how you got here was based off of the
5:44 needs or wants of someone else let's see
5:48 let's see this hermit card
5:52 please harm it
6:00 we have the six of cups in reverse under
6:02 the hermit
6:04 yeah it's almost like you're forcing
6:06 yourself not to the back of the deck
6:08 energy is also page of swords i'm sorry
6:13 my
6:14 my new england accent just slips out i
6:16 try to talk uh so that everybody can
6:18 understand me but occasionally it might
6:20 come out i do apologize
6:22 um
6:23 so with the page of swords being the
6:25 back of the deck energy and the six of
6:28 cups here in reverse coming out i really
6:30 feel like this fight or flight has to do
6:32 with your thoughts you're you're
6:33 battling your thoughts right now and
6:35 your inner child keeps surfacing these
6:36 memories keep surfacing or reaching out
6:39 and there's synchronicities happening
6:41 lining up with what you're these
6:43 memories that you're remembering and i
6:45 feel like a lot of them it's
6:47 manipulation and and it's kind of like
6:50 like i said you don't know what your
6:52 reality is you don't know how you got
6:53 here
6:56 and maybe it was people telling you that
6:58 they know what's best for you or they
6:59 know what you should be doing but it's
7:02 almost like you woke up and had this
7:03 revelation of wait a minute
7:05 i i don't think i put myself here
7:08 um i'm gonna pull we have these
7:10 handwritten um inner child message cards
7:12 so i'm gonna shuffle these and we're
7:14 gonna pull a few for you
7:17 [Applause]
7:20 okay
7:29 i'll just shuffle it a couple more times
7:41 all right messages please
7:45 from pyle one's inner child messages
7:48 from children's inner child
7:50 we have nobody ever believed me they
7:53 always called me a liar
7:58 family secrets
8:02 i feel like with
8:06 with whoever this is it just feels like
8:08 you had to
8:10 um
8:11 go along with them and their emotions
8:14 and their feelings it's almost like you
8:16 had to be tied to this emote person's
8:19 emotions and feelings like you had to
8:21 feel how they felt or they couldn't go
8:23 through something alone they had to drag
8:25 you into it
8:27 um
8:28 but with these two just please take what
8:30 resonates
8:32 all right messages from fileman's inner
8:34 child please
8:37 messages from pylons in
8:50 inner child
8:54 all right we have i wish there was
8:56 someone out there who understands my
8:58 trauma
9:02 i feel like i am being called to
9:04 something but i don't know what
9:10 okay
9:11 being bullied as a child makes me timid
9:13 around people this is how i push people
9:15 away
9:18 okay
9:19 i remember when i used my imagination to
9:21 create my reality that was crushed but i
9:24 want it back
9:26 right we're going to pull some more
9:30 messages from kyle one's inner child
9:32 please
9:36 okay messages from silence and child
9:44 i don't want to go to school tomorrow
9:45 they are so mean they make me want to
9:47 hate myself
9:52 okay
9:53 messages from pylon's inner child please
9:58 let's do some
10:03 all right while my present self views us
10:05 as the bullies did i just want to feel
10:07 loved
10:10 i was forced not to talk about what
10:12 happened to me
10:17 messages from
10:18 pile one's inner child i think we just
10:20 had one falling
10:22 over but i could be wrong
10:25 nope okay
10:28 messages from pile one's inner child
10:34 my parents said it was just my
10:35 imagination but i know those monsters
10:37 were real yeah very psychic group um
10:41 very in tune
10:43 okay
10:44 i feel like with these bully cards
10:48 that they're you are still struggling
10:50 with issues in your solar plexus that
10:52 have to do with bullies in childhood but
10:54 i feel like more so your inner child is
10:57 viewing whoever this family member is as
11:00 a bully
11:02 there your inner child is saying that
11:05 when it comes to this person your view
11:08 you used to view them
11:10 um as some
11:12 one who could bring safety and someone
11:16 who could bring
11:17 security but right now whether it's how
11:20 they're saying things to you
11:22 um
11:22 or what it's it's kind of like
11:25 your inner child views this person as a
11:27 bully
11:28 they want you to spend less time with
11:29 this person or even just
11:31 set healthy boundaries with them
11:33 um setting healthy boundaries with this
11:35 person if they're if they're
11:37 coming to you and they're saying you're
11:39 not doing this good enough or you're not
11:41 doing this uh the right way or you're
11:43 not doing this how i would do this
11:45 there's two different types of people in
11:47 the world right there are people who
11:48 will give you advice and they'll say
11:51 this is what i did but you're more than
11:52 welcome to take your own we're all
11:54 different individual people um they're
11:56 really not pushy about it right but then
11:58 you have other people who are like well
12:00 i know what's best for you or well i
12:01 know that this is gonna work or how
12:03 would you know you've never done this
12:05 before so it's a very different vibe
12:07 when someone is coming to you with
12:09 advice because they care and they want
12:11 to help make the situation better or
12:14 they're coming to you for their own
12:16 ego inflation or i can do this better
12:19 just because i am and it's it's
12:22 your inner child is feeling bullied by
12:24 this person whoever this is
12:26 all right
12:28 we're gonna pull a couple more messages
12:30 from pilon's inner child two more please
12:32 two more messages from pile one's inner
12:34 child
12:36 two more messages from pylons in our
12:38 child please
12:44 two more messages
12:53 all right i will take all of them
12:58 i have always been attracted to
12:59 witchcraft in the paranormal
13:01 beautiful
13:04 all right
13:05 my childhood was stolen by trauma
13:10 i will rise from the ashes
13:14 i cannot escape the memories of the one
13:15 who abused me
13:18 my parent projected their insecurities
13:20 on to me and i need to filter out those
13:22 i am perfect as is
13:26 yeah i feel like this projection of
13:28 insecurities is whoever this family
13:30 member is it's like they have to be the
13:32 best at everything
13:35 and
13:36 they they
13:37 think that it's weak
13:39 when other people don't feel that way
13:42 they think that it's a weakness um
13:45 if other people
13:47 aren't out there competing or striving
13:49 or um
13:50 doing it is whatever it is they're doing
13:53 they think it's a weakness that other
13:54 people don't do that
13:57 let's see
14:00 yeah this is like they have to be like
14:03 the savior of the day
14:05 type of energy they have to be the best
14:07 at everything they have to be the one
14:08 everybody wants to call they have to be
14:10 um
14:12 this is this is an interesting energy i
14:15 don't really further know how to go into
14:16 that but we're gonna pull a little bit
14:18 more tarot
14:20 all right messages what else
14:22 does pile one's inner child want them to
14:25 know please
14:30 we have the knight of cups
14:34 okay
14:36 what else does pilon's inner child want
14:38 them to know
14:51 oh okay so that was the back of the deck
14:53 energy coming out here
14:56 and we have temperance
14:58 okay yeah your inner child just wants to
15:00 feel safe your inner child just wants to
15:02 be around people who make you feel safe
15:04 um you don't want to be around people
15:06 who are going to compete or
15:08 um
15:10 how do i say that not compete but
15:14 like compete with you almost like um i
15:17 can do this better or
15:20 um you have to learn from me
15:22 like i said you can tell when someone is
15:24 coming to you with advice when they love
15:27 you and they just want you to feel safe
15:28 or content and you can tell who's coming
15:30 to you with advice because they think
15:32 they know what's best for you there's a
15:34 very big difference and i think whoever
15:35 this individual has
15:37 is is constantly
15:39 thinking that they know what is best for
15:41 you
15:43 and this is a family member this feels
15:44 like um an authority figure
15:48 family member
15:49 someone who has a place of authority in
15:52 your life that doesn't necessarily have
15:54 to mean it's a parent it could be
15:56 a child in your life who is
15:59 um
16:00 in control of the situation because
16:02 there's healing work you need to do or
16:04 this could be
16:05 a mother or a father or a grandparent
16:07 whoever it is is somebody that just
16:12 is not healthy
16:14 in this moment and any advice they're
16:16 going to be giving you your inner child
16:18 really wants you to know that you should
16:19 take it with a grain of salt
16:21 because they really are in in need of
16:23 great healing themselves and it's
16:25 something that they've put on the back
16:26 burner because they really have worn a
16:29 very good mask of portraying themselves
16:31 as healthy and healed um but it's
16:33 actually not true there's a lot of open
16:35 wounds under
16:36 uh under the pashmina if they
16:39 really took this mask off you would see
16:41 just how many open wounds there still
16:43 are and they're leading you kind of down
16:46 this path of avoidance
16:48 nothing's wrong with me it's always
16:51 something wrong with everything else
16:54 is the energy that i feel
16:56 all right pile one i am going to leave
16:58 it here it was wonderful to sit down
17:01 with you i'm actually you know what i'm
17:03 gonna give some advice one more one more
17:06 card for advice
17:07 one more card advice from file one's
17:09 inner child please
17:12 we have the four of wands in reverse
17:17 okay
17:27 interesting
17:32 think right now pile one is is an
17:34 important time for you to really
17:36 separate your energy from this
17:37 individual and i don't mean that you
17:39 never have to talk to this person again
17:41 and i don't mean that you have to
17:43 disregard their existence in your life i
17:46 just mean
17:47 try to do
17:49 more things that break the codependency
17:52 between you and this person
17:55 try to do more things that empower you
17:57 by yourself rather than involving this
17:59 individual
18:02 really kind of break that tie
18:04 not cut the cord just break that
18:06 codependent tie because i do feel like
18:09 it's really hindering your personal
18:11 growth and you putting yourself out into
18:13 the world and really getting to
18:15 accomplish the things you want to
18:17 accomplish because there's there's an an
18:19 aspect of this person holding you back
18:23 all right pile one i wish you the best
18:25 of luck on this journey and i will see
18:27 you next time bye-bye
18:30 hello pile too all right we're going to
18:32 be getting into your inner child now
18:35 i also have handwritten message cards
18:38 we're going to be using
18:40 um this session to
18:42 get
18:44 a really detailed view of how your inner
18:46 child is feeling
18:48 i feel like much like pile one
18:52 this pile has a lot of healing work to
18:55 do but i feel as though unlike pile one
19:00 this pile uh
19:01 the trauma runs deep so we're gonna be
19:04 getting
19:05 into it immediately now i want to get
19:07 into it as quickly as i can because i do
19:09 feel like you've been looking for
19:12 some kind of clarity on how to deal with
19:14 this
19:15 but haven't really been able to find
19:17 anything
19:19 so let's see i do think you've tried
19:22 um
19:23 a lot of different ways to really help
19:25 you get over this trauma so let's see if
19:27 we can get you some answers today what
19:29 does your inner child
19:31 want you to know all right messages from
19:33 piles whose inner child please
19:37 all right we have the emperor in reverse
19:43 we have the seven of swords
19:46 okay
19:50 messages from oh okay i will take all of
19:53 those
19:56 all right we have the two of pentacles
20:01 we have justice
20:04 we have the two of cups
20:07 we have the page of cups
20:11 the lovers
20:13 upside down and the nine of pentacles
20:17 okay so this your you could have had a
20:20 parent who
20:22 um was incredibly toxic and i do feel
20:25 like this is in the masculine sense
20:29 um there's an element here of
20:33 because of somebody's careless actions
20:36 your foundation your foundation was
20:38 shaken
20:40 um because of this could have been
20:41 addiction this could have been
20:43 abuse this could have been um a father
20:46 cheating on a mother this could have
20:48 really been any of the above
20:51 um but the effects of this really hit
20:54 you deeply let's pull some more um
20:57 on this lovers and reverse please
21:01 oh you know what you could have um a
21:04 romantic connection mimicking
21:06 this right now let's see the lovers in
21:10 reverse please
21:13 we have the ace of cups in reverse
21:18 and the fool
21:19 um there's also an aspect of this parent
21:23 created in you that you have to
21:26 work to be loved this person
21:30 whoever this parent was
21:32 they their
21:34 in and out their constant back and forth
21:36 really affected your self-worth um your
21:39 inner child is saying
21:41 um that they feel like they have to work
21:44 too hard for love they don't want to
21:45 work hard for love anymore they want to
21:47 be loved as they are
21:49 um and that's something you've been
21:50 entitled to since birth i just don't
21:52 think you really learned that
21:54 the back of the deck energy the ton of
21:57 cups being joyfulness i always i feel
21:59 like you've just always had to
22:02 um
22:03 navigate relationships like you're doing
22:05 something wrong or like there's there's
22:08 a situation where you need to change
22:10 your behavior you need to do something
22:14 in order to keep these toxic people
22:16 around you might gravitate towards toxic
22:18 people as well
22:20 because of this mindset in life well
22:23 they left me so everybody else is going
22:26 to leave me or if they left me it might
22:28 be because i'm not worthy of love so
22:30 there's a lot of different aspects here
22:31 i actually want to pull some more tarot
22:33 on this two of cups as well this emperor
22:36 in reverse is
22:38 i i do believe this individual and and
22:41 it's a very
22:43 i wouldn't even say chaotic in the sense
22:46 that it's
22:47 like
22:47 raging
22:49 but i feel like it's chaotic in the
22:50 sense that whoever this person was
22:52 didn't know they wanted and they just
22:54 kind of
22:55 did what they wanted
22:57 in the moment if that makes sense it's
22:59 like they didn't have a
23:01 routine or a schedule
23:04 like
23:05 to keep you secure it was like you were
23:08 always on their time
23:10 all right we're gonna do justice please
23:13 justice
23:18 okay
23:19 yeah queen of wands in reverse
23:23 okay this has absolutely caused some
23:25 depression within you but it's also
23:27 caused some
23:28 um
23:29 your shadow self
23:31 is both angry but wanting to be free
23:34 as well uh your inner child and your
23:37 shadow self are kind of ruling you at
23:38 this point i feel you might be dealing
23:41 with a lot of different kinds of
23:43 emotions down the rabbit hole right
23:46 that's what this energy feels like
23:51 it's like you want to move past all of
23:53 this you want to be free of all of this
23:55 but you can't no matter how hard you try
23:57 because what this in childhood did was
24:00 really
24:01 set the set the tone for how every
24:03 relationship you have goes
24:05 it's like you feel like you have to over
24:07 give or overextend or over this or over
24:10 that because someone
24:12 who i mean by societal standards our
24:14 parents unconditionally love us right um
24:17 but someone who just comes and goes like
24:19 that and doesn't really let us feel the
24:21 love it can make us feel like there's
24:22 something wrong with us and not
24:24 something wrong with them right
24:26 let me pull some messages
24:29 huh what's some of these handwritten
24:31 messages
24:33 this pile is absolutely full of
24:35 starseeds as well
24:37 this is this is the pile
24:39 syrian pleiadian
24:42 this is absolutely the pile of star
24:44 seeds
24:46 the
24:47 what what do i call hi
24:50 starseeds to me are like the orphans
24:51 walking this planet right we have
24:53 parents but it kind of just still feels
24:55 like we're orphans
24:57 all right let's see
25:16 all right messages from file two's inner
25:18 child please
25:25 messages from pilots and our
25:33 all right we have music and singing
25:35 helps get you more connected to me
25:41 my parents love for me was always
25:43 conditional i do feel this i feel like
25:45 you guys feel
25:47 like you have to behave a certain way to
25:49 be loved or you have to speak a certain
25:50 way to be loved or know certain things
25:53 to be loved it's like that it's like
25:54 you're you have not experienced somebody
25:56 just saying you are who you are and i
25:58 love you for it
26:00 uh and i'm so sorry for that pile too
26:02 because your energy is um incredible
26:04 incredible protective you would give the
26:07 shirt off your back for anybody you
26:09 listen you're empathetic
26:11 you in no way
26:13 deserve to feel that way
26:16 all right messages from pile three's
26:18 inner child please
26:23 messages from kyle three's inner child
26:25 please
26:35 okay we have one day i'm going to be
26:37 older and it won't matter what they say
26:39 i'll love myself and live how i want
26:43 beautiful
26:45 men have never been a comforting or
26:47 protective presence in our life yeah i
26:49 was feeling that with the um
26:52 with the emperor in reverse as well i do
26:54 feel like this is a father figure
26:57 i've always just needed someone to hear
26:59 and see me
27:01 i feel like with this person
27:03 it's almost like
27:04 they they they are proud of you as their
27:08 this person is just emotionally shut
27:10 down this has nothing to do with you
27:12 um this has nothing to do with how
27:15 incredible you are how amazing you are
27:17 how intelligent you are how lovable you
27:20 are it has nothing to do with that it
27:22 just has to do with the fact that this
27:23 person's parents were the same way this
27:26 person's parents did not show love
27:29 for them
27:30 just as they didn't really know how to
27:33 do that for you
27:35 all right messages from pile
27:37 to this inner child please
27:41 messages from prior to inner child
27:46 all right i am going to help save the
27:48 world someday beautiful souls
27:51 beautiful souls you are
27:53 is someone going to help me out of this
27:55 dark place you bet
27:57 you bet love you bet i am going to do my
28:00 best to give you
28:01 whatever i can get for you this session
28:05 messages from pile two's inner child
28:07 please
28:10 i did not deserve the physical abuse i
28:12 endured as a child this is gonna be for
28:14 one or two of you in this pile
28:17 this isn't gonna be for everybody i do
28:19 feel like this pile
28:21 mostly with the collective is dealing
28:24 with issues of
28:26 um
28:27 insecurity and not having the confidence
28:30 they need based on the nurturing as a
28:32 child that this father figure um either
28:35 was not able to give them or did not
28:37 give them
28:39 chose not to um but this physical abuse
28:42 i do feel like this this is for just a
28:44 few of you
28:48 and i'm gonna pull a tarot card um for
28:50 some advice
28:52 for the few of you this card belongs to
28:54 let's see
28:55 advice for these few please
29:00 all right spirit please give me some
29:02 advice for this view
29:06 we have the ten of cups
29:08 okay
29:10 so i feel like for you um these few
29:13 people that this card
29:15 uh resonates with
29:17 first of all i i just want to
29:20 energetically
29:22 cleanse you that's all i want to do
29:24 right now this has nothing to do with
29:26 you you did nothing wrong you were a
29:28 child you did not deserve this abuse um
29:31 and
29:32 through everything through the darkness
29:34 you've been through through these dark
29:36 forests you've walked through the
29:38 joyfulness that is waiting for you you
29:40 can't even imagine you can't even
29:42 imagine it and and your higher self is
29:45 coming through and saying they they have
29:47 accomplished this if you look
29:50 on every single one of these cups you
29:52 will see the viking compass
29:54 and the viking compass has a lot to do
29:56 with protection your ancestors are
29:59 behind you this is something
30:02 that
30:05 this is something where you dealt with
30:08 a parent
30:10 who
30:11 either went through this themselves just
30:13 as
30:14 i said with the rest of the collective
30:15 with they didn't get the love they
30:17 needed this is something that is just
30:19 normal in their mind in their mind
30:23 getting angry and using your hands and
30:26 doing all of these things is normal and
30:29 obviously it's not it's not normal and
30:30 it's not something that you should
30:32 continue to tell yourself in your mind
30:34 oh this was corporal punishment or this
30:36 was
30:37 i was a bad kid or i didn't behave
30:39 because that's not the case you're
30:41 you're a beautiful soul you're amazing
30:43 soul and you deserve the respect and the
30:45 safety that everybody every other human
30:48 on this planet deserves you deserve that
30:50 and you deserve this joyfulness
30:54 i do feel like for those of you who this
30:57 card resonates with this person is no
30:59 longer longer in your life as well
31:02 um and your ancestors are saying that's
31:04 for the best
31:06 it's best to keep yourself distance from
31:07 this individual
31:09 all right messages from pile twos
31:11 and our child please
31:16 all right
31:18 i still believe in magic always on the
31:21 back of the card too i did put i do
31:22 believe in fairies i do believe in
31:24 fairies but
31:26 um i still believe in magic always this
31:29 is beautiful
31:31 that was back when i was gonna i was
31:32 gonna make this a double-sided deck but
31:34 i decided not to i'd rather have more
31:36 than one
31:37 all right messages from kyle two's inner
31:41 child please
31:45 messages from pile to's inner child
31:53 all right we have black sheath
31:58 i still can't get past this card because
32:00 i have so much i want to say it's
32:02 difficult in a collective reading on
32:03 camera because i'm not i'm not face to
32:05 face with you um but
32:08 i i can empathize with this um on a very
32:11 personal level and it's really important
32:13 that you don't ignore
32:15 the
32:16 the aftermath of this because it you
32:18 deserve peace and you deserve happiness
32:21 and you deserve all the contentment in
32:23 the world you deserve to um feel safe
32:26 you deserve this you did not deserve the
32:28 abuse
32:29 messages from pile shoes
32:32 inner child please
32:34 messages from policies inner child
32:38 one more please send me a message from
32:40 parliament
32:52 all right we have my present self and
32:53 higher self have been loving and
32:55 protecting me
32:56 this is beautiful
32:58 honestly
33:02 oh with this too why am i always the one
33:04 backstabbed and talked about
33:07 that's funny i was just gonna say
33:08 honestly with this my present self and
33:10 higher self have been loving and
33:11 protecting me i feel like you have been
33:14 your biggest
33:15 ally even since childhood you've always
33:18 had this element of feeling
33:20 misunderstood and i don't believe
33:23 that you would be someone who would
33:27 shout at the rooftops
33:29 what you've been through
33:31 it's more so if someone has a
33:33 misconception of you you kind of just
33:34 allow them to have it
33:36 but when it really comes down to
33:38 defending your word character or honor
33:40 it's you've always been your biggest fan
33:43 um and it's hard for you on the days
33:44 where the intrusive thoughts that the
33:46 the
33:47 the things that people have said to you
33:49 that have really affected you start to
33:51 circle in your mind those days can be
33:53 really difficult for you but i think
33:56 since a young age you've really learned
33:58 to self-soothe and you've really learned
34:00 to comfort yourself you may have spent a
34:01 lot of time alone as a child you may
34:03 have been um
34:05 uh you may have been a child that came
34:07 home from school and they were just
34:08 alone for a little bit
34:12 there's self-soothing is something that
34:14 you've mastered
34:16 all right we're gonna pull some advice
34:20 spirits of love and light what is some
34:21 advice
34:22 for pile to please
34:25 we're gonna pull some advice from spirit
34:27 and your ancestors instead of your inner
34:29 child today uh just to make sure we get
34:31 you exactly what you need leaving this
34:33 session here today all right spirits of
34:35 love and light please tell me what does
34:37 pile to need for their inner child
34:41 oh we have judgment and i really want to
34:43 highlight
34:44 the water here where she's looking down
34:47 at herself water is going to be
34:49 extremely important for your anxiety
34:52 splashing cold water on your face when
34:53 you're having a panic attack submerging
34:55 your hands in cold water when you're
34:57 having a panic
34:58 different things like that can be
35:01 amazing for anxiety um and self-soothing
35:04 water absolutely and i do feel like
35:06 there's an aspect of your spiritual
35:09 sides
35:10 that really would do well watergazing
35:13 watergazing could be something you would
35:14 thrive at
35:16 all right um one more card please for
35:19 advice from spirit
35:22 we have the nine of wands in reverse
35:26 okay so immediately i know exactly
35:29 immediately it's allowing yourself to
35:31 feel how you feel there's an element of
35:34 pushback and there's an element of well
35:35 i have to heal in order to be better i
35:38 have to heal right now or i have to get
35:39 this over with or i can't
35:41 and and it's it's
35:43 not your fault because it's heavy
35:46 these are heavy emotions these are very
35:48 heavy and chaotic emotions but they need
35:50 to be felt and spirits advice is do
35:53 things with your hands that can really
35:55 let out this aggression and frustration
35:56 whether you're hitting balls uh in
35:59 baseball
36:00 or you're going to one of those rooms
36:02 where you can put the goggles on and
36:04 just like smash a bunch of things
36:06 whatever it is keep it healthy but
36:09 really
36:10 allow yourself to purge um because i do
36:13 feel like you've been in and out of
36:14 therapy you've really tried to to tell
36:17 your story
36:18 and no matter how many times you tell
36:20 your story it doesn't it doesn't change
36:22 the fact that you feel the way you feel
36:25 i'm also drawn to this um
36:28 this wolf in this card
36:32 and i do believe
36:35 that a dog
36:37 i know that it's not easy for everybody
36:39 to just get a pet
36:41 but
36:41 in this full card here we see this and
36:44 this is something that i struggled with
36:46 pile too this is very close to my heart
36:48 and
36:49 i do believe that it's important to you
36:52 to have a loyal companion that you don't
36:55 have to
36:56 worry about whether or not you can trust
36:58 this individual and this will also help
37:01 you with self-love and taking care of
37:03 yourself by taking care of this other
37:05 animal as well having a routine spending
37:08 time with this animal
37:10 like i said it's not always easy just to
37:12 go out and get a pet and you shouldn't
37:14 if you don't have the time to take care
37:15 of it and you don't have the resources
37:18 but if you do have the time and the
37:19 resources i highly recommend um bringing
37:22 a familiar into the house and really
37:25 just
37:27 spending a lot of time in isolation
37:29 spending a lot of time with you with
37:31 this animal with your thoughts with your
37:33 emotions and really allowing you to feel
37:34 them because for this new beginning to
37:36 come in
37:37 with the full card here
37:39 it's really important that you purge all
37:42 of this so that this package doesn't
37:44 come in with you in the next chapter of
37:46 your life
37:49 it's like there's very chaotic emotions
37:51 there's there's instability when it
37:53 comes to whether or not you're having a
37:56 good day or a bad day it can change
37:58 within within seconds it can change just
38:00 like that
38:01 um and this is not good for you for your
38:04 mental health or your physical health
38:06 we're going to pull one more on the
38:07 judgment
38:09 judgment please
38:14 judgment card please
38:20 all right we have the knight of
38:22 pentacles in reverse
38:25 yeah you're moving too quickly through
38:27 this healing
38:28 pile two you're moving too quickly
38:30 through this healing it's it's going to
38:32 take
38:33 quite a while to really navigate through
38:35 these feelings because it's not like
38:38 there was one traumatic instance that
38:40 really
38:41 set you off course there there were
38:43 multiple here
38:44 there were multiple instances where this
38:46 person whoever this is did not show up
38:48 for you and did not
38:50 give you the the nurturing and the love
38:52 that you needed and in turn it really
38:55 made you believe that you're not worthy
38:56 of it and that's something your inner
38:58 child is really struggling with right
39:00 now
39:01 and it's important to give them that
39:03 love that time and that affection as if
39:06 um you were re-raising your inner child
39:09 that's really the answer here the answer
39:11 for you to really get out of this is to
39:13 re-raise your inner child give your
39:16 inner child that knowledge that love
39:17 that affection those new experiences you
39:19 wanted to do but do it together um and
39:22 don't really depend on anybody else to
39:24 give you any of this
39:26 if there was somewhere you wanted to go
39:27 as a child take yourself there have like
39:30 a little day date or something and and
39:32 really
39:33 focus on what you need and what you've
39:35 needed since childhood
39:42 it's time for you to know pile two
39:45 that love for you should never be
39:47 conditional
39:49 it should never be conditional
39:51 okay
39:52 all right i'm going to leave that here
39:53 it was wonderful to sit down with you
39:55 pile too and i wish you the best of luck
39:57 on this journey hi pile three
39:59 all right we're going to be getting into
40:02 your inner child here today first i just
40:05 want to say i feel like this pile
40:08 is full of warriors ancient
40:12 warriors you guys might know a lot about
40:14 your past lives you might have dreams
40:16 about it you might um resonate with
40:20 where you came from in these past lives
40:22 and know it very well
40:25 you could also be doing a lot of past
40:27 life regression right now
40:30 let's see
40:33 all right i do shuffle this deck off
40:35 camera as well we're just gonna give it
40:39 one more good shuffle
40:48 all right
40:52 all right messages from pile three's
40:54 inner child please
40:57 unless it is from pile three's in your
40:59 child
41:01 okay we're gonna take all of these
41:02 innocence
41:04 page of wands in reverse
41:07 we have nine of pentacles in reverse
41:13 and the magician
41:16 okay
41:18 i don't know why i feel like
41:20 you could have been prone to running
41:22 away
41:23 a lot in childhood
41:27 you could have also been prone to
41:29 um fits of rage
41:31 not
41:32 in a
41:34 i'm just an angry person sense but there
41:37 was a real need for your freedom here
41:38 you felt trapped
41:40 you felt trapped you felt
41:43 like you couldn't be yourself
41:49 and there was a lot going on
41:51 let's clarify this page of wands in
41:53 reverse please
41:57 we have the hairpin in reverse
42:02 your parents could have been young when
42:04 they had you as well
42:06 pile three
42:08 nine of pentacles please
42:19 the emperor in reverse under the nine of
42:22 pentacles
42:24 the magicians please
42:30 and the two of swords under the magician
42:34 oh my goodness this feels like you were
42:36 the parent
42:37 in the situation
42:39 it's like
42:40 the back of the deck energy is the eight
42:41 of swords
42:43 um in reverse and i feel like really as
42:46 a kid all you wanted to do was escape
42:48 this situation it was like your parents
42:50 it's like you grew up with your parents
42:54 you were part of all of their mistakes
42:57 you had to deal with all of the downfall
42:59 of their decision making and choices
43:05 and it really took you out of your your
43:07 vibe out of your high vibration
43:11 let's see
43:13 this two of swords please
43:16 two of swords
43:20 two of swords please
43:24 we have the page of pentacles in reverse
43:30 this feels like you have been told that
43:33 how you operate
43:35 on a personal level is wrong whether
43:37 you've been told you're too angry or too
43:39 hostile or too this or too loud or to
43:42 whatever
43:43 it's you're a truth teller too this is
43:45 real whistleblower energy if something
43:47 was going on in your childhood you were
43:49 probably the one to call it out
43:52 um
43:54 you may be the oldest as well
43:59 let's see
44:09 if you hear my my dog in the background
44:11 i do apologize she's a little cutie she
44:13 came to join us
44:15 all right let's see
44:17 with this nine of pentacles
44:19 in reverse and the emperor in reverse i
44:22 feel like you're
44:25 there maybe
44:26 one of your parents that you're closest
44:28 to
44:29 um and that you are most like
44:32 but it's it's also the opposite effect
44:34 this person is the most toxic parent and
44:37 it's not that you're like this toxic
44:39 parent in the toxic way it's almost like
44:41 you took their toxic traits maybe they
44:42 were overly protective and that became
44:45 abusive
44:46 um
44:48 like in the sense that they needed to
44:49 protect themselves and they they took on
44:52 this persona of strong um
44:55 unemotional
44:57 all of this whatever it took its toll on
44:59 you
45:00 you took the strong and really did
45:03 protect rather than take the strong and
45:06 just
45:07 live in fear but pretending to be strong
45:09 you you really took that strength
45:12 and learned how to use it you are
45:14 probably the bull the the person beating
45:16 up the bullies
45:17 in school right like you were probably
45:19 the one defending the people getting
45:21 picked on
45:24 but there's one
45:26 there's one parent let me pull on this
45:28 parent who is this
45:30 who is this person
45:32 maybe it's not a parent let's see who is
45:34 this person please
45:37 oh boy i'll take all of them let's see
45:41 tell me a story please
45:43 all right we have the ace of swords
45:46 the eight of cups in reverse
45:49 the seven of cups in reverse
45:52 the knight of wands
45:54 the five of cups in reverse
45:56 and the wheel of fortune in reverse wow
45:59 these are a lot
46:00 of reversals here
46:04 this is somebody who has a good there's
46:06 someone who wrote really hard to hate
46:08 honestly this person has such a good
46:10 heart but they are just a buildup of
46:13 horrible horrible conditioning
46:16 um
46:18 with this person's need to feel safe in
46:21 childhood they really established a
46:23 sense of
46:24 um
46:27 how do i say this
46:28 i don't really know how to explain this
46:30 other than to say
46:31 this is a real
46:33 um
46:36 you know how when people are in the
46:38 mafia they're raised with this intense
46:41 loyalty
46:42 um with this you know hostile really
46:46 upfront personality right off the bat um
46:49 they just demand this respect this
46:51 person did it in a toxic way but it's
46:53 like almost like you took those traits
46:55 and alchemized them and you really use
46:57 them for good
46:59 you really use them for good here
47:01 and again by using that reference i'm
47:03 not saying anybody's parent was in the
47:04 mafia i'm just saying there was there
47:06 were things that you were raised with
47:08 that were highly toxic that you
47:10 alchemized into
47:12 a very healthy
47:14 mindset this loyalty might need to be
47:16 worked on though this this being loyal
47:18 to everybody
47:20 all the time definitely needs to be
47:22 worked on because there are times where
47:24 you do need to walk away from certain
47:25 people um but
47:28 your inner child is saying that
47:32 the memories with this individual are
47:34 really holding you back right now with
47:36 the wheel of fortune in reverse they're
47:37 blocking you from some kind of abundance
47:40 because there's still an aspect of your
47:42 inner child here who feels
47:45 they need to protect themselves from
47:46 this individual who feels that they need
47:49 to
47:51 um how do i say this
47:53 spirit how do i say this
47:55 there's still a part of you stuck
47:58 there
48:00 it's like every day you wake up and and
48:02 you know for at least a few hours of
48:04 that day that mindset that age you were
48:08 those memories are definitely going to
48:10 come flooding back for you at some point
48:12 whether it's all at once whether it's a
48:13 little bit each day you remember you're
48:15 you remember your childhood very vividly
48:21 there's a depression here though
48:23 that it's it's
48:31 there's a there's a part of your inner
48:33 child that's wanting to flee from a
48:34 situation right now just like you wanted
48:37 to in childhood
48:39 out the window down the street far away
48:42 from this this situation what is this
48:45 current situation please spirit
48:47 what is this current situation
48:49 [Music]
48:52 spirits of little light what is this
48:53 current situation please
49:03 ten of wands
49:04 um okay i i can see this very clearly
49:08 there that you
49:10 spent so much of your childhood taking
49:12 care of your parents that you didn't
49:13 learn how to take care of yourself
49:16 you never learned basic things like uh
49:20 driver's ed or things like that and even
49:22 if you learn drivers edit that it's just
49:24 take what resonates you were not
49:26 prepared to be an adult
49:29 is is how
49:31 the best way i can describe it you are
49:32 not prepared to make adult decisions be
49:34 in the adult world um you spend so much
49:37 time taking care of your parents that
49:38 they they they weren't
49:40 giving you this information
49:42 it's like they were surviving
49:46 but in turn it really took away your
49:48 thriving right like it took away from
49:51 you really learning how to navigate this
49:53 world we're gonna start pulling some
49:55 handwritten messages for you before we
49:58 pull some advice from you
50:08 but yeah this i can really i really feel
50:10 like you grew up with your parents
50:13 and that at some points you really just
50:15 kind of wanted to be as far away from
50:17 home as you could
50:19 messages from pile three's inner child
50:22 please
50:25 messages from piles
50:27 please
50:32 messages from piles and your child
50:36 all right we have family secrets
50:40 i want to be rich someday so that i can
50:43 give to the less fortunate beautiful
50:45 energy
50:47 all right messages from pile three's
50:49 inner child please
50:55 all right i don't know how to feel
50:56 emotions in a healthy way because i
50:58 always had to suppress them yeah you
50:59 always had to be the adult in situations
51:02 i'm hearing yelling a lot of yelling and
51:05 chaos and scream and screaming all right
51:09 i've always talked more in my head than
51:11 out loud to anyone else
51:16 messages from pile
51:18 three's inner child
51:23 my parents had to work a lot to provide
51:25 for our family and they were never home
51:27 it's not their fault but i needed them
51:32 i grew up in a very strict and religious
51:34 family i had limits for how i could
51:36 express my true self
51:40 all right let's get some of these back
51:42 on camera for you
51:45 messages from pile three's inner child
51:48 please
51:52 messages
51:54 [Music]
51:56 i look for safety in others because i
51:58 did not feel protected as a child i need
52:00 to heal this deep wound
52:04 messages from pile threes in our child
52:07 please
52:23 having a parent who constantly pointed
52:25 out my weight has given me an unhealthy
52:27 relationship to food
52:32 messages from pile threes
52:35 please
52:39 my parent left me at a young age and it
52:41 shook my foundation i needed them
52:45 messages from kyle drew's inner child
52:52 i learned at a bad a uh i'm sorry i
52:54 learned at a young age that bad
52:56 attention was still attention i craved
52:58 it and i need to recognize this cycle
53:03 okay
53:04 messages from pile three's
53:07 inner child piece
53:11 let's just find piles of these inner
53:18 all right my childhood was stolen by
53:19 trauma
53:22 when i am older i won't let anyone push
53:24 me around
53:27 while my present self views us as the
53:29 bullies did i just want to feel loved
53:32 yeah there's
53:36 i'm so sorry pile 3 because it feels
53:38 like you really never got to live your
53:40 life it feels like you were just busy
53:42 taking care of your parents and their
53:44 needs and what they needed and being um
53:48 the child they wanted you to be or was
53:51 trying to force you to be it feels like
53:52 you never really got to live
53:54 who you are as an individual
53:57 one more message please from
54:00 kyle three's inner child before we pull
54:02 some advice
54:04 kyle please inner child
54:07 messages from coyotes
54:13 i've already had too many toxic people
54:15 in my life and that was out of my
54:17 control i'm in control now
54:20 i have too many options if i have too
54:22 many options in front of me i shut down
54:26 i never felt good enough why should i
54:35 this is just it's it's important for you
54:37 to really distance yourself right now
54:39 and if there are family members that you
54:42 need to protect your energy from right
54:44 now it's important to do so
54:46 because you do deserve peace from this
54:48 and you deserve healing and you deserve
54:50 to feel how you need to feel
54:53 don't let anybody pile three tell you
54:56 how you should feel about a certain
54:57 situation okay we're going to pull some
55:00 messages
55:02 advice
55:03 all right advice for pile free please
55:09 advice
55:12 oh we had three fly out there okay
55:19 all right we have the five of swords in
55:20 reverse
55:22 we have the knight of swords
55:26 and we have the ten of pentacles
55:29 okay
55:31 yeah
55:32 live the life of your dreams pile three
55:35 do things that make you happy do things
55:37 that um bring you peace do things that
55:40 creatively stimulate you really learn
55:43 how to
55:45 much like pile two needed to learn how
55:46 to re-parent their inner child it's kind
55:49 of the same here i do believe you have
55:52 um
55:54 really mastered
55:55 your emotional side
55:57 honestly pile three i feel like you've
55:59 really mastered your emotional side does
56:00 it get chaotic sometimes yes
56:03 but the duality you're capable of is
56:06 incredible and not many people are
56:07 capable of this and i think what you
56:09 really need to focus on and work on
56:11 right now is your place in this world
56:13 pile three what you want to be where you
56:15 want to go who you want to surround
56:17 yourself with things like that are most
56:19 important for you right now and these
56:21 family members that are toxic you don't
56:24 need to surround yourself with them i'm
56:26 not saying cut them off completely i'm
56:28 not saying run away from your problems
56:30 but i am saying
56:32 that as opposed to you being a child and
56:34 not having a choice to remove yourself
56:36 from certain situations you have that
56:38 choice now you absolutely have that
56:40 choice now i'm so sorry
56:43 all right pile three we're going to
56:44 leave it there i wish you the best luck
56:47 on this journey and i hope you have the
56:49 most fun these next few weeks figuring
56:52 yourself out what do you like where do
56:54 you like going
56:55 um and i will see you for the next pick
56:57 of card bye file three
57:00 hi file for
57:02 all right so immediately tapping into
57:04 your energy i feel like this is a
57:07 an incredibly transformative time for
57:09 you this is a moment in time where
57:11 you're stepping out of the cocoon and
57:12 you're really starting something fresh
57:15 and something new
57:17 all right i do shuffle this off deck so
57:19 i'm just gonna shuffle it a couple of
57:21 more times
57:22 and we are going to pull messages from
57:24 your inner child what does your inner
57:26 child want you to know i feel like the
57:28 first three piles really had to do with
57:30 healing and this fourth pile has to do a
57:33 lot with stepping out after healing
57:36 okay
57:39 all right
57:40 messages from kyle for his inner child
57:43 please
57:46 messages from pile force in our child
57:50 we have the king of pentacles yes yes ah
57:54 i feel this energy
57:56 um
57:56 you're creating stability you're giving
57:58 yourself everything right now that you
58:01 were not provided as a child your inner
58:04 child is like oh
58:06 your inner child views you as their
58:09 perfect ideal parent you are you are
58:12 doing everything right right now for
58:13 your inner child all right messages from
58:15 pile force inner child
58:19 we have the three of pentacles in
58:20 reverse
58:23 all right
58:25 this may be coming with some pushback
58:27 from people maybe family and friends
58:29 saying you're not available enough or
58:31 um they're not getting enough attention
58:33 from you or there's something there
58:35 could be something like that happening
58:36 where there's a little bit of pushback
58:38 from others but keep doing what you're
58:40 doing because holding these boundaries
58:42 that you're holding your inner child is
58:45 is
58:45 thrilled absolutely thrilled
58:48 messages from kyle four's inner child
58:50 please
58:54 messages from kyle ford's inner child
58:58 okay we have temperance
59:01 ah
59:03 this is beautiful
59:07 messages from pile forth in our child
59:12 all right we have the knight of
59:14 pentacles
59:17 i feel like whereas your inner child may
59:19 have used to run the show especially
59:21 when you felt triggered or you felt
59:22 upset about something i feel like now
59:24 your inner child hangs back and lets
59:26 your present self
59:28 handle situations i feel like your inner
59:31 child has a peace now like when you were
59:33 younger you may have said oh i just want
59:35 peace whether you struggled with anxiety
59:36 whatever was going on you just wanted
59:39 peace and i really feel like you're
59:40 giving that to your inner child right
59:42 now
59:44 all right three of pentacles
59:48 yes
59:49 yes we have the six of wands fly out
59:51 under the three of pentacles hold those
59:54 boundaries take that time for yourself
59:55 you could be um really
59:57 taking your time answering people as
59:59 well you could be taking your time
60:01 responding to plans continue to do this
60:04 uh you might be feeling the relief of
60:06 anxiety as well or maybe you'll feel the
60:09 relief of anxiety once you
60:11 hear that it's the right thing to do
60:12 what you're doing whatever it is
60:15 um whatever you've been working on
60:16 through your healing and establishing
60:18 boundaries it is
60:19 brilliant this king of pentacles energy
60:22 is brilliant
60:23 all right
60:25 temperance please
60:32 pumpkins please
60:37 all right we have the ten of cups in
60:38 reverse
60:42 and the queen of pentacles in reverse
60:44 yeah when your inner child feels
60:46 triggered or when your inner child feels
60:49 like they're about to go off the rails
60:50 or they're about to have a meltdown or
60:53 they're about to lose everything and
60:54 their foundation is being shaken instead
60:57 of going into panic mode your inner
60:59 child really just lets you run the show
61:01 your inner child trusts you
61:04 immensely this is such a beautiful
61:06 energy and honestly um collaborating
61:09 with your inner child when it comes to
61:10 work or when it comes to your um
61:14 creative endeavors is going to be
61:16 amazing as well
61:18 your inner child just wants to create
61:21 and when they do feel unsettled they're
61:24 saying that you are really good about
61:26 pulling them back you're really good
61:27 about really saying putting your hand on
61:30 your chest and saying it's all right
61:32 it's all right we've got this and they
61:34 really want to thank you for that
61:39 all right let's see the six of wands
61:41 please what is my pile for up to
61:46 what is piled for up to
61:50 oh we have the nine of swords
61:53 all right
61:54 one more on this
61:57 one more please what is pile four up to
62:00 and the page of cups in reverse okay so
62:03 you're on this like
62:05 the best way i can describe it is the
62:07 ground you're on right now is you know
62:09 when
62:10 there's a new deer born right like you
62:11 know bambi in the movie bambi um when
62:14 he's just born and he's trying to stand
62:16 up and he's trying to walk around but
62:18 his legs aren't working right
62:20 um and this is kind of
62:23 where you're at right now you're coming
62:24 out of this cocoon and you're not really
62:26 fully into this new mindset but you are
62:29 done with
62:31 the the healing work that you were
62:33 working on um i'm not saying you're done
62:35 completely with healing
62:37 but you've really stepped onto a new
62:39 path and you've really stepped into
62:41 you've shift timelines really is what
62:43 you've done um and you're just learning
62:46 how to walk in this one that's all and
62:48 if you're feeling stressed or if you're
62:49 feeling like nothing's falling into
62:51 place don't worry just relax because it
62:54 is coming into place you've dealt with
62:56 the mental conflict sometimes you can
62:57 still have these intrusive thoughts
63:00 and that could be something worth
63:01 working on but i think right now you're
63:03 just being rewarded for doing the work
63:06 that you have done
63:08 because it's easy
63:09 to just not do the work right it's easy
63:11 to be like i don't want to hear that
63:12 about myself i don't want to think about
63:14 that i don't want to face that and
63:17 somebody who really goes into those
63:19 rabbit holes and
63:21 and pulls that piece of themselves back
63:24 you deserve a round of applause honestly
63:26 and an incredible round of applause
63:30 alright so we're going to pull some
63:31 messages from your inner child right now
63:33 these are handwritten messages and we're
63:35 going to pull these before
63:37 we start pulling some advice from your
63:39 inner child
63:44 okay
63:50 i actually a fun fact about this stone
63:53 is i picked it up on the ground outside
63:56 of the place that we
63:58 signed the papers for the house
64:00 when we moved into this little
64:03 little uh house in the middle of nowhere
64:06 and i i feel i feel like it's the same
64:08 with you you're starting something
64:10 you're really walking a path that is
64:12 going to lead you to an incredible
64:14 amount of abundance and really
64:15 everything you ever wished for including
64:18 freedom
64:20 especially freedom
64:22 all right let's see
64:27 um if you do hear my dog she's a little
64:30 bit anxious right now she's
64:32 looking at the door so if you do hear i
64:33 do apologize
64:38 all right
64:39 messages from pile for us and our child
64:42 please
64:47 all right i'm afraid to show my true
64:49 self to others others have stripped me
64:51 of my self-confidence
64:55 i look for love and destructive people
64:57 because my parents and i needed to and i
65:00 need to heal this deep-seated wound i'm
65:01 going to read that one more time i'm
65:03 sorry i look for love and destructive
65:05 people because my parents and i need to
65:07 heal this deep seated wound this could
65:09 be something that you're not wanting to
65:12 focus on right now um because it did
65:14 take me a minute to read this it was
65:16 like the second i wanted to read this
65:18 card my everything got cloudy
65:20 um so when you do have
65:22 thoughts like this or or feel this way
65:24 um try to sit with them for a minute
65:26 before pushing them aside
65:29 all right messages from pile force inner
65:31 child please
65:38 messages from pile force and child
65:41 please
65:46 you can this this pile is definitely
65:48 your own main character i love the
65:50 energy here
65:51 having a parent with addiction issues
65:53 has absolutely broken parts of me i feel
65:55 like this one is just going to be for a
65:57 select few people here
66:01 all right my present and higher self
66:03 have been loving and protecting me yes
66:05 ugh
66:07 uh i just feel like the chill is like a
66:09 big hug you like i don't know if you hug
66:11 your inner child or like wrap your arms
66:13 around yourself and say you're hugging
66:15 your inner child but it just it's like
66:17 all body chills
66:19 my parents
66:20 love for me was always conditional
66:24 all right
66:26 messages from pile force inner child
66:28 piece
66:34 okay
66:35 my parent was selfish and only focused
66:37 on their own needs and wants
66:42 if i have too many options in front of
66:44 me i shut down
66:48 when my present self is in a rage it is
66:50 because i am shattered and scared
66:53 yeah if you feel i feel like there's a
66:55 an overwhelming like
66:58 when when when i see if i have too many
67:01 options in front of me i shut down and
67:02 when my present self is in a rage it's
67:04 because i'm shattered and scared i feel
67:06 like a lot of
67:09 trauma was taking up space in your
67:11 psyche in your mind and it was really
67:13 hard for you to process things
67:15 i feel like this trauma that you
67:18 just overcame
67:20 whether it's romantic whether it's
67:22 childhood whether it's anything like
67:24 that it really
67:26 it really was taking up space in your
67:28 psyche it was it was causing you to to
67:30 struggle with processing information and
67:32 processing things um properly and
67:35 quickly
67:36 um
67:37 this could be because of fight or flight
67:40 but i think it's more you may have had a
67:42 parent that needed you to answer
67:44 something right away or they didn't like
67:45 to wait for a response or you felt like
67:48 you weren't really hurt as a child this
67:50 could also
67:51 um
67:52 cause you to really have a difficult
67:54 time processing things uh it can really
67:57 when when when someone's standing in
67:58 front of you and they're like come on
68:00 i'm waiting i'm waiting for an answer it
68:02 can be really difficult to really
68:03 process that information
68:05 and have it come out properly
68:08 all right messages from pile fours in
68:10 our child please
68:13 one more message from filed for his
68:15 inner child please
68:25 all right
68:27 i never feel good enough why should i
68:29 verbal abuse
68:33 so before i get into this card here i
68:35 want to reiterate these two cards down
68:37 here
68:38 with these nine of swords this is an
68:40 in-between time for you so if ever if at
68:43 any point you feel like your your
68:45 healing is not um
68:47 enough or you haven't been doing enough
68:49 don't
68:51 don't kick yourself while you're down
68:53 because with this mental conflict and
68:55 this page of cups it's just you not
68:57 having your footing yet it's you not
68:58 knowing how to navigate into that
69:00 playfulness
69:02 high vibrational abundant energy
69:04 from this cocoon of dealing with a lot
69:07 of lower vibrational emotions so it's
69:09 just kind of like your equilibrium
69:13 i can't speak your equilibrium is a
69:15 little bit off that's all um and you're
69:18 definitely going to come back from that
69:19 we're gonna pull some advice from spirit
69:21 but first we're gonna get into this i
69:23 never feel good enough card and i think
69:25 that it comes with um your confidence
69:28 being stripped as as well you could have
69:30 had a lot of bullying as a child and you
69:32 could have had
69:34 a lot of issues where people
69:37 criticized specifically in a joking way
69:42 little aspects of yourself the quirky
69:44 things that you do
69:45 that make you special and unique i think
69:47 people have really broken those for you
69:49 i think they've really made you feel
69:51 less than because of them
69:54 all right
69:55 but i think they're beautiful and
69:56 honestly your energy is beautiful and
69:58 you deserve all the amazing things
70:00 coming for you
70:01 all right advice from pile for his inner
70:04 child please
70:07 advice from pile force and her child
70:09 please
70:16 thank you
70:18 oh my gosh we are the star listen
70:21 you guys don't even understand how
70:23 magical you are i i wish that i could
70:26 say it and make you believe it but
70:29 look at this look at this card
70:32 you're you're going places pile four
70:35 you're meant for big things
70:37 we're gonna pull two more
70:42 advice
70:43 from pyle for his inner child please
70:48 we have the ten of wands responsibility
70:53 i just heard um with great power comes
70:56 great responsibility
70:58 uh one more card please advice from pile
71:01 for us and our child
71:03 advice from file for his inner child
71:06 please
71:08 okay we have the devil in reverse
71:10 yeah i think what you keep setting your
71:12 boundaries keep holding them keep
71:15 not allowing people into your sacred
71:17 space when you need that downtime when
71:19 you need that cleansing um when you just
71:22 don't vibe with their energy it's
71:24 important for you to focus on what you
71:26 need right now rather than what anybody
71:28 else needs and it's also important to
71:30 remember that
71:32 uh
71:33 to with this ten of wands
71:36 i'm really hearing don't be impulsive
71:39 about anything don't be impulsive about
71:41 anything that you're creating right now
71:45 because i feel like impulsivity can
71:48 sometimes lead you to not doing it at
71:50 all i feel like you can
71:52 i'm so sorry i feel like you can tell
71:54 yourself
71:57 i'm gonna do this and then have this
71:59 creative impulse and really run with it
72:01 and if it doesn't work out the first
72:03 time
72:04 uh or the second time you kind of you
72:06 become discouraged um so try to do
72:09 things at your pace do things to enjoy
72:12 them rather than just to get them done
72:16 if you need to take time take time don't
72:19 be impulsive with it i think you already
72:21 know that though to be perfectly honest
72:23 i think you're already in a space where
72:24 you're holding these boundaries and
72:25 you're you're respecting your own time
72:29 but that was just a message coming
72:30 through for some of you and really
72:35 it's like wish upon a star right
72:36 everything you've ever wanted is going
72:39 to come into fruition because you're
72:41 making it happen not because you're
72:42 wishing for it not because you're
72:46 taking it out of thin air but you really
72:48 are working for this and a lot of it has
72:51 to do with shadow work you have no idea
72:53 how much the universe loves it when you
72:55 do your shadow work um and when you
72:58 really start to to make healing a
73:00 priority and you've done that
73:02 then this is beautiful energy i love
73:05 this energy
73:07 i'm actually gonna pull
73:09 a couple more tarot
73:11 um just to
73:13 amp you guys up a little bit just to say
73:15 what you should be proud of right now
73:17 because i feel like you deserve it you
73:19 deserve it this this is a very light
73:21 energy
73:22 all right let's see
73:24 what
73:25 should pile for
73:29 no let's change that what does pile
73:31 four's inner child love about them
73:34 what does pile four's inner child love
73:36 about them please
73:39 we have the king of swords
73:42 okay first of all your intelligence your
73:44 wit i'm hearing your witty
73:46 you're very charming you're very witty
73:49 you're very intelligent um you're
73:52 creative
73:53 thoughts and ideas might come just out
73:55 of thin air for you
73:57 especially witty comments your inner
73:59 child thinks you're hilarious by the way
74:02 all right
74:03 what does oh there we go
74:05 okay we have death you're resilient um
74:08 you have a resilience about you
74:11 where
74:12 if somebody tries to break you or tear
74:15 you down it only makes you a kinder more
74:17 compassionate human it doesn't turn you
74:21 into a bitter pessimistic human it in
74:24 turn makes you gravitate to the people
74:26 who feel like you do so that you could
74:28 comfort them which you should be a
74:30 little bit careful about this so that
74:32 you don't drain yourself doing this but
74:33 it's an amazing quality you have
74:36 you don't
74:38 look to the
74:39 look to the dark side so to speak not
74:41 the shadow side but you don't look to
74:43 the dark side like revenge and
74:46 things like that it's just not your jam
74:48 at all
74:49 all right one more please
74:52 what does pile force inner child love
74:54 about them
74:56 what does kyle 4's inner child love
74:58 about them please
75:01 we have the two of wands in reverse
75:04 your inner child loves your inner
75:06 conversations so
75:08 when you're talking to yourself in your
75:10 head
75:11 your inner child is all for it um
75:14 honestly
75:16 if you haven't written a book
75:18 i would start doing that i would read
75:20 that book i feel like you're really good
75:22 with your words you're a really in-depth
75:24 human and honestly
75:26 you have a lot to say i feel like that
75:28 might be a gift of yours your voice
75:31 what you have to say
75:32 may help people
75:35 all around the world
75:37 wherever you go if you're speaking
75:40 you are helping someone
75:42 and your inner child loves this about
75:44 you honestly there's a billion things
75:46 your inner child loves about you but
75:47 these are the ones that i wanted to
75:48 highlight today
75:50 all right pile
75:52 or we are going to stop the reading here
75:55 it was wonderful to sit down with you i
75:57 am sending so much excited passionate
76:00 energy towards whatever it is you're
76:02 creating here and i wish you the best of
76:04 luck bye final four
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