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The speaker is publicly detailing experiences of psychological and domestic abuse, stalking, harassment, sexual assault, and blackmail by Ms. Kiff, driven by a need to protect others and a refusal to remain silent after learning of similar ongoing abuse towards another individual.
Today I'm finally going to be opening up
about the psychological and domestic
abuse, stalking and harassment, sexual
assault, and threats of blackmail that
Ms. Kiff has done towards me and some of
these issues which are still ongoing.
For the entirety of this year, I have
attempted to separate myself from him
and not talk about him at all
>> and not talk about this issue and just
not make it a public thing. I have never
I always tried my best to keep this to myself,
myself,
but I've like I said, I feel like it's
gone to the point, which I'll explain
later, that
I feel like it just has to be done. And
I have always believed in not
condemning people or starting drama
online. So, I'm sure a lot of people are
going to be asking, why am I doing this
and why now?
And I would like to explain that before
I get started so that people understand
um what prompted me to do this today and
that it's not just on a whim or
something like that.
Okay, so like I said, I took a lot of
notes, so forgive me if I'm just if I
just end up reading off my notes.
The first and probably most severe
reason is that one of the rules that I
set for myself a long time ago about
withholding this information was that if
I ever felt like somebody else was in
danger of being hurt, I would then make
myself speak about it. And two weeks
ago, actually when I three weeks ago
now, I was informed by three separate
people, one of whom was present for said
incident that he had done something
similar to something that he had done to
me and um to someone in LA at the end of
September. And this person is not a
streamer or content creator, but
obviously that does not matter.
And because of this, I cannot in good
conscience sit here knowing that I know
critical information about someone that
almost no one else does and not say anything.
anything.
I think that most issues and dramas
should stay private and off the
internet. And I still hold that belief
to this day and I will hold that belief
going forward. However, there are
certain things that cross the line and I
say that the line has been crossed too
many times to be count. There's a point
where I believe that people deserve to know.
know.
I think that at a certain point, if you
know a lot of things about someone and
you don't say anything to look out for
others, it's wrong. It's wrong to keep
it to yourself.
I don't want what happened to me or what
has happened to other people because of
him to happen to other people. And I
don't believe he will ever stop behaving
the way he does.
But regardless, um, yeah, like I said,
one of the main reasons I decided to do
this stream is to come out about all of
this because I can't hold on to it any
longer because it feels wrong to do so. And
And
an honorable mention reason for why I'm
doing this
is that for a while he has been
indirectly threatening me through my
friends and people that I work with.
They've informed me that he said that if
I ever talked about anything he did, he
would try to create a smear campaign
against me in retaliation.
>> I was told that he even approached other
streamers who were close with us back
when we lived together, asking them if
they would join with him, and they all refused.
>> At TwitchCon, he approached one of
>> threatening them and saying if I ever
talked about him, he would destroy me.
>> Yep. Multiple people have told me that
his plan was to claim that I kill
animals and that I killed my own rabbits
since I had several of my rabbits passed
away over the course of three years
I'm sure he's probably listening now and
it's probably going to come as quite a
shock to him that this information made
its way back to me and that I've known
for months. But if you try to threaten
me to stay quiet, especially using my
poor dead animals,
I'm not going to stay quiet.
>> It's nuts.
>> So, now that I've explained all the
reasons why this took so long and why I
made the decision to do this stream, I
have a few more things I would like to
get out of the way before you want to cut
cut
>> I start talking about all of this.
>> It's not about me. Um, the way that I'm
going to do this today is I'm going to
run through everything from the
beginning to the end to try to get
across the story as accurately and fully
>> Hold on.
>> Wrong one.
>> I'm also >> Oh,
>> Oh,
>> going to be showing a few screenshots
validating what I'm saying. I have more
things but this is what I felt
comfortable using today and um I will be
running through those later.
>> Receipts of course.
>> Um another thing that I'd like to
mention before I start is that during my
statement I'm going to be mentioning
directly the names of about half a dozen
other creators who are present for
certain things. And I want to say that
none of these people did anything wrong.
I'm just saying that they were there and
I've asked all of them permission. They
all said that it was fine to include
their names, but I I know this won't
stop everyone, but I ask um people
um for the streamers that I mentioned,
please don't go bothering them or asking
them for more information. If there's
something else that they want to say,
they'll say it themselves, so there's no
point to go pester them and bother them
about it.
There are also streamers who gave me
permission to share things that they
relayed to me privately but asked me to
redact their names which I of course did.
And another the last thing that I want
to make clear is that not every person
that I interact with or that I'm friends
with knew the extent of all of these
things. And in fact, most of them
didn't. And some of them didn't even
know anything at all. I tried to keep
things private with my close friends,
but if anyone during the past year ever
approached me asking questions. I didn't
lie and I told them the truth. But um
yeah, I don't want there to be some kind
of witch hunt like, oh, you know, you
knew in this no a lot of people, you
know, didn't know everything or didn't
Okay, I think that's um
>> I'll talk about my
>> all that I have to get out of the way
>> in the context of like things that she says
says
>> So, um this is public information.
I initially moved in. Sorry, I'm still
sick like I said. >> Mhm.
Okay.
This is uh all public obviously this
part. um I moved in with him um I
believe it was the end of 2021
because um he offered I was um living
alone at the time and I was having um
stalker issues in Kansas and I mean you
guys know like all the stuff that
happened there. I ended up joining the
or everything. Um we did a lot of
streams together
and I mean a lot of people already know
this but I'm just going to come out and
say it. we um started dating. We were in
a relationship starting January 2022
after I joined OTK.
Um I'm not planning to go into too much
detail about the start of the
relationship because it honestly doesn't
really matter at this point. It's
irrelevant now. The only things that
really matter uh that you guys need to
know for the story are that it was one
an extremely private relationship.
Uh it was even hidden from friends and
people, but I mean obviously people all
eventually figured out they're not
[ __ ] stupid.
>> And second, it was um an extremely
codependent relationship. Um which
>> it's not the issue, but uh that's just,
you know, making that clear for details.
He initially portrayed himself to me as
someone who was very nice to girls and
wanted to help me feel safe from
stalkers and wanted me to succeed as a
teammate. And we grew very close over
time and I was very dependent on him for um
um
feelings of safety, uh social life, like
my stream, my my job, everything.
Um, so yeah, besides um it being a very
codependent relationship,
the start of it was fine. Um, I saw a
lot of people mentioning this. They
thought this was what I was going to
talk about.
>> Um, it's not a secret. I think everyone
paid attention knew that he was very
controlling over
>> what I wore. Um, to a degree who I was
friends with and even when I would stream.
stream.
>> Yep. So when
it was definitely slow over time that
bad things started happening at the
start. It would be things like for
he would throw bottles like plastic
bottles of liquid in it, not like glass
bottles at me despite me telling him
like I didn't like it and it scared me
and I bruise very easily. He would um
throw his phone at me. I would tell him,
you know, it scared me, I don't like it.
And one time it even hit me in the eye,
which caused me to get a black eye. But
he always,
you know, was like, "Oh, it's uh it's an
accident." And I was like, "Oh, yeah.
It's it's an accident." Like, you know,
of course I'm not going to think that,
you know, he's
Yeah. I I just
>> This is the beginning, by the way.
>> At the time, I just kind of was, you
know, I just brushed it off. And looking
back now, I feel like that was kind of
the start of him um testing my
boundaries, if that makes sense. Um
Um
so that was already kind of starting to
show signs within the first six months
of him, me and him being close. And then
again, a very public situation. um
the end of 2022
the um cover up allegations happened.
I mean yeah like I said all that's
public you can find all that see like
what I said during that everything.
Um, after that happened, his behavior
started getting a lot worse, which I
mean, I suppose it makes sense. You
know, he was very stressed. Um,
a lot of stuff was happening, but the
bad behavior was ramping up and I really
I feel like it's so apparent if like,
you know, you go back and watch anything
from that time. I tried so hard to help
him and be there for him because I
really believed in him. and
I wanted him to, you know, get better
and get back on his feet and
be the person that, you know, I always
believed that he was.
Um, but that unfortunately
did not really happen. Um, for a long
time, I think
about a year and a half from when that
all happened, it was kind of like slow
slow things getting worse. But, I mean,
honestly, I'm not even going to bother
going into the details of all of that
because there's just too much to cover.
And um, >> yeah,
>> yeah,
>> it's honestly kind of not really
relevant to the rest of what I'm saying
because the rest of what I want to say
is a lot worse.
>> 24-hour stream.
There was a point where
things really took a turn for the worst.
Like it felt like,
you know, like a very delicate perhaps
and again, a lot of people are like
vaguely aware of this, but I'll explain
it for people who aren't, you know,
chronically tapped into all that stuff. Um,
Um,
so for a long time,
>> this is after
>> after the like
>> cover up allegations happened and he was
like starting to kind of struggle on his stream.
stream. >> Yeah.
>> Yeah.
>> Uh, he never wanted to stream at the
same time as me. Like it we really
avoided it. And to me at the time it
made sense because you know I was like
well of course like you know we share a
lot of community members.
>> If we're live at separate times we're
both going to perform better. you know,
it makes sense.
>> But, um,
>> yeah, we were never really live doing
the same thing at the same time for a
long time with the exception of like
things like events or sponsors or like,
you know, just special things
for a very long time. And a lot of you
guys probably noticed that I would only
usually stream on Tuesdays, Thursdays,
and Saturdays. That was um because of him.
him.
And uh now I stream whenever I want. But um
um
the first time that we ever streamed at
the same time
>> was for
the 2024 Rust Kingdom event.
>> Jesus Christ.
>> We were sharing drops.
>> This is so ridiculous.
>> It was the first time in a very long
time that we were both going to be live
at the same time doing the same thing.
>> People even saw this probably like what
the [ __ ] does have to do with anything?
But um it'll make sense a bit. Um so
>> I'm live drops drops for the rest of
>> streaming and
>> like I said, you can go find all of
this. This is this is public clips of
this. Um
>> we're both streaming the Rust event and
I thought it was going really well. I
thought everyone was having fun. I was
like, "Oh, this is this is great.
everyone's, you know, doing the same
thing at the same time. We're all
hanging out. You know, we're going to
have fun. Like, I was really, really
excited. Um, and then
I start seeing in my chat people start
saying, uh, unofficial mis raid, and I'm
like, what does that mean? And then I
check my Discord messages, and he's
messaging me.
He's saying like, Emmy, um, you know,
I'm going to kill myself. I waited or
I'm going to KMS. I waited so long for
this, etc. Um,
and uh, basically he was upset because
I had higher viewership than him. That's
literally it. Uh, I had higher
viewership than him. And like I said,
this is during an event, so there were
drops. Like, everyone knows when there's
drops, like it's not even [ __ ] real.
But yeah, um,
he starts messaging me. He's really
upset. I tried to tell him I was like,
"Bro, you should come back and play.
Everyone's having fun. Everyone's like
wondering where you are." Uh, but yeah,
he ended his stream and then I'm still
live, you know, trying to act like
nothing's wrong.
And uh in that house messaging her while
she's live so I could like see this was happening.
happening.
>> He was walking behind me
making sure that I knew he was there.
And um by the okay by the way so
there were many ways out of that house
if he wanted to leave the house that
were closer to his stream room. He
intentionally chose the door that was
right by my room.
>> It's actually the most inconvenient door
of all the doors that he could have left.
left.
>> Apparent at least to me. He starts
walking behind my stream and slamming
the door so loud that my noise gate can
pick it up. So, even people on my stream
are able to hear this is happening. And
he slams it so hard and so many times
that the front door literally broke. The
lock did not work anymore. It didn't
work for months and it would just make
this horrible sound that I would have to
hear like every [ __ ] day. But anyway,
so I I hear him back there doing this
and I'm like, "What the [ __ ] is going on?"
on?"
>> There's clips of
>> So, I tell him my stream, I'm like,
"Hey, uh, guys, I'll be right back."
I get up and I I go talk to him and I'm
like, "Hey, what like what's what's
going on?" And he's like, "Emmy, like, I
hate all of you guys. Like, all you guys
do is just take from me." And like, "I'm
just done. Like, I'm just done." And I
was like, "Is this like really happening
because of rush drops?" And he was like,
"I don't know what else to do." He was
like going off on me, like basically
saying that he hated me. And I was like,
"Well, I don't know what to do now." and
he was like, "Go finish your stream so
that people don't know anything's wrong."
wrong."
>> And um
>> that's that's what matters.
>> I stop in the bathroom
outside my stream room and I'm like, you
know, checking my makeup trying to make
sure people can't tell that I was like crying
crying
>> and uh I'm only in there for like 30
seconds and he comes and like looms in
the doorway. He's like, "What are you
doing?" And I'm like, "Oh, I'm just I'm
just checking my makeup." So I go back
and uh I stream for a couple hours uh
finish the stream
do my best um to just like you know
carry on
the show basically. Um
Um
and yeah um after that like I said
really [ __ ] bad.
>> Um it was like something just snapped. um
um
for the rest of the week he streamed the
Rust event. He got all the drop viewers
and he was very happy. I mean good for him.
him. >> Wow.
>> Wow.
>> Um and during that time I obviously was
like thinking and processing a lot of
what happened. But I mean it was a lot
because this person was at the time like
kind of my I mean it was like my partner
and my best friend and like the only
person that like I really talk to ever
or like at least off stream. Um so I
mean it was just very it was a lot. But
the very next stream, I went live about
a week after that and I announced that I
was planning to move because I knew that
I would have to move. >> Y
>> Y
>> So I was like, "Okay, I have to go live
and say this." So that, you know, kind
of force myself to commit to it, right?
Um,
obviously I um didn't move out right
away, but after like all of that rust
stuff happened was when the other um
domestic abuse stuff really started.
He would um
destroy furniture in front of me. He
would throw things in front of me and
near me. Destroy walls. Again, you can
go see this in some of his VODs in his
bedroom, the holes in the wall. Um,
there would be times where he was upset
at me and I would go to my stream room
and literally lock myself in to get away
from him and he would be banging on the
door and screaming at me. And at the
time, he also would more often do things
like going like if we were driving in
the car together, he would be going like
>> super fast,
>> 150 miles an hour. And like one time he
even said like, "Well, now we're both
going to die." Like threatening to kill
both of us.
And this wasn't like even necessarily
because of me or like because of
something I did a lot of the time. Like
one of the times that it happened, it
was because um
we were just getting food and he was on
his phone and he saw that um Mr. Beast
had put out a video and Mr. Beast had
invited another streamer and he was
like, "Oh, Mr. Beast invited this guy to
his video, not me." And I was like, "Oh,
well, you know, like, huh, yeah, I guess
so." which led to him
>> almost killing them in the car, almost
killing them,
>> killing himself while doing it
>> over a Mr. Beast video.
>> Um, then at home,
other things would happen like I'd be
trying to sleep and he would scream at
me and say that it was all my fault that
he felt insecure.
There was a time that um
I walked into a room that he was in and
as soon as he saw me there, he threw his
phone at the dresser and started yelling because
because
because I had posted a YouTube video
within the same couple of days as him
and mine was doing better. So basically
I felt like I was kind of stuck
>> in a little sad like I had to constantly sad
sad
>> and like prove
>> my value >> to
>> to
>> not be thrown away but at the same time
if I ever performed too well I was going
to be punished for it.
>> Yeah. And uh it just felt like a very
rough situation to be stuck in because I
mean streaming is my hobby and my job.
Like it's a huge part of my life.
>> All of our friends are attached to it too.
too.
>> You know, I met him and became like a
larger creator.
>> And I remember thinking all the time how
it felt like he hated me, but he still
wanted me around um for his channel and
like his thumbnails and everything. >> Yeah.
>> Yeah.
And uh this is still before I moved out.
There was a time where
it was the the tension in the house was
so unbearable
that I would sneak out and I would sneak
into Esen's house using my code. And um
Esen didn't know why I was doing this.
He saw me a couple times. I'd be like,
"Oh, I'm just going to go uh take a nap
in your guest." We'd be like, "Yeah,
that's fine." Um,
>> I would sneak into Espen's house just to
have some time of like peace and quiet.
>> Um, but eventually um he figured out
where I was going and he would go over
to Espen's house to keep telling me off.
>> No escape. And there was um a time that
he did it
and um I was
laying in the guest room bed and one of
the roommates in that house had um come
to see like why I was crying and they
were standing in the corner and Miz he
came in and he was very physically
aggressive. He was like, "Emy, like what
are you doing?" Like angry. And then as
soon as he turned and saw
>> this is really serious. Yeah.
>> He instantly like deflated and changed
his tone. He was like, "Oh, Emmy, I was
wondering where you were. Like, are you
coming home?" And um that roommate like
later asked me about it and they were
like, "What the [ __ ] was that? Like, are
you okay?" And I was just like, "Oh,
it's it's nothing." because >> unfortunately
>> unfortunately
>> I felt like
>> happened a lot.
>> A lot of the reason that I didn't tell
the people around me was because I felt like
like
>> no one would understand or even if they
understood it would just be a burden to
them because all of our streams and
social circles and communities are so
intertwined. I was like maybe it's just
better for me to deal with this and like
hope things get better basically. >> Yep.
>> Yep.
Um, I honestly don't even remember what
the final straw was that I finally was
like, "Okay, it's time to go." Like, I
prepared the house that I lived in
before this one like pretty much
immediately after the like breaking the
front door thing happened, but I was
still like scared and unsure. So, I
don't remember what the final straw was,
but I remember
I remember the day I took Cheddar to the house
house
cuz he just randomly started like
screaming at Cheddar was like, "Get that
[ __ ] cat out of my house." So, I I just
just
>> mad at YouTube views, mad at Mr. Beast,
mad at the cat.
>> And took him there and I just left him
there and never took him back to that house.
house.
>> Hey yo, [ __ ] Cheddar. All my homies hate
Cheddar. days after that was when I
finally moved out short notice. Um,
like I said, I don't even remember what
the final straw was because so many
things happened, but
>> there was a time when I just knew. I
called some movers. I said, "Hey, can
you come tomorrow?"
And they were like, "Yeah." And then I
Moving out into the last house that I
lived in was um a huge step mentally
because like I said, a big part of why I
moved into the first house in Texas in
the first place was because I felt like
it was the safest option for me because >> Stalkers,
>> Stalkers,
>> you know, I am
>> Yeah. a girl where it's like kind of
scary for me to be living alone. Um, so
it was it was very hard and at the time
even though like all these other things
had already happened, I was very hopeful
that me and him could be cordial and
like eventually like things would be
fine at least publicly like for stream
reasons that you know everyone could
just keep streaming like nothing had
happened. And you know, I at the time I
thought that would be the best thing to
do. And I felt like
>> you put your best foot forward, people
step on it.
>> Separated myself from him without saying
anything. People that watched us
wouldn't understand. >> Yeah.
>> Yeah.
>> And would um
attack me. I was uh
>> that's how it is.
>> Yeah. I mean, it ended up happening
yeah.
Um, after I moved out, we, like I said,
still kept in contact. I had hoped that
somehow things would get better. Um, he
would always beg for me to come back and
he would promise therapy and change and
like even talk people and like kind of
present like, oh, I want to
>> things are going to get better this time.
time.
>> I want to be better for Emmy or
>> this time for sure.
There was um a short period in October
where this
>> last year
>> we had broken up because I mean honestly
doesn't matter now and when that
happened I honestly felt relieved cuz I
was like okay finally it's like on his
terms so that means he'll be satisfied
and he'll say be able to say it was his
choice and he'll leave me alone.
Um because whenever I would try to push
for it um it just felt like I couldn't
like really sever it if that makes sense.
sense. Um
Um
but I mean obviously hence me doing this
stream that was not the end of it. Um,
a week after this breakup,
he asked to come over to my house and
He came to my house and um I was crying
like crazy because the emotions were
just very high because I was dealing
with a lot of major shifts in my life as
a result of me attempting to start to
try to distance myself from him.
He um
so yeah, we were just talking and I was
crying a lot.
He started to
try to comfort me by hugging me while I
was sitting on the couch and holding me
really close to him. And when this was
happening, we hadn't talked in quite a
while. And I'm usually very
uncomfortable with being touched a lot
by people that I'm not in a relationship with.
with.
But um I let him hold me while I was crying
crying
and he started kissing me in my face and
I let him do it. I was still sobbing a lot
lot
and then um suddenly
he tried to climb on top of me and
aggressively shoved his hand down my
pants and um I screamed.
I I Yeah. And when I screamed, he jumped
off me like a cat like.
And um instead of apologizing or
checking if I was okay, he said, "I feel
weird now. I feel like I did something
wrong. I have to go." And he immediately
left my house while I was still crying
without um checking if I was okay or
anything. And at the time, I was still
making excuses for him. And I was still
afraid of causing trouble for other
streamers around us or like, you know,
making things weird for viewers. I know
that probably sounds crazy, but like I
just felt this pressure like I
>> This is making me feel weird.
>> Try to keep things together if that
makes sense.
>> Accommodating a psycho.
>> Yeah. I felt like I'd caused trouble for
so many other people if I ever said
anything bad about him or if I caused
riffs in our friend group or streamer
group. I tried to stay on good terms
with him and hold everything in. And
also I still cared about him a lot and I
still still at that point had hope that
um things would get better and that you
and um he'd also always hammer into me.
>> Have you guys known somebody that this
has happened to before? physically
abused me because he never hit me. And
he would coach me and tell me to tell
people or other streamers who are asking
about it
>> because they were concerned. He would
say um tell he'd say tell them that I
never hit you. Make sure that they know
that I never hit you.
>> Very normal thing to coach somebody to
around the same time. Um this was during
Only Fangs 2, so I guess like Decemberish.
He would um often message me in the
middle of my streams and berate me
for things like playing the same class
as him in WoW because he thought it
would make people think that I was
better than him. So,
So,
>> and again, like I said earlier, I felt
like I was stuck in a constant loop
where I had to perform well to not be
thrown away. >> Yeah.
>> Yeah.
>> But if I perform too well, I was going
to be punished. And um >> I
>> I
actually wanted to show some of those messages
messages
because obviously a lot of these things
I um
>> Yeah, I'm I'm not gonna fully read these
out. This is only thanks to >> because
>> because
>> the second one
>> I honestly just don't want to read them
out but I feel like I want to show them
to like kind of
is better. Emmy this I can't have
anything. Emmy
>> post the V of this somewhere. So if you know
know
>> you just take
>> not tank.
>> Just that simple.
>> That's fine.
>> You've already played warrior when I
told you
>> and again this was
>> now I'm going to get compared nonstop.
>> You can literally go find the stream and
see me um trying to deal with this.
>> Don't tank
>> while I in the middle of a dungeon.
Don't dude me
>> to just play the [ __ ] game.
>> Let me handle all the hate.
>> Oh [ __ ] I think I
>> Such a serious situation. I feel like an
[ __ ] laughing, but this is so [ __ ]
ridiculous. It's insane, isn't it?
Oh my god.
>> Hank Emmy, do it. Let me handle all the
hate, the criticism, that you're worse
than Emy's. The Emmy is so much better.
The people saying you're better in every
chat. The comparison nobody will ever be
on my side.
>> He says there's no boundaries with you.
>> As you not to become a tank, you didn't
listen. And now it's the classic, what
was I supposed to do? I'm not dealing
with this. And like you can, like I
said, you can go find the stream.
>> That's what he said. But for context,
I was playing warrior in World of
Warcraft in like a level 24 dungeon. It
was like silver pine. Like it was just
like it wasn't even like
>> you can't just tank SFK. You can't just
tank SFK. You can't just do that.
yeah. Um
yeah, you can uh
um yeah, like I said before, hold on.
I was constantly trying so hard to
compromise with him because I wanted to
>> I wanted to be cool and I wanted us to
be able to coexist in the same streaming sphere.
sphere.
And but I felt like I could never win.
And he hated my whole existence like
ever since that one stream where I had
like a little bit more viewers than him.
And he would say that it was my fault
that his stream was dying because most
of his viewers liked me. And whenever he
hit on another girl, they would be
confused or not take it seriously
because they knew that me and him were
together privately.
And he said if he would be able to hit
on other girls and convince them that it
was real, he would get his career back.
Um that was like started within the last
couple of weeks that we spoke to each other.
other.
He started um saying terrible things to
me about other streamers in Austin. in
particular um one specific streamer who
I know there's a lot of people that know
he has beef with certain streamers. It
was not one of those streamers. It was
someone who to this day has been nothing
but nice to him. He would say horrible
things about this person like about them
in their stream. And it was just it was
very hard to listen to. And just in
general, he would say horrible things
about other streamers in Austin. like I
quote, "I hate everyone here. You are
all useless to me. You're worthless to
me because it does nothing for my stream
anymore to collab with any of you." >> Oh,
>> Oh,
>> and him saying that was the final straw
for me. The day that he said that to me
about other people was the first day
that I actually first time started to
ignore his calls and messages.
And um because of that, he even
threatened to come to my house if I
didn't answer.
But um I did end up calling him back and
I spoke to him and I basically told him
that I felt like I could finally see
things for what they were
and he started panicking and he was
super apologetic and he was saying he
didn't want to lose me which um wasn't
the first time that he like did
something like that and was like you
know basically begging me not to leave.
But that was definitely the most extreme time.
time.
And again, like I said, I always had the
hope that things would be cordial or
that, you know,
>> and she really tried.
>> We could be fine. So,
>> she really tried agreed we were going to
talk about all of that. Um,
we talked about it about a week later
and instead of apologizing for anything,
he basically told me that he realized he
needed to go to Japan and LA to get his
viewership back up and he was of course
basically too young to focus on
friendships and relationships.
And um
it was uh
I mean despite everything, like I said,
I still cared about him. So
I mean it was it was like a mix of
feelings, you know, like I was
devastated, but I was also so relieved.
Um but because of the past incidents
during like other fights and um times I
would try to separate myself from him,
past incidents during those times of him
manipulating me into staying close with
him and giving him more chances,
sexually assaulting me, um the abuse and
just him generally not being a very nice person.
person.
After that, I decided that the only
solution and way for me to move forward,
I made the hard decision, but I I know
now for sure the right one, was to
finally completely cut contact with him.
>> Good call.
>> I knew it'd be very hard because our
careers and our communities were so
intertwined, but I knew that I had to do
it and that there was no other choice. So,
So,
>> yep. I have not spoken to him since
January of this year.
It's been 10 months.
But uh you think that's the end. It is
uh unfortunately not.
I haven't spoken to him since January
this year.
It only took a couple of weeks, but soon
the messages started. Um
he has attempted to contact me over 40
times. over 40 times individually this
year in individual texts,
>> Discord messages, Instagram DMs, and
phone calls.
And um
at first it starts simple uh it' be
confusing messages or like him
expressing he was worried about things. >> Mhm.
>> Mhm.
It's just that you can go through and
bros got issues.
I mean, I've been down bad, but 40 times?
This is not someone who loves or cares
about you.
>> He's trying to get her to be amicable and
and
I'm not going to talk, by the way, about
like anything about this beyond what
she's going to talk about unless I'm
getting mentioned. Just so you guys know,
know,
just out of respect for her privacy, obviously.
obviously.
I know a lot of you guys want to know
more, but uh that's just what's going to happen.
>> It's why I never said anything.
I knew I knew this day would come.
>> This is only things that he sent to me.
I can't document all the things that
people told me that he was saying.
And um just kind of a funny side note I
guess I would like to highlight this message.
message.
>> Which one?
>> Because um
>> doesn't really matter.
>> I ran it through. >> No.
>> No.
>> Chat GPT. >> No.
>> No.
>> I just thought it was interesting.
>> Who knows, right?
It's a mystery.
yeah, um
like I said, at first
the messages were just simple things
like um him saying he was worried about
things or saying no one was talking to
him, which
>> I don't think was even true at the time.
I think he was just saying that to try
to guilt me into responding to him. I'm
not sure about that, of course. Um,
this also extended to in-person interactions
interactions
because initially I made the mistake of
thinking that I only had to cut him off
through private communication and, you
know, we would be fine
>> going to the same events and parties and such.
such.
>> Big mistake.
>> I also have to start Hold on. I'm still
I made the mistake of thinking that I
only had to cut him off um through
personal private communication,
but I also had to start avoiding going
to the same parties or places I was
worried he'd be in person
because um this was after interaction first,
first,
>> you know,
>> trip to Japan.
Um, there was a party that I attended
several months after I first went no
contact with him. I was aware that he
would be there and I thought it wouldn't
be I thought it'd be fine. I thought it
wouldn't be a big deal. I thought I'll just
just
>> let him have his space. I'll have my
space. You know, it's not a deal. We're
adults, right?
Um, during this party,
I felt like he was following me around
and monitoring me, monitoring me, but I
thought that I was just being paranoid.
Um, I was like, "You're probably, it's
probably just in your head." Um, I was
hanging out with Nick and Catchy and a
couple other friends.
And, um, at some point Nick was like,
"It's too [ __ ] loud down here. Let's
go upstairs. No one's upstairs. Let's
just go, you know, chill in a room. I
was not at this party. Talk where it's
not so loud.
>> Can you believe that?
>> And uh
>> actually, I think you probably can.
>> So, they as a group went upstairs first
without me, but it took me a bit longer
to um get up there because someone like
stopped me and was talking to me. And I
did feel like I mean, he was like
standing pretty close to that person. I
felt like he was watching me, but again,
I thought I was just being paranoid.
>> Mh. But um I went upstairs. I was
hanging out with Nick and Catchy and you know
know
our other friends and then about 30
minutes later
the room that we're in the door opens.
It's Miz. He opens the door, makes eye
contact with me, goes oo. And then
closes the door and leaves. And I was like,
like, >> see,
>> see,
>> what the [ __ ]
>> Wow. But again, I was still trying my
best to, you know, give the benefit of
the doubt, like, you know, maybe it's
just like
>> an awkward situation or something.
>> But a couple months later, the person
that he was hanging out with that night
reached out to me privately
and was apologizing. And I was like,
why? What's why? And they're like, I
just felt like I had to apologize to you
because I felt so bad and so embarrassed
of what was going on. Like, yes, he
wanted to see what you were doing. He
was saying like, "I want to go see
what's upstairs." And he was checking
every room. And then
>> after he opened the room that you were
in with Nick,
>> come on.
>> He closed the door and started laughing.
And then he just wanted to talk about,
you know, how you guys broke up for the
next like however many hours of the night.
night.
>> I wonder why.
>> So I was like, "Wow." Um >> Yeah.
>> Yeah.
>> Okay. Um >> next.
>> next.
>> That's good to know, I guess. Um
the next story um that I want to tell involves
involves
what happened to me, Valkyrie, and Senna.
Senna. >> Oh.
>> Oh.
>> Earlier this year when we were attacked
at the Santa Monica Pier because um that
was obviously
>> remember that.
>> Hold on, let me close all these [ __ ]
texts. I don't want to look at them.
yeah. So, yeah, happened March 3rd of
this year.
Um, a lot of people were talking about
it, talking about how me, Ray, and SA
were attacked.
Um, which was not an issue. Like we had
no issue with that. Like obviously big
news people are going to talk about it.
It should be talked about. We had like
no issues with anyone talking about it
and covering it and that included him.
>> I was I was fine with that. Um,
he um, yeah, he joined in on that whole
thing of people going live to talk about
it. And again, I'd like to remind people
at this point, we were already a couple
months into me being no contact with
him, making it clear I didn't want
anything to do with him. Um, and so
during this stream,
he was covering what happened to me, Ran Senna.
Senna.
He decided that he was going to
tell more of my personal stalker stories
that I've never personally talked about
or shared publicly myself.
>> And I wonder why. One of these stories
was one that like no one knew at all and like
like
it's just it just felt so shitty because
at the time that those things happened
>> you never talk about this [ __ ] >> like
>> like
>> you know all the people that lived in
that area together. We all came together
and we all kind of decided
>> and this was heavily pushed by him. We
should never talk about this
>> because you know people are going to be
weird. Um, it puts Emmy in more danger
and, you know, gives people ideas, so
we're never going to talk about it. But,
you know, of course, as soon as there's
some big drama that he's not involved in
and he finds a way to, you know, bring
up, oh, I was there for something that
happened to Emmy,
>> he's trying to
>> He does it. Um,
>> you you see you see what's going on.
>> He um, yeah, he was on a stream.
>> I was trying to save her personal mine and
and
>> uh, I caught wind of it. Um, and by the way,
way,
it was also so frustrating not saying
anything at this time because the way he
told those stories, he kind of framed
himself as like the hero. >> Yeah.
>> Yeah.
>> He was like, "Oh, I I held the stalker
at gunpoint."
No, no, no. The only person who ever
came into contact face to face with that
stalker before the police came was
Bonnie. Bonnie is the person who found
that guy outside, went inside, told
everyone, called the police, the police
came. All Miz did was he stood far away
from the front door behind glass and
metal with a gun. Yeah, I mean, I
understand. Still very scary, but why
are you acting like you like if anyone
deserves credit for that, it's Bonnie.
Like, it's literally stolen valor. I'm
so glad I finally get to say that
because she is the one who like kept
everyone in those two houses safe, not him.
him.
Anyway, um back to the original thing,
the Ray and Senna stuff. >> Um
>> Um
so, um
I was obviously panicking like I just
had this horrible thing happen to me the
night before. It was like huge, like
public, millions of people seeing it.
And then my crazy ex-boyfriend is going
live talking about more of my personal stuff
stuff
>> without asking.
>> And uh I'm like crying and uh SA and Ray
are like like what's wrong? And I I tell them
them
>> and I'm like panicking. I'm like I need
to call I need to call so and so. I need
to call so and so. I need to call so and
so. Like these different people that I
was like they they can contact him
because I did not want to contact him.
So, um, Ray, SA, some of me and M's
mutual business partners, and Asmin Gold
were all, um, messaging him to stop. And
by the way,
>> I will elaborate on this later.
>> Asmin Gold told me that he tried to call
>> while he was talking and it rang three times,
times,
>> two or three times.
>> Hung up.
>> And then I mean that he saw it.
>> That's right. He
>> cuz I called him twice.
>> I tried to call him two times. >> Yeah.
>> Yeah.
>> One of them rang like two or three
times. The other one did like 10.
>> A little note. Um
>> I'm not saying he didn't see it. Like
that's crazy, right?
>> Said to him, but I Ray and Sa told me
that they were messaging him being like,
"Bro, like stop. What are you doing?"
>> I finally did get in contact with him
and told him to stop.
>> And he that's why he went offline that
day who
>> were also equally as traumatized as me.
Of course, they had gone through the
same thing. Oh. Um, I don't What am I
doing wrong? I'm letting people know
what, you know, girls go through.
>> You go back and see the VOD.
>> Was that your job? Uh,
Uh,
>> interrupted my [ __ ] stream for this
[ __ ] for that psycho.
>> Happened a couple of months into me
being no contact. just so he could uh
[ __ ] virtue signal
>> arguing with SA while they're trying to
be like
>> I'm trying to protect them like you're
making it worse.
>> [ __ ] out of here.
>> Um he finished talking about my stuff
and then reacted to SA and Ray's whole
stream where they were crying addressing
their communities. Made sure to react to
that and then immediately went offline.
>> So yeah, that was a terrible weekend.
Um, I got threatened to be stabbed and
then the next day my uh weird ex was
going live trying to selfinsert so that
he could make sure to farm his own clips
>> and and viewers to get viewers. By the way,
way,
>> after that incident, his attempts to
talk to me only ramped up, which I showed
showed
text. Um, we went back to Japan and
during that trip, he was texting,
calling me, uh, trying to call me quite
a lot.
begging me to take him back. And at the
same time,
um, I heard that he was reaching out to
quite a few other streamers who know
both of us
and he was crying to them about how he
wanted to get back together and how he
thought someday we would reconnect and
eventually get married. Um, I think
>> totally normal.
>> I don't think he even meant that, but I
I hope not. But I assume he did that
with the hope that they would relay the
messages back to me since I wasn't
talking to him. And uh I mean some of
them did. Um
>> I also had a couple of people report to
me that he would obsessively watch my stream
stream
>> and not in a like, oh, I wonder what
Emy's doing right now way or like having
my stream open. Like he would be
obsessively and attentively hate
watching my stream. like watching my
stream and just saying horrible things
almost every time that I've been live
this year. Um, and they they tell me
that he would want to discuss how he
believed I still wanted him.
>> Of course.
>> Uh, interesting considering I never
replied. And he would ask other guys if
they thought I had slept with anyone uh
this year. They'd be like, "I don't
[ __ ] know, man." And then uh they
told me he would say stuff like, "No,
there's no way she's done that. She's
not like that and she's probably waiting
for me."
Uh just really [ __ ] gross stuff like that.
that.
Um and a couple of streamers in LA also
told me that he was telling people that
me and him still talk all the time, but
we simply weren't together anymore.
>> All about appearances. I was too mature
and I was not ready. I was too immature.
>> Emmy was too immature.
>> Um, but yeah, you couldn't see from the
messages I showed.
>> I mean, she didn't even break a hole in
a wall.
>> Like, I mean, people can go back and
read them.
>> How can you be ready to be married if
you're not ready to punch a hole in the wall?
wall?
>> Begging to take me to take him back for
the majority of this year, which was
seven or eight months total. And like I
said, some of those messages were even
uh I believe chat GPT.
Not that it really matters. It's just interesting.
interesting.
>> Very interesting.
>> Um as of today, it's been about two
months since he has attempted to contact
me directly. I think because about two
months ago was when he started kind of
getting scared that I might have been
like, you know, telling people things,
>> which again, I wasn't going out of my
way to do it, but if anyone ever asked
me, I wasn't going to lie to them. Um, I
mentioned this at the beginning before I
started like fully telling the story.
Um, I heard from my friends, other
streamers, and my employees that he had
cooked up a plot that if I ever tried to
talk about him, like about the abuse or
anything else, he would try to go live
and say that I killed my rabbits.
>> I have a story about this after
>> and I was told that he approached
several streamers who were around us a
lot together
>> and asked if they would basically back
him up and they refused. never approach me.
me.
>> Obviously, they're not insane. >> Um,
>> Um,
>> never talked to me about a single thing
about this.
>> Even something happened this weekend at
TwitchCon. One of my employees told me
he went up to them and he threatened
them saying, "If Emmy ever tries to talk
about me, I will destroy her." Um,
whatever that means.
>> Whatever that means. And within the same
night, he also texted one of my best
friends and he would have known that I
would have been with this girl. Um, he
texted her saying, "Hey, uh, worried
about her. Hope she's okay."
You know, right after he just said to my
employee and other people that he was
going to try to destroy my life.
Um, yeah, all in the same night.
And uh
yeah, that was Saturday. So that pretty
much leads us to today. Um
feel like it's clear I've spent the last
year of my life cutting him off and
building a new life with people that
actually care about me. >> Wow.
>> Wow.
>> And doing my best to move on peacefully
without causing any drama. I did not
want to do this. Um,
a lot of people, a lot of other creators
actually told me that after his other
allegations in 2022,
if I wasn't the first person to stand up
for him and start appearing on his
channel again, they do not think that
they would have gone back to helping him
um
>> just like the guilt, you know.
>> So, I
always tried to keep things private,
always tried to make things better, had
hope that things would get better, you
know, tried to be supportive. And my
thanks that I got for all of that was
abuse and resentment. And for all of
2025, all of this year harassment and
hatred from him and his community, while
he was the whole time secretly begging
for me to take him back behind the scenes,
scenes,
um, I've taken a lot of steps already.
As I said, it's apparent. I've taken a
lot of steps to restructure my life and
be a lot more careful about who I help,
who I invest my time and my care into.
This is supposed to be streaming video
games now, but I felt like this was a necessary stream because like I said at
necessary stream because like I said at the very beginning,
the very beginning, >> I have heard that he has done things to
>> I have heard that he has done things to other people that aligned with some of
other people that aligned with some of my own experiences. So, I felt like it
my own experiences. So, I felt like it would be wrong for me to keep holding on
would be wrong for me to keep holding on to all this information.
I um I I know I stayed for way too long and I thought that I could help and I
and I thought that I could help and I unfortunately learned that I couldn't,
unfortunately learned that I couldn't, but I worked really hard to have the
but I worked really hard to have the life that I have now with my friends, my
life that I have now with my friends, my family, my pets, and my community. And
family, my pets, and my community. And I'm so grateful for how things are now.
I'm so grateful for how things are now. Um it was very difficult, but I'm very
Um it was very difficult, but I'm very proud of myself for making the choices
proud of myself for making the choices that I did to end up where I am now. And
that I did to end up where I am now. And um
um yeah, that's um
yeah, that's um that's my story of um dealing with
that's my story of um dealing with abuse, um psychological and domestic
abuse, um psychological and domestic abuse, um sexual assault, and um
abuse, um sexual assault, and um stalking
stalking and being threatened
and being threatened on if you know I ever talked about it.
on if you know I ever talked about it. Um, and this whole time it's been kind
Um, and this whole time it's been kind of hidden in plain sight away from
of hidden in plain sight away from hundreds of thousands of people.
hundreds of thousands of people. >> Yep.
>> Yep. >> And, uh,
>> yeah. Um, I know that me saying all of this probably isn't going to make him or
this probably isn't going to make him or what's left of his community leave me
what's left of his community leave me alone, but I'm E. Sorry, voice crack. I
alone, but I'm E. Sorry, voice crack. I know talking about this probably won't
know talking about this probably won't make him or sorry probably won't make
make him or sorry probably won't make him or what remains of his community
him or what remains of his community leave me alone, but um
leave me alone, but um I'm at least glad that people will be
I'm at least glad that people will be aware of all of this now and I won't
aware of all of this now and I won't have to feel like I'm hiding a terrible
have to feel like I'm hiding a terrible dark secret anymore.
And uh it's all out there now. And I also want to make it clear that um
And I also want to make it clear that um not everyone that I interact with or
not everyone that I interact with or that I'm friends with knew the extent of
that I'm friends with knew the extent of the things that were happening.
the things that were happening. And a lot of streamers didn't really
And a lot of streamers didn't really know anything at all. But I mean, like I
know anything at all. But I mean, like I said before, people aren't stupid. I
said before, people aren't stupid. I think it's pretty clear that a lot of
think it's pretty clear that a lot of people knew that things were happening.
people knew that things were happening. And like I said, you have to remember
And like I said, you have to remember it's not just me. A lot of people have
it's not just me. A lot of people have told me that they have their own, you
told me that they have their own, you know, grievances with him.
know, grievances with him. >> Oh, yeah.
>> Oh, yeah. >> Um, but for the people
>> Um, but for the people who did know about this, um, thank you
who did know about this, um, thank you for being there for me through all of
for being there for me through all of this and supporting me and cheering me
this and supporting me and cheering me on.
on. Um, and there were a lot of people as
Um, and there were a lot of people as well who even though they didn't know
well who even though they didn't know anything without asking any questions,
anything without asking any questions, they still were very kind and supportive
they still were very kind and supportive and I will always remember that for the
and I will always remember that for the rest of my life.
rest of my life. Um
um I also want to say just so people know that I'm not just trying to like
know that I'm not just trying to like put this out there and then you know I
put this out there and then you know I am already in the process of filing a
am already in the process of filing a restraining order on him
restraining order on him >> in both Texas and California.
>> in both Texas and California. >> Thank God.
>> Thank God. Um,
Um, >> and I also wanted to say that I would
>> and I also wanted to say that I would not be surprised if he tries to sue me
not be surprised if he tries to sue me for this stream that I did today and for
for this stream that I did today and for coming out about him,
coming out about him, >> not because he thinks that he would win,
>> not because he thinks that he would win, but for PR reasons, like a slap lawsuit.
but for PR reasons, like a slap lawsuit. Um, it'd be interesting if that
Um, it'd be interesting if that happened. And I wouldn't be opposed to
happened. And I wouldn't be opposed to people finding out more of the truth and
people finding out more of the truth and things that I didn't even talk about
things that I didn't even talk about today and what else he's been lying
today and what else he's been lying about. And I'm sure there's also plenty
about. And I'm sure there's also plenty of things that even I don't know about.
of things that even I don't know about. And uh
And uh >> yeah.
>> yeah. >> Yeah. There's more things that I didn't
>> Yeah. There's more things that I didn't even talk about today. But I'm hoping
even talk about today. But I'm hoping that now that I have this out, this is
that now that I have this out, this is the last time I ever have to talk.
the last time I ever have to talk. >> Discovery is a [ __ ]
>> Discovery is a [ __ ] >> I can be like, "Okay, I got it out
>> I can be like, "Okay, I got it out there. I'm not withholding this anymore.
there. I'm not withholding this anymore. It's out there.
It's out there. And uh
And uh yeah,
I guess that's uh pretty much it. Definitely not.
Definitely not. >> What a day.
>> What a day. >> How I would have been liked how I would
>> How I would have been liked how I would have liked to spend my Saturday.
have liked to spend my Saturday. >> Oh, it's Saturday. I thought it was like
>> Oh, it's Saturday. I thought it was like Wednesday.
Wednesday. >> I would have loved to uh go to karaoke
>> I would have loved to uh go to karaoke with my friends.
with my friends. or something like that instead.
A lot of people like karaoke, right guys? Um
right guys? Um >> yeah.
>> yeah. >> Yeah. Um I think that's it. I'm probably
>> Yeah. Um I think that's it. I'm probably going to take some time off. I'm not
going to take some time off. I'm not sure. Like I genuinely have no idea what
sure. Like I genuinely have no idea what the response to this all is going to be
the response to this all is going to be like. I really just want to, like I
like. I really just want to, like I said,
said, do my best to move on from this because
do my best to move on from this because I've already been doing that for a year.
I've already been doing that for a year. Like I said, I feel like that's pretty
Like I said, I feel like that's pretty clear. Um,
yeah, that's pretty much it. Um, thank you guys for today. Um
um I asked my editor if he would put this on YouTube for if you guys want to
this on YouTube for if you guys want to look at, you know, any of the things
look at, you know, any of the things that I shared today. But like I said,
that I shared today. But like I said, all of these the streams that I referred
all of these the streams that I referred to today are public. You can easily find
to today are public. You can easily find them. And um all the people that I
them. And um all the people that I mentioned today gave me permission to
mentioned today gave me permission to mention them. Except I think I mentioned
mention them. Except I think I mentioned Mr. Beast Stoops, but I mean he's not
Mr. Beast Stoops, but I mean he's not involved.
involved. >> Jimmy, you'll be fine.
>> Jimmy, you'll be fine. Yeah,
Yeah, >> Jimmy's fine.
>> Yeah, I don't know. I never thought that I would be doing this stream, so it
I would be doing this stream, so it feels really weird to have done it, and
feels really weird to have done it, and it's uh it's over now.
Yeah. Well, now you guys uh know everything
everything and uh all the
and uh all the things I've been holding in for the past
things I've been holding in for the past couple years.
couple years. >> Damn.
>> Damn. >> So, yeah. Um, thank you guys for
>> So, yeah. Um, thank you guys for listening. Um, hopefully I'll be able to
listening. Um, hopefully I'll be able to keep giving updates on the TwitchCon
keep giving updates on the TwitchCon stuff,
stuff, >> but I'm hoping to
>> but I'm hoping to put this other
put this other chapter behind me. And like I said, I
chapter behind me. And like I said, I don't know what's going to happen, but
don't know what's going to happen, but I feel very confident that this was the
I feel very confident that this was the right thing to do, and
right thing to do, and I don't regret any of it.
I don't regret any of it. Thank you guys. Um,
Thank you guys. Um, I'm going to go spend time with my
I'm going to go spend time with my friends
friends and
and hopefully I will see you guys all very
hopefully I will see you guys all very soon.
Well, um, >> I guess that's it.
it's sad. It really is. Um, I uh, you know, like I don't want to elaborate
you know, like I don't want to elaborate on any other further things about this.
on any other further things about this. I can kind of talk to the extent that I
I can kind of talk to the extent that I knew about it a little bit, but I don't
knew about it a little bit, but I don't want to kind of go and, you know, turn
want to kind of go and, you know, turn this into like a, you know,
this into like a, you know, continuation.
continuation. But I can talk about kind of what
But I can talk about kind of what happened. Uh, I guess the first thing I
happened. Uh, I guess the first thing I can talk about is the pier, which is the
can talk about is the pier, which is the thing that I got mentioned with. Uh,
thing that I got mentioned with. Uh, which is I was starting my stream. It
which is I was starting my stream. It was the beginning of my stream. I
was the beginning of my stream. I remember uh
remember uh I was like I don't know like maybe an
I was like I don't know like maybe an hour into my stream or something like
hour into my stream or something like that. I got a call from Emaru and I was
that. I got a call from Emaru and I was like what the [ __ ] And this was like
like what the [ __ ] And this was like the day after the pier thing had
the day after the pier thing had happened and I saw that Mizkiff had gone
happened and I saw that Mizkiff had gone live earlier in the day. He almost never
live earlier in the day. He almost never does that. And I was thinking to myself,
does that. And I was thinking to myself, I was like, "Oh, maybe he went live to
I was like, "Oh, maybe he went live to farm viewers and talk about this,
farm viewers and talk about this, right?" But then uh she calls me and
right?" But then uh she calls me and she's crying and uh Rey and SA and one
she's crying and uh Rey and SA and one of their managers is there too and I'm
of their managers is there too and I'm talking to all four of them and this is
talking to all four of them and this is I muted the stream and uh this is why by
I muted the stream and uh this is why by the way I haven't reacted to any Miz
the way I haven't reacted to any Miz clips in the last like 6 months. I
clips in the last like 6 months. I haven't talked about Miz in the last six
haven't talked about Miz in the last six months. I haven't had anything to do
months. I haven't had anything to do with them like a year.
This is the reason. And so,
And so, so I've scrolled past every clip. I
so I've scrolled past every clip. I haven't talked about anything. And so
haven't talked about anything. And so I call him the first time
I call him the first time and it rings like two or three times.
and it rings like two or three times. Nothing happens
Nothing happens immediately. Sorry. It gets hang it
immediately. Sorry. It gets hang it hangs hangs up and I'm like, "Okay,
hangs hangs up and I'm like, "Okay, well, whatever." I just I call again
well, whatever." I just I call again because like, you know, sometimes like,
because like, you know, sometimes like, "Oh, it's just a random call." But like
"Oh, it's just a random call." But like usually if somebody calls you two times
usually if somebody calls you two times in a row, it's like, "Okay, this is
in a row, it's like, "Okay, this is serious, right?
serious, right? And so then I call him again and the
And so then I call him again and the rings were like, you know, it was like
rings were like, you know, it was like three and then the other one was like
three and then the other one was like seven or eight. So like I I don't I
seven or eight. So like I I don't I don't know this happened, right?
don't know this happened, right? Obviously I don't know this happened,
Obviously I don't know this happened, but um
but um I uh I I I think he he either like I
I uh I I I think he he either like I don't even know if he had the phone,
don't even know if he had the phone, right? But I think that whoever had the
right? But I think that whoever had the phone saw the call and chose to decline
phone saw the call and chose to decline it.
it. I think that's what happened. I don't
I think that's what happened. I don't know. I don't know if that's what
know. I don't know if that's what happened.
happened. Um,
Um, so
swiped it. Yeah, that's what I think. And so, but then I called him later on
And so, but then I called him later on and he said he's freaking out. And I
and he said he's freaking out. And I explained I was like, "Okay, well, this
explained I was like, "Okay, well, this is why and this is this is what happened
is why and this is this is what happened and this is the reason." And you know,
and this is the reason." And you know, he's uh [ __ ]
um you know, obviously I I knew more about
you know, obviously I I knew more about this than he thought that I knew with
this than he thought that I knew with this situation cuz Emmy had called me
this situation cuz Emmy had called me and I I had to explain it to him. But
and I I had to explain it to him. But like I didn't want to
like I didn't want to I didn't want to involve myself in this
I didn't want to involve myself in this either because like this is like I knew
either because like this is like I knew she was like no contact with him. And at
she was like no contact with him. And at this point, pretty much everybody in the
this point, pretty much everybody in the org, at least not everybody, but a lot
org, at least not everybody, but a lot of people are starting to like get this
of people are starting to like get this vibe with him. But and and this is also
vibe with him. But and and this is also another thing is that a lot of the
another thing is that a lot of the people that have collaborated with Miz
people that have collaborated with Miz don't know anything about this. They
don't know anything about this. They didn't know anything about this. and
didn't know anything about this. and it was explicitly hidden as much as
it was explicitly hidden as much as possible in order to make sure that
possible in order to make sure that nobody knew about it in any capacity by
nobody knew about it in any capacity by them because they didn't want any of
them because they didn't want any of this to get out at all.
this to get out at all. And so
And so does like I I I don't know. I'm not
does like I I I don't know. I'm not going to I'm not going to get into the
going to I'm not going to get into the specifics. Right.
specifics. Right. Hidden by who? Well, Miz and Emmy. I
Hidden by who? Well, Miz and Emmy. I mean, Emmy was afraid that if the
mean, Emmy was afraid that if the information got out and Miz made her
information got out and Miz made her afraid if the information got out that
afraid if the information got out that it would negatively affect affect Miz in
it would negatively affect affect Miz in multiple ways and so he didn't want that
multiple ways and so he didn't want that to happen. Uh that's that's more of
to happen. Uh that's that's more of their interpersonal stuff and that's
their interpersonal stuff and that's what she said on stream. And so I'm not
what she said on stream. And so I'm not going to elaborate beyond that. There is
going to elaborate beyond that. There is of course elaboration, but there's, as I
of course elaboration, but there's, as I said, I'm not going to, this isn't like
said, I'm not going to, this isn't like an encore where I'm going to like
an encore where I'm going to like further explain why she did or didn't do
further explain why she did or didn't do something because it's just that, as I
something because it's just that, as I said, I I and I I said at the beginning,
said, I I and I I said at the beginning, right, I said it, you know, a while ago,
right, I said it, you know, a while ago, it's like it it will be bad and it's not
it's like it it will be bad and it's not my story to tell. And I think you guys
my story to tell. And I think you guys can see why. Now,
can see why. Now, I I apologize uh for two things. uh for
I I apologize uh for two things. uh for vague posting about it and saying that.
vague posting about it and saying that. And I also apologize for uh platforming
And I also apologize for uh platforming him, right? I mean, I I the truth is I
him, right? I mean, I I the truth is I couldn't have known I didn't know any of
couldn't have known I didn't know any of this whenever I met him. Whenever we
this whenever I met him. Whenever we started OTK together, I had no idea.
started OTK together, I had no idea. And when I did realize, you can see kind
And when I did realize, you can see kind of the way that I dealt with it and
of the way that I dealt with it and everything. And it's just like in stream
everything. And it's just like in stream like this is the reason why I I I
like this is the reason why I I I [ __ ] like I like when Lewig had that
[ __ ] like I like when Lewig had that clip about like 95% of streams I got to
clip about like 95% of streams I got to talk to again. I was like yes bro like
talk to again. I was like yes bro like yes you right. Like the thing that
yes you right. Like the thing that happened in 2022
happened in 2022 uh was kind of like the beginning of the
uh was kind of like the beginning of the end for me with like being friends with
end for me with like being friends with any streamers or anything like that. And
any streamers or anything like that. And I have like a very small circle now of
I have like a very small circle now of people that I'm close with. And um
is it true lies about being part of OTK? Um
I I really like and I I I just I would love to answer that but I'm not going to
love to answer that but I'm not going to answer that.
answer that. And also and I think that like again
And also and I think that like again with that
with that with a there is there are people that
with a there is there are people that can answer that and those people are not
can answer that and those people are not me. And I I will say again that
me. And I I will say again that this is not the end.
this is not the end. And from things that I've heard,
I I just I don't know. I I a lot of times I think and it's like if
a lot of times I think and it's like if I could go back would I would I undo all
I could go back would I would I undo all of it and it's like there's a a huge
of it and it's like there's a a huge part of me that feels like I should have
part of me that feels like I should have right I should have never done any of
right I should have never done any of this at all because it's just led to so
this at all because it's just led to so much trauma and stress and like just I I
much trauma and stress and like just I I just I [ __ ] man like you can't foresee
just I [ __ ] man like you can't foresee things.
things. I mean I live very far away from them. I
I mean I live very far away from them. I was very separated from their everyday
was very separated from their everyday life. I didn't know any of this. And the
life. I didn't know any of this. And the time that I did, I I did everything that
time that I did, I I did everything that I could to uh, you know, [ __ ]
I could to uh, you know, [ __ ] make sure that this stuff didn't get
make sure that this stuff didn't get worse, right? And
worse, right? And it's not your fault. Yeah, it it And
it's not your fault. Yeah, it it And also, it's really not about me. Uh, the
also, it's really not about me. Uh, the truth of the matter is, the irony of all
truth of the matter is, the irony of all of this is that I've heard Msk has done
of this is that I've heard Msk has done things privately and to other people
things privately and to other people that have made me look bad, but Miskf
that have made me look bad, but Miskf has never actually explicitly done
has never actually explicitly done anything really bad to me. Uh, never.
anything really bad to me. Uh, never. He's never really like he's made jokes
He's never really like he's made jokes maybe once or twice, but like he it's
maybe once or twice, but like he it's actually never really he's actually
actually never really he's actually never really done anything to me.
never really done anything to me. And so
And so like
but he he I again I I I would I would say more, right? I would say more, but I
say more, right? I would say more, but I just don't really think that um
just don't really think that um I I I don't really think that it's it's
I I I don't really think that it's it's appropriate for me to say more and
appropriate for me to say more and elaborate on Four.
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