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True personal growth and higher consciousness are fundamentally achieved by consistently and honestly admitting one's wrongness, which requires introspection, humility, and a willingness to confront deeply ingrained self-deceptions and structural limitations.

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make sure you stick around for the

second half of this episode where I'm

going to give a detailed list of things

I was wrong about these are new things

that I haven't discussed before and

they're going to be very nuanced subtle

things Advanced ways of being wrong

which will be Illuminating for you and

also I'm sure you'll get a thrill out of

that so stick around for that but before

we get there let's set up some

Foundation there's just one core idea in

this whole episode which is that growth

requires admitting that you were

wrong I was

yet as simple as that is it's hard to

get people to actually do

it so this idea is so

simple but the trick is how do you how

do you get it to sink into somebody's

mind that's the challenge here and I've

been racking my mind around that and in

fact this is something that uh comes up

over and over again in all these

episodes that I do is it's like uh the

challenges that the ideas are often very

simple but then getting them to sink in

is the the difficult part getting you to

see the power and depth of them and all

the ways in which they can be

applied that's the trick that's why a

long discussion is necessary because

sure you can do a 10-minute long video

that just tells you some of the basics

but it's just going to go in one ear and

out the other it's not really going

to change how you think about these

things which is the whole point of

stuff so we need to communicate its

power and all the subtlety and nuance

and all the different potential for

mistakes and all the psychological

trickery Behind These otherwise

principles and then that's what gets you

to start to change because the biggest

problem in all this work is that it just

you're sitting there watching and you're

just watching and nothing changes in

your life you get Theory empty Theory

this so

anyways I was wrong is the magic phrase

skill and of course also before you can

admit you were wrong you have to be able

to notice that that you're wrong if you

can develop that skill as well that

whole thing is the skill of I was wrong

let's call that that that label um this

is where you're going to see a lot of

growth that other people miss out

on now you can have insight into how

your attitude towards anything in life was

was

wrong and once you clearly see that you

can't quite behave in the same ways

anymore just as a basic example and

we'll have a lot more coming here in a

minute but basic example is an atheist

experience as long as he doesn't deny

that and he really takes it in he'll

realize that he was wrong about all of

religion like fundamentally wrong deeply

wrong it's not just like a little

mistake he made it's like he made a

fundamental epistemic metaphysical

error and now his whole attitude towards

religion has to change so there's also a

burden that comes with admitting you

not only does it bruise your ego but but

sacrifice as another example just think

of uh one of your old romantic

relationships one that is a few years

old or more and you're out of it you're

over it you're done you're at peace but

see now you can look back and you can

ask yourself what are all the mistakes I

made in that relationship and you can

clearly see the mistakes and you

couldn't see them at all before when you

were in the middle of

it so that tells you something it's like

you were in a trans when you were in

this relationship and now you're out of

that trans you can look back upon it

with perspective with the benefit of

time with the benefit of new experiences

more theory that you learned which now

helps you look back analyze the

situation sort of we might say

objectively that's the trick when you're

in the thick of it it's really difficult

what I mean when I say being wrong is

not just identifying some false belief

you have but noticing your approach or

attitude towards a thing or a

situation noticing that that is wrong

for example changing how you relate to

women changing how you relate to

money changing how you relate to

criticism changing how you relate to to

spirituality if you really want to

change these things you're going to have

to be admitting a lot of I'm wrong on

these and the mind gets stuck in a

certain orientation a certain way of

relating to these things and then

changing that becomes quite tricky so we

need to undo that in order to get your mind

mind

unstuck reaching the highest stages of

development requires seeing things in in

new ways fundamentally new ways not just

rearranging the little details of your

perspective but like really a shift 180

degree shift in your perspective on a

situation that's what we're after

here so where are you wrong in your

sensemaking framework see everything

we're talking about with this work is is

really grounded in how you make sense of

things the mistakes all begin there

because if you're not making sense of of

a situation or a domain of Life properly

then all sorts of mistakes will fall

from fall out from that as a natural

consequence um and then you're not going

to be able to fix those mistakes unless

you track them backwards sort of reverse

engineer them and get to the sense

making framework that led to those

problems this includes your biases

judgments interpretations core

assumptions core beliefs your attitudes

in its attempts at making sense of

reality your mind is already wrong about many

many

things you're just not aware of it your

mind is hiding it from you so this is a

key thing for you to realize because

um most

people if you tell them well what are

you wrong

about they're just going to kind of like

like what are you wrong about in

your sense making of reality they're

just going to kind of shrug their

shoulders like well I'm sure I'm wrong

about a few things but I I don't know

like nothing

major this is how most people would

react to that but what you have to see

is that that is an illusion that is

complete illusion you are wrong about so

many deep and fundamental

things and so how do you how do you

actually get somewhere with that cuz if

if you just sit down and ask yourself

how am I wrong you're not going to get

very far which is why we want to talk

about this some

more it's very easy to see how other

people are wrong it's very difficult to

see how you're wrong especially in more

fundamental ways the more fundamental

the error the harder it is to see

because the more consequences it has for

your psyche in your

life and it's very easy

to distract yourself from this

responsibility because it is your

responsibility to figure out how you're

wrong by externalizing

the wrongness onto others in the world

and then see you're going to fall into

the Trap of going around pointing out

everybody else's wrongness but then of

course that's just a distraction from

searching for your own the

counterintuitive move is to turn

inwards that search that energy because

you're using energy you only have so

much time and energy in in the day what

towards now of course even though I said

just sitting down alone in a room and asking

asking

yourself how am I wrong uh that's

limited but still you should do that I

mean it's better than what most people

do which is that they never even do that

so I do recommend as a basic exercise

that after this episode is done or soon

after as soon as you have some time sit

down alone in a room for an hour with

the notepad and just ask yourself what

are all the ways I'm wrong

you might be surprised at how many

answers your mind just supplies to you

of course this assumes that you're

open you have to be open you have to be

honest and as you're doing that notice

how that feels there will probably be

some resistance to you doing that maybe

some procrastination to this exercise

that's not by

accident this is not one of those comfortable

comfortable

exercises and also uh notice your mind

uh notice your mind maybe even getting

foggy like as you think back into your

life you what are all the things I've

been wrong about you might even notice

that your mind just it stops working for

some reason it's like ah you know I

don't I'm kind of tired I'm kind of

sleepy I can't remember things so

well of course you

can't um that's your mind resisting so notice

that uh and just see how far you

get um you should do this periodically

in your life maybe once every couple of

years you know sit down and go through this

this

exercise of course like I said it's not

going to be

enough it will take you years to find

many ways in which you were

wrong and just doing it logically like

this is not going to be enough

realistically what you're going to need

is you're going to need some emotional

motivation especially negative emotional

motivation some

suffering as is otherwise known

now beware that the mind will trick you

and it will use

shallow forms of wrongness to avoid

facing more fundamental and deep

wrongness right so you can be wrong in

Shallow ways and you can be wrong in

deep ways and a lot of

what people do in order to kind of put

on this air of I'm a humble person you

I'm a humble spiritual person so of

course I can't admit that I'm never

wrong right so to be a proper humble

spiritual person I have to admit some of

my faults and so you do admit some of

your faults but they're like very

shallow ineffective they don't really

change you in a in a fundamental

way it's like yeah you know uh I'm wrong

in that I'm a perfectionist I'm wrong in that

that

um uh you know I I demand too much of

myself you know these kind of like this

is kind of like

bullshit where are you like really wrong

where are you wrong in a way that it

threatens you where you'd have to change

how you live that's what we're

here of course admitting you were wrong

is very painful to the ego there's a

Wall of Resistance

there uh the mind is so averse to

admitting that it's wrong and that keeps you

you

stuck and then there's a denial of

wrongness and that becomes the

Trap and then the problem is that a lot

of times when other people point out

your wrongness to you or they

try the ego is so uh stubborn that

there's there's almost like a reverse

psychology at play the more people tell

you you're wrong the more the ego denies

it and defends itself because it feels

threatened that's why sitting alone in a

room is is a is a better way to go about

it because a lot of times people will

tell you ways in which you're wrong and

your mind just doesn't take it

defensive what you really want to do is

you want to avoid becoming someone like

I was thinking of an example of this

like what's what's an example of someone

in the public who's like very wrong and

so stubborn and just will never admit it

and I was thinking I mean there's many

examples that you can probably think of

but like what came to me is this

professor Dave guy on YouTube there's

this YouTuber called Professor Dave who

teaches science um and uh man is this

guy uh is is this guy like stubborn in

his materialism and his scientism like

this is he's like the poster boy of all

the the problems of scientism that we've

discussed um and look I'm not trying to

judge him or I don't I don't care about

demonizing him or any of that but just

like don't become that guy right like

that's the that's the reason we're

having this conversation is because if

you get stuck like that in some Paradigm

and you just keep doubling down on and

doubling down on and you can see the

psychological mechanisms that the mind

has to employ to keep like it has to

keep doing these mental gymnastics and

rationalizations and denials and then

acting out and then this arrogance comes

from that and

look uh I'm very guilty of arrogance

myself so I I can't judge him for for

the arrogance too much um but

um the important thing is not that you

make mistakes or that you're wrong it's

that you admit it

your willingness to admit it there has

that sometimes you're unable to admit

that you're wrong simply because of the

way that your life is structured there's

a structural Dimension to this which

which is really where where this gets

deep and interesting for example you

work at

Academia that's like the structure of

your life you devoted your life to

Academia there are things

that are wrong with with the Academia

system that you will never be able to

admit to yourself as long as you're in

paycheck another example is that you're

trapped inside of a family situation

with a husband and children let's say

you're a

wife you have a husband who's um abusive

or the way that he earns money is

through some sort of like criminal activity

but now you can't admit that to yourself

yet you turn a blind eye to it you make

excuses for it because why because

structurally you're really

stuck you want to keep your marriage you

want to keep it for the sake of your

children what's going to happen if you

start raising you know too much of a

fuss over the way he that he earns money

or the way that he maybe suddenly

manipulates or abuses you um

most likely you're going to find ways to

rationalize that and just to kind of

stick in there because after all

marriage does require a commitment right

and that's not wrong but um uh

structurally right cuz cuz really to

admit that you're wrong in that

situation that's going to imply that you

have to change the structure of your

life you're probably going to have to

get a divorce you're have to figure out

what to do with the kids and so forth

you might even lose your children

how how is a how's a mother going to

lose her

children how's that going to work right

realistically she's uh

she's she's got a gun to her head she

can't admit that she's

wrong I actually my

my um my my last former girlfriend um

she was

uh she was in a marriage like that she had

had

cult um and then she had to break out of

that think of how difficult it is to

break out of that your husband's a

Mormon everyone you know is a Mormon you

were a

Mormon you have this otherwise Happy

Family Life you have

children and then you realize that all

of that is bullshit all of that is

occult all of that is corrupt and

abusive and

criminal at

times and isn't really aligned with with

spirituality and so forth how do you how

do you leave that

situation in the end she ended up losing

her her children but she left that

situation they took her kids

kids

that's you know that's heavy heavy stuff

that's not like as simple as just oh

admitting some innocent little mistake

like oh yeah I'm a perfectionist no it's like

no you're your whole way of life is

wrong that's what we're talking about uh

another example of this kind of

structural problem is um if you work

inside the

government you're in a very uh you know

corrupt system structurally and

structurally you can't speak out because

they'll fire

you they'll destroy your

career or for example if you're if

you're wealthy and you're attached to a

certain kind of easy luxurious lifestyle

maybe you go to these fancy exclusive

parties or

nightclubs you go on these luxurious

vacations and Yachts and cruises I mean

this is like a a great life on the

surface but then maybe you realize that

all of the money that is funding this

kind of lifestyle that it's actually

coming from let's say your Rich Daddy

and your Rich daddy how is he getting

all this money by screwing people over

on Wall Street through some sort of

White Collar you know scams and

that how do you then admit to yourself

wrong and of course

uh the

simplest structural problem is any

anytime you're getting paid hu paid huge

amounts of money for whatever ever work

you do is going to be very difficult for

you to admit that that work is

wrong and the more money they pay you

be and lastly for example uh the

structural thing is um if you have a

public Persona to defend if you're a

public intellectual if you're a public

author if you're a well-known

celebrity if you're a social media

influencer God

forbid you have this

Persona to

defend and what's going to happen when

you admit that you were

wrong and so there's a fear of the

consequences okay so what's the

technique here for for for this work

basically identify where you're

wrong face it look at it hold that

wrongness in your awareness admit it to

yourself and then explicitly say to

yourself I was wrong in that

situation that's going to trigger a mini

grieving process maybe a major grieving

process but at least a mini one if it's

a significant wrong then a mini grieving

process where you feel your ego is

bruised you start to experience some

emotional stuff come up probably some

negative emotions you're going to start

to feel embarrassed at yourself you're

going to start to feel like a fool

you're going to start to have

regrets and what you want to do is you

just want to go through that process

that grieving

process that's what's healing you that's

healthy uh give yourself time to go

through that and you know spend time in

self-reflection going through that

grieving process and just introspecting

about it and coming to peace with

it and as you're doing that ask yourself

how will my behavior change going

forward remember my episode learning

equals Behavior change well this

that this situation is going to be

painful because you're going to

fool that you were tricked that you

tricked yourself or somebody else

tricked you and it makes you look like a

total fool and this contradicts your

self-image because you don't usually

think of yourself as a total fool but

now you're facing it and you have to

being wrong is embarrassing especially

if you've built up an identity about

being for example very intellectual or

being wise or being spiritually Advanced

or being some kind of expert in some

sort of

domain like uh Professor Dave has done

see Professor Dave has a lot invested in

being Professor Dave being the scientist

you know the sort of the Ambassador for

science the the Neil degrass Tyson of science

and then ask yourself how did I fall

into this self-deception because most

likely you're dealing with the self-deception

self-deception

here and think about the epistemology

right that's where when I talk about

this kind of abstract notion of

epistemology that's where it gets real

see here you can now consider what are

the epistemic gaps in my sense making

that led to

this situation to me getting this wrong

examining your epistemic assumptions of

for example into atheism if you're if

you're one of these atheists then you

realize that was wrong uh it's not

enough just to realize that oh yeah

atheism is wrong you have to go

further uh you have to you have to

examine how you fell into that trap

epistemically speaking and and likewise

you know if you're into fundamentalism

relig fundamentalist religion that's

also wrong right so at some point you're

going to realize fundamentalism

fundamentalist religion is wrong and you

have to but then you don't stop there

you have to actually go and respect the

epistemic assumptions that led you there

CU otherwise you'll you'll get into

another problem you know see what'll

happen is that if you don't really take

this opportunity to go deep into the

epistemics of the situation what's going

to happen is that you're going to let's

say Escape your fundamentalist religion

but then you're going to fall into

something else namely you're probably

going to fall into some sort of new age spirituality

spirituality

instead and then the problems will

repeat themselves but see you're not

going to see that because you're going

to miss the structure you're going to

think like well yeah fundamentalist

religion was was was stupid but uh but

I'm now I'm just going to do the new age

thing that's so much better it's so much

different well but there's so much

similarity between the two various kinds

of fantasy what really connects them is

fantasy you're following into fantasy

that and then as you're going through

this whole process you

know recognize that that is what Leo

means by self

deception cuz I've talked a lot with you

guys about self-deception but

self-deception in the abstract ways you

know I give you various like mechanisms

abstract mechanisms for how

self-deception works I also give you

examples but none of that is going to be

actually enough that's not the same

thing at all as actually confronting

your self-deception and seeing it in

practice and in fact you thinking you

understand self-deception because you've

listened to my three-part series called self-deception

self-deception

this itself then becomes the next trap

because you think you understand but but

you don't really see the self-deception

there's a difference between

understanding self-deception as a

concept and

seeing where you are self-

deceived now this whole process of

admitting that you're wrong

uh I'll make it much easier for you do

it for yourself just for yourself don't

worry about admitting to others or

publicly announcing that you were wrong

just do it for

yourself because that's what really

matters as long as you recognize that

you were wrong in whatever

situation that's what really matters

that's enough to change you and then

whether you admit it to others sure it

can be you can go the extra step of

admitting it to others that's nice um

but it's not it's not strictly necessary

and it might put too much burden on you

right because if you have to then reveal

this to your whole family and to your

all your co-workers and and your whole

uh social media audience that's like

that that just makes it more difficult

than it needs to

be now here's a list of examples of

things you could be wrong about just to

start to get you to see how this can be

applied uh the nature of

religion you can be wrong about that the

very nature of what is the origin and

purpose and function of religion

this is for example a trap that I call

this a Sam Harris trap he doesn't

understand what religion is and why it

exists he thinks he does but he

doesn't and uh maybe one day in his

career he'll come to realize that he was

fundamentally wrong about the nature of

religion uh I'm not going to hold my

breath but for him to admit that to

himself that's going to be very

difficult and then to admit that to all

of his atheist fans that's going to be

very very difficult because he's built a

whole persona career and audience

now uh around this you know what would

Sam Harris's audience do if he came out

and says that uh to them that guys I was

atheism that's that's tough that's tough

you know he has to admit that to himself

first which he probably won't do um next

you could be wrong about scientism

rationalism materialism pretty obvious

we've discussed that a lot before you

can be wrong about political radicalism

whether left or right forms of political

radicalism you get sucked into it you're

not going to even be aware that you get

sucked in and radicalized by the time

you're radicalized it's like you're an

occult but you can break out of that

people have broken out of that you know

just kind of like you awake you awaken

from the trans of that

radicalization and that's difficult to

do uh just in general you can be wrong

about all sorts of political views

on abortion on climate on war on

corruption on taxes and you can be wrong

in both directions so when I say that

you're wrong on abortion I'm not saying

that there's some one right way to look

at abortion and that that that's my way

that's like Leo's view on abortion is

the right way to view abortion no you

can be wrong from either direction on

issues and in fact you can be wrong on

these issues in in like even more

complex ways than just

being pro-abortion or anti-abortion

there's like a even deeper way you can

be wrong about that where you're wrong

at it from both sides in a sense we

could say that both the pro-abortion

people and the anti-abortion people

they're both wrong on abortion it's like

well how can that

be right um and likewise with climate

change both sides are wrong about

climate change the left and the right

are wrong about climate change and

likewise with with issues of war and

Taxation so like it's it's not simple at all

all

there's a lot of nuance here uh romantic

relationships there's a lot you can get

wrong in Ro romantic

relationships um that just that requires

a whole episode on its own there but I'm

sure you you've had realizations of uh

ways in which you've behaved in romantic

relationships that were wrong that some

of that stuff is pretty obvious in

retrospect views of the opposite sex you

can be wrong

there black pill ideology various forms

of misogyny a lot of young men are

falling into this right now and then um

it's going to take them years and

decades to admit this to themselves but

as they mature you know as you get out

of your 20s and into your 30s and 40s

you know once you're in your 40s you'll

see how much misogyny as a young man you

know immersed in online culture around

this whole topic how much misogyny

misogyny

uh you engaged in and it's going to be

rather ugly rather ugly to look at how you

you

behaved in your 20s for

example uh conspiracy theories of course

so many ways to be wrong about

conspiracy theor and very difficult to

admit to yourself that you subscribe to

one of these like just asinine

conspiracy theories whether it's flat

Earth I mean imagine being a flat

earther and then and then coming out of

that that you're you're just going to

feel so

embarrassed um you know I was thinking

you know

I shit on conspiracy theories all the

time but like um there's only one

conspiracy theory that I could think

that I fall have had fallen into um

which is the hollow Earth to me for a

while Hollow Earth seemed like it might

be sort of plausible that's really the

only one and in retrospect it's

embarrassing even just to admit this

right now but uh but hey look I'm trying

to help you so I'm admitting things

about myself that I would normally not

admit because I'm trying to model it for

you um so yeah so you got to like you

got to lean into your cringe lean into

your embarrassment and just

like that's the process here

really getting suckered into a bad

investment like it's really hard to

admit to yourself

that you made some really foolish

investment and then to admit it to your

family and so on like it's imagine

losing your your your family's life

savings by investing in some ridiculous

crypto scheme losing all of it and now

you have to go and admit it to them like that's

uh that that that's horrible uh on the

other hand you know the nice thing with

the bad investment is that you know

eventually like you can't deny a bad

investment eventually everyone's going

to know you lost the money so in that

sense it's kind of like an easy

one uh you can be wrong in criticisms

and Judgment of other people you're

going to be criticizing your parents

your children leaders in public wealthy people

people

celebrities your boss you're going to be

criticizing and judging all these people

very harshly

uh before you seriously

mature and then you're going to in

retrospect you're going to regret many

of those judgments and criticisms but

it'll probably take you a

while um you can be wrong about how

success works for example you could have

wrong ideas about that and maybe that's

what's keeping you poor and unsuccessful

women in order to get good at attracting

women you're going to have to you're

going to have to make some 180 degree

shifts Paradigm shifts in certain ways

that you understand how how dating and mating

Works some people call it the red pill

although you know the red pill has its

own problems so there's a you can also

like you can be wrong in a in a certain

sense then you break out of that and you

say oh how is so stupid for being wrong

in that sense then you break out of it

and you go into some new thing that you

think okay this is the right way and

then that turns out to be wrong too just

in a more nuanced way this time it's not

as grossly wrong so like for example um

a good example here is Michael Shermer

so he's he's like a public intellectual

skeptic type of person he runs skeptic

magazine uh similar to like one of these

Sam Harris types or David Dave Professor

Dave types um Michael shurmer used to be

a fundamentalist religious Christian

like a born again

Christian then when he when he matured

he realized that's nonsense he became a

skeptic now he adopted he shifted from

fundamentalist fundamentalist Christian

to skeptic of course that's an upgrade

that's an upgrade but now he's stuck in

the skepticism thinking that he's

escaped that now he he understands the

spe spiritual situation the the

religious situation he thinks he has a

handle on science and all this like it's

Preposterous he has no idea he's wrong

about so many things but like will he

ever realize that no because

he's he like the way his mind works is

that there's either this or this it's

like it's a very

binary right without appreciating that

you can be wrong in subtle like you know

the wrongness can be wrapped up with

with rightness in such a you know messy

way and likewise with the red p pill so

there's certain aspects of the red pill

which are right and are better than

let's say the blue pill but then the red

pill introduces its own errors that

you're going to have to transcend as

well and and by that I don't mean you're

going to go to the black pill because

the black pill is is really bad super

wrong um so right so your mind has to be

flexible enough to see like not in

binaries the binary thinking here is is really

really

wrong that's one thing you can realize

uh you can be wrong about how politics

and power really

works you can be wrong in your

assessment of the motives of

others you can be wrong in your

characterization and demonization of

alternative perspectives maybe you've

demonized in the past capitalists

hippies new agers Muslims trans

gays Libs and greens

greens

environmentalists maybe you ridiculed

certain people and ideas and then in the

future you'll realize you're wrong on

that and it's going to be embarrassing

for you to admit that cuz you were

probably a jerk to these people you

probably posted some nasty comments on

on Twitter or

wherever call these people names and

then turns out you're wrong and they

were right all along how

embarrassing uh wrong in in straw

Manning and misrepresenting some other

point of view different than your own so

much straw Manning go going on online

uh wrong in your assessment of where

others are wrong see you say well this

person is wrong and that person is wrong

and this is wrong and that is wrong and

Leo is wrong but then in the future

you'll realize that actually you were

the wrong one for pointing out the

wrongness in

others of course you could have been

right in certain areas too I'm not

saying you're wrong across the board I'm

saying you're wrong in in certain you

know specific nuanced ways at least I

hope so I hope you're not wrong Ross the

board there's people like that too uh

wrong in your understanding of

terrorists and terrorism that's a that's

a very common one I need to do a whole

episode I mean that that's it's hard to

do that episode

because uh the things that need to be

said about terrorism like um are very

Politically Incorrect but uh I should

get get to work on that one uh wrong in

in what you think your true motives were

for doing a thing that's a big one

that's a subtle one right like you you

can fool yourself about what your true

motives are for doing things you can

tell yourself you're doing it for some

sort of selfless motive when actually

there's a sort of a uh a hidden selfish

motive behind it and that's good to

recognize wrong in your justifications

and rationalizations I'll have a whole

episode in the future about

justifications rationalizations that's a

huge important topic wrong in your

interpretations of psychedelics and

mystical experiences a lot of ways to

misinterpret mystical experiences turn

them into fantasy sees and you start to

think that they mean things that they

don't really mean like let's say you

take some mushrooms and you see Jesus in

your trip what does that really

mean that's

tricky you can be wrong in your

understanding of SP dnamic

stages you think you understand what

stage green is or what stage yellow is

or what stage turquoise especially is or

even Coral dare I say uh the higher you

go up stages the more likely you are to misunderstand

them and and that actually actually

works kind of in Reverse as well the

lower you go down the stages you also

tend to misunder like it's easy to

misunderstand purple stage purple and

Stage red just because if you're living

in a developed part of the world if you

yourself are stage greenish which is Mo

where most of you probably are who

follow my work uh you you're going to

struggle understanding red and and

purple because just like you don't

experience them around you you don't

have a a frame of reference for it so watch

watch

out uh you can be wrong in pushing your

values onto others that's a that's a

tricky one I'll talk more about that as

I get into my own errors because i' I've

made that mistake uh wrong in your

closed-mindedness wrong in your

understanding of Enlightenment and

Awakening wrong in people uh in treating

people transactionally wrong in

dismissing some piece of advice that you

were given by somebody wiser than you

cuz you thought you knew

better wrong in your beliefs about your

own capacities you can both overestimate

your own capacities and you can

underestimate your own capacities if you

underestimate that's kind of like the

victim mentality but then overestimate

this gets you into arrogance you think

you know more than you do or you think

you can do more than you can really do

you might say to yourself well how hard

is it to to shoot a movie I can shoot a

movie you know these directors that are

making these shitty movies these days

you know they're idiots I'll make my own

movie and it's going to be great and

then you make your own movie and you

realize how awful it is and how

difficult it is to really make a movie

and this by the way this generally

applies to almost

business any kind of company where you

want to create any kind of product it's

all going to be way harder than you

thought you you're likely overestimating

your abilities to do these things and

with art you know writing a good song

making a good painting these things are

a lot harder than they

seem and you'll quickly discover that if

you try doing some of this which is why

a lot of a lot of people don't even try

because deep down they know they know

they're full of shit and they'll fail or

they fail so quickly into the process

they never even

realize right like you you start doing

film go actually try to make a try to

make a a good film like within a few

days you'll realize how hard it is most

likely and you'll

quit uh wrong in your online Behavior so

many so many mistakes happening there uh

wrong in trashing other

people eventually you realize all the

people you trash that was a

mistake wrong in your approach to

business and making

money wrong in your ethical orientation

of your

business there are a lot of unethical

ways to do business which you'll realize

as your Consciousness Rises see in

general if your Consciousness is low or

sort of average relative to the center

of gravity of of your Society a lot of

these things you're not ever going to

realize if we're wrong but as you go

beyond the center of gravity of your

culture more and more of these things

will become obviously wrong to you and

that's where it gets

difficult you can be wrong in being too

optimistic or pessimist too cynical too

skeptical too

trusting uh wrong in how you relate to

your children wrong in bullying others

wrong in being disrespectful towards

others wrong in judging your boss or

superiors this is a a very common trap because

because

um it's so easy to think that you know

better than your boss that your boss is an

idiot and sometimes that's true but in

most cases usually your boss knows more

than you has more experience than you

has more wisdom than you um and in fact

your boss can know so much more than you

that you don't even understand how much

your boss knows because your boss is

just too busy doing the things he needs

to do to keep you know the corporation

running and you in your little lowly

position as a newbie you like you have

no comprehension of what it takes to run

that business but you think you know you

think you could do a better job and then

a lot of times you may not understand

they may seem seem cruel to you they may

seem heartless to you like let's say

your boss fires somebody it's like well

why couldn't the boss be nicer but

there's higher issues at stake that you

will never realize unless you become a

boss yourself and then when you do

finally become a boss you're going to

say oh my God I completely

underestimated what it means to be a

boss to be responsible for hundreds for

thousands of people working under me

that's that's an enormous responsibility

and there's a there's so many ways to

screw that up it's a miracle if your

boss is doing most of it

difficult you can be wrong in

oversimplifying situations thinking of

them too simplistically lacking the

Nuance thinking in a sort of a black and

white way about a situation for example

with political with the realm of

politics you can kind of oversimplify to

the point where you think that one side

or the other side has to be right and

wrong all the time on every issue and

that that's really not the case you you

will disabuse yourself with that notion

if you study politics deeply and follow

some of my political

content wrong in taking your mental

constructs for reality mistaking the two

confusing the

two wrong in seeing a situation too

you're not technically wrong but your

view is just so limited so

narrow that that's what makes it wrong

more wrong in your understanding of

capitalism or socialism wrong in

dismissing another's subjective

experience of reality wrong in trying to

monopolize the truth that's a really sneaky

sneaky

one once your ego gets a hold of the

truth you want to have a monopoly on it

that's what that's the classic trap that

these religions fall into right like

Islam wants to monopolize the

truth Christians want to monopolize the

truth Jesus is the truth see they're

trying to monopolize the truth but the

truth is not limited to Jesus that's a

again a very narrow understanding of that

that

situation you can be wrong in your

understanding of geopolitics and war war

is a tricky thing to understand I have

an episode about war and conflict

uh wrong in understanding the Middle

East Middle East is a is a tricky place to

understand for example it's it's easy to

misunderstand why women have to be

veiled in the Middle

East uh wrong in how you relate to

criticism it's easy to get reactive when

criticism comes your way uh wrong in how

you relate to negative people trying to

debate with them and argue with

them wrong with being edgy wrong with

your style of communication wrong in

your blabber mouthy just blabber

mouthing on social

media without

thinking wrong in idolizing gurus and

teachers and putting them on pedestals

celebrities wrong and copying and aping

others rather than following your own

path a lot of young people are doing

this wrong in gaslighting people wrong

in shifting blame on others wrong in

thinking that someone else is stupid

when you're actually the stupid one in the

the

situation wrong in wasting years of your

life doing something ineffectively

that's a very tricky

one like you can waste years of your

life going to the gym and lifting

weights ineffectively just because you

think you have the right way and you

don't want to learn from somebody else

you're too proud or you're too lazy to

actually learn or you're too cheap to

actually maybe invest in a person

trainer and so you just keep going about

it ineffectively for years for decades

and then admitting to yourself that the

way that you've been lifting at the gym

or exercising at the gym is wrong that's

going to be very difficult because you

have a decade now of ineffective

practice the same can apply to example

for meditation you could be doing

meditation wrong for a

decade and then the longer you do it

ineffectively the worse it becomes

because it becomes harder and harder to

admit to yourself that you've wasted a

this Effectiveness topic is is so

uh so significant it really deserves its

own episode uh you can be wrong in

getting carried away just you can get

carried away with all sorts of things

you can get just carried away with a

romantic relationship especially early

on when you're in this kind of

infatuation honeymoon period you can get

carried away with some religious

community which ends up being a cult you

can get carried away with earning money

just you're just like you're in like a

trans a money earning trans you get

carried away and you forget all about

ethics you forget all about

Consciousness and and and the things

that I said and you just get carried

away chasing money carried away with

with pickup you know you get into to

pickup and you discover that hey

actually I'm kind of skilled at pickup

and then you start doing it and you're

getting results but then you just get

like get carried away with the with the

whole pickup thing or carried away with

some online ideology like this carried away

away

stuff it's very very

trappy here's a few very like subtle

examples see I'm trying to communicate

to you the nuance and subtlety here so

the more nuanced are examples can be the better

better

uh here's one being wrong in how you

create content insisting for example

that you need total creative control of

your content and that you don't need any

editors cuz you know an editor is going

to interfere with your creative genius

or something like that right and then so

you structure your life such that nobody

can edit your creative content but then

that actually makes your content worse

I've suffered from

that um my content could improve with

better editing so recently I've started

to I don't mean that I'm going to be

editing my videos like after they're

shot I'm editing them before I even speak

speak

I'm pre-editing

this episode here has already been

pre-edited it would have been longer and

worse had I not realized that I was

wrong in this specific way so see that's

kind of a subtle one like it's really

difficult to spot that right it took me

a long long it took me 10 years of

making videos to get to the point where

I realized that I mean yeah I always

knew my videos were long and kind of you

know all that but I was fooling myself

into thinking that actually longer is

better more content is better you know

uh would make my content

worse but then I realized the value of

editing so now I'm more ruthless about

editing my content pre-editing it

editing my outlines cutting out all the

extraneous examples all the low quality

examples all the um all the fluff all

the intro like heavy intro stuff like

really cutting it down to like like

nowadays I'm asking myself like what is

like the Bare Bones like the minimum the

potent uh here's another subtle example

is wrong in trying to impress people

vocabulary that's a tricky one I fell

into that luckily with that one I

realized that trap really early on I

realized that trap when I was about uh

24 25 I got out of that trap cuz I went

to University and I was into all that

academic heavy jargon sophisticated

vocabulary right these $100 fancy words

that they use in Academia I was all into

that shit impressing people with that

and then I I caught myself and I

realized like what am I doing I'm

putting on this front that's not how

language and communication is supposed

to be communication is supposed to be as

simple as possible as clear as possible

possible not words that people average

people don't

understand I actually discovered that by

getting out of Academia and going into

business when I went into business I

would write like for example when I was

a game designer um at a studio I would

write these sort of like academic

sounding verbose

florid design documents and very quickly

I was just abused of this kind of

communication because when you're

writing design documents for program

and for other designers they don't want

any of your fancy you know poetic

bullshit language academic language they

want like really concise uh you know

simple straight to the point and that in

a sense that's actually more

difficult communicating with that like

in a in a potent simple clear list-like

form that's that in a sense that can be

more difficult especially if you went

through the whole academic system where

you were writing these long

10-page essays on topics which is how I

was educated you know my idea of a good

document is like a 10-page

essay that that's that's terrible for

world so what's going to happen to you

is that if you don't get good at

admitting your wrongness then your

Consciousness will get stuck that's the

real cost that's the cost of all

this right now people who are not

actively pursuing higher consciousness

they don't even realize that this is a

factor because they don't think about

Consciousness they don't care about

developing Consciousness they're not

trying to access higher stages up the

spiral none of this kind they're not

trying to you know access God

Consciousness um and so for them it's

not a big issue but if you really want

to access higher dimensions of

Consciousness this is this is why I'm

pointing this whole topic out to

you is that this is your mind will get stuck

stuck

you're going to your mind is simply

going to lack the open-mindedness and

requisite variety and intelligence which

is necessary to access the highest

levels see the highest levels of

consciousness are the most intelligent

ones intelligence needs infinite

requisite variety at the highest level

right so the closer you get to God the

more infinite variety the requisite

variety uh your your Consciousness will

require to understand the higher

things and anything where your mind is wrong

wrong

anything where you have a wrong attitude

towards things or you're afraid to admit

that you're wrong any place where you're

in denial that's going to be an obstacle

to going any higher and at some point

you're just going to max out you're

going to max out you're going to stall

for years you're just going to stall

until some breakthrough happens where

usually some catastrophe happens in your

life some huge amount of pain and Trauma

um suffering rather uh and uh and then

that might break break you through that

might get you to realize how fucking

stupid you were how close-minded and

stubborn you were and that might bust you

through uh but also this is a collective

issue as well don't think that it's all

just on the

individual right now many of our

political problems come

from various groups and factions within

Society refusing to admit that they've

been being

wrong in fact you can look at the entire

consern ative movement especially I

don't know how it is in other countries

but especially in American politics

which is what I'm most familiar

with everything the Republican party is

doing everything the right-wing in

America is doing all the Maga people and

and even the non- Maga

people fundamentally what's going on

is conservatives are wrong about some

very fundamental aspects of reality and

society and they're in denial about it

and they're fundamentally unwilling to

admit that they're wrong

and then from that all the other disease

is happening within the conservative

movement now I'm not saying that all of

the problem of politics is on the

conservatives there's also stuff that's

going wrong on the left as well but just

if we look at the conservative movement

look think about it what are the

conservatives in denial about and refuse

to admit that that they're wrong

about their denial and wrong about

climate change and environmental

degradation and just the fundamental

carrying capacity of the planet the

human species has reached a point where

we're we're we're buning up against the

carrying capacity of the planet and

conservatives don't want to look at that

they're in denial about that

fundamentally and they don't want to

change how they do business how they

mine for oil how they mine for minerals

how the population is is you know the

population they don't want to look at

difficult it's expensive as well

what else are conservatives uh refusing

to admit the wrong about fundamentalist

religion all of these Evangelical

Christians all of these hardcore

Catholics on the Supreme Court

fundamentally they're all in denial that

fundamentalist religion is a bunch of

nonsense denial of evolution

all this sort of shit it's still going

on and these people they think they can

get away with it they think they can get

away with it and they're pushing and

then see what happens is that when

you're in denial of reality like that

you have to go through more elaborate

minations and you have

to bend yourself over backwards and do

more and more devilry in order to

sustain your position your wrong

wrongness conservatives are also wrong about

about

the the whole capitalist system and that

doesn't mean that I'm saying we should

move to socialism but I'm just saying

because socialism also has many problems

but I'm just saying they're in denial

about the externalities of capital M and

the pro very serious problems this is creating

for what uh not just the environment

environment

but um

democracy excessive capitalism runaway

capitalism is undermining democracy

because all these giant corporations

have so much money and there's such

ridiculous wealth inequality at this

point that the wealthy are completely

corrupting the government

but the conservatives don't want to

admit any of that because they're

benefiting from that whole system

they're trying to conserve that whole

system but that system is beyond the

conserved and so they're fighting a losing

battle and then the more they they

struggle and they fight the more proud

they get you

know they kind of rile themselves up

they they energize their Base by by

making them feel proud of all this wrongness

and that doesn't mean that everything in

the conservative philosophy is wrong it

just means that there's a couple of

like core pillars that are wrong that

need to be rethought and if you would

just rethink them then our politics

could move in the proper

directions but this is this is

destabilizing the entire American System

right now it's creating needless polarization

polarization

and uh chaos that's what this whole

and the root solution to that if we

really want to advance in our politics in

America it's funny to even say it this

way because it's so Preposterous it

would never happen but what would need

to happen is that conservatives would

need to walk out and say we were

wrong we were wrong on capitalism we

were wrong on the environment we were

wrong on uh fun religion we were wrong

on nationalism and a few other points

like that and then we could have a

healing and a moving forward and then

all the denial would go away and this is

what would actually heal the country and

move it forward but of course if you

tell that to a conservative they're

going to just point the finger and say

well but what about the Liberals what

about the progressives what about the

antifa people what have they been all

wrong about and then they're just going

a few more of these kind of collective denials of wrongness is uh the

denials of wrongness is uh the capitalist

capitalist class the CEOs the Wall Street people

class the CEOs the Wall Street people the bankers the business people the

the bankers the business people the marketers the philanthropists the

marketers the philanthropists the lobbyists all of these people are

lobbyists all of these people are participating in this toxic capitalism

participating in this toxic capitalism and they need to come out and say we

and they need to come out and say we were

were wrong literally the head CEOs of these

wrong literally the head CEOs of these giant corporations Disney and you know

giant corporations Disney and you know Google and Facebook and and Exon Mobile

Google and Facebook and and Exon Mobile need to come out and say we were wrong

need to come out and say we were wrong for driving this insane income

for driving this insane income inequality with our lobbying the

inequality with our lobbying the government and manipulating with all

government and manipulating with all these devilish

these devilish tactics the bankers with with their uh

tactics the bankers with with their uh you know with their derivatives and and

you know with their derivatives and and weird loan schemes all this this kind of

weird loan schemes all this this kind of stuff they need to come out and say we

stuff they need to come out and say we were wrong of course are any of these

were wrong of course are any of these people ever going to admit they were

people ever going to admit they were wrong no never never they earned too

wrong no never never they earned too much money as we discussed above before

much money as we discussed above before that's one of the shest ways to ensure

that's one of the shest ways to ensure uh that that someone will never admit

uh that that someone will never admit being wrong is when they earn million

being wrong is when they earn million tens of millions and hundreds and

tens of millions and hundreds and billions of dollars from their

billions of dollars from their wrongness another one of these

wrongness another one of these Collective points is union busting and

Collective points is union busting and monopolization the crazy Tech monopolies

monopolization the crazy Tech monopolies that we

that we have the um companies just buying up

have the um companies just buying up little

little companies abusing their Monopoly power

companies abusing their Monopoly power the union busting that Starbucks is

the union busting that Starbucks is doing and Amazon is doing and all these

doing and Amazon is doing and all these corporations are doing it's illegal what

corporations are doing it's illegal what they're doing but they do it anyways

they're doing but they do it anyways because there's no good enforcement and

because there's no good enforcement and there's no good enforcement from the

there's no good enforcement from the government because the government has

government because the government has been bought out by these people by all

been bought out by these people by all these corporations this is completely

these corporations this is completely corrupting our entire

corrupting our entire system these people who engage in these

system these people who engage in these practices need to realize if you're

practices need to realize if you're engaged in union busting at Amazon or

engaged in union busting at Amazon or Starbucks as like one of the top

Starbucks as like one of the top managers you need to come out and admit

managers you need to come out and admit you were wrong likewise if you're

you were wrong likewise if you're running a monopoly Microsoft Google

running a monopoly Microsoft Google Facebook

Facebook whoever um Amazon you got to come out

whoever um Amazon you got to come out and say that you got to admit this shit

and say that you got to admit this shit this is this is like now we're getting

this is this is like now we're getting to some juicy admitting you were wrong

to some juicy admitting you were wrong right this is not oh I'm a perfectionist

right this is not oh I'm a perfectionist that's my mistake no no no this is like

that's my mistake no no no this is like this is heavy heavy admitting you were

this is heavy heavy admitting you were wrong entire industry need to come out

wrong entire industry need to come out and say that they were wrong the food

and say that they were wrong the food industry the the fast food industry all

industry the the fast food industry all this junk food that's being sold all

this junk food that's being sold all these people need to come out and say

these people need to come out and say they they were wrong the healthcare

they they were wrong the healthcare industry big Pharma big Tech the

industry big Pharma big Tech the military industrial complex all the oil

military industrial complex all the oil companies now these AI companies who are

companies now these AI companies who are stealing voices and art and scraping

stealing voices and art and scraping YouTube and all this for their

YouTube and all this for their content um the devilry of AI is just now

content um the devilry of AI is just now starting to come online these social

starting to come online these social media companies

media companies all of them need to admit that they were

all of them need to admit that they were wrong and of course they never will and

wrong and of course they never will and that's why we have all the chaos that we

that's why we have all the chaos that we have politically speaking and of course

have politically speaking and of course last but not least the Israeli

last but not least the Israeli Palestinian

Palestinian situation and the demonization of

situation and the demonization of terrorism in

terrorism in general if you want peace you know what

general if you want peace you know what the real solution is to the Israeli

the real solution is to the Israeli Palestinian situation Israel has to come

Palestinian situation Israel has to come out and say that they're wrong

out and say that they're wrong the zionists have to say they're wrong

the zionists have to say they're wrong they're wrong for

they're wrong for settling for pushing their

settling for pushing their settlements and they keep pushing it

settlements and they keep pushing it even today they keep pushing

even today they keep pushing it of course this is the last thing they

it of course this is the last thing they want to do and so the conflict

continues again just because I say that some of these groups and people and

some of these groups and people and parties are wrong that does not don't

parties are wrong that does not don't assume that that that now means that oh

assume that that that now means that oh the progressives don't have any of these

the progressives don't have any of these problems or some other group or the

problems or some other group or the Palestinians or Hamas doesn't have these

Palestinians or Hamas doesn't have these problems they also have those problems

problems they also have those problems right this is just I'm just giving you a

right this is just I'm just giving you a cursory overview with some example this

cursory overview with some example this is not meant to be a comprehensive

is not meant to be a comprehensive balanced list this is just some like

balanced list this is just some like this is just like very obvious I'm just

this is just like very obvious I'm just obvious obvious obvious stuff and yet at

obvious obvious obvious stuff and yet at the same time stuff that nobody else is

the same time stuff that nobody else is really talking

about a hallm Mark of an immature mind is that it cannot admit to being wrong

is that it cannot admit to being wrong just again look at Donald Trump he's the

just again look at Donald Trump he's the best example of this absolutely

best example of this absolutely incapable of admitting any wrongdoing

incapable of admitting any wrongdoing and one of the corrupting influences

and one of the corrupting influences Trump has had on our political culture I

Trump has had on our political culture I mean he's had a lot but um one of the

mean he's had a lot but um one of the more subtle ones is that Trump has

more subtle ones is that Trump has started this trend has kind of like

started this trend has kind of like normalized this trend within right-wing

normalized this trend within right-wing politics of never admitting any wrong

politics of never admitting any wrong doing at all just like double down on

doing at all just like double down on all your

all your mistakes even if a video comes out of

mistakes even if a video comes out of you

you sexually assaulting somebody you just

sexually assaulting somebody you just come out there and you say you know what

come out there and you say you know what I'll do it again next time too it's like

I'll do it again next time too it's like it's like it's Preposterous and and and

it's like it's Preposterous and and and the rightwing has just kind of like

the rightwing has just kind of like bought this and again why are they

bought this and again why are they buying it because they're in such a bad

buying it because they're in such a bad position on the fundamentals they're

position on the fundamentals they're wrong on capitalism they're wrong on um

wrong on capitalism they're wrong on um on fundamentalist fundamentalist

on fundamentalist fundamentalist religion they're wrong on the

religion they're wrong on the environment they're wrong on nationalism

environment they're wrong on nationalism but they don't want they have no

but they don't want they have no capacity to admit is so their only

capacity to admit is so their only option then is to double

down to get aggressively wrong to get all self-righteous about it to get

all self-righteous about it to get indignant about it to go

indignant about it to go storm some government offices about

it admitting wrongness opens the Mind humbles the

wrongness opens the Mind humbles the mind creates a state of not knowing

mind creates a state of not knowing leads to construct awareness leads to

leads to construct awareness leads to contemplation

contemplation introspection leads to New

introspection leads to New Perspectives more requisite variety

Perspectives more requisite variety inside your mind and ultimately creates

inside your mind and ultimately creates maturity in

maturity in you that's what's good about it that's

you that's what's good about it that's what you get for going through the

what you get for going through the misery of admitting you were wrong yes

misery of admitting you were wrong yes it's miserable yes it would be very

it's miserable yes it would be very painful for the conservative party to ad

painful for the conservative party to ad know the whole conservative movement to

know the whole conservative movement to admit that they were wrong that would be

admit that they were wrong that would be very painful

very painful but but think of the benefit

but but think of the benefit the benefit would be

enormous if Israelis admitted that they that that that they were wrong we could

that that that they were wrong we could have peace in that conflict but as it is

have peace in that conflict but as it is see if you're refusing to admit that you

see if you're refusing to admit that you did something wrong when you actually

did something wrong when you actually did something wrong there can't be

did something wrong there can't be peace there can't be

Justice now you might say well but Leo what about you know relativism

what about you know relativism relativity subjectivity what does being

relativity subjectivity what does being wrong even mean in this case I mean AR

wrong even mean in this case I mean AR aren't right and wrong just relative I

aren't right and wrong just relative I mean who's to say that the conservatives

mean who's to say that the conservatives are wrong who's to say that the Israelis

are wrong who's to say that the Israelis are

are wrong of

wrong of course I'm not the one to

course I'm not the one to say what I what I mean when I say being

say what I what I mean when I say being wrong is

wrong is uh by your own recognizance you clearly

uh by your own recognizance you clearly see that you were operating under

see that you were operating under illusion falsehood

illusion falsehood self-deception in an immature unwise

self-deception in an immature unwise foolish unconscious egoic selfish

foolish unconscious egoic selfish shameful embarrassing unethical corrupt

shameful embarrassing unethical corrupt ineffective

manner not because I said so but because your own Consciousness

so but because your own Consciousness raised to a level where you can clearly

raised to a level where you can clearly see it for yourself and you know you

see it for yourself and you know you could have handled the situation better

whether I think you're wrong or not is irrelevant what matters is if

irrelevant what matters is if you know you're wrong if you can clearly

you know you're wrong if you can clearly see

that as you're raising your Consciousness you will feel you will

Consciousness you will feel you will feel

that Consciousness demands it of you to recognize your own rogness it

you to recognize your own rogness it demands

it Leo doesn't demand it Consciousness demands it for example

it Consciousness demands it for example if Trump wanted to raise his

if Trump wanted to raise his Consciousness let's say Trump wanted to

Consciousness let's say Trump wanted to meditate and be spiritual

meditate and be spiritual which is of course Preposterous but

which is of course Preposterous but let's let's just fantasize here

let's let's just fantasize here um uh very quickly he would uh run into

um uh very quickly he would uh run into this problem that he can't do these

this problem that he can't do these things without admitting a lot of wrong

things without admitting a lot of wrong shit that he did and that he's still

doing see Consciousness would demand it of him not us it's not Trump isn't wrong

of him not us it's not Trump isn't wrong because the majority of Americans don't

because the majority of Americans don't like him or because the libs are

like him or because the libs are annoying and you know social justice

annoying and you know social justice Warriors and they're just crying about

Warriors and they're just crying about everything their snowflakes that's not

everything their snowflakes that's not why Trump is wrong Trump is wrong

why Trump is wrong Trump is wrong fundamentally when I say Trump is wrong

fundamentally when I say Trump is wrong what I mean is by his own recognizance

what I mean is by his own recognizance he would admit he's wrong if he just

he would admit he's wrong if he just pursued the raising of his own

pursued the raising of his own consciousness of course which he will

consciousness of course which he will never

do others can't really tell you that you're wrong unless you admit it to

you're wrong unless you admit it to yourself

yourself I mean they can tell you but again like

I mean they can tell you but again like with Trump a lot of people have told

with Trump a lot of people have told Trump that he's wrong but it doesn't

Trump that he's wrong but it doesn't penetrate it doesn't matter what people

penetrate it doesn't matter what people tell him because he just he has all

tell him because he just he has all sorts of mechanisms to deny it to ignore

sorts of mechanisms to deny it to ignore it to excuse it to rationalize it to to

it to excuse it to rationalize it to to go attack somebody or

go attack somebody or whatever but it is possible that he

whatever but it is possible that he himself could admit that he's

himself could admit that he's wrong if he wanted to but only if he

wrong if he wanted to but only if he wanted to

if you became significantly more conscious you would see all the ways

conscious you would see all the ways you've been wrong which is one of the

you've been wrong which is one of the reasons why people don't become very

reasons why people don't become very conscious because it it's such a huge

conscious because it it's such a huge burden and a

burden and a responsibility people don't appreciate

responsibility people don't appreciate the responsibility that comes with

the responsibility that comes with Consciousness for example you raise your

Consciousness for example you raise your Consciousness

Consciousness enough it's going to be hard for you to

enough it's going to be hard for you to keep eating your hamburgers

if you go and you watch videos of what happens inside of a slaughterhouse that

happens inside of a slaughterhouse that produces your hamburger which you so

produces your hamburger which you so have loved your whole life and then your

have loved your whole life and then your culture is based upon it you know what

culture is based upon it you know what are you going to eat on your 4th of July

are you going to eat on your 4th of July barbecue usually you and your kids and

barbecue usually you and your kids and your wife would go out there and uh you

your wife would go out there and uh you know broil up some hamburgers well you

know broil up some hamburgers well you can't do that

sometimes your wrongness is so deep you just cannot stand to look at it it kills

just cannot stand to look at it it kills you inside it's terrifying to admit it's

you inside it's terrifying to admit it's too ugly to look

too ugly to look at and some people are so far gone you

at and some people are so far gone you know Trump being the best

know Trump being the best example the reason I can so confidently

example the reason I can so confidently say that he'll never do this process is

say that he'll never do this process is because if he ever did it if he realized

because if he ever did it if he realized the devil that he is and all the

the devil that he is and all the suffering he's created needlessly for

suffering he's created needlessly for for the world

for the world um it would be so painful for him he

um it would be so painful for him he would want to kill himself that's how

would want to kill himself that's how bad it would get he's too far gone way

bad it would get he's too far gone way too far gone and a lot of people are not

too far gone and a lot of people are not as bad as Trump but a lot of people are

as bad as Trump but a lot of people are too far gone Wall Street guys corporate

too far gone Wall Street guys corporate tycoons and such and uh you know bankers

tycoons and such and uh you know bankers and um oil Executives Pharma Executives

and um oil Executives Pharma Executives you they're too far gone you're never

you they're too far gone you're never going to get to

them imagine being so wrong that recognizing it will make you sick to

recognizing it will make you sick to your stomach will make you throw

your stomach will make you throw up and will make you hate yourself for

up and will make you hate yourself for the rest of your life you know that's

the rest of your life you know that's realistically what would happen if Trump

realistically what would happen if Trump if Trump

if Trump recognized uh how wrong he is he would

recognized uh how wrong he is he would hate himself for the rest of his life

hate himself for the rest of his life how would he live with

himself that would require such enormous levels of

levels of forgiveness self forgiveness self-love

forgiveness self forgiveness self-love but then of course that is the healing

but then of course that is the healing process I have a whole video about how

process I have a whole video about how to forgive anyone who's ever hurt you

to forgive anyone who's ever hurt you and of course including

yourself it's also very hard to admit you're wrong when you're

succeeding usually what's required is failure suffering catastrophe and

failure suffering catastrophe and embarrassment

this is actually what happened with Julian Julian Blanc from

Julian Julian Blanc from RSD you guys familiar with him um Julian

RSD you guys familiar with him um Julian gate so back in like

gate so back in like 2013 14 15 something somewhere around

2013 14 15 something somewhere around there this Julian gate happened Julian

there this Julian gate happened Julian was behaving in very

was behaving in very immature toxic masculine

immature toxic masculine ways um some videos came out about that

ways um some videos came out about that how he was abusing girls while doing

how he was abusing girls while doing pickup and then this just blew up it was

pickup and then this just blew up it was all over CNN everywhere and then he

all over CNN everywhere and then he actually did an interview on CNN with

actually did an interview on CNN with Chris Cuomo I think um and Chris com

Chris Cuomo I think um and Chris com just grilled him really like he really

just grilled him really like he really grilled him and Julian was just

grilled him and Julian was just traumatized after that interview like

traumatized after that interview like this changed Julian's whole outlook on

this changed Julian's whole outlook on life pickup everything he transformed

life pickup everything he transformed like he stopped doing pickup he got

like he stopped doing pickup he got married like after that like huge

married like after that like huge transformation but he went through

transformation but he went through fucking hell like it destroyed RSD it

fucking hell like it destroyed RSD it destroyed an entire company it destroyed

destroyed an entire company it destroyed the biggest pickup company in the world

the biggest pickup company in the world RSD at the time destroyed it RSD doesn't

RSD at the time destroyed it RSD doesn't exist anymore destroyed a whole fucking

exist anymore destroyed a whole fucking Community

Community um uh yeah uh and it took that because

um uh yeah uh and it took that because before that Julian was doing all that

before that Julian was doing all that immature stupid shit before that

immature stupid shit before that um and people like me were talking about

um and people like me were talking about it I have a video my my my pickup rant

it I have a video my my my pickup rant video was done before Julian gate I

video was done before Julian gate I think or it was done right around the

think or it was done right around the time of Julian gate I think it was right

time of Julian gate I think it was right before um cuz I saw him doing like

before um cuz I saw him doing like ridiculous toxic shit um and

ridiculous toxic shit um and um but you know he was so deep into it

um but you know he was so deep into it that it it was beyond logical

that it it was beyond logical explanation you couldn't logically get

explanation you couldn't logically get him to stop what had to happen is just

him to stop what had to happen is just this blow up this huge public blow

this blow up this huge public blow up and then um now I hope he's a better

up and then um now I hope he's a better you know better

you know better man which seems like he

is uh the more invested in attached you are to a thing the harder it is to admit

are to a thing the harder it is to admit that you were

that you were wrong

wrong career is a big one money is a big one

career is a big one money is a big one family is a big one these are your your

family is a big one these are your your top investments in life and then your

top investments in life and then your identity is a big one like for example

identity is a big one like for example your religious Identity or your atheist

your religious Identity or your atheist identity in the case of someone like Sam

identity in the case of someone like Sam Harris Michael Shermer Professor

Dave massive suffering is the key massive

massive suffering is

suffering is undeniable see your mind is really good

undeniable see your mind is really good at denial but it's very hard to deny a

at denial but it's very hard to deny a catastrophe a public catastrophe or

catastrophe a public catastrophe or massive

massive suffering and that's why I don't like

suffering and that's why I don't like this this sort of like Buddhist stuff

this this sort of like Buddhist stuff about oh suffering is um you know

about oh suffering is um you know transcend suffering Escape suffering

transcend suffering Escape suffering sometimes people ask me on the Forum why

sometimes people ask me on the Forum why is there suffering why is the world so

is there suffering why is the world so full of

full of suffering uh or they might even say Leo

suffering uh or they might even say Leo how come you still suffer

because what you don't understand is that suffering is not just some annoying

that suffering is not just some annoying little thing like a thorn in your sigh

little thing like a thorn in your sigh that you need to get rid

that you need to get rid of the way that you might think from

of the way that you might think from reading too much B Buddhism uh suffering

reading too much B Buddhism uh suffering is fundamental to your learning process

is fundamental to your learning process to your growing

process there are things that you learn from massive suffering that you would

from massive suffering that you would never have been able to learn any other

never have been able to learn any other other

other way what I like to say is that there's

way what I like to say is that there's there's there's two top ways for

there's there's two top ways for learning one is crazy levels of

learning one is crazy levels of suffering and the other one is crazy

suffering and the other one is crazy levels of love that's what will get you

levels of love that's what will get you to change but getting crazy levels of

to change but getting crazy levels of love that's difficult most people don't

love that's difficult most people don't know how to get that um and love because

know how to get that um and love because love is kind of sweet you know A love is

love is kind of sweet you know A love is a positive thing uh it's easy to

a positive thing uh it's easy to actually lots of love can in a certain

actually lots of love can in a certain way become its own trap because the

way become its own trap because the sweetness of it lulls you whereas

sweetness of it lulls you whereas suffering is sharp it stings and it it

suffering is sharp it stings and it it forces you to

forces you to awaken to things you didn't want to

awaken to things you didn't want to admit to things you can no longer keep

denying and this is where the power of psychedelics comes in because

psychedelics comes in because psychedelics are one of the few maybe

psychedelics are one of the few maybe maybe the third pillar of that you know

maybe the third pillar of that you know massive suffering massive love and then

massive suffering massive love and then psychedelics and of course psychedelics

psychedelics and of course psychedelics can can do both a bad trip is massive

can can do both a bad trip is massive suffering and then um uh psychedelics

suffering and then um uh psychedelics can also give you your highest forms of

can also give you your highest forms of love too so massive love you know best

love too so massive love you know best way to get that most reliable way to get

way to get that most reliable way to get that is from

that is from psychedelics so um yeah psyched

psychedelics so um yeah psyched psychedelics will will get you will open

psychedelics will will get you will open your eyes and get you to see many of the

your eyes and get you to see many of the ways you've been wrong but of course

ways you've been wrong but of course even with psychedelics you have to have

even with psychedelics you have to have still your mind still has to be open you

still your mind still has to be open you have to have that int

have to have that int as long as you're interested in

as long as you're interested in conscious and developing yourself and

conscious and developing yourself and Improvement and all that then

Improvement and all that then psychedelics can do a lot for you

psychedelics can do a lot for you but some people you know like I don't

but some people you know like I don't know some people say all my Forum people

know some people say all my Forum people have said like well what would happen if

have said like well what would happen if we gave Donald Trump 5mo DMT if we

we gave Donald Trump 5mo DMT if we forced him to take it what would happen

forced him to take it what would happen and you know honestly I don't know

and you know honestly I don't know that's a very interesting experiment

that's a very interesting experiment that we will never get to run but um it

that we will never get to run but um it would be very interesting to see uh it's

would be very interesting to see uh it's like 50/50 on the one hand

like 50/50 on the one hand maybe it would open his eyes and you

maybe it would open his eyes and you know it would traumatize him for sure

know it would traumatize him for sure but maybe he'll get him to you know

but maybe he'll get him to you know maybe that's the only thing that would

maybe that's the only thing that would get him to to admit he was wrong about

get him to to admit he was wrong about anything in his life maybe that uh but

anything in his life maybe that uh but you know his ego might be so dense and

you know his ego might be so dense and he might be so far down that road that

he might be so far down that road that maybe even 5o DMT would not do that for

maybe even 5o DMT would not do that for him and he would just you know resist it

him and he would just you know resist it like a stubborn mule and um and

like a stubborn mule and um and then that's that

validation of perspective becomes easier

easier than

than invalidation sorry I misspoke validation

invalidation sorry I misspoke validation of perspective comes easier than

of perspective comes easier than invalidation invalidation feels

invalidation invalidation feels bad but it's actually good for you and

bad but it's actually good for you and validation of your perspective feels

validation of your perspective feels good but it's actually bad for you so

good but it's actually bad for you so this is kind of a mind fuck is all

twisted most people seek validation of their perspective not realizing this is

their perspective not realizing this is actually bad for them in the same way

actually bad for them in the same way that you eat too much food it's bad for

that you eat too much food it's bad for you and then if you do a fast it's

you and then if you do a fast it's actually good for

you you need to proactively compensate against confirmation bias if you're a

against confirmation bias if you're a scientist go study some new age stuff if

scientist go study some new age stuff if you're a new Ager go study some science

you're a new Ager go study some science and apply the scientific method to your

and apply the scientific method to your beliefs and Fantasies see and this is

beliefs and Fantasies see and this is exactly the thing that none of these

exactly the thing that none of these people want to do it's the last thing

people want to do it's the last thing you want to do which is of course why

you want to do which is of course why it's good for you and why it grows you

it's good for you and why it grows you the stuff that grows you is the stuff

the stuff that grows you is the stuff you usually don't want to do

unfortunately uh and another Point here is that it's not enough to just

is that it's not enough to just introspect yourself because you're not

introspect yourself because you're not going to be able to see your own blind

going to be able to see your own blind spots not all of them you need

spots not all of them you need perspective from others

perspective from others and in fact you know uh look I sometimes

and in fact you know uh look I sometimes take a dim view of human beings and

take a dim view of human beings and other people you know as SRA said hell

other people you know as SRA said hell is other people and that's definitely

is other people and that's definitely true

true however perhaps one of the most

however perhaps one of the most redeeming existential qualities of other

redeeming existential qualities of other people you know what that is maybe not a

people you know what that is maybe not a yeah existential or epistemic qualities

yeah existential or epistemic qualities of of having other people around you

of of having other people around you like there's a lot of shit that comes

like there's a lot of shit that comes with having people around you you get

with having people around you you get drama you get politics you get idiots

drama you get politics you get idiots you get Psychopaths that all comes with

you get Psychopaths that all comes with having a society of

having a society of people and it would be nice if we could

people and it would be nice if we could somehow Escape that uh but um but there

somehow Escape that uh but um but there is one awesome benefit you get and that

is one awesome benefit you get and that is that you

is that you get New Perspectives perspectives that

get New Perspectives perspectives that you would never have if you just lived

you would never have if you just lived alone on a deserted island

and that's super valuable for your growth so make use of that ask for

growth so make use of that ask for serious feedback on your working on

serious feedback on your working on yourself as a person in fact here I have

yourself as a person in fact here I have a very powerful exercise for you that

a very powerful exercise for you that you can try here's the exercise if you

you can try here's the exercise if you have a romantic

partner have a serious conversation with them sit them down and and tell them

them sit them down and and tell them this I want you to give me an honest

this I want you to give me an honest unvarnished evaluation of my myself as a

unvarnished evaluation of my myself as a person as a human

person as a human being I want your actual perspective of

being I want your actual perspective of how you see

how you see me good or bad I don't

me good or bad I don't care just how you actually see me and

care just how you actually see me and how you evaluate me as a human

being that's powerful huh and then what happens is if they're willing to do that

happens is if they're willing to do that if you have a somewhat conscious partner

if you have a somewhat conscious partner and they're not just going to you

and they're not just going to you know throw judgement and criticize you

know throw judgement and criticize you um but they're actually going to

um but they're actually going to evaluate you in a thoughtful manner

evaluate you in a thoughtful manner that's going to be very valuable and

that's going to be very valuable and then what you do is you just sit and you

then what you do is you just sit and you listen you give them as much time as

listen you give them as much time as they need if they need five minutes 10

they need if they need five minutes 10 minutes let them talk don't interrupt

minutes let them talk don't interrupt them let them talk and you just listen

them let them talk and you just listen and when they

and when they finish here's the

finish here's the key you don't argue with them you don't

key you don't argue with them you don't defend yourself you don't justify

defend yourself you don't justify anything you just say thank you

and you go you walk away and

away and then you lock yourself in a room by

then you lock yourself in a room by yourself and you sit there for hours and

yourself and you sit there for hours and you think about what they told

you of course you could also do this with a family member if you don't have a

with a family member if you don't have a romantic partner but a romantic partner

romantic partner but a romantic partner if you have that kind of intimate

if you have that kind of intimate connection it might be a little easier

connection it might be a little easier to start there family it depends on what

to start there family it depends on what your relationship is like with your

your relationship is like with your family but yeah maybe you could do it

family but yeah maybe you could do it with your brother maybe you could do it

with your brother maybe you could do it with your sister maybe your parents uh

with your sister maybe your parents uh you know just

you know just depends um or if you have a good

friend but that that that's powerful that's

powerful okay we're going to take a quick break here and I'll be back in a

quick break here and I'll be back in a second so now we get to the portion of

second so now we get to the portion of this episode where I talk about all the

this episode where I talk about all the things I've been wrong about lately

things I've been wrong about lately that's going to be very

that's going to be very interesting this is going to be some

interesting this is going to be some very subtle and nuanced stuff some very

very subtle and nuanced stuff some very personal stuff here um this came to me

personal stuff here um this came to me through a lot of pain and

through a lot of pain and suffering I haven't been posting much

suffering I haven't been posting much content over the last

content over the last year and uh I took a break from

year and uh I took a break from actualized.org

actualized.org uh and I went through like a a really

uh and I went through like a a really big integration period we might say and

big integration period we might say and you might wonder well what have I been

you might wonder well what have I been doing during all this time well the

doing during all this time well the short of it is that I was going

short of it is that I was going through I was going through hell I was

through I was going through hell I was going through enormous suffering um most

going through enormous suffering um most of it brought on by health problems some

of it brought on by health problems some of them my old health problems and then

of them my old health problems and then some of it new health problems and then

some of it new health problems and then some of them is just you know just based

some of them is just you know just based on my genetics and then some of it is

on my genetics and then some of it is self-inflicted as well so there was a

self-inflicted as well so there was a combination of both those things I'm

combination of both those things I'm keeping it kind of vague because um some

keeping it kind of vague because um some of it is is so uh

of it is is so uh it it's difficult to talk about um and

it it's difficult to talk about um and some of it I'm not ready to talk about

some of it I'm not ready to talk about yet I'll talk about it in the future at

yet I'll talk about it in the future at some point but anyways I've been go I

some point but anyways I've been go I went through multiple very difficult

went through multiple very difficult health problems which which really made

health problems which which really made me go like inwards and had to confront

me go like inwards and had to confront um a lot of my own internal bullshit as

um a lot of my own internal bullshit as that happened so this is the power of

that happened so this is the power of suffering is that it does that I mean at

suffering is that it does that I mean at least for me the effect it had is that I

least for me the effect it had is that I was going through so much suffering for

was going through so much suffering for physical issues ailments and then

physical issues ailments and then various fears and anxieties that were

various fears and anxieties that were coming up from that but then

also that led me to convert that kind of uh personal

to convert that kind of uh personal suffering into a more sort of like

suffering into a more sort of like Universal compassion and understanding

Universal compassion and understanding for the suffering of just all of the

for the suffering of just all of the ailments of mankind as a whole and of

ailments of mankind as a whole and of those of you in my

those of you in my audience and also just led to a lot of

audience and also just led to a lot of just like very deep s reflection and

just like very deep s reflection and also the fact that I wasn't doing my

also the fact that I wasn't doing my normal stick and Publishing all this

normal stick and Publishing all this work and you know the work is not about

work and you know the work is not about just creating a video it's about sitting

just creating a video it's about sitting there and really contemplating this

there and really contemplating this material so I was out of that I just

material so I was out of that I just stopped doing all this kind of personal

stopped doing all this kind of personal development psychological philosophical

development psychological philosophical existential spiritual contemplation I

existential spiritual contemplation I just dropped all that and that created

just dropped all that and that created space the space that I needed and

space the space that I needed and actually I grew enormously during this

actually I grew enormously during this period even though I wasn't doing any

period even though I wasn't doing any formal spiritual practice I wasn't

formal spiritual practice I wasn't contemplating stuff I wasn't reading

contemplating stuff I wasn't reading books none of that kind of

books none of that kind of stuff uh and that was very very

stuff uh and that was very very necessary because what I didn't realize

necessary because what I didn't realize because the last decade of my life up

because the last decade of my life up until this point is that I was pumping

until this point is that I was pumping out content on almost weekly basis and

out content on almost weekly basis and during that entire 10 years it's like I

during that entire 10 years it's like I was in a sort of Trans State like a very

was in a sort of Trans State like a very subtle Trans

subtle Trans State of doing this

work without the ability to step back and observe it from

and observe it from a from a

distance and then there was attachments of and of course I knew that I had

of and of course I knew that I had attachments to this work and to my

attachments to this work and to my career and to my

career and to my business um but again it's one thing to

business um but again it's one thing to just kind of like know that

just kind of like know that intellectually it's another thing to

intellectually it's another thing to actually make the time to step out of

actually make the time to step out of your career right there's things you

your career right there's things you will never see while you're immersed in

will never see while you're immersed in running your business or running your

running your business or running your career on a weekly monthly

basis all right so let's get to this list of stuff that I was wrong again

list of stuff that I was wrong again this is going to be some very personal

this is going to be some very personal stuff some of it was very challenging

stuff some of it was very challenging for me to admit even to myself and the

for me to admit even to myself and the reason

reason I'm putting this out there is not to get

I'm putting this out there is not to get forgiveness from you or to get approval

forgiveness from you or to get approval from from the audience but because um

from from the audience but because um this is stuff that I've integrated over

this is stuff that I've integrated over the last year so I don't need that from

the last year so I don't need that from you but I wanted to put this out there

you but I wanted to put this out there for educational purposes so that you

for educational purposes so that you really grasp this point of what it means

really grasp this point of what it means to admit that you're

to admit that you're wrong like really admit that you're

wrong like really admit that you're wrong this is really difficult stuff

wrong this is really difficult stuff okay so here we

okay so here we go I was wrong in how I treated my

go I was wrong in how I treated my girlfriends I looked over all the

girlfriends I looked over all the relationships I had in my life and the

relationships I had in my life and the most recent one my most recent breakup

most recent one my most recent breakup and I really did a lot of soul searching

and I really did a lot of soul searching there and I just spent a lot of time

there and I just spent a lot of time thinking about and looking at how much I

thinking about and looking at how much I judged my

judged my girlfriends how much I teased them how

girlfriends how much I teased them how much I didn't give them enough

much I didn't give them enough compliments how I was too selfish all

compliments how I was too selfish all the ways I was too selfish all the ways

the ways I was too selfish all the ways I was immature all the ways that I was

I was immature all the ways that I was avoiding and playing various kinds of

avoiding and playing various kinds of games

games fundamentally not giving them enough

fundamentally not giving them enough love being too blunt with them with the

love being too blunt with them with the truth using truth as a sort of a blunt

truth using truth as a sort of a blunt instrument on

them and then I came to the realization that I lost every girlfriend

realization that I lost every girlfriend I ever had in my life because I didn't

I ever had in my life because I didn't love her and because she wasn't enough

love her and because she wasn't enough for me

and I really looked I looked at this for months for months I kept coming back and

months for months I kept coming back and just like looking at this and looking at

just like looking at this and looking at this and looking at this that was

this and looking at this that was difficult to

difficult to admit to myself it's easy to admit now

admit to myself it's easy to admit now but it was difficult to even look at it

but it was difficult to even look at it when I was reflecting on it

myself so there's that that's

that that's a that's I mean you can get so much

a that's I mean you can get so much Grist for the contemplation Mill from

Grist for the contemplation Mill from your past intimate

your past intimate relationships and by the way if you want

relationships and by the way if you want healthy relationships any kind of

healthy relationships any kind of healthy relationships going forward in

healthy relationships going forward in the future is um I was wrong that's the

the future is um I was wrong that's the magic phrase you got to be able to say I

magic phrase you got to be able to say I was wrong both people in the

was wrong both people in the relationship got to say I was wrong over

relationship got to say I was wrong over and over and over again because as soon

and over and over again because as soon as that stops happening your

as that stops happening your relationship is going to go

relationship is going to go dysfunctional

it's ironic right you might say well Leo but you teach love and all this kind of

but you teach love and all this kind of stuff and that you're not able to love

stuff and that you're not able to love your

your girlfriends well come because first of

girlfriends well come because first of all I'm a perfectionist second of all

all I'm a perfectionist second of all it's because when I talk about love you

it's because when I talk about love you have to understand that my

have to understand that my understandings of Love are very

understandings of Love are very different

different from normal human conceptions of Love

from normal human conceptions of Love romantic love and love for human beings

romantic love and love for human beings that's really not what I'm concerned

that's really not what I'm concerned about when I talk about love I'm talking

about when I talk about love I'm talking about a metaphysical kind of philosoph

about a metaphysical kind of philosoph iCal kind of love which can be difficult

iCal kind of love which can be difficult to then translate

to then translate into the human kind of love now we've

into the human kind of love now we've talked about that

talked about that elsewhere and it's not like I'm saying

elsewhere and it's not like I'm saying that I was some kind of monster to these

that I was some kind of monster to these girls I wasn't I'm talking about subtle

girls I wasn't I'm talking about subtle ways right so you might think well Leo

ways right so you might think well Leo what did you do did you verbally abuse

what did you do did you verbally abuse them sexually abuse them it's like no no

them sexually abuse them it's like no no no it's much more subtle than that way

no it's much more subtle than that way more subtle than that

next thing is I was wrong about pushing truth on

people as I went through my suffering and I went through this whole

suffering and I went through this whole process of facing a lot of this

process of facing a lot of this difficult

difficult truth about myself and my own behavior

truth about myself and my own behavior and my own thinking patterns and all the

and my own thinking patterns and all the areas I was

areas I was wrong

uh it made me very painfully aware of how painful truth

how painful truth is and how much more careful I have to

is and how much more careful I have to be in terms of just kind of like bashing

be in terms of just kind of like bashing people over the head with the truth

people over the head with the truth whether it's a girlfriend or an audience

whether it's a girlfriend or an audience member

you right originally I sort of had this attitude when I sort of actualized that

attitude when I sort of actualized that or that it would be like pummeling

or that it would be like pummeling people with the truth being very blunt

people with the truth being very blunt and that worked to a certain extent I

and that worked to a certain extent I sort of made that my style

sort of made that my style there's certain advantages to that style

there's certain advantages to that style there's certain disadvantages to that

there's certain disadvantages to that style and so as I mature in how I do

style and so as I mature in how I do these teachings as I do more of the

these teachings as I do more of the teachings I look back upon the teachings

teachings I look back upon the teachings and I see various limitations in the

and I see various limitations in the style that I adopted originally but of

style that I adopted originally but of course that style over 10 years it has

course that style over 10 years it has kind of

kind of like become ingrained in me and it's

like become ingrained in me and it's difficult to to make a shift in that

difficult to to make a shift in that however I made I had kind of like an

however I made I had kind of like an internal shift here because I realized

internal shift here because I realized just like how inappro it is to use truth

just like how inappro it is to use truth in this kind of way truth needs a lot

in this kind of way truth needs a lot more skill behind it

like originally I would I would think that like well people are under all

that like well people are under all these fantasies and Illusions and then

these fantasies and Illusions and then my job as like the spiritual teacher is

my job as like the spiritual teacher is to shatter these Illusions for them and

to shatter these Illusions for them and that this would benefit them and now I

that this would benefit them and now I had a I had a real shift on that my

had a I had a real shift on that my relationship to that changed and so now

relationship to that changed and so now I'm not so much interested in doing that

I'm not so much interested in doing that anymore I'm more comfortable with just

anymore I'm more comfortable with just letting

letting people stay lost in their fantasies and

people stay lost in their fantasies and Illusions and not interfere with

Illusions and not interfere with that not pushing truth on

them having them show some receptivity first before just pushing it on them so

first before just pushing it on them so that's a shift that you'll be seeing in

that's a shift that you'll be seeing in my teachings going forward

I was wrong in trying to disillusion with the truth of undermining people's

with the truth of undermining people's fantasies I was wrong in trying to get

fantasies I was wrong in trying to get everyone to pursue truth spirituality

everyone to pursue truth spirituality and

and Awakening what I see now more

Awakening what I see now more clearly than I ever saw before is just

clearly than I ever saw before is just like how specific this whole Awakening

like how specific this whole Awakening spirituality philosophy truth seeking

spirituality philosophy truth seeking business is and it's really specialized

business is and it's really specialized for certain kinds of people who value

for certain kinds of people who value this kind of work

this kind of work and most people do not value this kind

and most people do not value this kind of

work and um there are different priorities people have in life different

priorities people have in life different values that they have and those values

values that they have and those values and priorities need to be like people

and priorities need to be like people need to be met where they're at

need to be met where they're at and those priorities need to be honored

and those priorities need to be honored rather than like judging them for it in

rather than like judging them for it in a subtle way where like you judge them

a subtle way where like you judge them for like oh well you have the wrong

for like oh well you have the wrong priorities you should be pursuing what

priorities you should be pursuing what I'm pursuing

I'm pursuing and um no there's just a there's just a

and um no there's just a there's just a lot more diversity of of ways

lot more diversity of of ways that one can live life and part of what

that one can live life and part of what you know I've talked about in the past

you know I've talked about in the past this idea of sovereignty of Mind

this idea of sovereignty of Mind respecting the sovereignty of others

respecting the sovereignty of others people other people's

people other people's consciousnesses and part of what that

consciousnesses and part of what that means is getting to know their

means is getting to know their values on their terms not on your terms

values on their terms not on your terms not projecting my own values onto other

not projecting my own values onto other people or on to

people or on to you and being very clear to distinguish

you and being very clear to distinguish that like this is my value set that's

that like this is my value set that's your value set and there's a there's a

your value set and there's a there's a difference there and for my advice to

difference there and for my advice to work for you there needs to be a sort of

work for you there needs to be a sort of alignment of value

alignment of value sets which there may not be and in fact

sets which there may not be and in fact for most people there's not going to be

for most people there's not going to be that kind of alignment so for example

that kind of alignment so for example recommending truth seeking to everybody

recommending truth seeking to everybody in the general population this is

in the general population this is inappropriate because they just have a

inappropriate because they just have a different value set so I'm I'm going to

different value set so I'm I'm going to be more careful in the future about

be more careful in the future about about

about distinguishing between those things and

distinguishing between those things and also just about accommodating a more

also just about accommodating a more diverse value set in my audience cuz if

diverse value set in my audience cuz if you have thousands and millions of

you have thousands and millions of people

people watching uh you have a you have the

watching uh you have a you have the whole rainbow the whole gamut of

whole rainbow the whole gamut of different value sets that people have

different value sets that people have and in the past I would teach from like

and in the past I would teach from like my own value set of course and it's

my own value set of course and it's difficult to see outside one's own value

difficult to see outside one's own value set but that's what higher Consciousness

set but that's what higher Consciousness does for you that's also what suffering

does for you that's also what suffering will help you to see that's also what

will help you to see that's also what interacting with other people and

interacting with other people and getting feedback from them or like you

getting feedback from them or like you know in your relationships you'll

know in your relationships you'll realize that your girlfriend has a

realize that your girlfriend has a different value set than you

different value set than you do your husband has a different value

do your husband has a different value set than you do your children your

set than you do your children your parents and so a lot of what

parents and so a lot of what relationship Dynamics and problems

relationship Dynamics and problems revolve around is just these differences

revolve around is just these differences in value sets and also not

in value sets and also not appreciating a different value set than

appreciating a different value set than yours and trying to push and project

yours and trying to push and project yours onto

yours onto them and of course you can do that with

them and of course you can do that with your audience as

well I was wrong for assuming that everyone should be interested in my

values so in the future I'm going to be making my teachings more we might say

making my teachings more we might say Universal kind of trying to accommodate

Universal kind of trying to accommodate or it's not like I'm going to be

or it's not like I'm going to be adopting other people's values so much

adopting other people's values so much but it's like I'm going to be I'm going

but it's like I'm going to be I'm going to be um underscoring that

to be um underscoring that like this piece of advice is for this

like this piece of advice is for this kind of value set sort of thing and also

kind of value set sort of thing and also encouraging you to like be true to your

encouraging you to like be true to your value set because a lot of you guys who

value set because a lot of you guys who watch

get sort of seduced by the Charisma of all this and some of these cool Advanced

all this and some of these cool Advanced ideas some of the truth in these ideas

ideas some of the truth in these ideas you can kind of get seduced into that

you can kind of get seduced into that and then you can sort of like start to

and then you can sort of like start to think that well now I should be

think that well now I should be following Leo's value set now of course

following Leo's value set now of course this is all going to be implicit you

this is all going to be implicit you don't tell yourself that explicitly but

don't tell yourself that explicitly but implicitly you're just going to be

implicitly you're just going to be trying to like follow my value set

trying to like follow my value set without even knowing what's happening

without even knowing what's happening but then five years later you'll realize

but then five years later you'll realize that this isn't working for me and the

that this isn't working for me and the reason it's not working for you is

reason it's not working for you is because you should have been following

because you should have been following your value set which is probably

your value set which is probably different from my value set and even

different from my value set and even within spirituality see there's

within spirituality see there's different even value sets within

different even value sets within spirituality what do you want out of

spirituality what do you want out of spirituality don't assume that what I

spirituality don't assume that what I want out of spirituality is the same

want out of spirituality is the same thing as what you want maybe what you

thing as what you want maybe what you want is to transcend suffering maybe

want is to transcend suffering maybe what you want is loving

what you want is loving relationships with humans in your life

relationships with humans in your life um maybe what you want is

um maybe what you want is bliss that's not why I do spirituality

bliss that's not why I do spirituality even though some of those things are are

even though some of those things are are still good um from my point of view but

still good um from my point of view but that's not where I'm coming from when I

that's not where I'm coming from when I do this work so that's something I'll be

do this work so that's something I'll be emphasizing more in the

emphasizing more in the future I was wrong in teaching in a

future I was wrong in teaching in a confrontational judgmental heavy-handed

confrontational judgmental heavy-handed and arrogant way that kind of style

and arrogant way that kind of style that's the kind of style I adopted when

that's the kind of style I adopted when I first started and

I first started and um and the more I do it the more I see

um and the more I do it the more I see the the limitations of it I realize more

the the limitations of it I realize more and more that it's inappropriate to and

and more that it's inappropriate to and bully people into

bully people into self-actualizing I was wrong for

self-actualizing I was wrong for teaching for egoic reasons I was wrong

teaching for egoic reasons I was wrong for getting egoic pleasure out of

for getting egoic pleasure out of lording insights over my

audience and that just doesn't serve my audience and it corrupts my

audience and it corrupts my work so

work so see I started to reflect more and more

see I started to reflect more and more on my work during this time off and

on my work during this time off and really asking myself what are my true

really asking myself what are my true motives for doing this work why am I

motives for doing this work why am I even doing it why am I putting out all

even doing it why am I putting out all this content what am I getting out of

this content what am I getting out of it I'm not doing it so much for the

it I'm not doing it so much for the money so what am I getting out of it and

money so what am I getting out of it and then when I dug deep into that I I

then when I dug deep into that I I noticed certain egoic Pleasures that I

noticed certain egoic Pleasures that I get um and then what I realized is that

get um and then what I realized is that that had a it felt like it was

that had a it felt like it was corrupting my work and that it really

corrupting my work and that it really wasn't serving you and then I sort of

wasn't serving you and then I sort of start to ask myself

like should I be doing this for my pleasure to a certain extent yes cuz

pleasure to a certain extent yes cuz like if I don't enjoy doing the work

like if I don't enjoy doing the work then why why do the work at

then why why do the work at all but on the the other hand if if if

all but on the the other hand if if if I'm just like serving myself in this

I'm just like serving myself in this endeavor and it's not serving the

endeavor and it's not serving the audience it's at the cost of the

audience it's at the cost of the audience it's not helping you to awaken

audience it's not helping you to awaken it's not helping you to get a deeper

it's not helping you to get a deeper understanding of of existence if that's

understanding of of existence if that's not

happening then that's a error in the style something needs to change and that

style something needs to change and that will be changing going

forward I was wrong about what I'm going to call here weak people by weak people

to call here weak people by weak people I mean people in life who are struggling

I mean people in life who are struggling um maybe people with the mental

um maybe people with the mental disorders in

cells people stuck in a like a deep victim

victim complex uh

complex uh just in general people who are suffering

just in general people who are suffering a lot in life it's easy when you're

a lot in life it's easy when you're successful relatively successful if

successful relatively successful if you're in good health which I'm not but

you're in good health which I'm not but if you're in good health um and uh you

if you're in good health um and uh you know if you have if you have some status

know if you have if you have some status in the world if if you're somewhat

in the world if if you're somewhat famous if uh if you have a good

famous if uh if you have a good financial

financial situation um if you have a good

situation um if you have a good emotional state of mind where you don't

emotional state of mind where you don't have a mental disorder or something like

have a mental disorder or something like that it can be very easy kind of like to

that it can be very easy kind of like to turn a blind eye or to be dismissive to

turn a blind eye or to be dismissive to these kinds of people who suffer from

these kinds of people who suffer from these kinds of problems and who don't

these kinds of problems and who don't have these kinds of things in their life

have these kinds of things in their life and to not appreciate how difficult it

and to not appreciate how difficult it is for them to create that right because

is for them to create that right because everybody starts at a different place in

everybody starts at a different place in life uh for some people creating

life uh for some people creating financial success and abundance for

financial success and abundance for themselves is going to be a lot more

themselves is going to be a lot more difficult for others just based on where

difficult for others just based on where they were born what kind of family they

they were born what kind of family they had whether they were abused or not and

had whether they were abused or not and like in this work the spiritual work the

like in this work the spiritual work the psychological work you know if you've

psychological work you know if you've been

been abused that's a very

abused that's a very different Mountain you have to climb

different Mountain you have to climb than someone like me who

wasn't and so thanks to the suffering that I went

so thanks to the suffering that I went through like I made a connection I made

through like I made a connection I made a connection with those kinds of people

a connection with those kinds of people because I could I could see you know I

because I could I could see you know I can see what it's like to be in a sort

can see what it's like to be in a sort of

of a unresourceful

a unresourceful deficient state where it's difficult to

deficient state where it's difficult to help yourself you feel

help yourself you feel helpless if you have a serious health

helpless if you have a serious health problem you feel helpless because you

problem you feel helpless because you don't know how to fix it you try stuff

don't know how to fix it you try stuff and it doesn't

and it doesn't work it's kind of out of your control

work it's kind of out of your control well likewise you know if you're if

well likewise you know if you're if you're born in

you're born in some awful third world country it kind

some awful third world country it kind of feels like it's out of your control

of feels like it's out of your control now that doesn't mean it's out of your

now that doesn't mean it's out of your control there's still stuff you can do

control there's still stuff you can do of course but still that's very

of course but still that's very different than being born in a nice

different than being born in a nice neighborhood in

California so I have more compassion for these kinds of people and in the past I

these kinds of people and in the past I would kind of speak down to that and

would kind of speak down to that and that was wrong of me to

that was wrong of me to do I was also wrong in speaking bluntly

do I was also wrong in speaking bluntly without tact and sensitivity to people's

without tact and sensitivity to people's feelings and

feelings and values feelings and

values feelings and values and uh

and basically the reason I did that is because I was so focused on this notion

because I was so focused on this notion of

of Truth and I was prioritizing that above

Truth and I was prioritizing that above everything else and again there's

everything else and again there's certain benefits that come with that but

certain benefits that come with that but then there's downsides and so now I'm

then there's downsides and so now I'm more sensitive to the

more sensitive to the downsides I was wrong in using too much

downsides I was wrong in using too much profanity and crass and sensitive

profanity and crass and sensitive examples as I mature

examples as I mature I'm I look back at at that and kind of

I'm I look back at at that and kind of cringe I was wrong in my tone

cringe I was wrong in my tone interacting with people sometimes the

interacting with people sometimes the tone that I would use would be too

tone that I would use would be too obnoxious too harsh too judgmental too

obnoxious too harsh too judgmental too kind of like finger

kind of like finger wagging which is wrong it's just not

wagging which is wrong it's just not effective you

effective you see and it's a trap you know doing this

see and it's a trap you know doing this whole YouTube stick is a trap in the

whole YouTube stick is a trap in the sense that like there's a pressure to

sense that like there's a pressure to want to perform it's like a performance

want to perform it's like a performance when I'm up here it almost feels like a

when I'm up here it almost feels like a performance it's not just like a normal

performance it's not just like a normal conversation you know I put a little bit

conversation you know I put a little bit of like acting into it a little bit of

of like acting into it a little bit of like emotion a little bit of like

like emotion a little bit of like Charisma in order to make it

Charisma in order to make it entertaining

entertaining but

but um but you know that gets in the way of

um but you know that gets in the way of truth of

truth of course and

course and um and then it kind of like it

um and then it kind of like it incentivizes almost like a creating of a

incentivizes almost like a creating of a subtle

subtle drama and and again I mean the whole

drama and and again I mean the whole internet is is full with this kind of

internet is is full with this kind of drama but then I started to notice like

drama but then I started to notice like I mean it's it's not like my content has

I mean it's it's not like my content has like very obvious drama in it um

like very obvious drama in it um relative to what you find on the

relative to what you find on the internet or on YouTube but still like

internet or on YouTube but still like again um some of these things that I'm

again um some of these things that I'm talking about are like very subtle

talking about are like very subtle points and many people would just kind

points and many people would just kind of like dismiss it Overlook it or say oh

of like dismiss it Overlook it or say oh it's not a very big deal but um but

it's not a very big deal but um but again like the more advanced I get the

again like the more advanced I get the more conscious I get it's like the very

more conscious I get it's like the very subtle stuff that starts to bug me about

subtle stuff that starts to bug me about my

my work I was wrong in using violent

work I was wrong in using violent communication I'll have an episode about

communication I'll have an episode about violent communication coming soon that's

violent communication coming soon that's going to be powerful it's like a shift

going to be powerful it's like a shift when I learned about this concept of

when I learned about this concept of violent communication and then I looked

violent communication and then I looked at how I communicate it's like a lot of

at how I communicate it's like a lot of like I saw a lot of things that I wasn't

like I saw a lot of things that I wasn't seeing before that distinction of

seeing before that distinction of violent communication very powerful in a

violent communication very powerful in a nutshell what it means is a sort of like

nutshell what it means is a sort of like an inflammatory style of

an inflammatory style of communication but I'll elaborate more

communication but I'll elaborate more upon that in the future so in the future

upon that in the future so in the future you'll see me using less violent

you'll see me using less violent communication uh and violent is not just

communication uh and violent is not just in the the word choices that there can

in the the word choices that there can be violence or inflammatory word choice

be violence or inflammatory word choice for example using excessive profanity

for example using excessive profanity might be one

might be one example um but then it's also about the

example um but then it's also about the tone right so it's a combination it's

tone right so it's a combination it's the it's the tone it's the word choice

the it's the tone it's the word choice and it's also like the

and it's also like the intent it's the intent and the

intent it's the intent and the motivation behind every sentence that is

motivation behind every sentence that is being

being said and every paragraph that those

said and every paragraph that those sentences add up to and it's also the

sentences add up to and it's also the the subtle

the subtle judgments that are

judgments that are Laden within that so this is a this is a

Laden within that so this is a this is a very very subtle topic I was wrong in

very very subtle topic I was wrong in viewing people as fools and idiots what

viewing people as fools and idiots what happened over time is that I as I was

happened over time is that I as I was figuring out more of these deep aspects

figuring out more of these deep aspects of reality

um I started to develop a contempt for human intelligence because frankly

human intelligence because frankly there's a lot of stupid stuff that

there's a lot of stupid stuff that humans do in the social domain in the

humans do in the social domain in the political domain in the business domain

political domain in the business domain on in the social media domain even in

on in the social media domain even in the spiritual domain maybe even

the spiritual domain maybe even especially in the spiritual domain right

especially in the spiritual domain right there's a lot of stupid stuff but but

there's a lot of stupid stuff but but then if you start to tell yourself that

then if you start to tell yourself that over and over again in your own mind you

over and over again in your own mind you kind of like start to program your own

kind of like start to program your own mind to look at mankind with this kind

mind to look at mankind with this kind of

of contempt and

contempt and um and of course that's because like you

um and of course that's because like you start to look at people you start to

start to look at people you start to look down at people because they're not

look down at people because they're not awakened they're not construct aware

awakened they're not construct aware they don't know all of these like

they don't know all of these like sophisticated self-deception mechanisms

sophisticated self-deception mechanisms that you now

know um but then this becomes its own kind of trap you see and so what I've

kind of trap you see and so what I've been doing is I've been um I've been

been doing is I've been um I've been looking more at just like very

looking more at just like very successful talented genius people in

successful talented genius people in society across media that have their own

society across media that have their own kind of like specialized narrow

kind of like specialized narrow intelligence like they're really good

intelligence like they're really good they have a sort of a genius at what

they have a sort of a genius at what they

they do even though it has nothing to do with

do even though it has nothing to do with they have no idea of what spirituality

they have no idea of what spirituality is what Awakening is what construct

is what Awakening is what construct awareness is like they're not that

awareness is like they're not that sophisticated but they're just

sophisticated but they're just interested in a different set of things

interested in a different set of things and they have a specialized intelligence

and they have a specialized intelligence in that set of things you know

in that set of things you know like you can look at someone like a for

like you can look at someone like a for example like a Steven Wolfram like a a

example like a Steven Wolfram like a a really brilliant scientist he doesn't

really brilliant scientist he doesn't understand some of these spiritual

understand some of these spiritual topics we talk about but like you can

topics we talk about but like you can recognize like the genius the

recognize like the genius the intelligence in that narrow specialized

intelligence in that narrow specialized thing that he's doing and then what's

thing that he's doing and then what's important is to recognize that kind of

important is to recognize that kind of Genius all across the board within

Genius all across the board within Society you know people have

Society you know people have perspectives everyone has a perspective

perspectives everyone has a perspective all these perspectives are basically

all these perspectives are basically limited many of them are contained

limited many of them are contained fantasies and nonsense and and garbage a

fantasies and nonsense and and garbage a bunch of noise but there's signal in

bunch of noise but there's signal in that noise and so really the more the

that noise and so really the more the most mature way to go about this is to

most mature way to go about this is to kind of like recognize and appreciate

kind of like recognize and appreciate this kind of narrow intelligence and

this kind of narrow intelligence and everything people are doing and um and

everything people are doing and um and valuing the uniqueness of these

valuing the uniqueness of these different perspectives and how they can

different perspectives and how they can contribute right how they can attribute

contribute right how they can attribute to you how you can make use of the

to you how you can make use of the signal in that noise so you can take

signal in that noise so you can take somebody that you disagree with somebody

somebody that you disagree with somebody that normally you would look down upon

that normally you would look down upon because they're not woke or whatever and

because they're not woke or whatever and you can find that that signal and look

you can find that that signal and look through the

through the noise that's that's that's tricky

noise that's that's that's tricky because usually what our mind does our

because usually what our mind does our mind tends to focus on the noise

mind tends to focus on the noise especially if there's more noise than

especially if there's more noise than signal in some perspective we tend to

signal in some perspective we tend to focus on the Noise We to demonize and

focus on the Noise We to demonize and judge based on the noise ignoring the

judge based on the noise ignoring the signal but then if you if you adopt that

signal but then if you if you adopt that kind of attitude you know you can find

kind of attitude you know you can find something wrong about almost anybody

something wrong about almost anybody even any spiritual teacher you know you

even any spiritual teacher you know you could take a spiritual teacher you can

could take a spiritual teacher you can find sad Guru and criticize him about

find sad Guru and criticize him about some you know little thing he did wrong

some you know little thing he did wrong and then you can get like hung up on

and then you can get like hung up on that and you can do that for every

that and you can do that for every spiritual teacher and you can do that

spiritual teacher and you can do that for every scientist and every

for every scientist and every philosopher and every social media

philosopher and every social media influencer but at the end of the day

influencer but at the end of the day after you is doing all that what do you

after you is doing all that what do you get you get a sort of like cynicism and

get you get a sort of like cynicism and contempt and and a sort of like um

contempt and and a sort of like um disgust with Humanity as a whole which

disgust with Humanity as a whole which is which is not very

is which is not very effective it then becomes difficult to

effective it then becomes difficult to learn from these people and it

learn from these people and it fundamentally it doesn't feel right it

fundamentally it doesn't feel right it doesn't sit right with you because like

doesn't sit right with you because like what you want is you want to be out

what you want is you want to be out there experiencing and exploring all

there experiencing and exploring all these different perspectives and you

these different perspectives and you want to be rather joyful about it rather

want to be rather joyful about it rather than being moralistic and contracted in

than being moralistic and contracted in this kind of like negative judgmental

this kind of like negative judgmental mode and so I was definitely falling

mode and so I was definitely falling into that trap and of course this is

into that trap and of course this is kind of like the Trap of

kind of like the Trap of arrogance which uh I'm certainly very

arrogance which uh I'm certainly very very guilty of uh I was wrong in

very guilty of uh I was wrong in speaking about and assuming levels of

speaking about and assuming levels of consciousness of of other people and

consciousness of of other people and spiritual teachers you know part of the

spiritual teachers you know part of the thing that I'm trying to do is I'm

thing that I'm trying to do is I'm trying to like one of the things I

trying to like one of the things I regret the most most about my work is

regret the most most about my work is that I can

that I can see um like little exaggerations that

see um like little exaggerations that just that like I sneak in in certain

just that like I sneak in in certain areas it's

areas it's like 90% of what I say is is is powerful

like 90% of what I say is is is powerful stuff but then but then my ego sneaks in

stuff but then but then my ego sneaks in certain little like exaggerations or

certain little like exaggerations or like jumps to certain little conclusions

like jumps to certain little conclusions make little assumptions you know going

make little assumptions you know going just like a little bit overboard a

just like a little bit overboard a little a little bit like beyond what

little a little bit like beyond what would need to be said if I was being

would need to be said if I was being like strictly careful strictly truthful

like strictly careful strictly truthful and so as I'm trying to align my own

and so as I'm trying to align my own mind more with

mind more with truth that kind of stuff is is not

truth that kind of stuff is is not acceptable to me anymore and so I'm I'm

acceptable to me anymore and so I'm I'm like working through a process of of

like working through a process of of trying to just like make everything that

trying to just like make everything that I say as like crisp and like sharp and

I say as like crisp and like sharp and accurate right it's like it's like a

accurate right it's like it's like a sort of a dedication to the accuracy of

sort of a dedication to the accuracy of your

your speech and so in that respect you know

speech and so in that respect you know a lot of times people will ask me well

a lot of times people will ask me well Leo what do you think about this

Leo what do you think about this spiritual teacher and that spiritual

spiritual teacher and that spiritual teacher know how enlightened is this

teacher know how enlightened is this person and then how enlightened is that

person and then how enlightened is that person and then

person and then like strictly speaking I can't be inside

like strictly speaking I can't be inside the minds of any of these people right I

the minds of any of these people right I can strictly speaking only speak about

can strictly speaking only speak about my

my Consciousness so I have to make a leap I

Consciousness so I have to make a leap I have to kind of like a jump to a sort of

have to kind of like a jump to a sort of conclusion make certain assumptions and

conclusion make certain assumptions and certain sort of like interpretations and

certain sort of like interpretations and predictions right it's a it's not it's

predictions right it's a it's not it's not some sort of like absolute

not some sort of like absolute knowledge of somebody else's level of

knowledge of somebody else's level of Consciousness or development I have to

Consciousness or development I have to like go out a bit on a limb to talk

like go out a bit on a limb to talk about that

about that stuff so there's a there's like multiple

stuff so there's a there's like multiple choices I have there I can just be quiet

choices I have there I can just be quiet which is always the wise choice the

which is always the wise choice the wisest choice is always just to you know

wisest choice is always just to you know if you're not sure just be quiet um but

if you're not sure just be quiet um but then you know there's a trap to want to

then you know there's a trap to want to speak about stuff that you're not quite

speak about stuff that you're not quite sure about and

because most spiritual teachings don't actually consider the perspective of

actually consider the perspective of other spiritual teachers or people what

other spiritual teachers or people what they do is they just present you like a

they do is they just present you like a single perspective on spirituality from

single perspective on spirituality from a certain teacher part of what actually

a certain teacher part of what actually that or does is that we consider lots of

that or does is that we consider lots of different spiritual teachers we name

different spiritual teachers we name them we consider their perspectives read

them we consider their perspectives read their books and we we we compare all

their books and we we we compare all this kind of stuff and we try to figure

this kind of stuff and we try to figure out you know like

we use one spiritual teacher teachings and

use one spiritual teacher teachings and perspective against another in the sense

perspective against another in the sense that like we try to use one to

that like we try to use one to compensate for the gaps in the

compensate for the gaps in the other and so you sort of damned if you

other and so you sort of damned if you do and damned if you don't in this

do and damned if you don't in this situation because if you're learning

situation because if you're learning from any kind of spiritual teacher first

from any kind of spiritual teacher first of all you have to decide which one to

of all you have to decide which one to learn from and there's different

learn from and there's different qualities of them so how are you going

qualities of them so how are you going to judge as as a student you have to

to judge as as a student you have to judge somehow and somehow have some kind

judge somehow and somehow have some kind of sorting process for who you're going

of sorting process for who you're going to listen to because you can't listen to

to listen to because you can't listen to all of them

all of them equally and then also when you start

equally and then also when you start comparing them you're going to notice

comparing them you're going to notice that there's important differences in

that there's important differences in the detail of what they teach and often

the detail of what they teach and often times contradictions and they can teach

times contradictions and they can teach exactly the opposite things one guy will

exactly the opposite things one guy will say meditation won't make you

say meditation won't make you enlightened another guy says he got

enlightened another guy says he got Enlighten through meditation so what's

Enlighten through meditation so what's true and strictly speaking you don't

true and strictly speaking you don't know who's like you can't get inside

know who's like you can't get inside their heads but you still have to make

their heads but you still have to make certain evaluations

certain evaluations here so

here so um It's Tricky but I'm going to be more

um It's Tricky but I'm going to be more careful about just like not leaping to

careful about just like not leaping to to to judgments and conclusions about

to to judgments and conclusions about the the levels of consciousness of of

the the levels of consciousness of of others even though you know again it's

others even though you know again it's like man I wish I could just not talk

like man I wish I could just not talk about it at all but on the other hand it

about it at all but on the other hand it has to be talked about because like my

has to be talked about because like my own Awakenings and understandings of

own Awakenings and understandings of Consciousness and doing this work have

Consciousness and doing this work have led me to like

led me to like very important realizations about gaps

very important realizations about gaps in certain teachings and

in certain teachings and teachers and I feel like that's

teachers and I feel like that's important to

discuss even though when I discuss those things it it doesn't mean that I'm like

things it it doesn't mean that I'm like 100% certain that I

100% certain that I know that

know that teacher's level of consciousness

teacher's level of consciousness so keep that in

so keep that in mind I was also wrong in giving out too

mind I was also wrong in giving out too many answers without helping to

many answers without helping to facilitate people in discovering their

facilitate people in discovering their own answers this is a huge sticking

own answers this is a huge sticking point for me uh going forward that like

point for me uh going forward that like I have a tendency to want to give out

I have a tendency to want to give out all the

all the answers

and I've had this realization recently that um it's it's really limiting the

that um it's it's really limiting the power of these teachings because you're

power of these teachings because you're getting ideas in your mind abstract

getting ideas in your mind abstract ideas of things that should actually be

ideas of things that should actually be experienced by you so really I'm

experienced by you so really I'm thinking about how to help facilitate

thinking about how to help facilitate people more into discovering their own

people more into discovering their own answers rather than just giving you all

answers rather than just giving you all the

the answers that's more powerful the trick

answers that's more powerful the trick is that it's difficult to do that

is that it's difficult to do that through this medium of of just a

through this medium of of just a video or an

audio that really requires a kind of like Socratic method going back and

like Socratic method going back and forth

forth which just can't be done through this

which just can't be done through this medium but I'm I'm thinking about how to

medium but I'm I'm thinking about how to like structure the content more so that

like structure the content more so that maybe I'm giving you more exercises

maybe I'm giving you more exercises maybe asking you more questions um it's

maybe asking you more questions um it's difficult cuz

like I don't like the idea of just making a video where I just ask you a

making a video where I just ask you a question and give you an exercise and

question and give you an exercise and then it's on you to go and do it it's

then it's on you to go and do it it's like um

like um but um that's still something I'm like

but um that's still something I'm like working out I'm going to be working out

working out I'm going to be working out over the next year or to how to make

over the next year or to how to make subtle changes there to make that better

subtle changes there to make that better about my

about my work I was wrong in underestimating the

work I was wrong in underestimating the intelligence and potential of my

intelligence and potential of my audience I spent a lot of time thinking

audience I spent a lot of time thinking about my

about my audience

audience and getting inside their heads their

and getting inside their heads their perspective and it's difficult to do

perspective and it's difficult to do that because of course when you have an

that because of course when you have an audience of a million it's like you have

audience of a million it's like you have every perspective out there every value

every perspective out there every value system every level of intelligence

system every level of intelligence frankly some of my audience members are

frankly some of my audience members are stupid and some of them are brilliant

stupid and some of them are brilliant and everything in between so who do I

and everything in between so who do I tailor my content towards that's always

tailor my content towards that's always something that I'm wrestling

something that I'm wrestling with and I need like a internal model of

with and I need like a internal model of my audience how they think what they

my audience how they think what they know and what they don't know cuz based

know and what they don't know cuz based on what I think you know and don't know

on what I think you know and don't know I have to tailor my content in that

I have to tailor my content in that fashion um but in general uh uh in the

fashion um but in general uh uh in the past I've made the mistake of sort of

past I've made the mistake of sort of talking down to you and sort of like

talking down to you and sort of like gearing some of my content to like the

gearing some of my content to like the lower intelligence rather than the

lower intelligence rather than the higher

higher intelligence and as I was you know

intelligence and as I was you know reflecting

reflecting on on all this I realize that anyone

on on all this I realize that anyone that's willing to sit through one of my

that's willing to sit through one of my three-hour long ass videos on a deep

three-hour long ass videos on a deep topic like philosophy or God or

topic like philosophy or God or Consciousness this is already a very

Consciousness this is already a very exceptional special kind of mind that is

exceptional special kind of mind that is able to do this the average mind is not

able to do this the average mind is not going to be interested in this kind of

going to be interested in this kind of stuff it takes a very special value set

stuff it takes a very special value set for somebody to be able to sit through a

for somebody to be able to sit through a three-hour long video like that never

three-hour long video like that never mind 50 of them or a hundred of them as

mind 50 of them or a hundred of them as some of you have

some of you have done and so um

done and so um I wasn't appreciating that in the

I wasn't appreciating that in the past as I will be more going forward so

past as I will be more going forward so I apologize for taking you for granted

I apologize for taking you for granted for being too dismissive of your

for being too dismissive of your intelligence and wisdom and your

intelligence and wisdom and your um your commitment to this

um your commitment to this work I really want to applaud those of

work I really want to applaud those of you who've done that who've sat through

you who've done that who've sat through a hundred or more of these episodes like

a hundred or more of these episodes like that in of itself is an achievement you

that in of itself is an achievement you understand that right you understand

understand that right you understand that like 95% of mankind wouldn't do

that like 95% of mankind wouldn't do that if you gave it to them they would

that if you gave it to them they would just turn it off and move on to watching

just turn it off and move on to watching cat videos or something like that so the

cat videos or something like that so the fact that you did that of course just

fact that you did that of course just sitting through 100 videos it's empty

sitting through 100 videos it's empty theory that doesn't mean it's going to

theory that doesn't mean it's going to change your

change your life but it's still a huge

life but it's still a huge achievement and those of you who did

achievement and those of you who did that I want you to just acknowledge that

that I want you to just acknowledge that to yourself you're special for doing

to yourself you're special for doing that just for doing that that means you

that just for doing that that means you have a lot of potential because see what

have a lot of potential because see what that means is is that there's a like a

that means is is that there's a like a there's a spark in you that recognizes

there's a spark in you that recognizes the power of these ideas that's really

the power of these ideas that's really what it is it's not even me it's not my

what it is it's not even me it's not my personality that's keeping you here

personality that's keeping you here watching this

watching this material it's the power of the ideas

material it's the power of the ideas which are not my ideas these are ideas

which are not my ideas these are ideas that are just

that are just of the universe of the nature of

of the universe of the nature of existence you care about the nature of

existence you care about the nature of existence you care about psychology you

existence you care about psychology you care about

care about self-deception even though you're flawed

self-deception even though you're flawed in how you pursue all these things and

in how you pursue all these things and you have a lot of stupid ideas and

you have a lot of stupid ideas and Fantasies but the fact that you're

Fantasies but the fact that you're interested in this this is this is the

interested in this this is this is the starting point this is critical because

starting point this is critical because this like this means you're a diamond in

this like this means you're a diamond in the

the rough and that's something you know I

rough and that's something you know I can work with that I can work with you I

can work with that I can work with you I can work with a diamond in the rough and

can work with a diamond in the rough and I need to appreciate that because

I need to appreciate that because there's not that many Diamonds in the

there's not that many Diamonds in the Rough out there in the world I mean in a

Rough out there in the world I mean in a sense we could say everybody is a

sense we could say everybody is a diamond in the rough but some people are

diamond in the rough but some people are just so rough that uh you're not going

just so rough that uh you're not going to get anywhere with them that's the mo

to get anywhere with them that's the mo majority of people they're lost

majority of people they're lost chasing you know sex drugs and uh

chasing you know sex drugs and uh partying and and drinking and um and

partying and and drinking and um and money just like this kind of

money just like this kind of materialistic stuff that's not you

materialistic stuff that's not you though because you would have been out

though because you would have been out of here a long time ago if that was

of here a long time ago if that was you

you so as I was thinking about you know how

so as I was thinking about you know how do I relate properly with my audience

do I relate properly with my audience um because I communicate with many of

um because I communicate with many of you and I have since the very beginning

you and I have since the very beginning um i' I've talked with thousands of

um i' I've talked with thousands of you but like

um I still need to like it's difficult for me to develop a mental model of of

for me to develop a mental model of of my audience because um I don't really

my audience because um I don't really have a direct experience of that and

have a direct experience of that and it's I'm not sure like where to target

it's I'm not sure like where to target my my teachings and so now I like have a

my my teachings and so now I like have a realization that I need to

realization that I need to Target that that kind of like diamond in

Target that that kind of like diamond in the rough and it's like how do we polish

the rough and it's like how do we polish you up and uh what I want to do going

you up and uh what I want to do going forward is to be more supportive of that

forward is to be more supportive of that kind of audience member of championing

kind of audience member of championing you more encouraging you more your

you more encouraging you more your growth because you have so much

growth because you have so much potential just this enormous

potential just this enormous potential instead of what I was doing in

potential instead of what I was doing in the past which was kind of like berating

the past which was kind of like berating you sometimes judging you lording

you sometimes judging you lording insights over you uh because that's just

insights over you uh because that's just not what is going to help you to polish

not what is going to help you to polish you into the diamond that you ultimately

you into the diamond that you ultimately are underneath all

are underneath all that

that crap all that

see it's very easy to judge people for their human

their human bias but how helpful is that for helping

bias but how helpful is that for helping them to overcome it to transcend it

them to overcome it to transcend it that's what I've

been racking my mind over I was wrong in not appreciating my

over I was wrong in not appreciating my audience and if I have an amazing

audience and if I have an amazing audience because you know what I did

audience because you know what I did over over the break is that I just would

over over the break is that I just would go and and rewatch some of my old

go and and rewatch some of my old videos and read all the comments you

videos and read all the comments you know hundreds thousands of comments just

know hundreds thousands of comments just reading it and sometimes I read the

reading it and sometimes I read the comments and it's just like so much so

comments and it's just like so much so much fucking love there just like so

much fucking love there just like so much

much love

thank you for that like I really feel it

that like I really feel it sometimes and then other times I

sometimes and then other times I overlook it and take it for granted but

overlook it and take it for granted but like you can really feel that

like you can really feel that love in some of the comment

sections I also realized that I was wrong for projecting my own lack of

wrong for projecting my own lack of compassion and a lack of care for human

compassion and a lack of care for human things onto my audience not caring about

things onto my audience not caring about me so this was a very subtle projection

me so this was a very subtle projection that I noticed about

that I noticed about myself it's like see my focus is not the

myself it's like see my focus is not the human domain my focus is the existential

human domain my focus is the existential domain the philosophical

is but there's tradeoffs to that right there's like weaknesses that come with

there's like weaknesses that come with that cuz then interacting with the human

that cuz then interacting with the human then becomes more challenging cuz it's

then becomes more challenging cuz it's not a priority you're prioritizing

not a priority you're prioritizing something above the human most humans

something above the human most humans prioritize the human over the

prioritize the human over the existential I have sort of the opposite

existential I have sort of the opposite problem which can make me

problem which can make me um kind of

um kind of blind to the human dimensions and so

blind to the human dimensions and so that's something that I'm working on in

that's something that I'm working on in fact that's what most of these issu that

fact that's what most of these issu that I'm talking about are really about is

I'm talking about are really about is that there deficiencies with how I

that there deficiencies with how I interact and relate with

interact and relate with humankind basically because um you know

humankind basically because um you know frankly it's just not my highest

frankly it's just not my highest value but I'm bumping into the

value but I'm bumping into the limitations of that see and so that

limitations of that see and so that needs to be uh addressed going

needs to be uh addressed going forward and

um what i notic is that a lot of you just kind of like simple human folk who

just kind of like simple human folk who are not very existential in your

are not very existential in your thinking um you have an advantage over

thinking um you have an advantage over me in the sense that like you have a

me in the sense that like you have a more kind of like a simple just kind of

more kind of like a simple just kind of like

like basic human

basic human love even though I talk about

love even though I talk about existential love and all that like like

existential love and all that like like I said before that's different than just

I said before that's different than just sort of like a basic you know let's say

sort of like a basic you know let's say you're walking down the street and you

you're walking down the street and you see

see um you see just like a hungry homeless

um you see just like a hungry homeless person and you have like an empathy and

person and you have like an empathy and a care for them like what I would say is

a care for them like what I would say is that most of you who are not super

that most of you who are not super spiritually Advanced just like normal

spiritually Advanced just like normal kind of like decent

kind of like decent humans probably have a deeper sense of

humans probably have a deeper sense of compassion and love in that situation

compassion and love in that situation than than I than I do and the reason

than than I than I do and the reason that is is because I've said like I've

that is is because I've said like I've deprioritized that so that I can focus

deprioritized that so that I can focus on the existential you see but of

on the existential you see but of course like you can't just live life

course like you can't just live life that way otherwise there's going to be

that way otherwise there's going to be problems there's going to be you know

problems there's going to be you know limits and I've been bumping into those

limits and I've been bumping into those limits um and then so sometimes what I

limits um and then so sometimes what I would do is I would kind of like project

would do is I would kind of like project that kind of callous L I would also

that kind of callous L I would also project it onto my audience when really

project it onto my audience when really it's not there it's my own callousness

it's not there it's my own callousness that I'm projecting

that I'm projecting forward

forward so that was a mistake I

made my profound Awakenings made me arrogant and uh led to development of

arrogant and uh led to development of spiritual ego within

spiritual ego within me this was

me this was necessary but now it needs to be undone

necessary but now it needs to be undone so it's kind of like two steps forward

so it's kind of like two steps forward one step backward right it's not just

one step backward right it's not just two steps forward all the time two steps

two steps forward all the time two steps forward one step backward

forward one step backward um the arrogance the value of the

um the arrogance the value of the arrogance was that it allowed me to

arrogance was that it allowed me to think in new

think in new ways and to not just conform to all the

ways and to not just conform to all the other ways in which spiritual teachers

other ways in which spiritual teachers and teachings think this allowed me to

and teachings think this allowed me to make Innovations and new discoveries and

make Innovations and new discoveries and new ways of thinking about this material

new ways of thinking about this material and teaching this material and even new

and teaching this material and even new kinds of Awakenings that I don't think

kinds of Awakenings that I don't think anybody else has really had that I've

anybody else has really had that I've heard of but um of course as with

heard of but um of course as with anything any one of these like traits or

anything any one of these like traits or qualities that you have it's going to

qualities that you have it's going to have downsides and so I've been feeling

have downsides and so I've been feeling the downsides and now I want to correct

the downsides and now I want to correct for them

for them I was being I was wrong in being too

I was being I was wrong in being too reactive when

reactive when criticized I'm getting a lot better at

criticized I'm getting a lot better at dealing with

dealing with criticism

criticism um that's something I've I've

um that's something I've I've been developing as I mature I was wrong

been developing as I mature I was wrong in thinking that I was good when I was

in thinking that I was good when I was evil overlooking my evilness in my own

evil overlooking my evilness in my own mind and overly focusing on my good

mind and overly focusing on my good qualities because I have a lot of good

qualities because I have a lot of good qualities and you guys Point them out to

qualities and you guys Point them out to me um

me um maybe too much sometimes and uh and

then again the mind is so tricky it focuses on those to the exclusion of the

focuses on those to the exclusion of the evilness so I've been confronting my own

evilness so I've been confronting my own evilness and devilry during this

evilness and devilry during this extended

extended break I was wrong in that as I was going

break I was wrong in that as I was going through this whole process of learning

through this whole process of learning spirituality over the last 10

spirituality over the last 10 years I adopted and picked up uh many

years I adopted and picked up uh many spiritual fantasies and assumptions

spiritual fantasies and assumptions from reading all the books from studying

from reading all the books from studying from all the teachers and like I really

from all the teachers and like I really appreciate a lot more now just how

appreciate a lot more now just how fraught and tricky this whole domain is

fraught and tricky this whole domain is and so

and so now a lot of my work is about undoing

now a lot of my work is about undoing many of those spiritual

fantasies and that's something that I think uh all of you should should relate

think uh all of you should should relate with because you're going to fall into

with because you're going to fall into that same trap I guarantee you I

that same trap I guarantee you I guarantee you if you read all these

guarantee you if you read all these spiritual books and all this Buddhism

spiritual books and all this Buddhism and non-duality material and all this

and non-duality material and all this kind of stuff no matter which teachers

kind of stuff no matter which teachers you listen to you're going to start to

you listen to you're going to start to create fantasies around this stuff and

create fantasies around this stuff and various kinds of assumptions about them

various kinds of assumptions about them about yourself about what your results

about yourself about what your results will be about what spirituality is what

will be about what spirituality is what the potential of spirituality is when

the potential of spirituality is when you're going to be

you're going to be done what that's going to look like

that that's there's a lot more that needs to

that's there's a lot more that needs to be said about that in future

episodes I also noticed that I was wrong in this kind of subtle way where I had

in this kind of subtle way where I had this kind of like very subtle contrarian

this kind of like very subtle contrarian bias to all of my intellectual work

bias to all of my intellectual work where sometimes what would happen is in

where sometimes what would happen is in order to kind of like have the most

order to kind of like have the most original and unique perspectives and

original and unique perspectives and insights about reality I would uh some

insights about reality I would uh some times dismiss otherwise valid

times dismiss otherwise valid truths and perspectives that were more

truths and perspectives that were more mundane and ordinary just

mundane and ordinary just mainstream sometimes the mainstream is

mainstream sometimes the mainstream is just

just right and that going after some sort of

right and that going after some sort of exotic truth or exotic Insight is

exotic truth or exotic Insight is actually not aligned with the truth in

actually not aligned with the truth in that

that situation so I caught myself doing that

situation so I caught myself doing that and I've been doing that really for I

and I've been doing that really for I caught myself doing that for like my

caught myself doing that for like my whole

whole life um I've never

life um I've never been I've always had a sort of an

been I've always had a sort of an aversion to just like mainstream

aversion to just like mainstream thinking mainstream perspectives

thinking mainstream perspectives mainstream insights because they just

mainstream insights because they just feel kind of like too

feel kind of like too obvious and you know a lot of times

obvious and you know a lot of times mainstream perspectives are very

mainstream perspectives are very limited and

limited and um they miss a lot of the depth of

um they miss a lot of the depth of reality

reality but also at the same time a lot of a lot

but also at the same time a lot of a lot of times you know the mainstream is just

of times you know the mainstream is just right on something and you have to just

right on something and you have to just face that and acknowledge it and and and

face that and acknowledge it and and and surrender this desire to have a unique

surrender this desire to have a unique perspective on

something I was wrong in using superlatives too much stuff like you

superlatives too much stuff like you know if I'm talking about something I

know if I'm talking about something I say this is the best or I say always the

say this is the best or I say always the these superlative words always the best

these superlative words always the best never the only all everyone no one these

never the only all everyone no one these kinds of words see when I put that in

kinds of words see when I put that in front of a sentence that I'm going to

front of a sentence that I'm going to say it

um it um it makes it less truthful for example if you say

truthful for example if you say something like everyone is going to be

something like everyone is going to be happy after Awakening you

know that's not as truthful as saying that most people will be happy or maybe

that most people will be happy or maybe even some people will be happy

so I want to be more careful about my choice of words

choice of words there in the political realm I was uh

there in the political realm I was uh wrong in my faith in progressives and

wrong in my faith in progressives and leftists so I've sort of had like a

leftists so I've sort of had like a second political Awakening um and I I've

second political Awakening um and I I've been especially focusing a lot on the

been especially focusing a lot on the limitations and Fantasies and delusions

limitations and Fantasies and delusions of the political left which does not

of the political left which does not mean that I've gone to the

mean that I've gone to the right it's not like I'm a right- Winger

right it's not like I'm a right- Winger now but but um you know I've already I

now but but um you know I've already I have a few episodes in the past where I

have a few episodes in the past where I already discussed many of the

already discussed many of the limitations of stage green and leftist

limitations of stage green and leftist politics uh but it's it's been really

politics uh but it's it's been really enjoyable for me over the last couple of

enjoyable for me over the last couple of years to

years to just I spent

just I spent like four years after

like four years after Trump 2015 or so after Trump came into

Trump 2015 or so after Trump came into the mainstream I spent about four years

the mainstream I spent about four years like delving deep into leftist politics

like delving deep into leftist politics just learning all the ins and outs

just learning all the ins and outs familiarizing myself with all that and

familiarizing myself with all that and that was very useful I don't regret that

that was very useful I don't regret that at all but over the last couple of years

at all but over the last couple of years now I've spent now I'm spending my time

now I've spent now I'm spending my time kind of again undoing that it's like two

kind of again undoing that it's like two steps forward one step backward undoing

steps forward one step backward undoing all some of that and then what that

all some of that and then what that allowed me to do is to kind of like a

allowed me to do is to kind of like a reach a

reach a higher a higher sort of like meta

higher a higher sort of like meta perspective about politics which I'm

perspective about politics which I'm really satisfied with this is actually

really satisfied with this is actually one of the areas where being wrong was

one of the areas where being wrong was like easy to admit and and enjoy for me

like easy to admit and and enjoy for me cuz I wasn't attached to leftist

cuz I wasn't attached to leftist politics per se and so I always knew in

politics per se and so I always knew in the back of my mind that there were

the back of my mind that there were limitations there but I couldn't quite

limitations there but I couldn't quite pinpoint them so now I can see them much

pinpoint them so now I can see them much much much more clearly and so um I'm

much much more clearly and so um I'm thrilled in the future to help those of

thrilled in the future to help those of you who are kind of stuck in leftist

you who are kind of stuck in leftist politics to kind of see beyond the the

politics to kind of see beyond the the leftist Mind bubble which does not mean

leftist Mind bubble which does not mean that you're going to become a Centrist

that you're going to become a Centrist per se and it does not mean that you're

per se and it does not mean that you're going to become some you know deluded

going to become some you know deluded right-winger

I was wrong in speaking as though life is good for

is good for everybody I've been blessed to have a

everybody I've been blessed to have a generally fortunate and good life from

generally fortunate and good life from my childhood but even through my

my childhood but even through my adulthood you know I've had some great

adulthood you know I've had some great business opportunities that I was able

business opportunities that I was able to capitalize upon I've had um you know

to capitalize upon I've had um you know relatively good parents um I've had some

relatively good parents um I've had some great teachers throughout my

great teachers throughout my life um all sorts of advantages is just

life um all sorts of advantages is just the geography that I was raised in was a

the geography that I was raised in was a huge Advantage various kinds of Health

huge Advantage various kinds of Health advantages mental health advantages in

advantages mental health advantages in the sense that I don't have any um

the sense that I don't have any um mental disorders or personality

mental disorders or personality disorders or that kind of stuff or

disorders or that kind of stuff or serious trauma right and

so living in that way like life is pretty good like just as a baseline for

pretty good like just as a baseline for me life has always been like pretty cool

me life has always been like pretty cool pretty good of course sometimes you have

pretty good of course sometimes you have a bad day here or there sometimes you

a bad day here or there sometimes you have a you're a little bit sick or

have a you're a little bit sick or whatever but overall life is pretty good

whatever but overall life is pretty good um you have money you're not stressed

um you have money you're not stressed out you're not in a war

out you're not in a war zone you don't have some Abus of family

zone you don't have some Abus of family member to deal with or anything like

member to deal with or anything like that but I as I went through my period

that but I as I went through my period of suffering here over the last year is

of suffering here over the last year is I just

I just saw profoundly how bad life is for many

saw profoundly how bad life is for many people on the planet like many people

people on the planet like many people are just living in misery abject misery

are just living in misery abject misery whether it's crippling depression

whether it's crippling depression because they have some mental disorder

because they have some mental disorder or genetic you know defect or

or genetic you know defect or um chemical

um chemical imbalance or because they were

imbalance or because they were traumatized or because they're in a

traumatized or because they're in a awful shitty third world country with a

awful shitty third world country with a horrible political situation which is

horrible political situation which is just absurdly

just absurdly corrupt and they have to play and

corrupt and they have to play and survive with in that corrupt

survive with in that corrupt system um people who have been dealt

system um people who have been dealt gross injustices like I've never been

gross injustices like I've never been really dealt much gross Injustice like

really dealt much gross Injustice like that maybe the worst Injustice that

that maybe the worst Injustice that happened to me is one of my old business

happened to me is one of my old business partners years ago stole $25,000 from

partners years ago stole $25,000 from the business um which I never recovered

the business um which I never recovered um that was like the worst thing that

um that was like the worst thing that happened to me in that regard but like

happened to me in that regard but like some people lose their life savings they

some people lose their life savings they get scammed they get you know

get scammed they get you know uh all sorts of injustices could happen

uh all sorts of injustices could happen to them sexually

to them sexually abused um you know maybe exploited and

abused um you know maybe exploited and manipulated by some sort of like

manipulated by some sort of like Psychopathic character that comes into

Psychopathic character that comes into their life I've never had that right but

their life I've never had that right but but people live under these kinds of

but people live under these kinds of conditions some people have a very

conditions some people have a very difficult family situation because for

difficult family situation because for example they have to take care of their

example they have to take care of their elderly or sick parents

elderly or sick parents uh and because of that they can't go to

uh and because of that they can't go to university they can't finish their

university they can't finish their school they they have to go to some some

school they they have to go to some some sort of like they can't pursue their

sort of like they can't pursue their passion because they just need the money

passion because they just need the money so

so badly so what's happening with me as my

badly so what's happening with me as my awareness increases is that my capacity

awareness increases is that my capacity for even wanting to look at those sort

for even wanting to look at those sort of like negative aspects of life that

of like negative aspects of life that usually if you're successful you don't

usually if you're successful you don't want to look at those right like if

want to look at those right like if you're successful CEO of a giant company

you're successful CEO of a giant company or something like that do you really

or something like that do you really want to know about some kid who lives in

want to know about some kid who lives in some War torn part of the world third

some War torn part of the world third world who's getting abused and is you

world who's getting abused and is you know dealing with horrific Injustice and

know dealing with horrific Injustice and corruption like you don't want to know

corruption like you don't want to know about that kind of stuff right your mind

about that kind of stuff right your mind doesn't have the capacity to even want

doesn't have the capacity to even want to look at that because if you look at

to look at that because if you look at that kind of stuff you can't keep

that kind of stuff you can't keep running your business the way that you

running your business the way that you do

do and so of course I have some degree of

and so of course I have some degree of that kind of resistance as well because

that kind of resistance as well because this is like ugly stuff to look at I

this is like ugly stuff to look at I mean you can go spend the next month

mean you can go spend the next month just looking for videos of like very

just looking for videos of like very ugly aspects of life to look at just

ugly aspects of life to look at just horrible injustices

horrible injustices corruption um violence and evil quote

corruption um violence and evil quote unquote evil

unquote evil um and um and that will really blackpill

um and um and that will really blackpill you on life

and it's It's tricky because in a certain

certain sense you can

sense you can um you can completely ignore you could

um you can completely ignore you could say completely ignore all that you know

say completely ignore all that you know just stay positive you know focus on the

just stay positive you know focus on the positive in fact for those of you who

positive in fact for those of you who are just kind of like starting life and

are just kind of like starting life and are kind of struggling to get your your

are kind of struggling to get your your sgoing developing yourself I would say

sgoing developing yourself I would say ignore all that and just focus on

ignore all that and just focus on developing you f be selfish work on your

developing you f be selfish work on your just like work on your love life work on

just like work on your love life work on your business that kind of stuff don't

your business that kind of stuff don't worry about the war that's going on in

worry about the war that's going on in the Middle East or something like that

the Middle East or something like that that's um that's a distraction

that's um that's a distraction and it might make you like negative and

and it might make you like negative and cynical in a way that you shouldn't be

cynical in a way that you shouldn't be right now that's not resourceful for you

right now that's not resourceful for you but eventually at some point in your

but eventually at some point in your life once you develop a certain degree

life once you develop a certain degree of success and um mental stability and

of success and um mental stability and spiritual progress and all that you're

spiritual progress and all that you're going to want to Circle back around to

going to want to Circle back around to all that stuff you've been

all that stuff you've been ignoring and and like come to face with

ignoring and and like come to face with the with the shadow of mankind come to

the with the shadow of mankind come to face with with some of the evils of

face with with some of the evils of capitalism that is outsourced to the

capitalism that is outsourced to the third world you know come to face with

third world you know come to face with with toxic pollution that is poisoning

with toxic pollution that is poisoning people come to face with you know with

people come to face with you know with sexual violence come to face with um

sexual violence come to face with um with racism come to face with some of

with racism come to face with some of these

these um um evils we might say um but again

um um evils we might say um but again still

still be careful about that because

um because again you could just like you could black pill yourself really bad

could black pill yourself really bad there's plenty of evil in the world you

there's plenty of evil in the world you look at it enough of it you can

look at it enough of it you can blackpill yourself so badly that you're

blackpill yourself so badly that you're going to be depressed and you're going

going to be depressed and you're going to not want to you know get up in the

to not want to you know get up in the morning and do the things you have to do

morning and do the things you have to do and then or you might even get

and then or you might even get blackpilled on spirituality you might

blackpilled on spirituality you might say well Leo where's the love you're

say well Leo where's the love you're talking about love and God and all that

talking about love and God and all that and what good is that when all there's

and what good is that when all there's all this evil in the world

all this evil in the world that seems like spiritual

that seems like spiritual bypassing well of course both both

bypassing well of course both both things are true and in the future I'll

things are true and in the future I'll I'll talk more about how to bridge this

I'll talk more about how to bridge this divide as I do it myself but

divide as I do it myself but um

um uh but that's one of the beautiful

uh but that's one of the beautiful things about suffering see suffering is

things about suffering see suffering is the great equalizer when you suffer a

the great equalizer when you suffer a lot this is what builds compassion in

lot this is what builds compassion in you for other people and it makes you

you for other people and it makes you want to be a better person and it makes

want to be a better person and it makes you want to help and to correct some of

you want to help and to correct some of the injustices that are going on around

the injustices that are going on around the world whether it's various kinds of

the world whether it's various kinds of wars

wars or

um sexual

sexual misdeeds or the kind of you know

misdeeds or the kind of you know destruction of the environment and

destruction of the environment and problems that that causes or the

problems that that causes or the excesses of

excesses of capitalism so this is all

capitalism so this is all important um just you have to do it in

important um just you have to do it in the right way be careful and uh and in

the right way be careful and uh and in the future I'm going to have an episode

the future I'm going to have an episode that deals specifically with helping

that deals specifically with helping people to I'm going to have episodes

people to I'm going to have episodes specifically in the future that will

specifically in the future that will blackpill the shit out of you I'm going

blackpill the shit out of you I'm going to disclaim those but I can blackpill

to disclaim those but I can blackpill you like you want to be blackpilled I

you like you want to be blackpilled I can do an episode that will just

can do an episode that will just blackpill you you will be depressed for

blackpill you you will be depressed for the next

the next month um and that's all going to be true

month um and that's all going to be true by the way too but of course it can't

by the way too but of course it can't just be we can't just have that I'm also

just be we can't just have that I'm also going to have an episode where we talk

going to have an episode where we talk about

about how to develop hope and

how to develop hope and optimism in the face of all

optimism in the face of all that and some of you are facing this

that and some of you are facing this because like you you watch a lot of the

because like you you watch a lot of the news and the news is so negative but of

news and the news is so negative but of course the news even though the negative

course the news even though the negative stuff you see on the news it's true most

stuff you see on the news it's true most of it if you're watching a good news

of it if you're watching a good news source it's true you know the wars the

source it's true you know the wars the murders and so on but again that's a

murders and so on but again that's a that's still a very narrow cherry-picked

that's still a very narrow cherry-picked sliver of what's really going on in the

sliver of what's really going on in the whole world so you have to be careful

whole world so you have to be careful that you don't just exclusively focus on

that you don't just exclusively focus on some of this kind of like black pill

some of this kind of like black pill truth

truth stuff and what I mean by black pill when

stuff and what I mean by black pill when I say black pill I'm not talking about

I say black pill I'm not talking about the sort of incel black pill I'm talking

the sort of incel black pill I'm talking about a more

about a more General broader use of this word what I

General broader use of this word what I mean by black pill is just

mean by black pill is just like basically coming to

realize deep truths which also have very kind of like negative Bleak depressing

kind of like negative Bleak depressing consequences for

consequences for example looking at the the poverty in

example looking at the the poverty in Africa if you look at it a lot it can

Africa if you look at it a lot it can blackpill you looking at the

corruption in countries around the world that can kind of like blackpill you

that can kind of like blackpill you about human nature you might start to

about human nature you might start to think of humans as evil people um which

think of humans as evil people um which of course they are but uh um but you

of course they are but uh um but you have to frame that in the right way it's

have to frame that in the right way it's a very delicate way to frame that

a very delicate way to frame that because otherwise you might fall into

because otherwise you might fall into cynicism and nihilism which which is a

trap so that's the list the common thread and theme to all

list the common thread and theme to all these wrongness of Mind had to do with

these wrongness of Mind had to do with really how I relate to human beings how

really how I relate to human beings how to speak to them how to relate to them

to speak to them how to relate to them properly in my own

properly in my own mind how to think of them how to think

mind how to think of them how to think of their perspective how to frame

of their perspective how to frame properly certain negative aspects of

properly certain negative aspects of them that are my own

them that are my own shadow

shadow um and how to properly balance between

um and how to properly balance between the sort of my existential interests and

the sort of my existential interests and priorities and values truth existential

priorities and values truth existential love God spirituality philosophy and how

love God spirituality philosophy and how to like balance that with some of the

to like balance that with some of the just more mundane human

just more mundane human drama that goes

drama that goes on cuz to me human drama is just like a

on cuz to me human drama is just like a distraction it's existentially meaning

distraction it's existentially meaning but again that's just one perspective

but again that's just one perspective and that will have limits to it if I

and that will have limits to it if I just live from that point of view so in

just live from that point of view so in a certain sense you know I can't just be

a certain sense you know I can't just be above human drama because I'm part of

above human drama because I'm part of the human drama so again it's kind of

the human drama so again it's kind of like finding the balance

like finding the balance there so anyways that's what I mean by

there so anyways that's what I mean by what what I say when I say admitting you

what what I say when I say admitting you were wrong that's what I mean all that

were wrong that's what I mean all that stuff above that I said some of it very

stuff above that I said some of it very very subtle

very subtle and it will take you years to get to

and it will take you years to get to that kind of level of subtlety of seeing

that kind of level of subtlety of seeing where you're wrong about

where you're wrong about stuff and realistically it's not just

stuff and realistically it's not just going to be enough for you to do this

going to be enough for you to do this logically uh you're going to have to

logically uh you're going to have to suffer and this is here's what I'll tell

suffer and this is here's what I'll tell you about the suffering is that

um a lot of times I hear people say well Leo why why why did God create

Leo why why why did God create suffering how do just like transcend the

suffering how do just like transcend the suffering give me a quick way to just

suffering give me a quick way to just Escape The Suffering and um I really

Escape The Suffering and um I really don't resonate with that kind of like

don't resonate with that kind of like Buddhist approach

Buddhist approach of find a way to transcend the suffering

of find a way to transcend the suffering as soon as possible because the

as soon as possible because the suffering is a

suffering is a mistake I don't think that suffering is

mistake I don't think that suffering is a mistake I think suffering

a mistake I think suffering is uh your greatest teacher aside from

is uh your greatest teacher aside from the love that we talked about suffering

the love that we talked about suffering is your greatest teacher there's a lot

is your greatest teacher there's a lot of value in your suffering so be careful

of value in your suffering so be careful not to just uh dismiss the gift that

not to just uh dismiss the gift that your suffering is because otherwise see

your suffering is because otherwise see if you're just going through incredible

if you're just going through incredible suffering and you're not getting out

suffering and you're not getting out anything higher out of it that's

anything higher out of it that's actually what's depressing see if I went

actually what's depressing see if I went through the last year of suffering

through the last year of suffering through all my health problems and I

through all my health problems and I came out of it um and then I said to

came out of it um and then I said to myself well all of that was just for

myself well all of that was just for nothing you know why God did you make me

nothing you know why God did you make me go through all that that would be very

go through all that that would be very disempowering and depressing

disempowering and depressing ing

um even though I wouldn't wish it upon myself again but like I'm thrilled that

myself again but like I'm thrilled that I went through the last year of

I went through the last year of suffering because

suffering because of

of uh how much it forced me to think about

uh how much it forced me to think about these things and to refine my own mind

these things and to refine my own mind and my own understanding of these

things and that's going to be like that I I had some permanent shifts that I

I I had some permanent shifts that I would not have been able to have without

would not have been able to have without that and that's going to be like for the

that and that's going to be like for the rest of my right see these improvements

rest of my right see these improvements that I'm going to make they're going to

that I'm going to make they're going to pay dividends for the rest of my life

pay dividends for the rest of my life otherwise I would have kept making all

otherwise I would have kept making all those mistakes

those mistakes forever so thanks for the

forever so thanks for the suffering right this is critical to be

suffering right this is critical to be able to reframe your suffering properly

able to reframe your suffering properly is

is critical I was shocked at how much I

critical I was shocked at how much I grew over the last year because I wasn't

grew over the last year because I wasn't do during this period I wasn't doing any

do during this period I wasn't doing any like

like formal personal development or spirit

formal personal development or spirit spiritual work and yet it still felt

spiritual work and yet it still felt like I actually grew more in the last

like I actually grew more in the last year than I ever grew in the past in a

year than I ever grew in the past in a year cuz I had like a backlog of 10

year cuz I had like a backlog of 10 years of wrongness to confront and so

years of wrongness to confront and so the key there was suffering of course

the key there was suffering of course but another key was just stepping out

but another key was just stepping out right stepping away taking that step

right stepping away taking that step back this kind of break taking breaks

back this kind of break taking breaks from whatever you're doing is critical

from whatever you're doing is critical because it breaks you out of your

because it breaks you out of your trans you don't even know you're in a

trans you don't even know you're in a trans with your career with your

business the more wrong you are the more you're going to

you're going to suffer and the more you suffer the more

suffer and the more you suffer the more you see how wrong you

are your corruption the corruption of your mind is too deep to be fixed with

your mind is too deep to be fixed with logical understanding

logical understanding alone although of course you have to

alone although of course you have to begin somewhere and you should begin by

begin somewhere and you should begin by just log Al understanding some of these

just log Al understanding some of these things so it's good that you're learning

things so it's good that you're learning about all these traps and all these

about all these traps and all these self-deception mechanisms but that's not

self-deception mechanisms but that's not going to be enough to really change you

going to be enough to really change you into a very Advanced developed mind

into a very Advanced developed mind you're going to have to go

you're going to have to go through this ordeal this ordeal of

life also what happened to me over the last year is that I had this kind of

last year is that I had this kind of shift in how I see

shift in how I see self-deception I see it now in a more

self-deception I see it now in a more nuanced and realistic way because in the

nuanced and realistic way because in the past you

past you know I had a very

know I had a very logical

logical intellectual analytical understanding of

intellectual analytical understanding of self-deception because I've contemplated

self-deception because I've contemplated it so much I've made such a deep study

it so much I've made such a deep study of it I've talked about it with you guys

me in conjunction with the suffering that I experienced like that was that

that I experienced like that was that was key

was key self-deception cannot be understood just

self-deception cannot be understood just in the

in the abstract you have to actually go through

abstract you have to actually go through it you have to fall into it that's

it you have to fall into it that's really how you understand

really how you understand self-deception you fall into it and then

self-deception you fall into it and then you crawl your way out of it and then

you crawl your way out of it and then you look back and you say holy

you look back and you say holy fuck that was sneaky that was so

sneaky I almost didn't recover but I did like that see that's how it

like that see that's how it feels that's when you're really

feels that's when you're really understanding

understanding self-deception and then you you

self-deception and then you you appreciate how deeply others are self-

appreciate how deeply others are self- deceived and how How Deeply they're

deceived and how How Deeply they're trapped and how difficult it is to get

trapped and how difficult it is to get them out of that self-deception how do

them out of that self-deception how do you get someone out of such a

you get someone out of such a self-deception where even you yourself

self-deception where even you yourself with all the theory and knowledge and

with all the theory and knowledge and insight you've had and all the work

insight you've had and all the work you've done and you

you've done and you still barely manage to make it out

still barely manage to make it out what hope is there for everybody else

what hope is there for everybody else that's that's one of these kind of like

that's that's one of these kind of like dark truths that you got to confront

dark truths that you got to confront that's good for you right as long as you

that's good for you right as long as you confront it in the right way all of this

confront it in the right way all of this stuff that I'm talking about this being

stuff that I'm talking about this being wrong

wrong stuff

stuff um it all has to be framed in a positive

um it all has to be framed in a positive empowering way this is all good stuff

empowering way this is all good stuff none of this is bad it's all

none of this is bad it's all good this is what growth is about

much of admitting you were wrong is about spotting your own hypocrisy and

about spotting your own hypocrisy and double standards go watch my episode

double standards go watch my episode understanding hypocrisy and double

understanding hypocrisy and double standards where we discuss

standards where we discuss that but for example

that but for example um well before we get to the example I

um well before we get to the example I want to say this you have to catch

want to say this you have to catch yourself in your own internal

yourself in your own internal contradictions your mind is full of

contradictions your mind is full of internal

internal contradictions and you're just not aware

contradictions and you're just not aware of them yet it'll take you a long time

of them yet it'll take you a long time get them up to your

get them up to your awareness and so for example one of the

awareness and so for example one of the big internal contradictions I caught it

big internal contradictions I caught it within myself is is with how I relate to

within myself is is with how I relate to feelings see as I went through this

feelings see as I went through this period of of suffering um from my health

period of of suffering um from my health problems I was suffering through that

problems I was suffering through that but yet still I had this kind of

attitude because I'm so focused on the existential truth and philosophy that I

existential truth and philosophy that I have this kind of

have this kind of attitude that feelings aren't important

attitude that feelings aren't important right fuck your feelings let's get to

right fuck your feelings let's get to the truth kind of attitude now of course

the truth kind of attitude now of course again this kind of attitude has its

again this kind of attitude has its advantages sometimes you have to adopt

advantages sometimes you have to adopt that kind of attitude to get

that kind of attitude to get somewhere um in life um but at the but

somewhere um in life um but at the but on the other hand see as I was going

on the other hand see as I was going through so much suffering the suffering

through so much suffering the suffering was so great that I was forced to see

was so great that I was forced to see that me being dismissive of the feelings

that me being dismissive of the feelings of my audience of other people sometimes

of my audience of other people sometimes um I don't always do that but sometimes

um I don't always do that but sometimes I do that is um see that's an internal

I do that is um see that's an internal contradiction because if feelings are

contradiction because if feelings are not important then why am I here you

not important then why am I here you know suffering in pain and and

know suffering in pain and and uh so distressed by it if feelings

uh so distressed by it if feelings aren't so

aren't so important well of course feelings are

important well of course feelings are very important in fact feelings motivate

very important in fact feelings motivate everything you do in life so this kind

everything you do in life so this kind of like Ben Shapiro nonsense of like

of like Ben Shapiro nonsense of like facts don't care about your feelings

facts don't care about your feelings this is this is pure pure pure nonsense

this is this is pure pure pure nonsense and of course I always knew that I said

and of course I always knew that I said that in the past but like

that in the past but like again there's there's various levels of

again there's there's various levels of knowing it various levels of of seeing

knowing it various levels of of seeing you know VAR subtle ways in which you

you know VAR subtle ways in which you can be dismissive for example the of the

can be dismissive for example the of the feelings of others but then you

feelings of others but then you prioritize your own feelings so it's

prioritize your own feelings so it's like when somebody else doesn't feel

like when somebody else doesn't feel good you dismiss it but then when you

good you dismiss it but then when you don't feel good well you don't dismiss

don't feel good well you don't dismiss that do you why not because now it

that do you why not because now it matters to

matters to you that's the

contradiction everything you do in life including how you see all facts and how

including how you see all facts and how you relate to everything is governed by

you relate to everything is governed by your feelings in the end the only reason

your feelings in the end the only reason you do anything is for the feelings of

you do anything is for the feelings of It

It ultimately if we want to be

honest also what I discovered is that doing non-stop Philosophy for public

doing non-stop Philosophy for public consumption for years definitely isn't

consumption for years definitely isn't good for you

because it puts you in a kind of a trans it's very important to step back and

it's very important to step back and step outside that grind to decompress to

step outside that grind to decompress to self-reflect and not to have the

self-reflect and not to have the pressure of this kind of public work

pressure of this kind of public work that I

that I do the doing of public work any kind of

do the doing of public work any kind of public work that you do creates a bias

public work that you do creates a bias just in and of itself and warps your

just in and of itself and warps your sense of

sense of reality for example if you're a

reality for example if you're a journalist who publishes Daily News on

journalist who publishes Daily News on YouTube like you have some some little

YouTube like you have some some little you know

you know show and you do the Daily

show and you do the Daily News

News politics you do a few videos a week

politics you do a few videos a week something like that um and and you do

something like that um and and you do that for years just the process of you

that for years just the process of you doing that that's already going to warp

doing that that's already going to warp and distort your sense of

reality doesn't matter if you're left wi right wi down the center it's going to

right wi down the center it's going to do that and if what you care about

do that and if what you care about is jailbreaking your mind mind and

is jailbreaking your mind mind and really getting to the higher dimensions

really getting to the higher dimensions of understanding reality you're going to

of understanding reality you're going to have to at some point you know initially

have to at some point you know initially it's going to be subtle it's not going

it's going to be subtle it's not going to be a big obstacle but at some point

to be a big obstacle but at some point that career of yours and just the fact

that career of yours and just the fact that you're doing that Daily Grind

that you're doing that Daily Grind that's going to become the obstacle to

that's going to become the obstacle to you getting higher which means you're

you getting higher which means you're going to have to take a step back maybe

going to have to take a step back maybe not quit but take an extended

not quit but take an extended break reflect and you'll see if you do

break reflect and you'll see if you do that

that not only will you be able to gain access

not only will you be able to gain access to higher dimensions of of understanding

to higher dimensions of of understanding of reality but also you're going to have

of reality but also you're going to have a new perspective on your work and then

a new perspective on your work and then your work is going to improve if you

your work is going to improve if you come back because you were too close to

it I also went through a process that I didn't even talk about with you I went

didn't even talk about with you I went through a whole process of basically

through a whole process of basically like surrendering my business

like surrendering my business surrendering my career surrendering my

surrendering my career surrendering my life purpose which is

life purpose which is this work actualized.org

this work actualized.org I deliberately didn't publish anything

I deliberately didn't publish anything so that I can kind of like experience

so that I can kind of like experience what that's like cuz for the last 10

what that's like cuz for the last 10 years I didn't have a sense of what it's

years I didn't have a sense of what it's like to not have like a life purpose I

like to not have like a life purpose I went through a pretty deep sort of

went through a pretty deep sort of like Dark Knight of the Soul not a

like Dark Knight of the Soul not a spiritual in a spiritual sense but in a

spiritual in a spiritual sense but in a like a life purpose sense where

like a life purpose sense where basically I lost my life purpose for a

basically I lost my life purpose for a year

year that was very interesting it's like my

that was very interesting it's like my life became completely meaningless and

life became completely meaningless and that's something that I I hadn't really

that's something that I I hadn't really experienced in like 20 years of my life

experienced in like 20 years of my life because even before I started

because even before I started actualized.org with that specific life

actualized.org with that specific life purpose

um even like as a teenager back in school I always had some sort of like

school I always had some sort of like higher purpose that I was working

higher purpose that I was working towards in school it was about grades

towards in school it was about grades and getting a good education

and getting a good education or doing philosophy which I was doing

or doing philosophy which I was doing back then and then after that it was

back then and then after that it was like game development I was doing that

like game development I was doing that then after that it was like business and

then after that it was like business and becoming financially independent so I

becoming financially independent so I had these kind of like Higher Goals that

had these kind of like Higher Goals that were always motivating me every single

were always motivating me every single day so I didn't even know what it was

day so I didn't even know what it was like to lose all of that all of your

like to lose all of that all of your Higher Goals just like lose them all and

Higher Goals just like lose them all and see what your life feels

like um it's like zero meaning in your life it's

it's like zero meaning in your life it's quite miserable frankly because like um

quite miserable frankly because like um again like I didn't quite appreciate how

again like I didn't quite appreciate how much

much happiness I derive from the higher

happiness I derive from the higher meaning that is created

meaning that is created by my my various purposes and goals that

by my my various purposes and goals that I've been setting myself my whole life

I've been setting myself my whole life cuz I I was doing that intuitively I

cuz I I was doing that intuitively I didn't even know how to how someone

didn't even know how to how someone could live other otherwise cuz to me it

could live other otherwise cuz to me it would be such a miserable way to live

would be such a miserable way to live well I went through that misery over the

well I went through that misery over the last year where I completely like

last year where I completely like surrendered my my purpose and I to the

surrendered my my purpose and I to the point where I didn't think I would come

point where I didn't think I would come back I didn't know if I would come back

back I didn't know if I would come back and I didn't even want to think if I

and I didn't even want to think if I would or wouldn't come back and so

would or wouldn't come back and so basically I was living as though I

basically I was living as though I wasn't going to come back and I had no

wasn't going to come back and I had no meaning in my

life and like now I understand what it's like for many people who just live with

like for many people who just live with no meaning in life yeah it's miserable I

no meaning in life yeah it's miserable I can understand why you're so depressed

can understand why you're so depressed and why you can't motivate yourself to

and why you can't motivate yourself to do anything to start a business and why

do anything to start a business and why you're not passionate about life and why

you're not passionate about life and why you're addicted to drugs and alcohol and

you're addicted to drugs and alcohol and this kind of stuff it's like yeah

this kind of stuff it's like yeah because you have zero meaning in your

because you have zero meaning in your your life is

your life is meaningless you have nothing to live

meaningless you have nothing to live for

for um so that was actually a huge

um so that was actually a huge Revelation for me it's almost like you

Revelation for me it's almost like you know if you took my life Purp

know if you took my life Purp course um maybe now you have a life

course um maybe now you have a life purpose I hope you do um and then before

purpose I hope you do um and then before you took it though maybe you didn't have

you took it though maybe you didn't have any life

any life purpose but think of it like I was

purpose but think of it like I was living with a life purpose since I was

living with a life purpose since I was like 7 years

like 7 years old now it changed over time and it

old now it changed over time and it wasn't very clear um like I said in my

wasn't very clear um like I said in my youth a lot of it was um was just my

youth a lot of it was um was just my educational career we might say and

educational career we might say and academics was kind of like my life

academics was kind of like my life purpose and understanding reality a lot

purpose and understanding reality a lot of what I did with academics was just I

of what I did with academics was just I used AC academics as a vehicle for

used AC academics as a vehicle for deepening my understanding of reality

deepening my understanding of reality with basic stuff like just Science

with basic stuff like just Science Biology physics

Biology physics math it it kind of started there for me

math it it kind of started there for me um but yeah I've always had uh I've

um but yeah I've always had uh I've always had a higher vision for myself

always had a higher vision for myself always had a higher sense of meaning for

always had a higher sense of meaning for myself and that motivated me basically

myself and that motivated me basically through all my

through all my life um but I think a lot of people just

life um but I think a lot of people just somehow miss out on that even they

somehow miss out on that even they either they don't have those

either they don't have those opportunities or they get some bad I

opportunities or they get some bad I don't

don't know you know trauma in their childhood

know you know trauma in their childhood or whatever that they just they're not

or whatever that they just they're not they don't have that kind of sense of

they don't have that kind of sense of vision and ambition a lot of people just

vision and ambition a lot of people just don't have a lot of ambition so I think

don't have a lot of ambition so I think ambition plays into that

ambition plays into that um but

um but uh but yeah it's a miserable way to live

uh but yeah it's a miserable way to live I I didn't know how bad it was to live

I I didn't know how bad it was to live without a life purpose because I

without a life purpose because I basically had one my whole

basically had one my whole life but see now I empathize more with

life but see now I empathize more with people that don't have

people that don't have it and I also appreciate the importance

it and I also appreciate the importance of my life purpose course even more now

of my life purpose course even more now which I didn't quite appreciate because

which I didn't quite appreciate because I took it for granted see a lot of a lot

I took it for granted see a lot of a lot of times in life you have some

of times in life you have some Advantage either by genetics or just by

Advantage either by genetics or just by by happen St

by happen St by just the fact that you were born into

by just the fact that you were born into a good family or whatever you just or

a good family or whatever you just or you went to a good school you just have

you went to a good school you just have some advantage

some advantage that you don't even know what you have

that you don't even know what you have you don't know what you have until you

you don't know what you have until you lose it that that cliche is so

lose it that that cliche is so true of course admitting all of this

true of course admitting all of this wrongness is going to get uh create

wrongness is going to get uh create regret in you you're going to start to

regret in you you're going to start to wish that you could go back and change

wish that you could go back and change things you know how I wish I can go back

things you know how I wish I can go back and you know reedit some of my old

and you know reedit some of my old videos to clean them up a bit more to

videos to clean them up a bit more to make them more truthful more accurate

make them more truthful more accurate less crude and cringey like I would love

less crude and cringey like I would love to be able to do that it's too late but

to be able to do that it's too late but YouTube doesn't really allow that but uh

YouTube doesn't really allow that but uh I would love to be able to do that um

I would love to be able to do that um but I can't right and I have to live

but I can't right and I have to live with that I have to live with that

with that I have to live with that that's

that's hard you start to think about all the

hard you start to think about all the good stuff you

good stuff you lost whether it was a girlfriend that

lost whether it was a girlfriend that you lost or

you lost or some money that you lost or an

some money that you lost or an opportunity that you lost that you'll

opportunity that you lost that you'll never get back and then you start to

never get back and then you start to feel very

feel very foolish and

foolish and um you can even start to Hate Yourself

um you can even start to Hate Yourself here's where you have to be careful with

here's where you have to be careful with this wrongness technique is that if

this wrongness technique is that if you're in a kind of a weak State and you

you're in a kind of a weak State and you start to admit all these things you've

start to admit all these things you've been wrong about you put yourself into a

been wrong about you put yourself into a s of even a weaker

State you can start to hate yourself you know like I said with with Trump you

know like I said with with Trump you know if Trump admitted to himself all

know if Trump admitted to himself all the all the evil shit he does on a on a

the all the evil shit he does on a on a regular

regular basis he might become suicidal so you

basis he might become suicidal so you have to be careful about that and

have to be careful about that and uh I am not offering this technique and

uh I am not offering this technique and teaching to

teaching to you so that you can start to hate

you so that you can start to hate yourself that's not that's completely

yourself that's not that's completely wrong speaking of wrong that's what's

wrong speaking of wrong that's what's wrong um you need to bring in self-love

wrong um you need to bring in self-love compassion self forgiveness you have to

compassion self forgiveness you have to reframe the situation in such a way

reframe the situation in such a way where you see this as an opportunity as

where you see this as an opportunity as a gift as a vehicle for

a gift as a vehicle for growth this is

growth this is critical of course you can't change the

critical of course you can't change the past and you're going to have to go

past and you're going to have to go through a grieving process here right

through a grieving process here right you you have to let go of

you you have to let go of fantasies you have to accept your

fantasies you have to accept your fallibility your finitude you have to

fallibility your finitude you have to accept your own selfishness and evil

accept your own selfishness and evil that's all part of this process

that's all part of this process that's what kind of like makes it real

that's what kind of like makes it real because you had all these fantasies

because you had all these fantasies about how good you were

and when you once you admit all these errors that you made all this wrongness

errors that you made all this wrongness well now you don't seem so good to

well now you don't seem so good to yourself do you it screws with your

yourself do you it screws with your self-image cuz you didn't think

self-image cuz you didn't think you made so many mistakes fell into so

you made so many mistakes fell into so many self-deceptions did so many cringy

many self-deceptions did so many cringy and embarrassing things see you already

and embarrassing things see you already did a bunch of cringy embarrassing

did a bunch of cringy embarrassing things in your life you're just probably

things in your life you're just probably not aware of it

not aware of it yet how are you going to feel when you

yet how are you going to feel when you become aware of it

become aware of it well that's tricky so be careful not to

well that's tricky so be careful not to beat yourself up too

[Music] much this process is meant to be

much this process is meant to be empowering how do you make it

empowering well one way is to tell yourself that this is a natural

yourself that this is a natural consequence this process is a natural

consequence this process is a natural consequence of your commitment to truth

consequence of your commitment to truth if you're committed to

if you're committed to truth which I suggest you

truth which I suggest you should even though that's not for

should even though that's not for everybody

um every step where you're wrong brings you

step where you're wrong brings you closer to truth as long as you admit it

closer to truth as long as you admit it to yourself

to yourself see cuz that's one less mistake it's

see cuz that's one less mistake it's like you're cleaning out your mind by

like you're cleaning out your mind by finding dirt in it and throwing it out

finding dirt in it and throwing it out and so you're just plucking the dirt out

and so you're just plucking the dirt out of your mind and every time you do that

of your mind and every time you do that you're telling yourself I was

you're telling yourself I was wrong and you're facing the emotional

wrong and you're facing the emotional labor of doing

that like if you were brainwashed with fundamentalist religion and then

fundamentalist religion and then eventually you pluck that out and throw

eventually you pluck that out and throw it out and recognize that it's a it's a

it out and recognize that it's a it's a foreign object in your

foreign object in your mind of course it's it's it's awful to

mind of course it's it's it's awful to think about how much time you lost in

think about how much time you lost in fundamentalist religion and the Damage

fundamentalist religion and the Damage it did to you but once you finally

it did to you but once you finally extract it

extract it then you have to reframe that as a great

then you have to reframe that as a great thing that's a great thing and great

thing that's a great thing and great lessons were

learned likewise if you mistreated people in your

people in your life that's regrettable you're going to

life that's regrettable you're going to have a lot of guilt about mistreating

have a lot of guilt about mistreating people close to you um losing people but

people close to you um losing people but again you have to come to a point of

again you have to come to a point of like peace where you recognize that look

like peace where you recognize that look you that's that's the best you could

you that's that's the best you could have done you did the best you could no

have done you did the best you could no matter what happened to you you did the

matter what happened to you you did the best you could the best you knew you

best you could the best you knew you didn't know all the stuff you know now

didn't know all the stuff you know now back then that's why you made all these

back then that's why you made all these mistakes and finally you've wised up

mistakes and finally you've wised up that's a great

thing so make sure that you're framing this wrong stuff all this wrong stuff

this wrong stuff all this wrong stuff properly you're improving you're making

properly you're improving you're making improvements it's not that you're a

improvements it's not that you're a fuckup right don't frame yourself as a

fuckup right don't frame yourself as a fuckup or a

fuckup or a loser or chronically incompetent it's

loser or chronically incompetent it's like you're improving and there's a lot

like you're improving and there's a lot of room for improvement there's so much

of room for improvement there's so much room it's it's almost

room it's it's almost endless also make sure you balance out

endless also make sure you balance out admitting you were wrong with also

admitting you were wrong with also acknowledging the things you were right

acknowledging the things you were right about for example if you were brainwash

about for example if you were brainwash into fundamentalist religion and you

into fundamentalist religion and you became like a very devout believer in

became like a very devout believer in God um and now you're over

God um and now you're over that well what's what's good about that

that well what's what's good about that well what's good about that is that you

well what's good about that is that you were still right about certain things in

were still right about certain things in the end your belief in God will be

the end your belief in God will be validated so you weren't wrong about

validated so you weren't wrong about that is just you were wrong about what

that is just you were wrong about what God is and the Christian versions of God

God is and the Christian versions of God and so

and so forth um and uh there were probably

forth um and uh there were probably other right things about

other right things about that right lessons and insights that you

that right lessons and insights that you got maybe for example your

got maybe for example your fundamentalist religion taught you to be

fundamentalist religion taught you to be a polite person taught you to be

a polite person taught you to be respectful to others taught you some

respectful to others taught you some humility and some

humility and some humanity and um some charity and these

humanity and um some charity and these kind of like old school Christian values

kind of like old school Christian values which are great

which are great things right you can appreciate them

things right you can appreciate them more now so you're kind of like sifting

more now so you're kind of like sifting the wheat from the chaff

the wheat from the chaff here

here um for example the way that I could kind

um for example the way that I could kind of like console myself with all the shit

of like console myself with all the shit that I set up above is that I can say

um that even though I made all these mistakes they were ultimately made in

mistakes they were ultimately made in service of what in service of my

service of what in service of my commitment

commitment towards reaching higher Consciousness

towards reaching higher Consciousness towards God realization I was so focused

towards God realization I was so focused on God realization and existential truth

on God realization and existential truth and existential love to comprehend what

and existential love to comprehend what it is to understand that and then to

it is to understand that and then to communicate it to others

communicate it to others that there were costs that were paid

that there were costs that were paid along the way and those costs are the

along the way and those costs are the things I mentioned above that was the

things I mentioned above that was the cost of

cost of achieving insane levels of God

achieving insane levels of God Consciousness that that's what it cost

me that's not a mistake that's what it cost me that's

mistake that's what it cost me that's what it

what it costs now I can really

costs now I can really appreciate God Consciousness what I had

appreciate God Consciousness what I had to do to get

it it wasn't like I took a puff of DMT and I got it even

took a puff of DMT and I got it even though I did but it's like it was so

though I did but it's like it was so much more than that right it was like a

much more than that right it was like a 10year period of all this

10year period of all this shit just to claw my way up to God

shit just to claw my way up to God Consciousness and that doesn't mean I'm

Consciousness and that doesn't mean I'm done there's still more there's

done there's still more there's more this process isn't over more

more this process isn't over more mistakes will be

made and that will buy me more consciousness

and of course that doesn't mean you have to go through the same process exactly

to go through the same process exactly your process could be very very

your process could be very very different from my process but what I can

different from my process but what I can probably promise you is that it's going

probably promise you is that it's going to involve many of the structural

to involve many of the structural elements that are going to be the same

elements that are going to be the same which is the massive suffering and the

which is the massive suffering and the the many self-deceptions fantasies and

the many self-deceptions fantasies and uh and mistakes and wrongness that will

uh and mistakes and wrongness that will that will come that I can promise you

that will come that I can promise you what exactly there those are going be

what exactly there those are going be well that's all depends on you of

course and the ultimate reframe here that I want to leave you with as we wrap

that I want to leave you with as we wrap up is this look ultimately you need to

up is this look ultimately you need to reach a deep recognition that wrongness

reach a deep recognition that wrongness is beautiful it's existentially

beautiful where's the beauty in it because we're dealing with the whole

because we're dealing with the whole universe as a Giant Mind this mind is

universe as a Giant Mind this mind is dreaming up infinite dreams getting lost

dreaming up infinite dreams getting lost in these dreams and self-deceptions this

in these dreams and self-deceptions this is how all of reality is created this is

is how all of reality is created this is how

you think you're a human the very humanness of

humanness of you is in a sense a

you is in a sense a self-deception you're wrong about that

self-deception you're wrong about that in a good

in a good way right

way right as the quote goes there's a quote I

as the quote goes there's a quote I forget I forget exactly who said it but

forget I forget exactly who said it but it goes

um uh God is Not averse to a deception for a good

cause so in the end this is a a grand deception for a good cause what is that

deception for a good cause what is that cause well that cause is the

cause well that cause is the construction of the universe the

construction of the universe the universe is a kind of an elaborate

universe is a kind of an elaborate illusion or

illusion or deception with many sub deceptions

deception with many sub deceptions within it and so we're kind of

within it and so we're kind of unraveling that as we go and so of

unraveling that as we go and so of course that means you're falling into

course that means you're falling into these

deceptions try to kind of like keep that context for all of your mistakes for all

context for all of your mistakes for all of this wrongness the wrongness are just

of this wrongness the wrongness are just like little little bits in this like

like little little bits in this like larger more elaborate uh flow of the

universe and so really it's not personal all your wrongness isn't

personal which was why ultimately it's all in a sense

all in a sense forgiven because um it was never

forgiven because um it was never personal it was never like really you it

personal it was never like really you it was just inevitable all of these traps

was just inevitable all of these traps you fell into in a sense were

you fell into in a sense were inevitable and that's what allows you to

inevitable and that's what allows you to forgive

yourself and that's the beauty of the

beauty of the uh the workings of the Mind see it's

uh the workings of the Mind see it's because the mind is so infinitely tricky

because the mind is so infinitely tricky that is such a beautiful thing to study

that is such a beautiful thing to study and to interact with and to learn

and to interact with and to learn about if the mind was just simple if the

about if the mind was just simple if the universe was simple and you could just

universe was simple and you could just explain it with a few words and a few

explain it with a few words and a few formulas and it was just kind of like

formulas and it was just kind of like mathematical the way that some of the

mathematical the way that some of the scientists think it is uh it wouldn't be

scientists think it is uh it wouldn't be interesting it just it wouldn't be there

interesting it just it wouldn't be there wouldn't be all this like I couldn't

wouldn't be all this like I couldn't create this whole body of work I

create this whole body of work I couldn't sit for thousands of hours

couldn't sit for thousands of hours contemplating all this stuff I couldn't

contemplating all this stuff I couldn't have the crazy levels of Awakenings that

have the crazy levels of Awakenings that I've had if it was that

I've had if it was that simple and ultimately it wouldn't be

love all right that's it I'm done here please come check out my website on my

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course for sale on my on my site uh if you don't have a sense of

you don't have a sense of purpose you're missing out again you're

purpose you're missing out again you're missing out on a lot of potential

missing out on a lot of potential meaning just creating you know you're

meaning just creating you know you're just leaving happiness on the table by

just leaving happiness on the table by not finding your life purpose come check

not finding your life purpose come check out the actualized for Forum we have

out the actualized for Forum we have conversations there interesting

conversations and I'll conclude with just with

just with this I wish I could go back and remove

this I wish I could go back and remove all the arrogance and immaturity from my

all the arrogance and immaturity from my body of work I really regret that uh

body of work I really regret that uh but that's water under the bridge uh the

but that's water under the bridge uh the only thing I can really do is uh is to

only thing I can really do is uh is to Endeavor

Endeavor to produce cleaner work going forward so

to produce cleaner work going forward so that's what I'll be doing

and uh my intention going forward is to try to serve you

try to serve you better which means to remove more and

better which means to remove more and more of myself from the

more of myself from the work because whenever I make this work

work because whenever I make this work about me it's a disservice to

about me it's a disservice to you and the purpose of this is not to

you and the purpose of this is not to inflate my ego but the purpose of these

inflate my ego but the purpose of these ideas is to

is to polish that diamond in the rough that you

are and to sh make you shine with that kind of

kind of Brilliance that is your inherent

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