boom and we're live david goggins your

book is [ __ ] fantastic man this has

been my running partner the audio

version of it has been my running

partner for the last week

it's [ __ ] amazing man well i

appreciate that thank you well you guys

are doing something very unusual the

book is great i've read i've read it

like sat down red red but the the audio

book is really interesting right because

you and the gentleman you wrote it with

yeah adam adam schonick adam schonick

who who reads it then you come on and

talk about things in between so it's

more than just the book right it's the

book plus it's the book plus like a

podcast right yeah so how that came to

be man is um

as i was going through this book for the

last year

we would go through change stuff up have

so many stories man we went through

interviews from people so many stories

he would come back and read it to me

all my changes and when he read i'm like

man this guy has a great reading voice i

love his reading voice

and i started getting these different

ideas about doing it like you know what

maybe he can read and i can do my

podcast thing on the side and he can

like after each chapter in between

chapters make it real interactive type

of thing and that's kind of how it came

to be man at the beginning i gotta be

honest the beginning i was like who is

this [ __ ] talking for david

gardens i was gonna call dave like dick

you redo this why don't you do it why

are you but but it works right it really

does work yeah like as as it goes on and

i got also

it's very obvious that you and him are

good friends so when you guys are

talking then i don't mind him reading

for you as much for some strange reason

right i know it doesn't make any sense

well i want to say we're good friends

i'm i'm just joking adam that you can

hear me right now um he became a pain in

my [ __ ] ass during this process man

because you know he's just uh he's a

real anal guy you know he he helped out

a lot you know i'm a i'm a real raw

sadistic type of mindset and he uh he

helped me put that on paper man so i

gave him a lot of credit for that well

it it comes across the book is

outstanding and you know it's it's it's

more than just sitting like sitting

across you and you telling your story is

one thing but this long detailed history

of how you became to be the person you became

became

i think it's very educational for people

because they can realize like oh he

wasn't always this guy

right this is what's [ __ ] up about

people like you see a guy who's like you

who runs i mean how many ultra marathons

did you run in a row you read some insane

in a row just stop and think about that

ladies and gentlemen eight hundreds

means eight 100 mile races

eight weekends in a row a 100 mile race

will put you out for [ __ ] six months

right you know when you ran eight of

them eight weekends what's the [ __ ] it's

a [ __ ] insane accomplishment it was

nuts you think about a person like that

you think of them as in this like static

fully formed version right you don't

usually get to see and especially

someone like you who you went into so

much depth about your rise and fall and

rise and fall it wasn't like a straight

linear process between you getting

inspired and you becoming this bad

[ __ ] no it wasn't like um

what's that show called um

that will smith plays

that that black guy who kind of makes it

in um in the financial world

a pursuit of happiness i never saw that

yeah it's a great movie it wasn't like

pursuit of happiness man like like with

a guy who struggles and he and he gets

over it and he makes it yeah i feel on

my ass i i thought i got the top mount

everest and my neighbors just [ __ ]

slide right underneath me man i was like

god dawg i start from scratch again

scratch became my friend

literally man so you know that's that's

how you put in the book man just going

up going down going up just a real raw

version of how my life was and

it was so in-depth to go back through

your life with the fine-tooth comb

that i almost got embarrassed even put

it out there to people yeah that's what

i understand man like

even me right now to talk to you

i'm in the car for a [ __ ] hour

getting pumped up cause i'm i'm a shy

introverted leave me alone type of guy

like i'm still that [ __ ] who is

six years old you know at a play who

can't say his line because i know i'm

gonna stutter in front of five people so

i walk off the stage that's still me so

every day i'm fighting that dude so

people think oh my god man you're in a

podcast look so crazy so evil no i'm

trying to be locked into joe so my mind

isn't very off saying let's run out the

damn door because people are watching me

on the [ __ ] podcast i want to open

this damn door and get the hell out of

here man

so that's the real me so i'm not

sadistic man i'm focused on what i have

to do to stay locked into the game of

life and that's what and that's why i

tell people man i i go there i go there

that's one of the reasons why this book

is so good is because you're so honest

about your vulnerabilities and how you

overcome them and for people that see

someone who's a beast who's done great

things you just assume that they're

different than you right but then you

hear about your insecurities and your

pitfalls and all the things that went

wrong with you and you realized well god

damn it those are the same things that

go wrong with me like maybe i have that

inside of me and i've just never

summoned it right and i'll tell you this

i started really realizing that when i

started overcoming myself

i started getting around these real

alpha males these hard hard men

and i always put people way above me

when i was growing up like my god they

had to have a lot more than me to get to

where they're at

and a lot of them did

but once you get around the the best of

the best of the best people

you can kind of start breaking them down

and realizing man you you're just as

[ __ ] up as me like we all have but all

you did was you hit it better

your your your upbringing your mom and

dad your society the way you were raised

it hit it better than

than mine you weren't the only black kid

or there was like five in in a school

you know i can't hide going through buzz

i was only black you can't hide

but i started realizing just because i

look different than you a lot of you my

first cannot either so it started giving

me courage to watch some people that

were all have a story we all have a

jacked up life in one way or another

some of us don't have the guts to talk

about it though and that's where i found

the guts to talk about mine well there's

some there's purity in physical pursuits

right because it doesn't matter what

your social status is it doesn't matter

how people perceive you when it when it

comes down to how long can you stay in

that pool when it comes down to how far

can you run when it comes down to how

much can you push yourself past the part

where you want to quit how far can you

keep going there's a purity in that that

it did dissolve social order all that

[ __ ] all the what people think about

you goes out the window it's what who

who are you right now that's right who

are you right now that's a true

statement man and i look at it as

a psychological warfare

and that's where i started learning that

that life is one big psychological

warfare that you play on yourself

you play on yourself man

the most important conversation i ever

had with is with myself

and the [ __ ] i was telling myself was so

[ __ ] up it was so wrong it was so misguided

misguided

and other people start to write that

dialogue for you also

it starts to be what you say to yourself

every single day and i started creating

a whole nother warfare

a whole nother battle started becoming i

was like oh hang on a second coggins

you have these tools

do you have these tools your life was

basically the perfect

the perfect grounds for training for

where you need to go in your life all

the beatings all the all the bullying

all that you know you going through uh

learning disabilities all the struggles

it was the absolute perfect training

ground for you to go to where you need

to go and that's how i start looking at

my life versus what was me poopy pants

kick a rock down the street mentality it

was no

god just hooked you right the [ __ ] up he

hooked you right up man with the perfect

place you were training for the first 18

19 20 you were training for this stuff

man you have the advantage of everybody

else versus

my god

they're so above me

they came from a great family

mom and dad loved them they didn't have

to learn they didn't start they didn't

struggle no man your struggle is what

made you who you are now so i started

flipping this into a whole different i

started being a master of

what i was scared of i was scared of my mind

mind

and i became a literally a master of

that mind and that's what now from now

on it sets me apart from most people i

start diving into that well that is a

big part of the story is when you go

over your childhood and you know

your abusive father and then having this

great guy that was going to become your

stepdad and then he gets murdered it's

like right when you're about to get out

of it everything looks good boom then he

gets murdered it's like these things

really did sort of set you up to start

from scratch again and just go okay

roger that we start from scratch and now

you have that attitude you developed it through

through

all of these horrible personal

experiences all the trials and

tribulations all the evil [ __ ] that

people try to do to you that sort of set

you up to be able to deal in a way that

a lot of people can't well

well

i used to look at my life from a

different vantage point

and when you're when you're in all the

muck and you're just walking in muck and

walking in muck and walking the muck

you don't see that if you look off to

the [ __ ] left of the muck there's a

sidewalk brother

get off get off of it you have your head

down looking in this muck

once i saw the sidewalk got the sidewalk

i got a little break and i got a

different vantage point and then from

the sidewalk i found a cliff then i

found a mountain i got way up high on

top of my life and looked back down on

it and said okay

i gotta figure this out man

i'm not going anywhere i'm starting to

lie i'm starting like so when you have a

messed up foundation i started lying

about everything i wanted people to like

me i wanted to be accepted in some

society of life some social society and i

i

i said man this isn't the right way i

messed up here i messed up here i messed

up everywhere

and so i realized the worst thing that

happened to me is i lost myself i never

had myself i never found myself had no self-esteem

self-esteem

so i knew through working out and

through learning because it took a lot

for me to learn also i started finding

self-esteem once i found that

that's when doors started opening up i

started i stopped caring about people

that what they thought being judged wow

if i say this if i started right now are

you gonna make fun of me i stopped

caring about that and that's my life

started really changing for me slowly

but surely that

that's such an important point when

you're talking about the working out

because a lot of people when they think

about working out they think of it as

being a physical thing right no no

no

i did it for mental yeah people always

say my god like no

don't don't look at it like i didn't

care about losing weight i don't care

about being the fastest person i think

about i wasn't making the olympics i

wasn't going to pros i could barely read

and write when i was in a junior in high

school i wasn't going anywhere

i saw working out as a way for me to

build calluses on my mind

i had to callous over the victim's

mentality so

i watched these movies i you know i

talked about rocket last time i was on here

here

i always equated training

to mental toughening

like it always looked brutal people

waking up early and doing all these

things and look it looks horrible it's

like wow i gotta start doing that not to

get better bigger and stronger but that

is what's gonna build me that looks

uncomfortable that looks brutal and

getting up early i don't want to do that

so i made this long list of things i

don't want to do

and through that i found myself i

started like i'm like you guys aren't

doing this [ __ ] in high school you guys

aren't getting up at five o'clock in the

morning running over here in this golf course

course

so i started seeing myself very

differently than the average human being

i was like hold on a second

i have something they don't have

and that's when i started to develop

these things through working out it was

this great

never-ending work ethic

and through work ethic i develop

self-esteem now is this something that

you learned is this something you

learned yourself from from exercise

yourself or is it something you had read

or heard about like what made you equate

this doing this and doing these

difficult things physically to mental

toughness to being this is the

discipline that you need in order to get

your life out of the situation you're in

so i never read anything you know i i

could barely read you know so

i wasn't reading back then

i just saw i watched a lot of movies and

i was really big into visualization

and um i always equated working out to struggle

struggle

and i struggled my whole life but i ran

from it

so i started realizing man i got to

start facing the struggle and i got to

be mentally strong for the struggle

so that's why i started coming up with

like i i'm training for life

mentally i'm training for life i'm not

training for like

to live 400 pounds and i found out on my

own pretty much is that through this

through through discipline through

self-discipline through repetition do

tons of repetition the same thing that

you don't want to do and that's that's

the key thing through repetition of

things you don't want to do you develop

mental like

like an armor for your mind start to

armor your mind cause your mind's like

okay we suffer we suffer every day it's

what we do we do stuff that sucks every

day so then when the suck stuff comes

you're ready for it and that's how i

started coming up you know i just

started being very uncomfortable and now

it's like just a way of life

it's a crazy thing to figure out though

it's like that you figured it out and

you didn't just figure it out you

embraced it like when you were talking

about your senior year of high school

when you're talking about

your your mirror being your

accountability mirror like you had a

radical shift like you just decided to

not be a [ __ ] loser and to start

tightening up and start holding yourself

accountable and and get ready for things

so i had this my whole life i mean i

don't know if people believe in god or

what i don't care what you believe in

there's been this unrelenting voice in

my head we all have this voice

it's the right or wrong voice

and a lot of times that voice guides us

into comfort and

and

my voice guided me to comfort a lot but

i have this other voice i heard my whole

life saying hey [ __ ] what are

you doing nah man we gotta go over here

we have to go over here to to that rock

pile over in the [ __ ] corner where

nobody's at that's that's where

victory's at

were over in that corner so this voice

was giving me all these answers not i

wasn't real smart kid growing up but i

had this crazy voice in my head saying

over there is where the [ __ ] answers

are and i won't listen to it because

over there was pain

over there was me looking in the mirror

over there was me being accountable for

all these things that went through my

life even though people put them on me

it's not mine to own

and i didn't want to go over there by myself

myself

but i had to and this voice was guiding

me there out it's god whatever you want

to call it uh but that's what that's

what it was in me do you think that's

just what you when you separate yourself

from your ego and what you were your

insecurities and all you like if you

were giving yourself advice you would

say that's what the thing is to do so do

you think that's what it was like your

subconscious or though you stripped away

from all the [ __ ] when you couldn't

lie to yourself because it's a voice in

your head that's exactly it it's exactly

it because it knew it knew i was a character

character

i was trying to find myself through a

character i was making different

hairstyles and sagging my pants and

i was off i was off man i was

i was a clown i was a clown and and i

was like this is not this is not where

you're supposed to be in life man it's

ugly when you look in that dirty mirror

and you're trying to do a new hairstyle

to go to school you know i had a

hairstyle one time where i shaved the

top of my head you know how old men had

the hair like leaving their head yeah

yeah so i went to school with hair on

the side of my head and in my back and i

shaved the the whole top of my head i

just i went to school like that you know

and then i had like what did the kids say

say

i wanted to i don't remember what they

said but i was just a funny dude you

know so that was my thing i was the

funny dude that came into school like

criss cross came out when i was in high

school so my pants were backwards i seen

what i passed backwards sagged down past

my ass crack shirt turned backwards with

a toothbrush in my mouth with the

reverse part the reverse part is your

head is shaved and you have some hair

on top just a little piece of hair

versus like a like a part right through

hair the part was on a bald head

so it was just i i i would sit at home

instead of studying i would think about

what can i do to impress a [ __ ]

at school

and that became my life

and that is

it's a

long road to hoe to get to the guy who

says now you'll never smile on any

podcast looks so serious i look at that

[ __ ] i'm like you [ __ ] have no idea

idea

who i am who where i've come from to get

here today you could have probably been

an entertainer like you probably because

you were doing all that kind of [ __ ] i

have some jokes joe

i got some jokes yeah you do so

what people read in this book can't hurt

me it's a sad story it's a horrible

story it's a tragic story it's a story

that made me who in the day but

you have to learn to laugh at yourself

too once you once you go through that

[ __ ] yeah now so there's a lot of parts

in there there's a lot of me against a

lot of white people you know

and i have a routine that i won't do so

people who hire me to speak i'm not

going to do the routine i often do it

sometimes think about it i was a 36

black guy to go through still training

okay no matter how many people out of

probably looking at um probably 11 12

to make it through probably 13 000 seals

i was probably the 36 i was a 36 black

guy to make it through and over since

like the like 1940s you know you're

looking at almost 70 years wow yeah so

you know you know you know do the math

on that so there's not a lot of black

guys and so i take that and i make a

nice comedy skit out of that [ __ ]

you know like like like the first time

they tied me up and threw me it's called

drown proofing yeah so i'm negative

boring as hell you know me too oh i'm

related to that big time yeah she wanted

a few white boys man they're that

negative boy you sit like a rock

and that's hard so imagine them getting

your hands and feet tying your ass up

and throwing in the [ __ ] water and

say swim

ah it was like throwing a cat in the

water with [ __ ] brick on them so i

was just losing my [ __ ] mind so it's

so many things i had to get over you

know and i found humor i found humor in

my suffering

i was like [ __ ] what are you

doing out here goggins like this is

crazy like you're you're literally

trying to

reinvent the wheel but i was trying to

reinvent my mind

i was trying to reinvent my mind and i

used every single tactic possible to do that

that

i didn't want to live you know live in

this world where i was a fake human

being anymore

and i was tired of blaming everybody for

where i was at

my dad beat me this happened i mean my

dad ran prostitutes man my dad literally

snatched the soul out of my mom like my

mom is still battling like after my mom

left my dad

and that's why i'm talking about in the

book she got married three times for a

total of six months

you know i don't go there and i'm not

gonna talk about the guys she married so

this woman was she's beautiful she's

she's so smart all this stuff man this

guy literally stripped her soul away and

i was a young kid watching it

and i had no soul to begin with

and my my brother he has a story that he

could write eight books

you know my dad just came through and

just washed us all clean

so to

to to come around he died about four

years ago four or five years ago not for

sure i didn't go to the funeral but i

forgave him

so i saw my dad through an

eight-year-old's eye so so we left when

i was eight

and then at 22 i went back

to see him through a grown man's eyes

and he was the same person i remembered

but i had to you can't live with hate

you cannot move forward as much as that

guy tried to ruin all of our lives

that's where i came from i had to figure

out the origin of where i started from

so when i was going back through my life

trying to fix who i am the [ __ ] up

person i was

like if your knee hurts it's usually not

your [ __ ] knee that's hurting

it's something else man like it could be

a tight quad it could be the right leg

if it's the left leg you got to find out

the origin of where all this [ __ ] began

and i it was him so i had to go back to

where you know

my roots and the origin of all this

happen and it's hard to do that did you

make peace with him i made big piece with

with

so we didn't have a peaceful

conversation we you know we we we left

very animal he's a he's a he's a vicious man

man

he he was a vicious man i mean medieval

[ __ ] so

i had become a medieval [ __ ] at

that time i was 22 and i was the big boy and

and

so i was no longer the guy who was

afraid it was not like hey i want to

kill you type of [ __ ] and we were

sitting at denny's

after an all-night skate or whatever the

hell you know he owned bars and skating

rings like that and

so we were sitting down and we kind of

got into it and i just kind of left

and but i had to make peace with it in myself

myself

i i could not hold on to that hate cause

hold on to that hate was half the reason

why i kept falling into the same pattern

of failing

i had to get i had to start dumping off

some baggage i had to start figuring out me

me

through him and that's all he was there

for he was the origin i had to figure

him out figure out why he was so evil to

my mom to me my brother and i had to

start studying him like a lot of people

have situations where someone does

something and we all attack that person

like like on the media if someone does

something wrong everybody now is [ __ ]

perfect and we now judge this guy

i don't judge him i don't judge anybody

what i do is i start studying them why

did they do that

not in a judging way i want to learn

from you and what'd you get out of your

dad i got that he was he grew up rough

he had he was very insecure had a lot of kids

kids and

and

his insecurities just trickled over

onto us

so yeah he jacked us up real good but he

never fixed himself so if you never fix yourself

yourself

the next person in line is going to get

the wrath and we were next in line

you know his his first wife you know

killed herself or whatever happened and

you know got burned up in the house or

something some craziness and there's a

lot of stuff that goes on there that i

didn't put in the book because i don't

feel like going to court yeah but um

yeah that's uh it was it was a lot of stuff

stuff

you know one of the great parts about

this book is that you you detail exactly

what was going through your mind in

terms of like your weaknesses and how

you had failed and and then

you it's not just one time like you you

do the thing in high school where you

get your [ __ ] together and then you join

the military and then you wind up

getting fat again

and then when you go when you have to

lose what is 106 pounds in three months

yep to to to qualify for seal training

yep that's insane yeah because when i

realized at that time once again i

failed again i thought so what you're

talking about is i took this asvab test

you know i didn't know how to read and

write pretty much in high school i was

like a fourth grade reading level

and i took that test a few times

and i finally passed it and when i

passed it i actually drove my car to the

to the daggone airport and watched

planes take off

because i was like i'm gonna be on one

of those planes one day going to air

force boot camp so i i never

i always fix the things on the surface

so if i couldn't read and write learn to

read and write

i i would always fix these things on the

surface level and so whenever something

hard would would

like like raise ugly head

i didn't have any kind of tools to

handle it like man i thought i fixed

this already man but no i didn't go deep

into the dungeon of my soul to say okay

what is making you a quitter

what is making you a weak man what is

making you afraid

and so

that's why i kept on quitting and going

back to start or not knowing how to get

through hard times and that's why i was

telling people i'm not a theorist

i didn't study like you know i didn't

study a [ __ ] book

i literally put myself in a fire

repeatedly like a sword you put a sword

in the fire repeatedly and repeat if you

keep on doing that you're going to get a

nice sword and you keep on beating it

you got to beat the [ __ ] out of it

and that's what i am

yeah i i became that i i said okay we

can't quit we got to figure out why you

are this [ __ ]

why are you this [ __ ] man what is wrong

with you what's going on here so i kept

on putting the sword back in the dagger

on fire and i just beat it harder and i

beat it harder before i knew i started realizing

realizing

all right man the brain is starting to

get hard

the brain is starting to get hard i'm no

longer a theorist i'm now a practitioner

i put it in hell i dissected it while

it's in hell because you can't dissect

anything in a normal environment you

can't dissect anything in 72 degree weather

weather

you must put it in the [ __ ] freezer

and freeze the [ __ ] out of it and then

you dissect it dissect it when it's

miserable dissect the brain when all

this thinking about is i need to get out

of here man

i want to get out of the [ __ ] freezer

open the door

and he said nah

five more seconds man five more seconds

in the freezer and that's when you start

to pick that brain apart and that's what

all this stuff did to me i kept on

putting myself back into the freezer or

the fire and beating the [ __ ] out of myself

myself

mentally and physically

before i knew it this is what happened wow

wow

it's an interesting way to self-teach

yes like most people that

you know you talk to that are disciplined

disciplined they

they

you know they have something that they

read that inspired them they have

certain people that they look up to

there's certain you know coaches that

taught them there's certain important

moments in their life but for you it's a

system of failure and and

reflection and then rebooting that's it

repeated failure

and people think a lot of times it

taught me that i'm angry oh my god you

sound so angry you cut so much oh my god

why you cuss so much why are you so crazy

crazy

if you read my book i cannot explain my

life by saying hey it was a merry

[ __ ] christmas man no it wasn't i

want you i want you to go there with me

i'm taking you there with me

i'm a storyteller i want to take your

ass down paradise where i so the house i

lived in buffalo new york that i got my

ass beat every day funny we lived on

paradise road

and it was anything but [ __ ] paradise

so i want you to go there with me you

want to learn from me let me take your

ass home let me take you there so that's

the whole thing about it man we're

scared to dive into

our lives what made us who we are

the beautiful people that we are we're

all jacked up in so many ways that's the

beauty of us

that's the beauty of me

i'm jacked up

but i figured out my own little process

on how to get unjacked up and how to i'm

not gonna get the same you know i'm not

gonna get the same way you're gonna get

there you may get there by going

pointing to point b

i might go point c to d to e to f i want

to be there the same way you are just a

little harder that's how i train my brain

brain

so it's just different i'm a different thinker

thinker

when you stop and think about all the

different times that you did have to

reboot and how you you you found like

new goals and you found new inspiration

you fired up a new discipline and you

became stronger and harder and you got

one of the things that people always

look for in life they look for a point

where they can rest yes oh i'm going to retire

retire

you know like people love they love that

expression the golden years they love

that expression yeah

they love the they love the idea of

struggle as long as it ends and then

when it ends they're going to have a

nice comfortable spot it must end the

suffering must end yeah you should relax

man you've done so much that's right

you've really done so much but this

the idea of reaching this golden year

is is it's a very flawed idea because

it's an idea that you're gonna you're

gonna work hard but then you're gonna

reach the finish line but there's no

finish line no it doesn't exist

that's the scary thing about life my

friend that is a scary thing right and

that's what fatigues me people go man

why don't you ever smile there's no

there's no end

there's no end i know that you're you're

you're going to meet cam haynes after

this yes sir and listen please if you

guys run put a number of that miles that

you're going to run and leave it at that

do not say

let's see who quits because you will

both die because that's a hard man he is

a hard man cameron haynes is a hard man

he will run until you die or he dies

he's a hard man dude he doesn't he does

those 240s he does ultra he's a sick

[ __ ] and see those are the guys i'm

looking for yeah that's a scary do you

want the two of you guys you need to

pick a number i know whatever you get i

think you guys are going to run 35 miles

yeah you're gonna do good yeah 35 is a

good number yeah we've been texting back

and forth trying to make it you know

trying to make it sensible you know yeah

so we don't go off the chain because if

one of you [ __ ] wakes up and

has a good strong espresso i know [ __ ]

it let's do 300. it's gonna be on

it's gonna be a long day man no

that's it yeah you you know this new

race that they're doing where they're um

you run for one hour you run like as

many and then you have like a bell rings

and then you sit down for a little bit

you know what i mean like you there's

like a

4.17 mile thing yep it's that sick [ __ ]

what was it the guy's name that created

that like i did the barclay marathon yes

you're talking about last yeah yeah this

is crazy [ __ ]

so he had people running for days and

days and days he invited me out there

for this race yeah i actually got into

the barclay last year but couldn't do it

because of the book so i'm supposed to

do it this year

but now you know we'll see again how the

schedule goes but yeah that that's a sick

sick

sick man i've done a couple of his races

and like he has one called strolling jim

i actually won that one in 2016. but

he's a he's a sick man what is this scrolling

scrolling

this is probably easiest race it's like

it's like through the back country of uh

tennessee it's a 41 mile race on the

road it's one of the first you know

ultra marathons out there ever

and my mom lives in nashville so it's

like an hour drive i went up there and

it was like when my first race is back

after me being all sick and jacked up

for so long and i got lucky had a good

race and i happened to want it you know

you were talking about psoas muscle yeah

we have this thing now that we got what

does that call the pro pro so right so

right have you ever used one i have it

also i i saw it in there that that

little black contraption yeah that hard

plastic thing yeah phenomenal it's evil

man yeah yeah it's good it's amazing i

started getting tightness in that when i

was running a lot like i'd never gotten

tightness in that area before yeah it

seems like that's a running thing right

it's a running thing and also a very

stressed thing

you know if you're real stressed out man

like for me like i talked about the

origin where like where things start my

body was so wrapped tight i didn't know

where like where to start yeah so i

started with the psoas muscle so that's

a real good spot well the problem with

these races is pro the problem with

people like you that's the problem with

these races like if you get you and

another you right and they're in there

together like you [ __ ] are

gonna kill each other it's a long day

it's a long day it's a long day it's a

long day

because if they're doing a last man

standing type deal right yeah like the

first person to quit yeah it's a it's a

real long day man i mean i've been up i

got a couple hills under my belt man i

know how to fail for 130 hours to move

yeah and i know how to self-motivate a

lot of [ __ ] don't know how to

self-motivate man like we like to put

the headphones on like before the big

game and listen to the music yeah

what the [ __ ] did you do when the

headphones come off bro it's you in your

own mind right i know how to do that

that's that's the hard part do you ever

listen to music when you run never never

i told you jamie's cheating he has that

video i got i thought you might have

seen it but he talks about like running

with music no what did you say i find it

find the video we'll play it we might

not be able to play it we get is it

somebody else's content

i actually um but i did

during my last pull-up record

i listened to you know that song um from

rocky 1

round 14

when rocky gets knocked down the corner

i listened to this two minutes and 13

seconds long i listened on repeat for 17

merry christmas man 17 hours man i went

to such a dark dark evil i have a

picture in my hand in the book

i was in a dark

i went to this i went to a place man

that i'm like i can do anything here we

gotta live here for a while

because i kept on feeling that wreck i

go like i don't want to see a pull-up

bar again

i mean like i did 67 000 pulls man like

this is my throat i can't i don't want

to see no pull up so it's like i'm i'm

doing this come hello high water man

i broke it out it's just let me hear

so i never trained with music

there's a reason why i don't do that

the music's not going to always be there

the tv the distractions

all these external things

i'm in the gym right now with all this

live music people needed to get fired up

they needed to stay motivated they need

to stay in the fight they needed to just

go in the gym

to do whatever they're gonna do

what do you do when you have no external motivation

motivation

it's about the internal

what do you say to yourself

how are you going to fire yourself up

what's that flame inside of you that

and when you're doing this the whole

time you're doing this you're doing some

of the hardest chin-ups you can do you

got a chain around your neck right

folks that are just listening and you're

pulling down on ropes you're doing

chin-ups on it looks like taped up ropes

yes sir that's what it is yeah those are grip

grip

that's like jiu jitsu guys do a lot of

those yes i was uh i spoke to the

university of alabama and they were in

there you know most you know most these

athletes man they got to get hyped so

that music is blaring yeah i'm like man

once that [ __ ] comes off

and you get popped in your [ __ ] mouth

your headphones are on the sidelines brother

brother

what's gonna happen

yeah you can say to yourself then so

that's that's how i train my mind man i

i trade my mind i don't get popped in my

mouth man i'm gonna get popped in the

back of an alley one day man running

around doing what i do

and there's gonna be no music yeah you

better fight you're gonna figure it out

when i first started running people said

do you run with music and i know running

it's cheating when you have music on

it's cheating you're cheating you listen

to music but now i listen to music all

the time but more than i listen to music

i listen to books yeah

books on tape uh audiobooks and yours is

like i said has been the last two weeks

has been my running partner well i

appreciate that man you're supposed to

be phenomenal man it's phenomenal and

you're doing this kind of independently

right yeah so what i did man is i pissed

off a lot of people

i was um i

so in 2012 i got an offer for my book

for 30 thousand dollars

i said you can go [ __ ] yourself

you know what hell i went through

brother so then everybody was like you

know we don't see a market for a black

guy ultra runner fat guy who uh couldn't read

read

like uh you know 15 percent of america's

black you know i won't see any [ __ ]

you know people buying your book

they think only black people will buy

your book there's some ignorant people

out there man everybody that follows me

is white

i don't have a black

i have like three black followers man

event was just left he's furious

he's a big fan he's black yeah he's like

he's like an unusual species out there man

man

like and so i'm sitting there walking

around going man you don't even know who

like everybody talk to is white like you

know it's the ignorance of the world and

i'm in these meetings here and this kind

of stuff so now 2018 i get a 300 000 offer

offer

for a first-time author so i'm sitting

back you know

i'm like my god man you know i used to

make like [ __ ] sixty thousand dollars

a year you know this is the biggest

payday yet

and i started thinking i took that one

second i talked about the one second

decision a lot about what i went through

my life what i've done

and i was like you know what

i struggled so hard in my life i went

through so much that the biggest trophy

i own now

is that book

the biggest trophy i don't know is not

the book itself it's what's in the book

it's what like i don't give a [ __ ] if

that sells one copy

honest to god man like like my what i

did and that's what i hope people

understand your life in the journey you

put yourself through

there's no there's nothing more than

that and that's all i want people to do

is realize

that you have to struggle

you have to struggle the bigger the

struggle the bigger the peace the bigger

the suffering the more peace i'm not

just saying this because you're here but

this book is valuable this book is very

valuable it's valuable to people like

anybody that you know i mean biographies

are very always valuable when you get to

see the mindset of a person who's done

things that you haven't done you get to

understand like that they're overcoming

sort of the same

sort of situations in their mind that

you are same insecurities and pitfalls

but yeah everybody's going through it

man yeah everybody that's that's

something i say i'm blessed that way that

that

my story

there's no color involved in it

it's a human story about struggle

and i happen to be in so many different

situations that so many people can

relate to about struggle that

that

i guarantee you mark my word you read

that book there will be

a section of that book that resonates

with you hardcore it will make you think

if if you're not ready to think about

your life

and think about

you know where you can be and think

about what you haven't done the book's

not for you if you're not ready to sell

to really self-reflect and hold yourself

accountable for where you're at and

where you're not

the book is not for you is real i've

read a lot of self-help books and i've

listened to a lot of self-help books on

tape too and a lot of just some of them

that i have to shut off i have to shut

off a quarter way and i feel like

someone's lying to me i just like you're

bullshitting me you're just saying

things this i'm not this doesn't

resonate with me it doesn't it's not

working right like i'll give it a chance

i'll give it a chance but if i'm you

know a half hour in two hours in it's

still the same nonsense i don't feel

anything right i'm getting itchy

listening to you

you know i just want to pull the

headphones off and i'll just kill it and

i'll stop it this is the total opposite

this one man i was i was go i was

running extra miles so i could stay with

the headphones on and the

the thing that i think is going to

happen with this book is people are

going to get it they're going to get a

hold of whether it's the audiobook or

their book book and they're going to

they're going to recommend it and then

it's going to spread like wildfire this

is a powerful book this is a real

self-help book this is like this is a

real one like it's not like uh someone

orchestrates this whole thing like what

i'm going to do is i'm going to become a

motivator i'm going to be i'm going to

be a personal influencer i'm going to be

that guy that goes out there and tells

people you can optimize your life here's

how you do it and there's so many of

those [ __ ] guys out there right yeah

that's not me man i know this one dude i

ran into him recently i ran into him at

this restaurant he's fat as [ __ ] he's

got this big old belly and i know he

does these these motivational things and

i'm looking at him i'm like what are you

talking about man like you're weak right

look at your body look at your own

temple look at your meat vehicle you're

carrying around this [ __ ] donut

around your waist it's just he was

eating shitty food and he looked soft

and like wake up [ __ ] so many people

are doing that now man how many people

are talking this noise exactly and i see

them yeah i know them i'm not gonna say

names but i know them i'm like man dude

you know why my life is miserable right

now because i can't go on your show

right now your podcast if i didn't get

after it this morning

so i cannot talk to people

unless you're authentic unless i'm

authentic because i used to be the most

unauthentic [ __ ] on the planet

now i have this voicemail saying oh no

i'll call you up if i lie to you about

something even a white lie hey yo joe

i [ __ ] lied to you man like that

wasn't real like it would bother me that

badly now you know so another thing i

didn't what's funny about this book

stuff man i didn't set out to write a book

book

like literally man when i was 24 years

old and a cow's fat spraying for

cockroaches eating donuts and drinking milkshakes

milkshakes

i did not plan on doing this

all i wanted to do was change the

[ __ ] reflection in that dagger mirror

this is all just a box it's it's it's a

byproduct of

of that and that's that's the funny

thing about it like everybody's like oh

my god david goggles what you know what

tell you i'm like

what the [ __ ] that's why it works though unbelievable

unbelievable

it works because you really did do it

you really did do all those things and

you show how you did it and you're not

using any [ __ ] theatrical jargon no

you're not you know you're you know

you're not saying a bunch of buzzwords

can you live the life of an actualized

person i can show you how and you look

at this guy talking he's got a neck like

a pencil and his

his body is just frail like you don't

even understand adversity you don't

understand overcoming this is not the

secret you know this isn't about the law

of [ __ ] attraction yeah there ain't

no attraction here brother

this ain't no attraction here man this

book is straight up yeah they love

nonsense yeah this is no nonsense man no

nonsense this is a real self-help book

man this is the real deal that's how you

self-help you're self-help by people

who've done it and you learn what they

did and you realize there's no shortcuts

right and then you learn to embrace that

no shortcut mentality and enjoy enjoy

the suffering and the grind of it and

what we talked about earlier there's no

[ __ ] finish line doesn't exist you

know what's funny about that is i have

people now so when i was in the worst

part of my life

those people want to bring you back in

those people's like like you can see who

you hang out with like when you're in

your worst and when you're trying to get

better with what makes it hard to get

better is that you are hanging around

people who like let's say you're an

alcoholic you hang around people who drink

drink

and i say you want to stop drinking

those people want to bring you back in

like i used to be this guy this guy who

was you know who wasn't worth anything

now those people who are still there they're

they're

16 17 18 30 years ago they're trying to

get you back there so the hardest part

you got gotta see who you're hanging out

with man

you gotta hang out with the people who

you wanna be like the most yeah people

will definitely drag you they'll jack it

down and especially if you around

someone who makes a lot of excuses and

they're always failing oh this is just

like they're they're the opposite of

inspiration they're like a vacuum 100

sucking it out of you why are you doing

that today man

why are you getting up again so early

why are you doing this why are you doing this

this

the people you're hanging around will

suck the [ __ ] life out of you yeah

sometimes just gotta be alone man get

your [ __ ] in and then there's also

people that are gonna be around that are

always failing and they're always

[ __ ] up and then always coming to you

to try to get you to help them exactly

a giant burden yes never look in the

mirror and get their own [ __ ] together

they're always looking for external help

that's right always looking for a storm

people don't want to go in deep man all

the ants are inside of you

it's a very primitive way how like how

this book is written it's primitive

it's it's very barbarian it's how we all

think it's how it's it's how man once

walked the earth

and then we get all soft and all these

computers and [ __ ] we start going away from

from

the the most powerful thing we have is

our [ __ ] brain it's our mind and we

don't use it anymore

so you know it's like everything has to

be so quick yeah you use your mind when

it comes to certain things right but

what you're saying is you don't use your

mind when it comes to enduring exactly

that is it you can't google that [ __ ]

right hey let me google how to suffer no

no

that ain't gonna be in there bro

ain't gonna be in there

it could be in there

there's no answer it's not in there it

doesn't exist

find some water real cold and what's

interesting is that that is a mind thing

and people think of mind things they

think of calculating mathematics

literature no no no no no there's many

aspects to the mind that's it don't

overthink it yeah don't overthink it put

your shoes on lace them up

don't overthink the process yeah but see

what because you've overcome and because

you've accomplished so much now that

even when you you talk about that moment

of like embracing that suck like you see

the big ass smile on your face like

you've you've got a total different

approach to it than the average person

oh yeah the average person you're

talking to them about doing chin ups for

24 hours or anything [ __ ] crazy they

don't look at they're like oh

there's like a a negative a doom feeling

that's the thing about it man i talk

about my book open-mindedness

what separates me from a lot of people

is they go into an

a daunting task

and the task is overwhelming like when i

heard the pull-up break was 4020

pull-ups and i was talking about

breaking this record

people are like oh my god

i went right to a pen and paper like

what are you doing i'm doing the math man

man

what are you talking about i'm open mind

to the fact that okay if i do five

pull-ups on the minute for so many hours

i can get some pull-ups in how much time

do i have to rest i was breaking the

math down you have to be open-minded to

the possibilities that i can do this

once you shut your mind down to the

possibility that it can be achieved

there's no way it can happen so that's

why my my eyes and my body light up

about things because i know that if

you're in a fight you have to attack

you have to keep attacking

the enemy has to know he is not going to

give up you must break the soul of

whatever the [ __ ] is in front of you

that's what i realized i was never

breaking the soul of anything in front

of me

so that's why i came with the thing

called taking souls in my book

i started to devise ways to break

a soul

of a human being of an object of

whatever's in front of me if you keep on

attacking something nothing wants to

stand in front of anything

that is relentless nothing

nothing

the taken soul part of the book is

really interesting because uh you talked

about like the the mind shift that you

had when you were in buds yes sir yeah

that was that's an intense part of the

book it's it is uh

that's when a lot of stuff started

clicking man

i started watching those instructors on

the side you know there's there's

three shifts there's eight instructors

three shifts because you know the guys

going through through hell week they're

up all day and all night for 130 hours

this is the promised land of mental

hardening for me i love this place and

you have the instructors who you know

you know they've been there done that

now they're instructing you so they do

their eight hour shift they have their

parkas on it's usually cold coffee

drinking their coffee

and they're beating the crap out of us

and when i started realizing i started

playing mind games and i was like you

know what i bet these [ __ ]

are looking at us

judging themselves about when they were

going through hell week about let me see

i'm looking at goggins right now i was

better than him i was bearing that guy

bearing that [ __ ] over there and i was like

like okay

okay

okay you gotta judge me right

so it's not gonna do to you so what i

started doing was i got my boat crew

boat crew too it's in the book it's a

great great story said come here guys

you can't break boat crude you can't

break broke crew 2. so

it's wednesday is wednesday and

everybody's broken everybody's beat up

man and like this you start moving like

a robot everybody's like just kind of

just trying to get through helbig now

and your energy zap and they know

wednesdays like that over the hump i

love that you talked about that in the

book too that they put it in your head

wednesday you're gonna be tired oh yeah

and that's another thing they they tell

you how you're supposed to feel so

so

you are feeling that way i was like ah

don't let these [ __ ] tell you

how you supposed to feel no it's day one

[ __ ] this is hour one so i was

getting my broker all jacked up i said

we're gonna take these [ __ ]

souls so when they had us doing this

simple thing that guys are struggling

with broker two is just lost in the

[ __ ] boat near yelling yeah he can't

[ __ ] hurt us can't hurt boat crew too

and i looked on the instructor's faces

and it looked like someone had just

[ __ ] with their soul

and i looked at my guys my broker and i

said hey guess what those [ __ ]

aren't [ __ ] tonight because we own

space in their [ __ ] head

we own space they're gonna think about

us tonight they could think about how

they're killing boners that's right how

how

how on wednesday are these guys doing

this and screaming out you can't hurt

people too we were we were bringing the

fight we were attacking so so when you

keep on doing that guess what people

start doing

i ain't [ __ ] with these guys no more

so bro crew 2 got a lot more sleep roku

2 just became that broke like hey

because we just kept charging and we

started fueling off of that we started

fueling out the fact that man it takes

one second of energy

to steal everybody's

and then you have all the energy you need

need

that's all you need you need to look at

someone's eyes you know how this when

you fight somebody you broke that

[ __ ] he's like oh god man i

don't want to go back the next round and

you feel like my god i can fight all day

i can fight all day long that's what

taking souls is

but you have to have the will

the heart the courage

to go

that distance when you're exactly jacked

up you have nothing left to give

and give more

that is an interesting thing about the

mind is that you can find inspiration

and when you find inspiration when you

get charged up all of a sudden you have

energy that's right it's right it's

weird i talked about in the book also is about

about

i learned how to control

my adrenals

if you know how you know how you get

that fight or flight response when you

get to move real quick yeah and you know

i i started learning the mind a lot how

to get myself jacked

extremely fast like in a horrible

environment when everybody's miserable

i learned how to really find strength in

the misery

when everybody's suffering everybody's

all poopy past and their mentality's

down and everything i started just like

my god this is where i shine

and i started using all that misery

for tons and tons of tons of drive and

motivation to

to then lead people further

because you can get a lot of power

through misery and once people see that

my god cognizance is [ __ ] going

then everybody says roger that let me

get my [ __ ] and go too

so i started realizing that if you can

just find strength just a little bit

longer you'll have a crew of people

following you along the way

and that is another thing that no one

can ever teach you because you you're

going to have to learn that on your own

you're going to have to figure out how

to pull that energy out of your mind on

your own there's not

there's there's no book you can read now

all sudden i have it i've got the

technique now i know how to do it yeah

no it's it's a a grind that you have to

start and finish on your own you have to

take great pleasure in the fact that no

one wants to be with the [ __ ] you're at

right now

great pleasure in that almost makes you

know it has to bring a passion out of

you it has to bring something very very

weird out of you man like

you know people don't really understand

what that is when you're in the worst

environment possible the worst situation

possible and everybody's looking like

god man i hope this ends

and you see that

time slows down and you see that you're

you're feeling that

everybody has that look on their face

like god that's got to go i don't want

to be anymore have you ever gotten rabdo

wrapped on my lowest oh yes sir did you

get it yes sir yes sir when did you get

it i got it on my second pull-up record

attempt and i talked about it a little

bit in the book there um and

and

i have sickle cell trait and a young kid

just died from rhabdo

from uh because sickle cell's not a good

thing obviously um and

rhabdo's a bad thing for having sickle

cell you have sickle cell trait but you

don't have the disease i don't have the

disease a buddy of mine died from it

when i was a kid really yeah

a guy used to fight with us to train with

with

yeah he was always sick he'd have it get

sick his heart he'll be gone he'd be out

of the gym for months and he'd come back

and he'd just be trying to get his body

back in shape again

then he went up dying

he's a talented guy too

when you got it what did you have to do

so they put me to hospital for a while

um that's when my hand got real messed up

up

and my fluids were extremely low and i

had done like i think i did 3 000 pull-ups

pull-ups

and they're like man your body is

wrecked up were you just not drinking

water while you're doing it i was

drinking water but not enough so i was

sipping this carbohydrate drink

and um

my calories were extremely low i didn't

know how much i was going to burn

through and you burn through an awful

lot of calories man doing that many

pull-ups so that many hours yeah and

with the repetition

with using the single points of just my

hands and my biceps my back

like my body was swollen like the

pillsbury doughboy

i mean it looked horrible

and um so

they kept me in there for a while but

how long probably about eight hours

i was about eight hours on ivs and stuff

like that so they just it's basically a

ton of drinks yeah

tons of fluid and they sent me home though

though

so i went home that night

and how long did you wait before you

jump back at it

i think i was back on the pull-up bar

and then i broke the record six six

weeks later i broke the record jesus christ

christ

so when you when you did get back on the

pull-up bar

was how [ __ ] up was your body from

it was bad but what i do is like what

i've done through everything it which

isn't real smart i mean it works for me

so i'm not saying do this is i've

trained through a lot of my injuries

and i started developing i i started

doing that in buds and still training

because i instill training you know they

know you guys start from day one or they

just kick you out so i started from day

one enough so my third time going

through i was really jacked up well you

went you had pneumonia yeah i had

pneumonia and i had really bad stress fractures

fractures

so my stretch fracture so i was

literally i would put a sock on and then

duct tape my foot all the way up to the

top of my or to the middle of my ankle

or to my calf and because my stress

fracture was so bad so like the pivot

point between my ankle and my shin i

just cast that all the way up

and so i went through for several months

for a few months with stretch fractures

what was crazy about that is they healed

by the time i got to third phase my

stress reactions were healed wow and i

don't even know how rhyme or reason

behind it i ran on them a few months

later they were healed wow so i don't

know what that means just push through

the agony and eventually your body just

said this crazy [ __ ] is not gonna stop

it's true statement yeah it's weird a

lot of my injuries i've just pushed

through and they've uh

i duct tape it up i mean have you ever

had to have surgery on any of them no

just heart just a couple heart surgeries

but um none of my actual physical body

and what was your heart surgery for

again you talked about this before yeah

asd i had a hole in my heart yeah so

which is even more ridiculous yeah

that's what we talked about that too man

they uh they they took me off and

studied me for a while

so they realized that my god

i shouldn't even be in the military i

wasn't even qualified to be in the

military at the hole in my heart

you know let alone being special

operations where you jumping on planes

and stuff like that so i was i was lucky

how'd they seal that up so they went in

with a helix patch

and um you know through my femoral

artery femoral artery and they went

through put a patch and they realized

you know i missed like three or four

years of a military career because this

heart surgery wow yeah so i was i was

off of jump status dive status i was

just uh so that's what i talked about

recruiting so much i i stayed in

recruiting for like three or four years

and um you know i became like a navy

city recruiter when i was uh

you know doing this for a while so i got

extended there because the heart surgery and

and

other than that you never had to have

any other surgeries

um no meniscus no nothing no no that's

crazy no and i've had some

jacked up injuries

let's see how i grew up

you know like i talked about in the book

my dad didn't believe in taking me by

the hospital

like that's just how it was man it was

it was barbarian stuff man but

you know you learn to deal with it and

you live it

you're fine you get hurt mris oh yeah

get everything checked out matter of

fact man i was terrified mri machine for

a long time i was claustrophobic

i was like man that's

yeah there's a lot of there's a lot

behind that man but yeah i've i've been

checked out a lot i've had uh

so like i said like six years ago i

started stretching out like i thought i

was dying i couldn't even get out of bed

so all that stretching out was from

pretty much all these injuries i had

that i never really fixed

and my body got knotted up and more

knotted up and more knowledge i mean

it's going to heal

one way or another it's going to heal

and when it heals and i can heal right

it's going to heal all jacked up and

crooked yeah so i'm a crooked jacked up

it's amazing that you haven't had like

knee surgeries or anything like that

consider all the running you've done my

left knee right now isn't it's no joke

so like i say origin of pain

my right foot is messed up because of my

left knee

so right now i'm i'm i'm taking care of

my left knee knees getting a lot better

now but

don't worry cameron haynes i will still

be [ __ ] out there running with your

ass i'm not gonna get out of it buddy so

if you're listening [ __ ] i will

see you this weekend

merry christmas

all right just so you know brother merry

christmas i'll see you soon

you don't know what's wrong with the

knee you have no idea it's from

stretching so basically stretching yeah

so my whole because my body was in in

such bad alignment

from just what i did to it

that now i'm in this huge stress routine

and my body's getting back into

alignment so your muscles like i was a

power lifter man like i i grew these

huge muscles and i'm this small guy and

i just and from the stress of my body

going through three health weeks and

also my body scout became one knot

so as things start to open up

joints start to hurt things start to

hurt and i'm like god so it's been this

big long process so i'm faster in better

shape than ever

my organs work better i'm healthier than

ever but i have these little tweaks here

these little tweaks there from the fact

that i am now my body was locked into position

position

from these muscles being so tight now

what do you weigh now about 182 183 and

you were at like 300 plus pounds when

you're at your fattest right my fattest

when i weighed in for the military i

don't know what my fattest was but when

i weighed in

on that scale when steven sauzio hit

that scale on me man it was 297.

and he's like brother you gotta lose 106

pounds i was like [ __ ] this

what are you talking about

oh how's that possible so anyway it's

just you know not a lot of time that's

the crazy thing they didn't give you

three months to lose that 33 pounds a

month is a lot of [ __ ] weight plus a

few almost impossible and that's what i

thought that's what i thought but see

you see the person now i was 175 pounds

in high school so i was a skinny guy in

high school so i made myself big

i'm a small bone person so it didn't it

wouldn't trust me it was hard

it was hardest thing i've ever done in

my life

but what did people think around you

when they saw you three months later

you're 100 pounds lighter my mom

couldn't believe it because my mom so i

was living in indianapolis in the end at

the time

and so i was

trying to study for this asvab test

again that you know i got to take it

again going to the navy and i'm out here

trying to lose weight and i'm you know

working for this company spraying for

cockroaches and all sort of crap and i

would lay in her pond

in [ __ ] november in indiana

just lay in her pond i was like i'm

going to bust i got to get hard you know

so i would lay in the pond get out of

the pond and go for a run

just all wet cold like my like the dad

gone shirt would just freeze up from ice

and [ __ ] and i just be out there running

said what is wrong with you man like you

were that kid who just didn't want to

like what's wrong with you so she

started seeing the transformation like

you know this guy is obsessed

with trying to become somebody next

thing she knew man

my god you actually lost that much

weight that fast i love the fact that

you did it but what what hurts me is

when i hear stories about people that

get like stomach stapling and surgery

and all that [ __ ] that they do like you

just need to just lose the weight right and if you just did it you just did it

and if you just did it you just did it the right way you would have earned it

the right way you would have earned it and if you earn it you'll keep it that's

and if you earn it you'll keep it that's the thing about it man like we like to

the thing about it man like we like to take these very quick fixes in life

take these very quick fixes in life we want the six minute abs approach to

we want the six minute abs approach to life yeah nah man there's no permanent

life yeah nah man there's no permanent in that yeah there's no permanent in

in that yeah there's no permanent in that man there's no scarring

that man there's no scarring there must be scarring well people are

there must be scarring well people are terrified of this thing that you're

terrified of this thing that you're saying that there's no end

saying that there's no end that there's no finish line that every

that there's no finish line that every day is a new thing that you have to earn

day is a new thing that you have to earn it still after all the [ __ ] you've done

it still after all the [ __ ] you've done every day you get up and you have to

every day you get up and you have to earn it yes you know what's funny about

earn it yes you know what's funny about that

that i want you to be scared of it

i want you to be scared of it yeah i want you to just give you fuel

yeah i want you to just give you fuel it's great motivation and see if you

it's great motivation and see if you look at that way

look at that way the reason why

the reason why i speak the way i speak because i

i speak the way i speak because i believe in what i'm saying

believe in what i'm saying if i ever shut it down

if i ever shut it down that's the end of me

that's the end of me and whatever my hundred percent will be

and whatever my hundred percent will be i don't know what's gonna happen to me

i don't know what's gonna happen to me tomorrow

tomorrow if you can't run i will figure what the

if you can't run i will figure what the [ __ ] i can do and do that

[ __ ] i can do and do that that would be my new 100

that would be my new 100 you must continue to find your new 100

you must continue to find your new 100 whatever life throws at you you must

whatever life throws at you you must find what you can do now

find what you can do now i may become the best you know

i may become the best you know scientist of all time who knows watch

scientist of all time who knows watch out you know what i'm saying

out you know what i'm saying watch out

watch out who knows well that is an approach like

who knows well that is an approach like this this approach this mental approach

this this approach this mental approach you can use that for anything once you

you can use that for anything once you get past the quitting mechanism of your

get past the quitting mechanism of your mind once you get past that thing that

mind once you get past that thing that this is applicable you can you can take

this is applicable you can you can take these lessons that you learn from these

these lessons that you learn from these grueling runs yes losing 106 pounds in

grueling runs yes losing 106 pounds in three months from all these different

three months from all these different things of struggle you can take these

things of struggle you can take these lessons of struggle and you can apply

lessons of struggle and you can apply them to anything yes i talk about it in

them to anything yes i talk about it in my book here about

my book here about that race i did that made seal training

that race i did that made seal training look like a like a child's play in

look like a like a child's play in ranger school that that first hundred

ranger school that that first hundred miler i did write [ __ ] on myself and all

miler i did write [ __ ] on myself and all kind of stuff

kind of stuff that 19 hours it took me with no

that 19 hours it took me with no training

training i sum it up like this you're talking

i sum it up like this you're talking about struggle how you can put so much

about struggle how you can put so much of life into struggle in that 19 hours

of life into struggle in that 19 hours i lived

i lived five years

five years five years of struggle of happiness of

five years of struggle of happiness of of depression success failure in 19

of depression success failure in 19 hours that's what's great about some of

hours that's what's great about some of these things i do you get a a wide range

these things i do you get a a wide range of life

of life in just 19 hours

in just 19 hours you know like when you get to like mile

you know like when you get to like mile 50 in your mind saying we gotta get out

50 in your mind saying we gotta get out of here man and then it gets like miles

of here man and then it gets like miles 60. okay we're feeling good you have all

60. okay we're feeling good you have all these highs and lows that you have to

these highs and lows that you have to manage within this suck fest of 19 hours

manage within this suck fest of 19 hours and that's what i get from a lot of

and that's what i get from a lot of these different things that human growth

these different things that human growth you know growth of the mind without

you know growth of the mind without friction there is no growth without

friction there is no growth without friction there's no growth

friction there's no growth there's no growth and there's no

there's no growth and there's no satisfaction

satisfaction like there's no real like people want to

like there's no real like people want to sit around and rest but you don't really

sit around and rest but you don't really appreciate rest unless you earned it

appreciate rest unless you earned it that's it and people get they think i'm

that's it and people get they think i'm the craziest person on the planet you

the craziest person on the planet you are so far [ __ ] removed from that

are so far [ __ ] removed from that statement it's not even funny i was 290

statement it's not even funny i was 290 pounds twice in my life

pounds twice in my life i do not like to do the things i do but

i do not like to do the things i do but to humongous satisfaction from doing it

to humongous satisfaction from doing it this humongous has facts from lacing

this humongous has facts from lacing your shoes up saying i don't really want

your shoes up saying i don't really want to go for a run today

to go for a run today and then running

and then running and then getting back and saying wow i

and then getting back and saying wow i did it i did it yeah and that's what

did it i did it yeah and that's what it's about it's about these small steps

it's about it's about these small steps to doing things you don't want to do you

to doing things you don't want to do you know jocko jocko william i know him yeah

know jocko jocko william i know him yeah jocko's don't know him great but i know

jocko's don't know him great but i know him i i know him pretty well he's he's

him i i know him pretty well he's he's awesome but every morning you look at

awesome but every morning you look at that motherfucker's instagram he's got a

that motherfucker's instagram he's got a picture of his watch at 4 30. he gets up

picture of his watch at 4 30. he gets up at 4 30 every morning and he earns a

at 4 30 every morning and he earns a sunrise that's good stuff it works out

sunrise that's good stuff it works out like a [ __ ] and then earns a

like a [ __ ] and then earns a sunrise that's good stuff but it's that

sunrise that's good stuff but it's that thing like there's no end no it doesn't

thing like there's no end no it doesn't end and it's scary

end and it's scary that is scary that's scary everybody

that is scary that's scary everybody wants that holding hands while the sun

wants that holding hands while the sun sets retirement you're walking off into

sets retirement you're walking off into the sunset the biggest question i get is

the sunset the biggest question i get is so

so when did you rest

when did you rest when did you recover yeah

when did you recover yeah and i don't want to scare people

and i don't want to scare people but the truth answer

but the truth answer is i don't take any

is i don't take any days off

days off no days no days seven days a week seven

no days no days seven days a week seven days a week what is a normal day normal

days a week what is a normal day normal day for me a normal day so let's say a

day for me a normal day so let's say a light day light day light day is at

light day light day light day is at least a seven mile run

least a seven mile run i will

i will every every four every other day so

every every four every other day so about four days a week um calisthenics

about four days a week um calisthenics plus gym workout so i don't do any gym

plus gym workout so i don't do any gym workout without hitting pull-ups

workout without hitting pull-ups push-ups i call nickels and dimes so

push-ups i call nickels and dimes so like five pull-ups ten push-ups or i'll

like five pull-ups ten push-ups or i'll go you know quarters

go you know quarters and whatever like it's like 25 pull-ups

and whatever like it's like 25 pull-ups or in like 50 push-ups so i have all

or in like 50 push-ups so i have all these different things i messed up so

these different things i messed up so i will do weights with calisthenics and

i will do weights with calisthenics and every single night i stretch

every single night i stretch for at least every night i stretch for

for at least every night i stretch for these two hours two hours every

these two hours two hours every night

night every night

every night so you stretch after you're done working

so you stretch after you're done working out yeah so at night time usually i'll

out yeah so at night time usually i'll be either in a quiet room or i'll be

be either in a quiet room or i'll be watching tv or a good i love sports be

watching tv or a good i love sports be watching the game and i'm on the floor

watching the game and i'm on the floor man and that's what i do

man and that's what i do so you just stretch while you're doing

so you just stretch while you're doing stuff i stretch where i do stuff two

stuff i stretch where i do stuff two hours a long ass time to stretch is this

hours a long ass time to stretch is this just because you're trying to correct

just because you're trying to correct i'm trying to correct um years of not

i'm trying to correct um years of not doing that no years of just do you ever

doing that no years of just do you ever [ __ ] with yoga a lot yeah yoga is this

[ __ ] with yoga a lot yeah yoga is this [ __ ] what do you do

[ __ ] what do you do i have my own yoga

i have my own yoga so i kind of invented my own little yoga

so i kind of invented my own little yoga for what my body needs i've done hot

for what my body needs i've done hot yoga several times yoga is huge yoga

yoga several times yoga is huge yoga shoes like holding those positions and

shoes like holding those positions and i'm big and holding them for a long

i'm big and holding them for a long period of time so that's where my

period of time so that's where my stretching like people say don't hold

stretching like people say don't hold stretches for a long time i hold them

stretches for a long time i hold them for a long period of time because i'm

for a long period of time because i'm trying to get full range of motion a lot

trying to get full range of motion a lot of people going for like like um like my

of people going for like like um like my shoulders all messed up i get surgery on

shoulders all messed up i get surgery on it nah if you don't have full range of

it nah if you don't have full range of motion in your body don't go in and get

motion in your body don't go in and get cut on man until you know that your body

cut on man until you know that your body is actually opened up you know we start

is actually opened up you know we start to get knuckle dragger syndrome from

to get knuckle dragger syndrome from doing these push-ups you never work your

doing these push-ups you never work your back you know like like i'm like i'm

back you know like like i'm like i'm your rear delts

your rear delts so here you are you start hunching over

so here you are you start hunching over before you know your joints are out of

before you know your joints are out of whack you need to get full range of

whack you need to get full range of motion before you know how [ __ ] up you

motion before you know how [ __ ] up you truly are

truly are so i'm i'm always working on full range

so i'm i'm always working on full range of motion like a kid they run so

of motion like a kid they run so effortlessly they're always in full

effortlessly they're always in full range of motion

range of motion as you get older and tighter and sick

as you get older and tighter and sick and more stressed your body starts to

and more stressed your body starts to get more and more tight therefore your

get more and more tight therefore your shoulders start to get out of balance

shoulders start to get out of balance not a and not a joint not a socket

not a and not a joint not a socket therefore you know it's popping yeah

therefore you know it's popping yeah it's popping because you're [ __ ]

it's popping because you're [ __ ] tight

tight open it up first open it up can you can

open it up first open it up can you can can you touch your hands behind each

can you touch your hands behind each other and raise them up behind you you

other and raise them up behind you you know it's all these different ranges of

know it's all these different ranges of motion that i got real smart on from a

motion that i got real smart on from a guy and i took it to another level so

guy and i took it to another level so are you do you work with a trainer or do

are you do you work with a trainer or do you always work out by yourself

you always work out by yourself everything i do i've never had training

everything i do i've never had training my entire life really never not one time

my entire life really never not one time do you read about physiology or exercise

do you read about physiology or exercise science or anything like that nothing

science or anything like that nothing nothing nothing but what about like when

nothing nothing but what about like when they learn new [ __ ] about new ways to

they learn new [ __ ] about new ways to you know enhance shoulder stability or

you know enhance shoulder stability or new exercises you're not interested no i

new exercises you're not interested no i don't i don't i don't

don't i don't i don't i don't do it for that reason

i don't do it for that reason still this day man still this day to

still this day man still this day to this day

this day it is for me

it is for me to become better mentally

to become better mentally how i look has just become

how i look has just become like i have

like i have thousands thousands hundreds of

thousands thousands hundreds of thousands of miles on this body running

thousands of miles on this body running pull-ups push-ups swimming whatever you

pull-ups push-ups swimming whatever you want to call it this body is what it is

want to call it this body is what it is now

now it's from repetition

it's from repetition it's not from studying you know hey if

it's not from studying you know hey if you hold your plank for this long [ __ ]

you hold your plank for this long [ __ ] all that [ __ ] i don't i don't care

all that [ __ ] i don't i don't care about it

about it i just do it for my mind right i want to

i just do it for my mind right i want to continue to harden because that's the

continue to harden because that's the only thing i want

only thing i want that's what i want

that's what i want i want to have that mind ready for life

i want to have that mind ready for life but you also want to increase your range

but you also want to increase your range of motion oh yeah yeah range of motion

of motion oh yeah yeah range of motion make sure that you're you're you know

make sure that you're you're you know you're not causing any additional

you're not causing any additional injuries dude wouldn't you want to like

injuries dude wouldn't you want to like stabilize some areas that maybe you feel

stabilize some areas that maybe you feel like you might have weaknesses and find

like you might have weaknesses and find out new techniques to do that have you

out new techniques to do that have you seen me with my shirt off

seen me with my shirt off no yeah it's stable as [ __ ]

i saw you when you had your shirt off when you first came here i walked in he

when you first came here i walked in he dave got here early and uh by the time i

dave got here early and uh by the time i got here he was already doing chin-ups

got here he was already doing chin-ups yeah it's stable

yeah it's stable stable do some pull-ups push-up smash

stable do some pull-ups push-up smash some stable [ __ ] yeah but yeah but you

some stable [ __ ] yeah but yeah but you you know all that stuff is very

you know all that stuff is very important honestly just all jokes aside

important honestly just all jokes aside man

man full range of motion getting your

full range of motion getting your shoulder rotation all that stuff is very

shoulder rotation all that stuff is very important i i learned a lot about that

important i i learned a lot about that coming up i had a lot of people i worked

coming up i had a lot of people i worked out with that that are real smart about

out with that that are real smart about all this stuff

all this stuff i'm a real old-school meat-eater like

i'm a real old-school meat-eater like bill casmire type of lifter you know i

bill casmire type of lifter you know i don't look like it back when i was that

don't look like it back when i was that guy in the back of the skinny guy that

guy in the back of the skinny guy that that's what i did and i got off really

that's what i did and i got off really big into human performance about the

big into human performance about the body strength fitness that's what i

body strength fitness that's what i wanted to be i want to be a hybrid

wanted to be i want to be a hybrid [ __ ] a guy that can run 200

[ __ ] a guy that can run 200 miles and then go to the gym with your

miles and then go to the gym with your meat head who doesn't even who's scared

meat head who doesn't even who's scared of running and lift with him

of running and lift with him so that's my whole thing in life i want

so that's my whole thing in life i want to be the guy who can run 200 miles with

to be the guy who can run 200 miles with the skinny guys

the skinny guys and then go to the gym with the big meat

and then go to the gym with the big meat head and say okay

head and say okay load it up let's go

load it up let's go so that's my whole thing that's a very

so that's my whole thing that's a very difficult thing to to tie the two of

difficult thing to to tie the two of them together when you think most people

them together when you think most people when you think ultra marathon runners or

when you think ultra marathon runners or people that run long distances they're

people that run long distances they're very thin right very thin guys like when

very thin right very thin guys like when you were talking about the first time

you were talking about the first time you ran 100 miles that you did deadlifts

you ran 100 miles that you did deadlifts the night before

the night before like that is just [ __ ] preposterous

like that is just [ __ ] preposterous nobody does that no yeah so me and the

nobody does that no yeah so me and the guy talk about the book

guy talk about the book it's silverback gorilla is what i call

it's silverback gorilla is what i call him in the book that's not his real name

him in the book that's not his real name obviously but yeah he saw me go into my

obviously but yeah he saw me go into my car the night before my first hundred

car the night before my first hundred mile race and you know i was like he

mile race and you know i was like he called me out say hey

called me out say hey goggins

goggins come here you know when the navy still

come here you know when the navy still calls you out gotta put you through

calls you out gotta put you through three hell weeks you're like you know

three hell weeks you're like you know what [ __ ]

what [ __ ] i gotta go to the gym and lift heavy now

i gotta go to the gym and lift heavy now so we're doing squats deadlifts power

so we're doing squats deadlifts power cleans heavy bench presses and i'm

cleans heavy bench presses and i'm thinking

thinking i have to run 100 miles tomorrow but i

i have to run 100 miles tomorrow but i also knew he was coming out there to

also knew he was coming out there to watch me

watch me so i was like you know what

so i was like you know what you put me through three hell weeks you

you put me through three hell weeks you were my instructor so now it's my turn

were my instructor so now it's my turn to educate you

to educate you on what a human can do because i know

on what a human can do because i know you could be sitting there thinking

you could be sitting there thinking while you're watching me with your wife

while you're watching me with your wife and your kid and you just worked out

and your kid and you just worked out with me not before we went real heavy

with me not before we went real heavy did the heaviest [ __ ] when we're sore

did the heaviest [ __ ] when we're sore you're you're gonna sit there while you

you're you're gonna sit there while you watch me run around this one mile track

watch me run around this one mile track how the [ __ ] is he doing that [ __ ] right

how the [ __ ] is he doing that [ __ ] right now

now we lifted heavy as hell and he's running

we lifted heavy as hell and he's running 100 miles and never has run past 20

100 miles and never has run past 20 miles in his life

miles in his life i use that for a lot of fuel so that gym

i use that for a lot of fuel so that gym workout

workout mr silverback gorilla there was a lot

mr silverback gorilla there was a lot for my mentality that that brought with

for my mentality that that brought with me because i knew i would see you and he

me because i knew i would see you and he came at mile 50

came at mile 50 with a package of six donuts

with a package of six donuts that i chomped up with the quickness

so yeah so i used that workout for a lot of motivation i knew he'd see me i know

of motivation i knew he'd see me i know he'd be thinking about how did you not

he'd be thinking about how did you not get robbed over that day you know what i

get robbed over that day you know what i don't know what i got that day

don't know what i got that day but i talked about in the book again

but i talked about in the book again that when i went home that night

that when i went home that night or that morning

or that morning that was single-handedly nothing even

that was single-handedly nothing even close i'm 43 years old now there's

close i'm 43 years old now there's nothing even close to that pain i knew

nothing even close to that pain i knew for a fact

for a fact i wasn't going to get out of that tub

i wasn't going to get out of that tub i knew i i knew i was done

i knew i i knew i was done i was talk about dehydrated no nutrition

i was talk about dehydrated no nutrition i was eating rich crackers and my plex

i was eating rich crackers and my plex that was the worst pain i'd ever

that was the worst pain i'd ever experienced in my entire life i was

experienced in my entire life i was pissing coca-cola out of me it was bad

pissing coca-cola out of me it was bad it was bad she probably did have rob dog

it was bad she probably did have rob dog i guarantee it i i guarantee i'm pissing

i guarantee it i i guarantee i'm pissing god cold that's coca-cola no bueno yeah

god cold that's coca-cola no bueno yeah no brain no son

no brain no son it was bad and my ex-wife was like

it was bad and my ex-wife was like [ __ ] and she's you know she's a nurse

[ __ ] and she's you know she's a nurse yeah and she called my mom up and mom

yeah and she called my mom up and mom had a her friend there was a was was a

had a her friend there was a was was a doctor friend of hers said hey

doctor friend of hers said hey you gotta give them to the doctor

you gotta give them to the doctor immediately and i was like hey you gotta

immediately and i was like hey you gotta give me that [ __ ] phone

give me that [ __ ] phone i gotta call up chris kaufman let him

i gotta call up chris kaufman let him know i did 100 miles so i get in the bad

know i did 100 miles so i get in the bad water

water it didn't go as like you know like i

it didn't go as like you know like i planned but i did get in the bad water

planned but i did get in the bad water after another race but um but didn't you

after another race but um but didn't you do a marathon like yes later so

do a marathon like yes later so basically i had never run a marathon

basically i had never run a marathon right i did the 100 mile race first no

right i did the 100 mile race first no training

training but i had signed up for the marathon

but i had signed up for the marathon because it's the first las vegas

because it's the first las vegas marathon running down the strip of las

marathon running down the strip of las vegas so las vegas had you know had a

vegas so las vegas had you know had a marathon but it's the first time it's

marathon but it's the first time it's going to go down the strip 2005 like hey

going to go down the strip 2005 like hey i'm gonna sign up for it i went on to

i'm gonna sign up for it i went on to iraq did you know the deployment and i

iraq did you know the deployment and i come back i'll be training for it and

come back i'll be training for it and i'll go do this race with my family me

i'll go do this race with my family me my ex-wife and my mom signed up for it

my ex-wife and my mom signed up for it so in iraq me and my boy

so in iraq me and my boy sledge in the book

sledge in the book we're just working out we're like we're

we're just working out we're like we're doing crazy workouts and my cardio was

doing crazy workouts and my cardio was 20 minutes

20 minutes every sunday on the elliptical trainer

every sunday on the elliptical trainer that's the only cardio i did

that's the only cardio i did so i called myself training for this

so i called myself training for this marathon right so then

marathon right so then you know my my boys got killed in in

you know my my boys got killed in in that incident that happened long

that incident that happened long survivor you know the whole operation

survivor you know the whole operation red wings

red wings so that's what prompted me to do the 100

so that's what prompted me to do the 100 mile race

mile race after the 100 mile race in november it

after the 100 mile race in november it was like two or three weeks later that

was like two or three weeks later that marathon that we all signed up for that

marathon that we all signed up for that i didn't train for i didn't train for

i didn't train for i didn't train for 100 miles didn't doing training off of

100 miles didn't doing training off of this

this like hey i'll drive there with you all

like hey i'll drive there with you all because i tried to run the day before

because i tried to run the day before like i can't even run

like i can't even run i can't run down the block so i didn't

i can't run down the block so i didn't do it

do it so we we're driving to the race i said

so we we're driving to the race i said hey mom my mom's going to walk it i said

hey mom my mom's going to walk it i said i'm going to walk it with you

i'm going to walk it with you my ex-wife i said you can go ahead and

my ex-wife i said you can go ahead and take off do your thing run your race i'm

take off do your thing run your race i'm gonna walk my mom

gonna walk my mom that gun went off

that gun went off and something [ __ ] happened

and something [ __ ] happened i took

i took i was like what i took up like a jack

i was like what i took up like a jack rabbit

rabbit gone i was like what the hell so

gone i was like what the hell so i re i was thinking the whole time i was

i re i was thinking the whole time i was like man i couldn't i spent a hundred

like man i couldn't i spent a hundred miles like three weeks ago like first

miles like three weeks ago like first time ever my i was peeing blood and

time ever my i was peeing blood and pissing [ __ ] on myself i go my body's

pissing [ __ ] on myself i go my body's broken my my achilles and my tendons and

broken my my achilles and my tendons and my feet are broken i go what is this

my feet are broken i go what is this and every time i started running further

and every time i started running further in front okay i got to the 10k

in front okay i got to the 10k i'm on boston marathon time because i

i'm on boston marathon time because i knew the boston marathon was like 3 10

knew the boston marathon was like 3 10 59 for my age i'm like hang on a second

59 for my age i'm like hang on a second and then i started using all this

and then i started using all this external [ __ ] for motivation like okay

external [ __ ] for motivation like okay who the [ __ ] can go out here and run a

who the [ __ ] can go out here and run a hundred miles no training

hundred miles no training like i'm broken most broken i've been in

like i'm broken most broken i've been in my life now i'm running a marathon who

my life now i'm running a marathon who could do it so i started just feeding

could do it so i started just feeding myself feeding myself i get to half the

myself feeding myself i get to half the mile

mile i'm about 30 seconds off the pace i say

i'm about 30 seconds off the pace i say hang on man your goggins

hang on man your goggins you can do this [ __ ] man and i started

you can do this [ __ ] man and i started feeding myself feeding myself feeding

feeding myself feeding myself feeding myself you can do this before i knew it

myself you can do this before i knew it man

man i kept talking to like the last six

i kept talking to like the last six miles and i was off the pace and i just

miles and i was off the pace and i just kicked it and that next thing i knew i

kicked it and that next thing i knew i did like a 308 and change i was like

did like a 308 and change i was like and that was like what the [ __ ]

and that was like what the [ __ ] what have i been leaving on the table

what have i been leaving on the table right i've been leaving so much on the

right i've been leaving so much on the [ __ ] table

[ __ ] table for pain like and that's when i started

for pain like and that's when i started like going crazy about the mind like

like going crazy about the mind like what the hell am i like what is up

what the hell am i like what is up like open these different doors of like

like open these different doors of like possibility in like what is humanly

possibility in like what is humanly possible what are we capable of like you

possible what are we capable of like you know people

know people i didn't even know i was just amazed by

i didn't even know i was just amazed by what i was able to do

what i was able to do by a simple fact of just reasoning

by a simple fact of just reasoning and working with pain and pain

and working with pain and pain management and

management and in my mind just kept on growing from

in my mind just kept on growing from there

there and it happened in hell week it happened

and it happened in hell week it happened a hundred mile race happened here it

a hundred mile race happened here it started just evolving into

started just evolving into what it is now to where now i'm like god

what it is now to where now i'm like god dawg man of mine we are leaving so much

dawg man of mine we are leaving so much on the table but people take me

on the table but people take me he cusses so much she sounds crazy

he cusses so much she sounds crazy don't listen all that [ __ ] man just just

don't listen all that [ __ ] man just just cut off the [ __ ]

cut off the [ __ ] cut the [ __ ] just get to the weeds

cut the [ __ ] just get to the weeds of that you are you are [ __ ] yourself

of that you are you are [ __ ] yourself up by not

up by not examining

examining your brain

your brain you're not examining your brain message

you're not examining your brain message it that's done

it that's done you examine your [ __ ] brain and that

you examine your [ __ ] brain and that takes some hard work and suffering

takes some hard work and suffering if you're not willing to do that i'm

if you're not willing to do that i'm sorry and it seems like there's no way

sorry and it seems like there's no way to do that as a bystander no you can't

to do that as a bystander no you can't watch it man yeah you gotta get out

watch it man yeah you gotta get out there like oh this hurts this hurts real

there like oh this hurts this hurts real [ __ ] bad

[ __ ] bad i don't think this is smart

i don't think this is smart and then guess what happens

and then guess what happens the body will adjust

the body will adjust it will adjust anybody goes well then

it will adjust anybody goes well then the next question i get but is there a

the next question i get but is there a time when it doesn't adjust

time when it doesn't adjust what the [ __ ]

what the [ __ ] i get some of the stupidest [ __ ] man

i get some of the stupidest [ __ ] man like don't don't take it with a grain of

like don't don't take it with a grain of [ __ ] salt people those questions are

[ __ ] salt people those questions are people that are wanting to quit yes yes

people that are wanting to quit yes yes and that's what i say when should i quit

and that's what i say when should i quit yeah like uh did you ever like feel like

yeah like uh did you ever like feel like no shut the [ __ ] up

no shut the [ __ ] up stop stop i don't want to like that

stop stop i don't want to like that there's always that next question

there's always that next question no don't take it like go out there and

no don't take it like go out there and run through a brick wall as many times

run through a brick wall as many times as you can no i'm not saying be me don't

as you can no i'm not saying be me don't run 205 miles at one time i'm not saying

run 205 miles at one time i'm not saying do that i'm saying start to learn the

do that i'm saying start to learn the mind is powerful

mind is powerful it's powerful man it's it's unbelievable

it's powerful man it's it's unbelievable but people need they need a thing to get

but people need they need a thing to get them going right they need a thing right

them going right they need a thing right they need a goal they need they need a

they need a goal they need they need a like it's

like it's sometimes the first step is the hardest

sometimes the first step is the hardest like it's hard to take that one million

like it's hard to take that one million step too but sometimes the first step is

step too but sometimes the first step is the most there's something about the

the most there's something about the what do i do

what do i do they start going over their phone

they start going over their phone they start calling people they don't get

they start calling people they don't get out of the house right

out of the house right and there's something about

and there's something about procrastination it's like you know it's

procrastination it's like you know it's painful you know you should be doing

painful you know you should be doing things but you just keep doing it you

things but you just keep doing it you keep itching that scab

keep itching that scab [Laughter]

[Laughter] i procrastinate like a [ __ ] man

i procrastinate like a [ __ ] man every day i'm gonna do this [ __ ]

that's what's so funny man people looking like i'm some damn superhero

looking like i'm some damn superhero that came down from the gods from the

that came down from the gods from the heavens of earth no man

heavens of earth no man i don't want to do this [ __ ]

i don't want to do this [ __ ] i'm looking at my shoes for 30 minutes

i'm looking at my shoes for 30 minutes sometimes thinking man

sometimes thinking man [ __ ] man people people look up to you

[ __ ] man people people look up to you goggins [ __ ] them i don't wanna do this

i'm like i wanna do this [ __ ] man but guess what you do it i'm gonna do it as

guess what you do it i'm gonna do it as long as you do it and that's what i know

long as you do it and that's what i know about it man that's why i stopped doing

about it man that's why i stopped doing i'm thinking oh man you're gonna [ __ ]

i'm thinking oh man you're gonna [ __ ] sit here you look at your shoes for 30

sit here you look at your shoes for 30 40 minutes

40 minutes you go you got to think about it all day

you go you got to think about it all day long and you go do it anyway and

long and you go do it anyway and sometimes you don't have the time to

sometimes you don't have the time to look at issues for 30 minutes no those

look at issues for 30 minutes no those are the those are the beautiful days yes

are the those are the beautiful days yes because you know you just have to go

because you know you just have to go that's right and so like there's no room

that's right and so like there's no room for procrastination and that's when i

for procrastination and that's when i was in the military i love my schedule

was in the military i love my schedule because i knew how to work at seven

because i knew how to work at seven o'clock so you better get your ass up at

o'clock so you better get your ass up at four o'clock man you get your [ __ ] in

four o'clock man you get your [ __ ] in brother cause i had to get my [ __ ] in

brother cause i had to get my [ __ ] in before i got my [ __ ] in right you know

before i got my [ __ ] in right you know so that was my mentality back then man

so that was my mentality back then man you know like i i had to

you know like i i had to get the miles and get everything in man

get the miles and get everything in man and

and and get to work man i'm uh competing

and get to work man i'm uh competing with the alpha males yeah but how much

with the alpha males yeah but how much did that piss other alpha males off that

did that piss other alpha males off that you were you were imposing a very high

you were you were imposing a very high bar i

i was a very misunderstood human being when i was in the military the air force

when i was in the military the air force guys liked me a lot the rangers liked me

guys liked me a lot the rangers liked me a lot

a lot so much not the seals because they were

so much not the seals because they were with you they they didn't like me so

with you they they didn't like me so much which is fine you know i i respect

much which is fine you know i i respect them i think a lot of them respect i've

them i think a lot of them respect i've have a lot of friends in the seal teams

have a lot of friends in the seal teams a lot of guys that like like-minded

a lot of guys that like like-minded mentalities as me

mentalities as me and once again i grew up and i got over

and once again i grew up and i got over it a lot of guys still have you know

it a lot of guys still have you know like a lot of people can't get over the

like a lot of people can't get over the fact of whatever when i became a seal

fact of whatever when i became a seal recruiter

recruiter a lot of guys thought i wasn't deploying

a lot of guys thought i wasn't deploying for a lot of reasons and whatnot and

for a lot of reasons and whatnot and they

they i heard a lot i was that guy who grinded

i heard a lot i was that guy who grinded i grinded hard

i grinded hard i mean i i grounded hard i was that guy

i mean i i grounded hard i was that guy who was up like if we went on an op or

who was up like if we went on an op or we had a

we had a work up let's say we had a work up we're

work up let's say we had a work up we're an island we're out there shooting guns

an island we're out there shooting guns and and doing land warfare and we did it

and and doing land warfare and we did it like one o'clock in the [ __ ] morning

like one o'clock in the [ __ ] morning most everybody go to sleep

most everybody go to sleep i didn't go to sleep i went to the gym

i didn't go to sleep i went to the gym and i worked out

and i worked out or i'd go sleep and i said we'd be up at

or i'd go sleep and i said we'd be up at five o'clock i was up at four o'clock

five o'clock i was up at four o'clock and got my hour in

and got my hour in i made sure to always do that

i made sure to always do that and i i did it to a point to where i

and i i did it to a point to where i think it pissed some people off because

think it pissed some people off because i i want a quiet person about it

i i want a quiet person about it you know i i uh

you know i i uh i want the most humble person always

i want the most humble person always you know so when you're around alpha

you know so when you're around alpha males

males um you're sometimes picking a fight

um you're sometimes picking a fight you know all the time and i looked

you know all the time and i looked different i acted different i was

different i acted different i was different i am different i take a lot of

different i am different i take a lot of pride in that

pride in that and so you know if if you didn't get

and so you know if if you didn't get after it i didn't respect you

after it i didn't respect you because i believe that you know where

because i believe that you know where where i'm at

where i'm at i i know that human potential is what we

i i know that human potential is what we have it's all we have is what we the the

have it's all we have is what we the the world sees us a certain way

world sees us a certain way and when i saw that people weren't doing

and when i saw that people weren't doing that i had a funky ass [ __ ] attitude

that i had a funky ass [ __ ] attitude and i i own it in my book i come back

and i i own it in my book i come back from ranger school a big time leader i

from ranger school a big time leader i was a big time [ __ ] leader i got

was a big time [ __ ] leader i got honor man out there i live by example

honor man out there i live by example and what i realized a lot of times when

and what i realized a lot of times when you're in these schools

you're in these schools these schools people want to graduate

these schools people want to graduate these schools because they suck they

these schools because they suck they don't want to ever go back to these

don't want to ever go back to these schools

schools those schools became my [ __ ] life

those schools became my [ __ ] life people don't want to see a [ __ ] god

people don't want to see a [ __ ] god that wants to go back to day one week

that wants to go back to day one week one a [ __ ] navy still training every

one a [ __ ] navy still training every [ __ ] day of your life and that's how

[ __ ] day of your life and that's how i live

i live and it's a disgusting human being that i

and it's a disgusting human being that i can be

it is and a lot of people didn't like me a lot of [ __ ] people started some

a lot of [ __ ] people started some stupid [ __ ] and started saying this and

stupid [ __ ] and started saying this and that the bottom line man is my [ __ ]

that the bottom line man is my [ __ ] resume says it all man

resume says it all man my resume is out there google the

my resume is out there google the [ __ ] you say whatever you want

[ __ ] you say whatever you want to say about me man

to say about me man i i i miss some deployments man for

i i i miss some deployments man for having [ __ ] you know two heart

having [ __ ] you know two heart surgeries and

surgeries and people trying to start some rumors [ __ ]

people trying to start some rumors [ __ ] on me man you started rumors [ __ ] on me

on me man you started rumors [ __ ] on me man because i [ __ ] got the [ __ ] after

man because i [ __ ] got the [ __ ] after it and real hard guys

it and real hard guys like a guy named hawk i talked to all

like a guy named hawk i talked to all the time

the time yeah

yeah he's a great friend of mine when the

he's a great friend of mine when the hardest my first

hardest my first before my heart surgery my second heart

before my heart surgery my second heart surgery i went on a 10 mile wreck around

surgery i went on a 10 mile wreck around before my second heart rate the day of

before my second heart rate the day of it

it i went on a 10 mile work on 50 pounds

i went on a 10 mile work on 50 pounds i saw that guy he's like what the [ __ ]

i saw that guy he's like what the [ __ ] are you doing out here he got heart

are you doing out here he got heart surgeon it's roger that brother

surgeon it's roger that brother i'm getting it in before i'll be out for

i'm getting it in before i'll be out for about six months after the heart surgery

about six months after the heart surgery that was my mentality because i started

that was my mentality because i started realizing at a young age

realizing at a young age when i was leaving on the table

when i was leaving on the table and once i found out what a human

and once i found out what a human being's capable of

being's capable of i didn't know how to control that

i didn't know how to control that i was i was a [ __ ] talk about [ __ ]

i was i was a [ __ ] talk about [ __ ] savage

savage that's what i was i was a [ __ ]

that's what i was i was a [ __ ] straight up people talk about savage

straight up people talk about savage very lightly

very lightly i was [ __ ] from the back woods

i was [ __ ] from the back woods [ __ ] savage dude you know and

[ __ ] savage dude you know and and i just i was just i was

and i just i was just i was i told you what i thought i i had eight

i told you what i thought i i had eight chips on my shoulder

chips on my shoulder i um

i um and a lot of times that wasn't great so

and a lot of times that wasn't great so is it a situation where like with the

is it a situation where like with the seals where once you've gotten through

seals where once you've gotten through buds and once you've gotten through all

buds and once you've gotten through all the physically grueling parts of

the physically grueling parts of getting to be accepted once you're in

getting to be accepted once you're in then you were imposing standards that

then you were imposing standards that they didn't want to

they didn't want to they didn't want to keep up with i i

they didn't want to keep up with i i would say some people you know i i had

would say some people you know i i had uh i had one platoon that i had a

uh i had one platoon that i had a problem with you know like i like i i i

problem with you know like i like i i i graduated ranger school and i got in

graduated ranger school and i got in this platoon and i didn't see i don't

this platoon and i didn't see i don't know i was in charge of a pt program

know i was in charge of a pt program and you put me in charge of the pt

and you put me in charge of the pt program it's [ __ ] your ass

program it's [ __ ] your ass and the thing about it i didn't like it

and the thing about it i didn't like it either i didn't i didn't want to do this

either i didn't i didn't want to do this [ __ ] either man but what were you making

[ __ ] either man but what were you making them do like you know like i it was it

them do like you know like i it was it was some maybe it was some bud [ __ ] you

was some maybe it was some bud [ __ ] you know we went back to buzz like you know

know we went back to buzz like you know long peak tees and carrying logs over

long peak tees and carrying logs over the berms and [ __ ] and like i had us do

the berms and [ __ ] and like i had us do like pull-ups rope climbs pull up like

like pull-ups rope climbs pull up like for like a [ __ ] hour so imagine doing

for like a [ __ ] hour so imagine doing a rope climb then go do like 10 to 15

a rope climb then go do like 10 to 15 pull-ups coming back

pull-ups coming back and we would do like these they were

and we would do like these they were very hard workouts like there was no

very hard workouts like there was no like go to the gym lift some weights

like go to the gym lift some weights type of [ __ ]

type of [ __ ] and i was imposing

and i was imposing my own mentality on everybody these are

my own mentality on everybody these are grown ass [ __ ] men they know you know

grown ass [ __ ] men they know you know they don't want to be what i'm trying to

they don't want to be what i'm trying to make them to be

make them to be and when they called me off

and when they called me off like hey you know we're not in sealed

like hey you know we're not in sealed you know we're not in buds anymore

you know we're not in buds anymore goggins it pissed me off

goggins it pissed me off and i uh and i got a little [ __ ]

and i uh and i got a little [ __ ] attitude got my chip and i got my ball

attitude got my chip and i got my ball and

and me me and sledge went ahead and started

me me and sledge went ahead and started to work out together

to work out together and we developed this like me and sleds

and we developed this like me and sleds work out like [ __ ] girl animals and

work out like [ __ ] girl animals and we had this [ __ ] mentality of [ __ ]

we had this [ __ ] mentality of [ __ ] yeah we're getting answered every day

yeah we're getting answered every day and everybody's kind of did their own

and everybody's kind of did their own thing man

thing man and i just that's when i started looking

and i just that's when i started looking at people you know not just but people

at people you know not just but people very differently man cause i bit into

very differently man cause i bit into like

like you know like to be the special operator

you know like to be the special operator you gotta be have broken legs and these

you gotta be have broken legs and these guys all those stories i was the same

guys all those stories i was the same guy man i i put people on a pedestal

guy man i i put people on a pedestal i put people like i could never be them

i put people like i could never be them i could never be that guy man never put

i could never be that guy man never put anybody on a pedestal that's what

anybody on a pedestal that's what happened to me i put him on a pedestal

happened to me i put him on a pedestal once i got up there with him and i saw

once i got up there with him and i saw him and once again not everybody some

him and once again not everybody some hard [ __ ] out there dude period

hard [ __ ] out there dude period dot hard [ __ ]

dot hard [ __ ] i thought every [ __ ] was hard

i thought every [ __ ] was hard hey

hey hey

hey uncommon amongst uncommon men

uncommon amongst uncommon men that's all it was about for me man and i

that's all it was about for me man and i took it to another level and i pissed a

took it to another level and i pissed a lot of [ __ ] off

lot of [ __ ] off and they were trying to find chinks in

and they were trying to find chinks in my armor then they were they were trying

my armor then they were they were trying to find chinks in the armor

to find chinks in the armor you know all he does is run

you know all he does is run all he does is [ __ ] run

all he does is [ __ ] run that's why you know but once again i

that's why you know but once again i don't talk about the military too much

don't talk about the military too much like i said the air force loved me

like i said the air force loved me the army guys i work with love me the

the army guys i work with love me the ranger school all that stuff love me you

ranger school all that stuff love me you know i wasn't you know it's just what it

know i wasn't you know it's just what it is man it's uh i was part of the navy

is man it's uh i was part of the navy seals

seals i was a i was a team guy

i was a i was a team guy but i wasn't part of the brotherhood

but i wasn't part of the brotherhood and that's just me man that's just me it

and that's just me man that's just me it ain't saying nothing bad about them i

ain't saying nothing bad about them i got a lot of love for a lot of them

got a lot of love for a lot of them love them a lot ain't got love for me

love them a lot ain't got love for me but i'm gonna talk bad about them it's

but i'm gonna talk bad about them it's just i'm different that's something i

just i'm different that's something i figured out i'm different from everybody

figured out i'm different from everybody in the [ __ ] world

in the [ __ ] world and i had to own that and say you know

and i had to own that and say you know what man you made a lot of [ __ ]

what man you made a lot of [ __ ] mistakes being it's uh

mistakes being it's uh being who you are

being who you are and i should have been more of a leader

and i should have been more of a leader at times but a lot of times a lot of

at times but a lot of times a lot of people should have been a little bit

people should have been a little bit harder too

harder too so was it that some of those guys just

so was it that some of those guys just didn't want to work as hard or was it

didn't want to work as hard or was it just that they were they weren't

just that they were they weren't appreciating how competitive you were

appreciating how competitive you were you were always against them is that

you were always against them is that what it was that it didn't foster the

what it was that it didn't foster the sense of brotherhood because you were

sense of brotherhood because you were more like come on [ __ ]

more like come on [ __ ] i i i didn't really call them [ __ ]

i i i didn't really call them [ __ ] but you could look at my face and how i

but you could look at my face and how i looked at you

looked at you and you know you can you can kind of say

and you know you can you can kind of say this you know so what happens i started

this you know so what happens i started developing this like this separation

developing this like this separation another thing about me too man i don't

another thing about me too man i don't go out

go out i don't party i don't hang out with the

i don't party i don't hang out with the guys i don't you know so

guys i don't you know so i was always forming this kind of

i was always forming this kind of separation i'm a big time introvert you

separation i'm a big time introvert you know i do my job

know i do my job and i don't want to see your [ __ ] ass

and i don't want to see your [ __ ] ass again i'm gonna go home refresh and

again i'm gonna go home refresh and we'll see you again you know you're in a

we'll see you again you know you're in a platoon with these guys for two two

platoon with these guys for two two years sometimes year and a half

years sometimes year and a half and i would you know we work up do our

and i would you know we work up do our [ __ ] and i i'm just i'm just a different

[ __ ] and i i'm just i'm just a different [ __ ] cat i'm a different cat man like

[ __ ] cat i'm a different cat man like i uh

i uh you know i just i i think differently i

you know i just i i think differently i i believe differently

i believe differently um

um and i i believe strongly what i believe

and i i believe strongly what i believe in well some people must appreciate the

in well some people must appreciate the fact that you were self-motivated and

fact that you were self-motivated and that you were pushing the envelope that

that you were pushing the envelope that you were pushing the pace you were

you were pushing the pace you were setting a high bar yeah i have a lot of

setting a high bar yeah i have a lot of guys right now within the community a

guys right now within the community a lot of a lot of guys once again this is

lot of a lot of guys once again this is like

like it's like a big soap opera sometimes man

it's like a big soap opera sometimes man when you know when we when you're in a

when you know when we when you're in a fraternity like that that's what it's

fraternity like that that's what it's like man so i had to get a different

like man so i had to get a different vantage point look at it and see like

vantage point look at it and see like you know a lot of guys did respect who i

you know a lot of guys did respect who i was and what i did

was and what i did and um i i brought it [ __ ] hard a lot

and um i i brought it [ __ ] hard a lot and every day

and every day but i also rub people the wrong way

but i also rub people the wrong way i'm like that itch you're talking about

i'm like that itch you're talking about i'm like that itch

i'm like that itch you want to scratch the [ __ ] out my ass

you want to scratch the [ __ ] out my ass no sir

no sir you wanna just like [ __ ] this dude man

you wanna just like [ __ ] this dude man i love what you talked about

i love what you talked about when you ran the marathon you realize

when you ran the marathon you realize how much you were leaving on the table

how much you were leaving on the table because that is um

because that is um i mean i think

i mean i think the the unfulfilled potential is the

the the unfulfilled potential is the story of most people's lives

story of most people's lives it is

it is it is it and it could have been the

it is it and it could have been the story of mine

story of mine and i tell a lot of people people go

and i tell a lot of people people go what's your biggest fear in life

and my biggest fear honestly was let's say this let's say uh i don't care

let's say this let's say uh i don't care if you believe in god or not i don't

if you believe in god or not i don't care so this let's just play a game with

care so this let's just play a game with me let's say let's say you're god

me let's say let's say you're god and we have a big [ __ ] long line of

and we have a big [ __ ] long line of people and i made to heaven 75 years old

people and i made to heaven 75 years old i'm 300 pounds i made heaven i worked

i'm 300 pounds i made heaven i worked for ecolab my entire life praying for

for ecolab my entire life praying for cockroaches that's what i did

cockroaches that's what i did but i'm dead i'm in heaven now and you

but i'm dead i'm in heaven now and you are at you're you're judging us all now

are at you're you're judging us all now so we're in line we're all sitting there

so we're in line we're all sitting there in line

in line you have

you have adam brown

adam brown he has a big board up and you're talking

he has a big board up and you're talking to adam brown about his life

to adam brown about his life and you rip it down and i'm next in line

and you rip it down and i'm next in line david goggins

david goggins i see my name and i see all this [ __ ]

i see my name and i see all this [ __ ] and god goes hey you say read this man

and god goes hey you say read this man and i'm reading this list and i'm seeing

and i'm reading this list and i'm seeing 182 pounds

182 pounds navy seal ranger school

navy seal ranger school motivational speaker changing lives

motivational speaker changing lives okay man pull up record all this [ __ ]

okay man pull up record all this [ __ ] and i'm like

and i'm like that's not me man

that's not me man and god looks at me and says that's who

and god looks at me and says that's who you were supposed to be

you were supposed to be and my biggest fear i i visualize some

and my biggest fear i i visualize some crazy [ __ ] my biggest fear is that one

crazy [ __ ] my biggest fear is that one day i want to reach a judgment of my

day i want to reach a judgment of my life

life someone something is going to judge me

someone something is going to judge me what the [ __ ] i was supposed to be in

what the [ __ ] i was supposed to be in life

life and

and what i want now is that whoever's

what i want now is that whoever's judging me whatever judge me up there

judging me whatever judge me up there i want them to have a board

i want them to have a board and them up there right now

and them up there right now getting their pin out

getting their pin out because you know this person who judges

because you know this person who judges supposed to know everything supposed to

supposed to know everything supposed to know from the time you're dead the time

know from the time you're dead the time you're you know you know time you're

you're you know you know time you're born time you're dead i want this person

born time you're dead i want this person up there to be like this up there

up there to be like this up there writing more about me saying [ __ ] i know

writing more about me saying [ __ ] i know i know you could do that i i know you

i know you could do that i i know you can do that so i want to impress

can do that so i want to impress whatever the [ __ ] is up there whatever's

whatever the [ __ ] is up there whatever's going on in life i want to go up there

going on in life i want to go up there and not have anything left on the table

and not have anything left on the table i want to i want to drain my soul of

i want to i want to drain my soul of every [ __ ] bit

every [ __ ] bit of person i am now how do you plan on

of person i am now how do you plan on doing that but going forward in the

doing that but going forward in the future do you have a plan yeah so what i

future do you have a plan yeah so what i did i i believe in going back to scratch

did i i believe in going back to scratch so a lot of us like right now i've i've

so a lot of us like right now i've i've come a long way in my life i've had to

come a long way in my life i've had to grow up a lot except a lot of the

grow up a lot except a lot of the [ __ ] things i've done in my life i'd

[ __ ] things i've done in my life i'd accept a lot i took all this information

accept a lot i took all this information big database took it all

big database took it all so what got me to be where i'm at today

so what got me to be where i'm at today is data

is data i collect even more data now which way i

i collect even more data now which way i can write this book which i can tell

can write this book which i can tell people hey

people hey you know i [ __ ] have a lot of faults

you know i [ __ ] have a lot of faults i have a mentality that can sometimes

i have a mentality that can sometimes rub people all this [ __ ]

rub people all this [ __ ] so how you get better is so right now

so how you get better is so right now i'm way up here now i was way down here

i'm way up here now i was way down here but what makes you way up here is

but what makes you way up here is being from way down here so i love going

being from way down here so i love going back i called so when i was growing up

back i called so when i was growing up for like three years

for like three years so from time i was eight to time i was

so from time i was eight to time i was like 12

like 12 we live in a seven dollar a month place

we live in a seven dollar a month place and what i call it is i'm always paying

and what i call it is i'm always paying rent

rent in that seven dollar a month home

in that seven dollar a month home every day of my life i go back and

every day of my life i go back and revisit that place because that place

revisit that place because that place made me

made me this geranimal that place made me this

this geranimal that place made me this hard man and then from that place so

hard man and then from that place so that that place is hard work

that that place is hard work that place is going back to the

that place is going back to the fundamentals of life the fundamentals

fundamentals of life the fundamentals what made david gaga's david goggins

what made david gaga's david goggins going back in there going back to the

going back in there going back to the going back to the library of david

going back to the library of david goggins studying even more than what i

goggins studying even more than what i know taking that out going back to where

know taking that out going back to where i'm at now and then moving forward

i'm at now and then moving forward so i believe in always taking steps

so i believe in always taking steps backwards to to your roots we we cannot

backwards to to your roots we we cannot forget the roots and what made us the

forget the roots and what made us the geranimal we can never become civilized

geranimal we can never become civilized isn't it granite that like little kids

isn't it granite that like little kids clothes it's a little kid's clothes but

clothes it's a little kid's clothes but i love the word

i love the word i love his clothes or drinks

i don't know his clothes or drinks man but something like that

but something like that so

so when when you when you're living like

when when you when you're living like right now like what kind of goals are

right now like what kind of goals are you setting and how how are you how are

you setting and how how are you how are you how are you feeding that beast

you how are you feeding that beast inside of you how are you calming all

inside of you how are you calming all that down

that down stretching helped a lot you know so when

stretching helped a lot you know so when you wire yourself up so much yoga

you wire yourself up so much yoga yoga and stretching has really helped me

yoga and stretching has really helped me to like

to like you want to be quiet in your mind

you want to be quiet in your mind to see where you want to go because

to see where you want to go because noise

noise is the ultimate kryptonite

is the ultimate kryptonite too much noise in your mind you're not

too much noise in your mind you're not going to be focused on what the task at

going to be focused on what the task at hand is it's one of the things that i

hand is it's one of the things that i found like long cardio so the best thing

found like long cardio so the best thing ever for calming that noise yes we all

ever for calming that noise yes we all talked about that all the guys that i

talked about that all the guys that i did that sober october thing with the

did that sober october thing with the fitness challenge that like if you work

fitness challenge that like if you work out five hours a day you don't give a

out five hours a day you don't give a [ __ ] no it's it's amazing i'm like if

[ __ ] no it's it's amazing i'm like if you could take that and put it in a pill

you could take that and put it in a pill form how you feel about life after you

form how you feel about life after you work out five hours yep you don't give a

work out five hours yep you don't give a [ __ ] nothing bothers you like nothing

[ __ ] nothing bothers you like nothing you

you nothing because you've struggled true my

nothing because you've struggled true my fiancee right now it's like hey i got

fiancee right now it's like hey i got xyz i'm like i'll take you she's like

xyz i'm like i'll take you she's like what you won't look at shoes i'll take

what you won't look at shoes i'll take you like what i'm like i just worked out

you like what i'm like i just worked out for four hours man

for four hours man i [ __ ] sit down this [ __ ]

i [ __ ] sit down this [ __ ] chair all day long son yeah yeah i'm

chair all day long son yeah yeah i'm chill it's different yeah i i get all

chill it's different yeah i i get all that [ __ ] out i ring the rag out in the

that [ __ ] out i ring the rag out in the morning time and whatever you want to do

morning time and whatever you want to do i'm here man most people never get there

i'm here man most people never get there though no they always have that chatter

though no they always have that chatter always it was negative anger the guy who

always it was negative anger the guy who cut you off yesterday oh yeah all day

cut you off yesterday oh yeah all day still on your head yep all day long man

still on your head yep all day long man chatter challenge

chatter challenge maybe i should do this maybe i should

maybe i should do this maybe i should have done that i should never let that

have done that i should never let that guy get away with that exactly i should

guy get away with that exactly i should have done this i should have taken that

have done this i should have taken that job oh i should have moved i should have

job oh i should have moved i should have stuck with her

stuck with her all that

all that that was me man yeah that was my people

that was me man yeah that was my people yeah why don't people like me

yeah why don't people like me amazing that that long cardio just calms

amazing that that long cardio just calms that chatter like that though yes like i

that chatter like that though yes like i i never uh until october i've never

i never uh until october i've never really done long cardio every day it

really done long cardio every day it beats that testosterone up man beats

beats that testosterone up man beats everything up yeah that test you're like

everything up yeah that test you're like [ __ ] done yeah you're cool yeah

[ __ ] done yeah you're cool yeah you're cool man it's not just that it's

you're cool man it's not just that it's like it's i always talk about people's

like it's i always talk about people's brains that i think that the the way

brains that i think that the the way people's minds work that we're like a

people's minds work that we're like a battery that's like leaking out it's

battery that's like leaking out it's like since we don't use it because we

like since we don't use it because we have all this potential we don't use it

have all this potential we don't use it like it oozes off the top of the batter

like it oozes off the top of the batter and it gets messy right it's going down

and it gets messy right it's going down the sides of the battery it's all [ __ ]

the sides of the battery it's all [ __ ] up but when you just drain that [ __ ]

up but when you just drain that [ __ ] like nature intended like give you the

like nature intended like give you the potential to run away from predators

potential to run away from predators avoid invading tribes and to fight and

avoid invading tribes and to fight and gather and hunt and all the physical

gather and hunt and all the physical potential that your body is capable of

potential that your body is capable of when you do drain it with like a 10 mile

when you do drain it with like a 10 mile run or right long cardio session long

run or right long cardio session long workout session

workout session then you can just be you it's the great

then you can just be you it's the great purge man the purge it's the purge you

purge man the purge it's the purge you purge all that [ __ ] demon [ __ ] out

purge all that [ __ ] demon [ __ ] out man all the evil

man all the evil evil can't stay in a 10 mile run bro

evil can't stay in a 10 mile run bro it's going to get leaked right the [ __ ]

it's going to get leaked right the [ __ ] out it does it gets pounded out pound it

out it does it gets pounded out pound it out yeah but you could see things clean

out yeah but you could see things clean more clearly and that is only available

more clearly and that is only available through effort i mean maybe it's

through effort i mean maybe it's available through meditation i don't

available through meditation i don't know but i feel like there's a different

know but i feel like there's a different thing that's available through effort

thing that's available through effort because there's also a satisfaction of

because there's also a satisfaction of accomplishment oh yeah effort's huge man

accomplishment oh yeah effort's huge man it means everything

it means everything because you gotta feel good about

because you gotta feel good about yourself now what do you do you plan out

yourself now what do you do you plan out your future

your future i do so i'm very go so i have that

i do so i'm very go so i have that accountability mirror but i also plan on

accountability mirror but i also plan on all my small big time you know medium

all my small big time you know medium goals all these things i have to do in

goals all these things i have to do in life

life i'm a big planner

i'm a big planner i'm a big planner

i'm a big planner so you know right now i'm going back to

so you know right now i'm going back to scratch so i'm trying to be wildland

scratch so i'm trying to be wildland firefighter you know i did that for a

firefighter you know i did that for a couple seasons you're gonna do that now

couple seasons you're gonna do that now yeah so i did it for i did it for two

yeah so i did it for i did it for two not not full season but but two half

not not full season but but two half seasons so this year was my second year

seasons so this year was my second year doing it i had to i had to um stop about

doing it i had to i had to um stop about two months before it ended because of

two months before it ended because of this book

this book to start promoting the book and start

to start promoting the book and start finishing the book up but i've been

finishing the book up but i've been doing the opportunity that's some

doing the opportunity that's some [ __ ] work man

[ __ ] work man those [ __ ] guys get after what made

those [ __ ] guys get after what made you decide to do that

you decide to do that the work you know like when your hands

the work you know like when your hands stop becoming really calloused

stop becoming really calloused it's time to get back to work

it's time to get back to work you know like i retired from the

you know like i retired from the military i did 21 years in the military

military i did 21 years in the military um the military was my life loved

um the military was my life loved everything about it the discipline of it

everything about it the discipline of it um there's something about going back in

um there's something about going back in the in the money you make is nil it's

the in the money you make is nil it's not about the money at all

not about the money at all it's just about the hard work i've

it's just about the hard work i've always been looking for those people

always been looking for those people like those guys like you're out there

like those guys like you're out there digging

digging a three mile fire line

a three mile fire line literally a three mile fire line you're

literally a three mile fire line you're cutting down these [ __ ] huge ass

cutting down these [ __ ] huge ass trees to dig this fire line

trees to dig this fire line and the fire line is like 20 to 18

and the fire line is like 20 to 18 inches

inches for three miles and you get like [ __ ]

for three miles and you get like [ __ ] 12 people digging this [ __ ]

12 people digging this [ __ ] and i'm thinking man this is some of the

and i'm thinking man this is some of the hardest [ __ ] work i've done in my

hardest [ __ ] work i've done in my life and it's that challenge that you

life and it's that challenge that you can't find sometimes by going to the gym

can't find sometimes by going to the gym or by running you know 100 mile race is

or by running you know 100 mile race is that it's that new challenge of like hey

that it's that new challenge of like hey and you get done digging

and you get done digging all right

all right you work 17 hours 16 17 hours

you work 17 hours 16 17 hours you get your [ __ ] little [ __ ]

you get your [ __ ] little [ __ ] sleeping mat out shack down boom right

sleeping mat out shack down boom right there on the floor right there on the

there on the floor right there on the ground get up dig some more

ground get up dig some more you know be out there two three weeks

you know be out there two three weeks sometimes man it's doing that [ __ ] and

sometimes man it's doing that [ __ ] and there's great satisfaction in the kind

there's great satisfaction in the kind of work that you do out there

of work that you do out there no one's watching no one gives a [ __ ]

no one's watching no one gives a [ __ ] it's hard dangerous [ __ ] work

it's hard dangerous [ __ ] work and you know you're doing it to help

and you know you're doing it to help [ __ ] out man you know how did you get

[ __ ] out man you know how did you get drawn into that

drawn into that so i got drawn into it because i was

so i got drawn into it because i was always looking for the next challenge

always looking for the next challenge and i was like hey what is there after

and i was like hey what is there after the military

the military like what the [ __ ] is there man i'm i'm

like what the [ __ ] is there man i'm i'm 43

43 um i'm getting back in shape you know

um i'm getting back in shape you know i'm [ __ ] getting these health issues

i'm [ __ ] getting these health issues taken care of that i had and

taken care of that i had and i started once again google is amazing

i started once again google is amazing [ __ ]

[ __ ] hardcore [ __ ] jobs you know pretty

hardcore [ __ ] jobs you know pretty much you know hard-ass [ __ ] you know

much you know hard-ass [ __ ] you know that's i found the horse you know like

that's i found the horse you know like the first race you know hardest races in

the first race you know hardest races in the world

the world so

so basically i started finding this

basically i started finding this wildland fire fight like what the [ __ ]

wildland fire fight like what the [ __ ] is wildland firefight started googling

is wildland firefight started googling that started googling smoke jumpers you

that started googling smoke jumpers you know i'm like what the [ __ ] these guys

know i'm like what the [ __ ] these guys do

do what they jump out of planes and attack

what they jump out of planes and attack small fires like that's the [ __ ] so i'm

small fires like that's the [ __ ] so i'm like okay okay we could put down a list

like okay okay we could put down a list and okay hot shots what's the hot shot

and okay hot shots what's the hot shot dude

dude they go out with you know big fires and

they go out with you know big fires and they dig fire line they i'm like [ __ ]

they dig fire line they i'm like [ __ ] with nick from that and i saw a video of

with nick from that and i saw a video of it like that [ __ ] looks like it sucks

it like that [ __ ] looks like it sucks it's hot you know there's lim you know i

it's hot you know there's lim you know i mean you're out there on your own i mean

mean you're out there on your own i mean you know you're out there on your own

you know you're out there on your own man just digging a fire line so that's

man just digging a fire line so that's kind of how i found it i'm always

kind of how i found it i'm always looking for the next challenge

looking for the next challenge i'm never satisfied with oh

i'm never satisfied with oh i did that like you know i became a seal

i did that like you know i became a seal i was an air force guy i became a seal i

i was an air force guy i became a seal i went to ranger school i tried out for

went to ranger school i tried out for delta force twice

delta force twice you know like i'm always looking for

you know like i'm always looking for what is next looking for those uncommon

what is next looking for those uncommon men

men and women uncommon people because i'm

and women uncommon people because i'm trying to i'm trying to grow

trying to i'm trying to grow i'm trying to grow

i'm trying to grow and a lot of times you know you don't be

and a lot of times you know you don't be the only person that's making yourself

the only person that's making yourself grow you're looking for those cameron

grow you're looking for those cameron haynes those joe rogan those people who

haynes those joe rogan those people who are like just different

are like just different people who understand what the [ __ ]

people who understand what the [ __ ] they're saying because a lot of things i

they're saying because a lot of things i have to say

have to say i can't say them all

i can't say them all i can't say them all you may not

i can't say them all you may not understand them so i had to really find

understand them so i had to really find a way to communicate with people so they

a way to communicate with people so they don't think oh my god like what what did

don't think oh my god like what what did you just say

you just say so these cameron haynes is these joe

so these cameron haynes is these joe work these people get it so i go in

work these people get it so i go in those little those little nucleus spots

those little those little nucleus spots get get a little more strength get a

get get a little more strength get a little more knowledge get a little more

little more knowledge get a little more tools

tools take those tools with me put in my tool

take those tools with me put in my tool shed

shed and i go off down you know down the road

and i go off down you know down the road on a new journey

on a new journey so that's what i do

so that's what i do well the proof is in the pudding if

well the proof is in the pudding if you're really doing woodland

you're really doing woodland firefighting because there's no glory in

firefighting because there's no glory in that no sir no there's no fame there's

that no sir no there's no fame there's no there's no one taking pictures of you

no there's no one taking pictures of you no and that paycheck is small son

no and that paycheck is small son i'mma [ __ ] make you wanna

i'mma [ __ ] make you wanna should i eat today yeah wow yeah there's

should i eat today yeah wow yeah there's there's nothing involved in that man

there's nothing involved in that man they worked their ass off so but you're

they worked their ass off so but you're just doing it as a challenge that's it

just doing it as a challenge that's it did they freak out when you're there you

did they freak out when you're there you know what i i think they're wondering

know what i i think they're wondering why is a 43 year old retired man

why is a 43 year old retired man you know

you know all the stuff you've done why are you

all the stuff you've done why are you out here yeah and i explain it to them

out here yeah and i explain it to them i'm out here i'm out here you know to to

i'm out here i'm out here you know to to learn from you all to grow

learn from you all to grow and also to never forget where i came

and also to never forget where i came from

from you know

you know that's where it starts

that's where it starts it's that mentality of i'm gonna pick up

it's that mentality of i'm gonna pick up that [ __ ] pulaski and i'm gonna dig

that [ __ ] pulaski and i'm gonna dig this [ __ ] fire line for three damn

this [ __ ] fire line for three damn miles

miles that's that mentality i never want to

that's that mentality i never want to lose i never want to get so nice oh yeah

lose i never want to get so nice oh yeah i did it man

i did it man i did it

i did it i did it i'm good

i did it i'm good that mentality of i'm willing to pick up

that mentality of i'm willing to pick up that shovel and i'm willing to dig a

that shovel and i'm willing to dig a three-mile line

three-mile line is th there's something about that

is th there's something about that mentality that i'm ready to go to work

mentality that i'm ready to go to work at any time and that's what keeps me

at any time and that's what keeps me those are the sparks like you know i

those are the sparks like you know i look at

look at motivation as just a spark it's like

motivation as just a spark it's like it's like kindling you know how how a

it's like kindling you know how how a big fire starts it starts with a little

big fire starts it starts with a little smoke it starts with a little cigarette

smoke it starts with a little cigarette being thrown in the woods next thing all

being thrown in the woods next thing all californians [ __ ] burn up

californians [ __ ] burn up that's what i've been doing my whole

that's what i've been doing my whole life is i find these little sparks

life is i find these little sparks and once that little thing takes off

and once that little thing takes off that's a that's a one hour fuel then

that's a that's a one hour fuel then you've got 10 hour fuel

you've got 10 hour fuel then you can move that thing to a 10 000

then you can move that thing to a 10 000 hour fuel

hour fuel these big logs and big trees that burn

these big logs and big trees that burn for days and that's where you want to

for days and that's where you want to bring that motivation that's where you

bring that motivation that's where you want to bring that drive so if you have

want to bring that drive so if you have no kingling the kindling is me going out

no kingling the kindling is me going out with these young guys saying all right

with these young guys saying all right [ __ ] you're 43. it's a 20 year

[ __ ] you're 43. it's a 20 year old keep up with them

old keep up with them that kindling now when i leave those

that kindling now when i leave those young guys it has now become that ten

young guys it has now become that ten hour fuel and now that ten thousand

hour fuel and now that ten thousand dollar fuel that i use throughout my

dollar fuel that i use throughout my whole life

whole life i use that there my whole life man hey

i use that there my whole life man hey this summer at 43 you went out there and

this summer at 43 you went out there and you did that man so you know you're not

you did that man so you know you're not giving up yet you're not done yet not

giving up yet you're not done yet not today you're not done today that's a

today you're not done today that's a crazy choice to make though woodland

crazy choice to make though woodland firefighter is a very interesting choice

firefighter is a very interesting choice it is

it is it is it's a nasty job man because again

it is it's a nasty job man because again that's

that's that's proof of concept

that's proof of concept like you're really just doing just for

like you're really just doing just for the struggle that's it is there other

the struggle that's it is there other things you considered like that

things you considered like that um so i will i apply for smoke jumping

um so i will i apply for smoke jumping this year

this year so i'll be out smoke jumping this year

so i'll be out smoke jumping this year you know god willing

you know god willing um

um that's where it's at now that that right

that's where it's at now that that right now is my next military

now is my next military that's my next military

that's my next military and that's it's always about human

and that's it's always about human growth it's not about money it's not

growth it's not about money it's not about money human growth that's the

about money human growth that's the biggest like i said my biggest trophy

biggest like i said my biggest trophy that's why i turn down 300 thousand

that's why i turn down 300 thousand dollars

dollars the biggest trophy in life is what i've

the biggest trophy in life is what i've learned like this brain if i could put

learned like this brain if i could put this brain in somebody's head and say

this brain in somebody's head and say here you go merry christmas

here you go merry christmas they'd be a happy person what i found

they'd be a happy person what i found out is that with no crowds

out is that with no crowds no one cheering for you

no one cheering for you no races no finish line

no races no finish line it's an amazing amazing thing i've

it's an amazing amazing thing i've learned in my mind by no one cheering

learned in my mind by no one cheering you on like

you on like like what that is is every morning i do

like what that is is every morning i do what i do

what i do i don't have a trainer waking me up

i don't have a trainer waking me up there's no one saying david you have to

there's no one saying david you have to do this

do this i don't have to do anything anymore i've

i don't have to do anything anymore i've done it

done it that's the beauty of all this knowing

that's the beauty of all this knowing that everything i talk about no one even

that everything i talk about no one even knows what the [ __ ] i'm doing every day

knows what the [ __ ] i'm doing every day and i know that i am grinding like a

and i know that i am grinding like a [ __ ] they see a one minute video

[ __ ] they see a one minute video let me run in or some [ __ ] hopefully

let me run in or some [ __ ] hopefully it motivates you merry christmas

it motivates you merry christmas dude

dude i'm out there for [ __ ] hours every

i'm out there for [ __ ] hours every [ __ ] day and no one sees what the

[ __ ] day and no one sees what the [ __ ] i'm doing

[ __ ] i'm doing no one it's a great beautiful thing man

no one it's a great beautiful thing man that is a beautiful thing about it right

that is a beautiful thing about it right that you really are just doing it for

that you really are just doing it for the benefits of it that's it that you

the benefits of it that's it that you have to do it that way it's not for show

have to do it that way it's not for show like there's a lot of people like you'll

like there's a lot of people like you'll see like they have a little video they

see like they have a little video they do on instagram like [ __ ] you are not

do on instagram like [ __ ] you are not doing that for very long you're going

doing that for very long you're going too fast that's it that's it this is not

too fast that's it that's it this is not real i got my one minute on yeah

real i got my one minute on yeah take now yeah

take now yeah yeah yeah exactly this is so much a

yeah yeah exactly this is so much a visit for show

visit for show i do enjoy those videos that you're

i do enjoy those videos that you're doing on instagram though we appreciate

doing on instagram though we appreciate these little motivational things i put

these little motivational things i put some of them up on my page i appreciate

some of them up on my page i appreciate it we posted it there's a those are

it we posted it there's a those are those are great man like would you are

those are great man like would you are you just like do you just get a thought

you just like do you just get a thought in your head while you're out there

in your head while you're out there running you just want to get it down

running you just want to get it down yeah so what i'll do is i my fiance does

yeah so what i'll do is i my fiance does all these videos man so god bless you

all these videos man so god bless you it's sometimes it'll be three o'clock in

it's sometimes it'll be three o'clock in the [ __ ] morning

the [ __ ] morning and i'll be working out and i said hey

and i'll be working out and i said hey wake the [ __ ] up i got some [ __ ] and

wake the [ __ ] up i got some [ __ ] and she's like what like hey man it came to

she's like what like hey man it came to me man i got some [ __ ] for these people

me man i got some [ __ ] for these people man so that's what happens like usually

man so that's what happens like usually when i'm working out

when i'm working out i get this great inspiration

i get this great inspiration i

i some people might think it's [ __ ]

some people might think it's [ __ ] but

but my my mind works best

my my mind works best under extreme pain and suffering like oh

under extreme pain and suffering like oh my god i want to be out here and that's

my god i want to be out here and that's when i'm going deep into the cellar of

when i'm going deep into the cellar of my mind and that's when all that

my mind and that's when all that gargoyle [ __ ] starts to come up man you

gargoyle [ __ ] starts to come up man you know what i'm saying

know what i'm saying and so

and so she gets called out all the time like

she gets called out all the time like hey

hey i'll run home and say hey get the car

i'll run home and say hey get the car meet me at 17th street because by that

meet me at 17th street because by that time i have all my [ __ ] together so

time i have all my [ __ ] together so that's how this happens man it's not

that's how this happens man it's not like a rehearse thing that's why

like a rehearse thing that's why sometimes i may post on monday usually

sometimes i may post on monday usually it's like every monday but sometimes

it's like every monday but sometimes it's tuesday sometimes it's thursday

it's tuesday sometimes it's thursday you know i and that's what i do i i'm

you know i and that's what i do i i'm trying to now give back to people

trying to now give back to people in a way that's real and authentic and

in a way that's real and authentic and just being me what is the response been

just being me what is the response been like like after you did the podcast the

like like after you did the podcast the first time what was the response like

first time what was the response like and what is the response like on social

and what is the response like on social media what was crazy man is that you are

media what was crazy man is that you are my usher and i'm [ __ ] bieber that's

my usher and i'm [ __ ] bieber that's the [ __ ] response man

the [ __ ] response man so your crowd um for some reason they

so your crowd um for some reason they they resonate with me they they

they resonate with me they they understand they they they get me

understand they they they get me and they they love the message

and they they love the message and

and like so if you put some [ __ ] up on

like so if you put some [ __ ] up on my site i i block and delete your ass

my site i i block and delete your ass this ain't this ain't a playground like

this ain't this ain't a playground like like my site i'm not [ __ ] around with

like my site i'm not [ __ ] around with you [ __ ] i want to give you

you [ __ ] i want to give you some tools that i learned if you want to

some tools that i learned if you want to take them take them if not merry

take them take them if not merry christmas i'll go on my merry way i

christmas i'll go on my merry way i don't care so if you go on there you

don't care so if you go on there you want to play around and you want to you

want to play around and you want to you know whether they called um those people

know whether they called um those people going inside troll [ __ ] ain't trying

going inside troll [ __ ] ain't trying my [ __ ] i'm going gonna block your

my [ __ ] i'm going gonna block your monkey ass off my [ __ ] quick

monkey ass off my [ __ ] quick i want so i i've been friends jamie yeah

i want so i i've been friends jamie yeah tell them so i've developed like a small

tell them so i've developed like a small community of people who can go in there

community of people who can go in there and it's not just me talking so people

and it's not just me talking so people have now joined in and they're i've seen

have now joined in and they're i've seen people lose 150 pounds on my site man

people lose 150 pounds on my site man like and they're writing about and

like and they're writing about and they're starting to break themselves

they're starting to break themselves down like i broke myself down they're

down like i broke myself down they're like hey i went through this i went

like hey i went through this i went through this divorce and this happened

through this divorce and this happened and i tried to kill myself it gets raw

and i tried to kill myself it gets raw and then people are now

and then people are now going on and commenting on their [ __ ]

going on and commenting on their [ __ ] saying hey keep it up do what you're

saying hey keep it up do what you're doing it's become like a big [ __ ]

doing it's become like a big [ __ ] like hey

like hey it's a community of people trying to

it's a community of people trying to [ __ ] get better and that's what it's

[ __ ] get better and that's what it's about man this ain't about the david

about man this ain't about the david goggins [ __ ] show

goggins [ __ ] show no man i'm mr kingly

no man i'm mr kingly you [ __ ] take this [ __ ] and let

you [ __ ] take this [ __ ] and let the [ __ ] burn

the [ __ ] burn also you probably need all these other

also you probably need all these other people out there grinding two for fuel

people out there grinding two for fuel oh man i want to know that's the thing

oh man i want to know that's the thing now like people go what motivates you

now like people go what motivates you now

now what motivation now is that there's over

what motivation now is that there's over 600 some odd thousand people

600 some odd thousand people looking at me saying

looking at me saying [ __ ] goggins is somewhere out

[ __ ] goggins is somewhere out there

there he's somewhere out there [ __ ] getting

he's somewhere out there [ __ ] getting after it and i am so you ain't never

after it and i am so you ain't never [ __ ] alone

[ __ ] alone i'm out there somewhere

i'm out there somewhere 600 some thousand people there's a

600 some thousand people there's a chance that when you're working out i

chance that when you're working out i don't care if you're in [ __ ]

don't care if you're in [ __ ] washington dc and i'm in nashville

washington dc and i'm in nashville there's a good chance at the same time

there's a good chance at the same time we're getting after it and i want people

we're getting after it and i want people to know that and it's the real deal we

to know that and it's the real deal we are getting after it together not no

are getting after it together not no like happy family [ __ ] but we're getting

like happy family [ __ ] but we're getting after it

after it you know yeah well that is that's giant

you know yeah well that is that's giant for people man that the sense of

for people man that the sense of community and to know that there's

community and to know that there's like-minded folks out there that are

like-minded folks out there that are also trying to improve they're trying to

also trying to improve they're trying to overcome their own demons get past their

overcome their own demons get past their own [ __ ] and squash their own

own [ __ ] and squash their own weaknesses callous up their own mind i

weaknesses callous up their own mind i love that

love that you know it's not time for some soft

you know it's not time for some soft [ __ ] it's not time for soft [ __ ] man

[ __ ] it's not time for soft [ __ ] man this isn't a [ __ ] playground don't

this isn't a [ __ ] playground don't come on my instagram facebook or twitter

come on my instagram facebook or twitter talking some [ __ ]

talking some [ __ ] come on if you want to if you want to

come on if you want to if you want to join the community and get hard

join the community and get hard and see what you're about don't talk

and see what you're about don't talk about rest you know how do you do it no

about rest you know how do you do it no let's [ __ ] stop thinking so much and

let's [ __ ] stop thinking so much and let's put the shoes on and get grinding

let's put the shoes on and get grinding you do get some of that though there's

you do get some of that though there's some comments that say you know this is

some comments that say you know this is terrible advice rest and recovery is the

terrible advice rest and recovery is the most important thing god

you ain't all my [ __ ] son you're not gonna last no my sight yeah i

you're not gonna last no my sight yeah i wanna hear that [ __ ] there's a lot of

wanna hear that [ __ ] there's a lot of people looking for built-in excuses they

people looking for built-in excuses they are man they are

are man they are they're looking for it but then there's

they're looking for it but then there's a lot of people also that are just

a lot of people also that are just really interested in

really interested in personal growth they're they're

personal growth they're they're interested in really finding out what

interested in really finding out what they're made of they're interested in

they're made of they're interested in improving their ability to toughen up

improving their ability to toughen up and discipline themselves and they're

and discipline themselves and they're looking they're looking for people like

looking they're looking for people like you and other people just add to that

you and other people just add to that momentum right once you get going it's

momentum right once you get going it's easier to keep going that's it man once

easier to keep going that's it man once you get going it's easier to keep

you get going it's easier to keep showing up it is it is you have to get

showing up it is it is you have to get past that hurdle yeah and once you get

past that hurdle yeah and once you get past it man you're flying and then you

past it man you're flying and then you see other people that are doing it too

see other people that are doing it too and you realize like this is a this is a

and you realize like this is a this is a movement there's a lot of other people

movement there's a lot of other people out there it is a movement yeah it is a

out there it is a movement yeah it is a movement well that's the thing that

movement well that's the thing that resonates with you i think about the

resonates with you i think about the audience of this podcast that i've had

audience of this podcast that i've had quite a few people on that have that

quite a few people on that have that same message and it resonates with

same message and it resonates with people because we're all trying to

people because we're all trying to improve ourselves no one's perfect nope

improve ourselves no one's perfect nope there's no i'm not perfect now i never

there's no i'm not perfect now i never will be you're not and you never will be

will be you're not and you never will be but you're better than you were

but you're better than you were yesterday and you're gonna be better

yesterday and you're gonna be better tomorrow that's the truth thing right

tomorrow that's the truth thing right there man that's that book says i am not

there man that's that book says i am not [ __ ] perfect man i had the balls to

[ __ ] perfect man i had the balls to now finally tell you all i am very

now finally tell you all i am very flawed but in that saying that you're

flawed but in that saying that you're very flawed and saying that you're very

very flawed and saying that you're very perfect you exhibit way more strength

perfect you exhibit way more strength than someone who bullshits and pretends

than someone who bullshits and pretends right someone who puts up some fake ass

right someone who puts up some fake ass [ __ ]

[ __ ] fake facade of perfection right of moral

fake facade of perfection right of moral integrity and growth and honesty and

integrity and growth and honesty and those people are a real problem because

those people are a real problem because it's exhausting

it's exhausting how the [ __ ]

how the [ __ ] i did it for a while i'm like i can't

i did it for a while i'm like i can't hey i'm [ __ ] up

hey i'm [ __ ] up i give up i quit i quit i quit i'm

i give up i quit i quit i quit i'm [ __ ] up i'm gonna tell you all i can't

[ __ ] up i'm gonna tell you all i can't do this anymore this is who i am but the

do this anymore this is who i am but the confidence of you of constantly grinding

confidence of you of constantly grinding and constantly putting in that work is

and constantly putting in that work is what leads you to be able to express

what leads you to be able to express yourself so honestly oh you're right i i

yourself so honestly oh you're right i i for the first time believe in david

for the first time believe in david goggins and i don't care who else

goggins and i don't care who else believes in me i don't care for the

believes in me i don't care for the first time in my life man i can tell you

first time in my life man i can tell you all my [ __ ] up [ __ ]

all my [ __ ] up [ __ ] and without lying that's powerful no

and without lying that's powerful no longer care

longer care that's powerful that see everybody could

that's powerful that see everybody could get to that then you do you don't have

get to that then you do you don't have any excuses because you don't need any

any excuses because you don't need any that's right you don't need anything

that's right you don't need anything none you don't like me merry christmas

none you don't like me merry christmas [ __ ]

[ __ ] kwanzaa keep moving that's it go yeah

kwanzaa keep moving that's it go yeah that's it good luck to you okay

that's it good luck to you okay exactly yeah we're all in this thing

exactly yeah we're all in this thing together

together yeah you got your own path you didn't

yeah you got your own path you didn't want us to stare at those shoes for 30

want us to stare at those shoes for 30 minutes

minutes every day

that's so true man that's so true so fire jumping and woodland

so fire jumping and woodland firefighting i didn't expect that i

firefighting i didn't expect that i didn't hear that coming yeah that's

didn't hear that coming yeah that's interesting man yep and what did you

interesting man yep and what did you have any other options that you were

have any other options that you were looking at before you dived into those

looking at before you dived into those you know what those are the first that

you know what those are the first that came up because i saw how hard it was

came up because i saw how hard it was you know like at 43 in these jobs like

you know like at 43 in these jobs like like in the military you're a dinosaur

like in the military you're a dinosaur time to retire and while in firefighting

time to retire and while in firefighting you know you start to move into these

you know you start to move into these desk jobs and that was the challenge of

desk jobs and that was the challenge of it you know i'm like i'm like a [ __ ]

it you know i'm like i'm like a [ __ ] rookie at 43. right so i'm like being

rookie at 43. right so i'm like being talked like a little [ __ ] so it takes a

talked like a little [ __ ] so it takes a lot for me you know i'm like yeah i've

lot for me you know i'm like yeah i've done some things man hang on now but i

done some things man hang on now but i have to now humble myself again right

have to now humble myself again right it's hard to humble yourself you got

it's hard to humble yourself you got some 21 year old little punk ass [ __ ]

some 21 year old little punk ass [ __ ] saying hey

saying hey pick up that [ __ ] and come on i'm like

pick up that [ __ ] and come on i'm like what what the [ __ ] you say i'm like you

what what the [ __ ] you say i'm like you know but i'm like okay god it's like

know but i'm like okay god it's like you're rookie man like so that's all the

you're rookie man like so that's all the training behind the mindset of it all

training behind the mindset of it all right is that

right is that you can't ever be the point you never

you can't ever be the point you never learn from people right you know you

learn from people right you know you have to always humble yourself and go

have to always humble yourself and go back to that yeah you know like right

back to that yeah you know like right now there's people listening this

now there's people listening this podcast like oh yeah you're great guys

podcast like oh yeah you're great guys no you ain't [ __ ] goggins

no you ain't [ __ ] goggins and that's the mindset i always want to

and that's the mindset i always want to have not like i'm not proud of myself

have not like i'm not proud of myself but you have to always keep that like i

but you have to always keep that like i want to keep that dog in me

want to keep that dog in me and i can't always know everything yeah

and i can't always know everything yeah well being a beginner at something is

well being a beginner at something is fantastic it's amazing being learning

fantastic it's amazing being learning new things is fantastic for everything

new things is fantastic for everything else so much growth in that have you do

else so much growth in that have you do you [ __ ] around with martial arts

you [ __ ] around with martial arts you know what

you know what i learned a little bit

i learned a little bit i've i've never gone crazy in it i've

i've i've never gone crazy in it i've never gone crazy i boxed a little bit

never gone crazy i boxed a little bit where do you live i live in nashville

where do you live i live in nashville there's a lot of jiu jitsu in nashville

there's a lot of jiu jitsu in nashville you should get involved in jiu jitsu you

you should get involved in jiu jitsu you would take like a duck to water i'll

would take like a duck to water i'll find you a spot

find you a spot yeah hook me up i'll find you a spot you

yeah hook me up i'll find you a spot you would you get obsessed with that [ __ ] oh

would you get obsessed with that [ __ ] oh god is that so yeah that's a

god is that so yeah that's a never-ending pile of [ __ ] tangled

never-ending pile of [ __ ] tangled bodies and strangled people here we go

bodies and strangled people here we go because it's something that you just get

because it's something that you just get better at all the time and there's no

better at all the time and there's no hiding right either you get choked or

hiding right either you get choked or you don't either you survive or you

you don't either you survive or you don't now i've been on a lot of ground

don't now i've been on a lot of ground i've been a lot of ground games man but

i've been a lot of ground games man but i've never really learned the skill sets

i've never really learned the skill sets yeah so it'd be nice to do that i'll

yeah so it'd be nice to do that i'll hook it up yeah please do i think you

hook it up yeah please do i think you would get obsessed with it the same way

would get obsessed with it the same way jack was obsessed with it same with a

jack was obsessed with it same with a lot of other

lot of other seals get obsessed with martial arts it

seals get obsessed with martial arts it would be nice to do it because it's also

would be nice to do it because it's also constant competition as well i mean you

constant competition as well i mean you can get into competition every single

can get into competition every single night of the week really and yeah

night of the week really and yeah absolutely and as a a guy who's just

absolutely and as a a guy who's just starting out you're going to be a white

starting out you're going to be a white belt you're going to get strangled a lot

belt you're going to get strangled a lot you want to choke the [ __ ] out

you want to choke the [ __ ] out from the beginning you're going to start

from the beginning you're going to start from the beginning 100

from the beginning 100 there's plenty of guys your size there's

there's plenty of guys your size there's plenty of guys that

plenty of guys that have been doing it for [ __ ] decades i

have been doing it for [ __ ] decades i know a lot of guys like to get their

know a lot of guys like to get their hands on me so i'll be good yeah oh

hands on me so i'll be good yeah oh goggins you're coming huh okay

goggins you're coming huh okay okay but it's also a good thing to have

okay but it's also a good thing to have the kind of cardio and endurance you

the kind of cardio and endurance you have too

have too yeah that's where i get people so i've

yeah that's where i get people so i've i've rolled with a lot of guys who have

i've rolled with a lot of guys who have skills

skills but the thing that i really have and i'm

but the thing that i really have and i'm not gonna brag on it man is i got a

not gonna brag on it man is i got a [ __ ] up cardio bass man

[ __ ] up cardio bass man i got a [ __ ] up cardio bass man and my

i got a [ __ ] up cardio bass man and my mentality is kind of [ __ ] up too yeah

mentality is kind of [ __ ] up too yeah so i realized that we're fighting that

so i realized that we're fighting that if you get a big cardio base and your

if you get a big cardio base and your mindset's [ __ ] up too

mindset's [ __ ] up too cardio is almost everything

cardio is almost everything skills skills are everything because a

skills skills are everything because a lot of guys with skills also have some

lot of guys with skills also have some cardio they have enough to [ __ ] you up

cardio they have enough to [ __ ] you up right but to have tremendous cardio

right but to have tremendous cardio with big skills is everything i see him

with big skills is everything i see him out there man dying yeah because so many

out there man dying yeah because so many guys started 100

guys started 100 but three minutes into the fight they're

but three minutes into the fight they're at 80. right you know five minutes into

at 80. right you know five minutes into the fight they're at 60. that's right

the fight they're at 60. that's right and then they recover for a minute they

and then they recover for a minute they come back but if you're if you are in

come back but if you're if you are in like a rolling session like when you

like a rolling session like when you roll you roll for nine minutes straight

roll you roll for nine minutes straight so you and this guy and you there's most

so you and this guy and you there's most of the time there's multiple taps right

of the time there's multiple taps right you'll tap him he'll tap you you tap

you'll tap him he'll tap you you tap each other but nine minutes man it is

each other but nine minutes man it is exhausting when that bell goes off the

exhausting when that bell goes off the last you know the the the bell for 30

last you know the the the bell for 30 seconds and you got 30 seconds left in

seconds and you got 30 seconds left in nine minutes and then dinging it's over

nine minutes and then dinging it's over you're like

you're like you're done and then you take a minute

you're done and then you take a minute off you find a new partner that's good

off you find a new partner that's good [ __ ] get back in there you'd love it it

[ __ ] get back in there you'd love it it sounds like a good grind yeah that's the

sounds like a good grind yeah that's the next grind right there you love it yeah

next grind right there you love it yeah you blacked out hey so long that take

you blacked out hey so long that take about if i went like this hard at it

about if i went like this hard at it it's hard to say because uh it depends

it's hard to say because uh it depends entirely upon how much emphasis you put

entirely upon how much emphasis you put on learning new techniques and rolling

on learning new techniques and rolling and drilling drilling is gigantic and

and drilling drilling is gigantic and that's the thing that people don't like

that's the thing that people don't like to do because jiu-jitsu is so fun people

to do because jiu-jitsu is so fun people like to just roll right because it's

like to just roll right because it's sparring is where it's at like i don't

sparring is where it's at like i don't want to do all those practice i want to

want to do all those practice i want to choke people right like i knew a few

choke people right like i knew a few things like do that okay and then i do

things like do that okay and then i do this

this okay let me get in there now you want

okay let me get in there now you want it's like a lot of uh jiu jitsu schools

it's like a lot of uh jiu jitsu schools they'll start out with like one or two

they'll start out with like one or two techniques and then you roll most of the

techniques and then you roll most of the class is just sparring right but the

class is just sparring right but the right way to do it really is to drill

right way to do it really is to drill way more than you spar okay you should

way more than you spar okay you should be drilling all the time and live

be drilling all the time and live drilling too like you start out where a

drilling too like you start out where a guy has your back ready go and then from

guy has your back ready go and then from there you got to try to escape and do it

there you got to try to escape and do it the right thing to try to use the right

the right thing to try to use the right technique to get out of that position or

technique to get out of that position or you'll start out

you'll start out uh with an arm bar but he's defending

uh with an arm bar but he's defending and you've got to figure out how to

and you've got to figure out how to extend it you know and those live drills

extend it you know and those live drills straight drills like technique drills

straight drills like technique drills and then live drills are i think even

and then live drills are i think even more important in the beginning

more important in the beginning to uh to to your personal development

to uh to to your personal development and growth as a jiu jitsu player than

and growth as a jiu jitsu player than even sparring but a guy like you who's

even sparring but a guy like you who's smart and tough and will go crazy

smart and tough and will go crazy [ __ ]

[ __ ] it shouldn't take that long

it shouldn't take that long it takes people i mean it depends on how

it takes people i mean it depends on how much you dedicate yourself to it right

much you dedicate yourself to it right right b.j penn got his black belt in

right b.j penn got his black belt in three years what yeah but it's crazy

three years what yeah but it's crazy he's bj penn he's up like

he's bj penn he's up like the prodigy for a reason right

the prodigy for a reason right right i had a conversation with him

right i had a conversation with him about it though it was really

about it though it was really interesting once

interesting once he uh he goes uh he was talking to some

he uh he goes uh he was talking to some other dude and the guy said uh i got my

other dude and the guy said uh i got my uh black belt at three years just like

uh black belt at three years just like you did bj and he's like wow man he goes

you did bj and he's like wow man he goes you must be good he goes no man he goes

you must be good he goes no man he goes i'm addicted just like you he goes you

i'm addicted just like you he goes you were addicted you're addicted and he's

were addicted you're addicted and he's like i never thought about it that way

like i never thought about it that way he goes yeah i'm addicted to jiu jitsu

he goes yeah i'm addicted to jiu jitsu it's like you're addicted like it takes

it's like you're addicted like it takes over your mind right it's everything

over your mind right it's everything your days are spent thinking about some

your days are spent thinking about some guy who triangled you this [ __ ]

guy who triangled you this [ __ ] how do you get me [ __ ]

how do you get me [ __ ] like i get that dude i got choked out

like i get that dude i got choked out ten years ago that i think about

ten years ago that i think about sometimes when i'm lifting i'll be tired

sometimes when i'm lifting i'll be tired and i'll think about a guy who caught me

and i'll think about a guy who caught me ten years i'm not like [ __ ] yeah just

ten years i'm not like [ __ ] yeah just that's what's great about life man is i

that's what's great about life man is i think about not being choked out by

think about not being choked out by thinking about a lot of [ __ ] like that

thinking about a lot of [ __ ] like that yeah little failures just keep you

yeah little failures just keep you pushing they grind on me like a

pushing they grind on me like a [ __ ] man and that's what you're

[ __ ] man and that's what you're talking about earlier too it's like the

talking about earlier too it's like the the the mind has these reserves you can

the the mind has these reserves you can trick it and pull them out yes these

trick it and pull them out yes these inspirational reserves like you did

inspirational reserves like you did when when you when you guys were going

when when you when you guys were going through buds yes we just found that

through buds yes we just found that trigger and then all of a sudden you

trigger and then all of a sudden you throw in that boat in the air the mind

throw in that boat in the air the mind always has the tactical advantage over

always has the tactical advantage over you

you why is that

why is that it knows your fears it knows your

it knows your fears it knows your insecurities it knows where they're

insecurities it knows where they're hiding you can't hide can't hide from

hiding you can't hide can't hide from that [ __ ] man

that [ __ ] man that [ __ ] has a tactical

that [ __ ] has a tactical advantage on you son that's gonna get

advantage on you son that's gonna get you man

you man it's a beast that might be your best

it's a beast that might be your best lesson right that your mind your mind

lesson right that your mind your mind knows everything you cannot hide from it

knows everything you cannot hide from it so don't ever try don't try you might as

so don't ever try don't try you might as well go ahead and beat that [ __ ]

well go ahead and beat that [ __ ] gotta keep going at it that's also what

gotta keep going at it that's also what you did in this book you didn't try to

you did in this book you didn't try to like

like paint yourself in a glamorous or

paint yourself in a glamorous or flattering way at any point in time you

flattering way at any point in time you were honest at every step of the way

were honest at every step of the way which i think is just gigantic for

which i think is just gigantic for people too because

people too because you can tell when someone's stroking

you can tell when someone's stroking themselves or bullshitting themselves

themselves or bullshitting themselves and the message just won't come through

and the message just won't come through right but this you're you come through

right but this you're you come through in this book you know like you who you

in this book you know like you who you are and what you became and how you

are and what you became and how you became who you are and who you used to

became who you are and who you used to be and why you were the way you used to

be and why you were the way you used to be all that comes through it's like

be all that comes through it's like there's no filter this is just your your

there's no filter this is just your your thoughts like you what you remember

thoughts like you what you remember about your life and what you think about

about your life and what you think about right now just all comes out onto the

right now just all comes out onto the pages hardest thing i've done my entire

pages hardest thing i've done my entire life

life i'm imagining i have [ __ ] i don't

i'm imagining i have [ __ ] i don't know how people buy this book

know how people buy this book then i walk up to people people walk up

then i walk up to people people walk up to me i'm like what are you thinking

to me i'm like what are you thinking about [ __ ]

about [ __ ] hey thinking about me peeing in the bed

hey thinking about me peeing in the bed you [ __ ]

you [ __ ] what are you thinking about oh

what are you thinking about oh that's hilarious i know right like you

that's hilarious i know right like you like are you thinking about me opening

like are you thinking about me opening it up yeah you know all about me hey how

it up yeah you know all about me hey how about you [ __ ]

about you [ __ ] tell me something about you

tell me something about you that's what people love right when they

that's what people love right when they know some [ __ ] about you you don't know

know some [ __ ] about you you don't know nothing about them i don't know about

nothing about them i don't know about nobody that's anonymous trolls that's it

nobody that's anonymous trolls that's it man and they get at me they come oh

man and they get at me they come oh there's a lot of those

there's a lot of those but that they're all doing that to

but that they're all doing that to themselves they don't even understand

themselves they don't even understand when you do that you're doing it to

when you do that you're doing it to yourself right if you are attacking

yourself right if you are attacking someone because you know that they have

someone because you know that they have a weakness but you're pretending you

a weakness but you're pretending you don't have one you are attacking

don't have one you are attacking yourself you are chipping away your own

yourself you are chipping away your own personal sovereignty

personal sovereignty chipping away at your own respect so

chipping away at your own respect so true man can't respect yourself you know

true man can't respect yourself you know you're a [ __ ] but that's what happened

you're a [ __ ] but that's what happened though joe to me i started looking at

though joe to me i started looking at people realizing

people realizing i know something about you

because they don't want to talk about it right i already know it yeah if you're

right i already know it yeah if you're talking [ __ ] about me yeah

talking [ __ ] about me yeah i know you're [ __ ] up yeah that's what

i know you're [ __ ] up yeah that's what all these cats that come out right now

all these cats that come out right now who don't like me whatever i'm like

who don't like me whatever i'm like really man that [ __ ] happened 30 [ __ ]

really man that [ __ ] happened 30 [ __ ] years ago 15 years ago you still you're

years ago 15 years ago you still you're still [ __ ] up about that

still [ __ ] up about that oh man i know something about you

oh man i know something about you brother see i get over everything i'm

brother see i get over everything i'm good

good it's it's water under the [ __ ] bridge

it's it's water under the [ __ ] bridge it's a grind it's the the grind does

it's a grind it's the the grind does that that's it

that that's it you're not grinding harder if if you're

you're not grinding harder if if you're worried about something that someone did

worried about something that someone did to you years ago

to you years ago you're being a [ __ ] to yourself man not

you're being a [ __ ] to yourself man not getting out there and squeezing that

getting out there and squeezing that [ __ ] soul out every day yeah if you

[ __ ] soul out every day yeah if you grind hard man i got time to worry about

grind hard man i got time to worry about your monkey ass

your monkey ass i i got to tell me about you man because

i i got to tell me about you man because tomorrow

tomorrow i gotta go back to the grind

i gotta go back to the grind and tomorrow i go back to the grind

and tomorrow i go back to the grind again and again and again and again i

again and again and again and again i don't have time to put you into the hate

don't have time to put you into the hate bank there's no hate it's all filtered

bank there's no hate it's all filtered out man through the grind people don't

out man through the grind people don't get it there's there's great joy in the

get it there's there's great joy in the grind the great jordan to suffer it

grind the great jordan to suffer it totally cleanses your body out man of

totally cleanses your body out man of any kind of hate makes you grow up

any kind of hate makes you grow up it's also the being honest about it

it's also the being honest about it every step of the way the way you are in

every step of the way the way you are in this book and the way you are the way

this book and the way you are the way you talk about things you're not not

you talk about things you're not not trying to paint yourself in a flattering

trying to paint yourself in a flattering way no it it forces you to continue to

way no it it forces you to continue to perform right by exposing all the [ __ ]

perform right by exposing all the [ __ ] that you used to do by exposing your

that you used to do by exposing your procrastination your your slips your f

procrastination your your slips your f your fallings you're falling back down

your fallings you're falling back down and getting fat again all that stuff it

and getting fat again all that stuff it forces you to be consistent like you

forces you to be consistent like you know you did it today you know you did

know you did it today you know you did it today do you know you're going to be

it today do you know you're going to be able to do it tomorrow well you have to

able to do it tomorrow well you have to you have to know that you have to know

you have to know that you have to know and that's my biggest fear man is that i

and that's my biggest fear man is that i know

know i can slip

i can slip everybody goes man

everybody goes man you're not permanent

you're not permanent [ __ ]

[ __ ] no one's permanent almost [ __ ]

no one's permanent almost [ __ ] permanent that's why people that have

permanent that's why people that have accomplished great things and then want

accomplished great things and then want to talk about those great things to the

to talk about those great things to the end of time and not do anything anymore

end of time and not do anything anymore no they're [ __ ] themselves that's it

no they're [ __ ] themselves that's it those people that are looking for that

those people that are looking for that golden age they're looking for that

golden age they're looking for that holding hands and walking off into the

holding hands and walking off into the sunset the credits roll that doesn't

sunset the credits roll that doesn't exist

exist it's not tattooed man it's not real i

it's not tattooed man it's not real i thought it was tattoos i was like [ __ ]

thought it was tattoos i was like [ __ ] i'm slipping

i'm slipping i'm like what i put all this repetition

i'm like what i put all this repetition i'm still slipping

i'm still slipping can't take a day off man

can't take a day off man can't take a day off man

no days can't take a day off seven days a week

a week i i get after but see the thing about i

i i get after but see the thing about i do active recovery right okay so what's

do active recovery right okay so what's what's a light active recovery day you

what's a light active recovery day you say seven days seven miles is normal an

say seven days seven miles is normal an easy six mile run that's active recovery

easy six mile run that's active recovery at a low low heart rate i look like i'm

at a low low heart rate i look like i'm walking

walking i'm out to like a [ __ ] 9 30 10 minute

i'm out to like a [ __ ] 9 30 10 minute mile heart rates real low i'm really big

mile heart rates real low i'm really big into the heart rate training man it's

into the heart rate training man it's amazing

amazing so it makes you a machine

so it makes you a machine it makes you a machine man how so it

it makes you a machine man how so it won't work it trains your heart

won't work it trains your heart in a way that

in a way that the way i was able to run these 100-mile

the way i was able to run these 100-mile races like i was able to do it was off a

races like i was able to do it was off a heart rate

heart rate so if you go at 80

so if you go at 80 for me for the longest time it's like

for me for the longest time it's like 100 like 147 heart rate 148 to 152 right

100 like 147 heart rate 148 to 152 right around in there if i maintain that man

around in there if i maintain that man i'm in that

i'm in that i'm burning that nice fat storage

i'm burning that nice fat storage and that body wants to utilize that and

and that body wants to utilize that and it wants to burn that nice and slow and

it wants to burn that nice and slow and you're never getting that heart rate up

you're never getting that heart rate up or high you can get the heart rate for

or high you can get the heart rate for high it takes a lot to recover from that

high it takes a lot to recover from that and the higher it goes the longer it

and the higher it goes the longer it takes for it to come down when i stayed

takes for it to come down when i stayed at 145 146 147 heart rate for a long

at 145 146 147 heart rate for a long time when i get done running it will go

time when i get done running it will go back under 100 within two or three

back under 100 within two or three minutes

minutes and that's what you want you want that

and that's what you want you want that quick recovery

quick recovery so quick recovery means that your body's

so quick recovery means that your body's right on point and i look at my at my

right on point and i look at my at my heart rate in the morning time it's

heart rate in the morning time it's using the 30s if it's like 45 46 47 i'm

using the 30s if it's like 45 46 47 i'm over trained easy day

over trained easy day easy day means zone one zone one means

easy day means zone one zone one means i'm just going real light today

i'm just going real light today so i train every day because why as a as

so i train every day because why as a as my mind and as a human we're supposed to

my mind and as a human we're supposed to move

move every day i'm supposed to move and i'm

every day i'm supposed to move and i'm not saying get after it every day get

not saying get after it every day get after me just do something every day

after me just do something every day right

right ride a bike like if you're real tired

ride a bike like if you're real tired from working out hard ride an easy bike

from working out hard ride an easy bike spin and as you're spinning

spin and as you're spinning take in your fluids

take in your fluids rehydrate your body as you're acting

rehydrate your body as you're acting because that's the best way to rehydrate

because that's the best way to rehydrate your body

your body and like taking a carbohydrate drink

and like taking a carbohydrate drink it gets all that good carbs you start to

it gets all that good carbs you start to glycogen store your body again for the

glycogen store your body again for the next day

next day so as you're doing active stuff that

so as you're doing active stuff that blood's flowing nice active blood flow

blood's flowing nice active blood flow the nice active blood flow helps the

the nice active blood flow helps the recovery process

recovery process along with drinking some some like

along with drinking some some like endurance drink or some carbohydrate

endurance drink or some carbohydrate drink it gets all that glycogen through

drink it gets all that glycogen through the system back to the muscles loads

the system back to the muscles loads them back up again

them back up again ready to fight another war tomorrow what

ready to fight another war tomorrow what do you use for a heart rate monitor i

do you use for a heart rate monitor i used to use polar for a long time

used to use polar for a long time um and i kind of still use polar now is

um and i kind of still use polar now is it a wrist one or a chest it's a chest

it a wrist one or a chest it's a chest strap it's a nice cheap little chest

strap it's a nice cheap little chest strap and now i'm at a point now where i

strap and now i'm at a point now where i know

know i only do my heart rate in the morning

i only do my heart rate in the morning time i don't even wear it when i run

time i don't even wear it when i run anymore do you check it with the strap

anymore do you check it with the strap in the morning or yeah your finger check

in the morning or yeah your finger check the strap so you wake up you just put

the strap so you wake up you just put the strap on before you get out of bed

the strap on before you get out of bed put the strap on your body

put the strap on your body you don't first thing you do

you don't first thing you do put a strap on or

put a strap on or do your finger whatever one you can do

do your finger whatever one you can do you don't have a strap do your finger

you don't have a strap do your finger know what your average heart rate is you

know what your average heart rate is you know your resting heart rate and then

know your resting heart rate and then from there if it's a little bit high a

from there if it's a little bit high a little elevated you know you can't go

little elevated you know you can't go off into that zone three zone four

off into that zone three zone four training day you gotta keep it at zone

training day you gotta keep it at zone two or zone one

two or zone one so it's all about the heart rate the the

so it's all about the heart rate the the resin heart rate so when you use it uh

resin heart rate so when you use it uh the chest trap does it register on an

the chest trap does it register on an application on a phone like how do you

application on a phone like how do you read it on the watch on a watch is it a

read it on the watch on a watch is it a smart watch or is a polar watch it's a

smart watch or is a polar watch it's a polar watch so it's a watch that shows

polar watch so it's a watch that shows you the heart rate that's reading off of

you the heart rate that's reading off of the strap exactly that's all it does and

the strap exactly that's all it does and so when you say zone ones this is these

so when you say zone ones this is these are the things that you've created zone

are the things that you've created zone ones onto the no these are like zones

ones onto the no these are like zones that um that's you know whoever created

that um that's you know whoever created this like like the heart rate zone

this like like the heart rate zone training

training so basically what i did in

so basically what i did in what's helped me out so much is

what's helped me out so much is my zone two training runs used to be 8

my zone two training runs used to be 8 30.

30. okay so that was my pace at like uh 140

okay so that was my pace at like uh 140 mile yep 830 mile

mile yep 830 mile through stretching

through stretching and getting my body opened up

and getting my body opened up my zone two run now is about a seven

my zone two run now is about a seven twenty one seven eighteen seven nineteen

twenty one seven eighteen seven nineteen so you cut a minute off just by opening

so you cut a minute off just by opening up your range of motion up my range of

up your range of motion up my range of motion wow unbelie at the same exact

motion wow unbelie at the same exact heart rate so my stride if people look

heart rate so my stride if people look at videos of me like years ago when i

at videos of me like years ago when i was first doing my first bad water look

was first doing my first bad water look i was scooting i had like it was so

i was scooting i had like it was so tight i looked i was this this very

tight i looked i was this this very rigid runner

rigid runner now i actually run

now i actually run you know everything was so tight

you know everything was so tight everything was like kind of like forming

everything was like kind of like forming in i was like kind of like like my knees

in i was like kind of like like my knees and my joints just going inward and now

and my joints just going inward and now everything's right you know where it

everything's right you know where it needs to be at and i have a nice long

needs to be at and i have a nice long nice stride do you run on the street are

nice stride do you run on the street are you the most part for the most part i'm

you the most part for the most part i'm always traveling

always traveling so the best thing you do you got your

so the best thing you do you got your running shoes you get your [ __ ] you just

running shoes you get your [ __ ] you just go out and run but i i try to hit the

go out and run but i i try to hit the trails you know some dirt as much as

trails you know some dirt as much as possible yeah so this is really good for

possible yeah so this is really good for your body but now my body is like

your body but now my body is like [ __ ] it's like [ __ ] like iron

[ __ ] it's like [ __ ] like iron i mean it it it can take some beating

i mean it it it can take some beating now when you when you run have you ever

now when you when you run have you ever [ __ ] with those uh barefoot running

[ __ ] with those uh barefoot running shoes or minimalism no no

shoes or minimalism no no hell no hell no you know what like look

hell no hell no you know what like look honestly i don't know many people who

honestly i don't know many people who have been

have been i just don't believe in it i don't

i just don't believe in it i don't believe in it i've i was born with shoes

believe in it i've i was born with shoes wearing shoes my whole [ __ ] life i'm

wearing shoes my whole [ __ ] life i'm not

not you know i'm black but i'm not from

you know i'm black but i'm not from africa you know

africa you know so

so i'm not down man i'm not down dear ever

i'm not down man i'm not down dear ever read the science behind it yeah the idea

read the science behind it yeah the idea of like using all the muscles on your

of like using all the muscles on your feet yeah i read the science behind it i

feet yeah i read the science behind it i also read sometimes [ __ ] have

also read sometimes [ __ ] have broken feet and [ __ ]

broken feet and [ __ ] i read that too but minimalist shoes on

i read that too but minimalist shoes on trails aren't bad yeah they're not i'm

trails aren't bad yeah they're not i'm not doing it no no no i will break my oh

not doing it no no no i will break my oh my god man i'm running those things all

my god man i'm running those things all the time really so so you like them yeah

the time really so so you like them yeah i it would kill me but i tell you what i

i it would kill me but i tell you what i ran in uh fat tires yesterday under

ran in uh fat tires yesterday under armour fat tire which is like a cushiony

armour fat tire which is like a cushiony ass shoe you like it and i was like it

ass shoe you like it and i was like it was so easy it's like it's like those

was so easy it's like it's like those hocus

hocus whatever no no uh under armour has these

whatever no no uh under armour has these fat tires it's basically like uh a bmx

fat tires it's basically like uh a bmx tire track i think it's even made by a

tire track i think it's even made by a tire company makes the tread

tire company makes the tread yeah man it's like it's got a mush to it

yeah man it's like it's got a mush to it and you you're running these things man

and you you're running these things man you could run over see the thing about

you could run over see the thing about those five finger barefoot shoes right

those five finger barefoot shoes right i like running those but you got to look

i like running those but you got to look where you're stepping you can't step on

where you're stepping you can't step on any hard rocks game yeah over you'll

any hard rocks game yeah over you'll [ __ ] up your foot yeah quick because

[ __ ] up your foot yeah quick because it's like it's going to go right in your

it's like it's going to go right in your foot it's a tiny little thin so i went

foot it's a tiny little thin so i went from those to vivos vivo barefoot shoes

from those to vivos vivo barefoot shoes that's what it looks like

that's what it looks like so when you run on those [ __ ] that is

so when you run on those [ __ ] that is a cushiony glorious

a cushiony glorious padding like when you when you hit the

padding like when you when you hit the ground it's like smooshy smooshy smush i

ground it's like smooshy smooshy smush i had the other ones jamie the ones with

had the other ones jamie the ones with the boa it's because it just like got

the boa it's because it just like got that little click one that you just

that little click one that you just pulled up yeah like those so it's like

pulled up yeah like those so it's like you twist it with that that's how you

you twist it with that that's how you tighten it up with that little boa uh

tighten it up with that little boa uh adjuster thing it's like a got a thread

adjuster thing it's like a got a thread through it so you don't have to lace it

through it so you don't have to lace it or anything like that you just slip them

or anything like that you just slip them on and pop that sucker down i like to

on and pop that sucker down i like to feel the ground a little bit when i run

feel the ground a little bit when i run yeah you're barely feeling [ __ ] with

yeah you're barely feeling [ __ ] with those yeah

those yeah that's clown yeah but i like it it's

that's clown yeah but i like it it's gotta be good for your joints

gotta be good for your joints my joints didn't bother me at all

my joints didn't bother me at all yesterday which is crazy like after a

yesterday which is crazy like after a good solid run because most of what i'm

good solid run because most of what i'm running is hills right like pretty steep

running is hills right like pretty steep and it's great my ass and leg's never

and it's great my ass and leg's never been what do you weigh right now 200

been what do you weigh right now 200 yeah you're thick dude man yeah so for

yeah you're thick dude man yeah so for me the pounding of the

me the pounding of the you know the the constant pounding with

you know the the constant pounding with the feet to the ground it is uh it's

the feet to the ground it is uh it's it's rough on the ankles it's rough on

it's rough on the ankles it's rough on you know the the joints but i don't feel

you know the the joints but i don't feel it at all with those fat tires it was

it at all with those fat tires it was smooshy like i i got done running i felt

smooshy like i i got done running i felt like i cheated

like i cheated i did i felt like wow this is so much

i did i felt like wow this is so much easier the cloud shoes yeah this just

easier the cloud shoes yeah this just real cushioning and cam's always said

real cushioning and cam's always said that he runs with those a lot oh does he

that he runs with those a lot oh does he yeah he's run with a bunch of those like

yeah he's run with a bunch of those like he's like because he runs so many

he's like because he runs so many [ __ ] miles he was running a marathon

[ __ ] miles he was running a marathon a day

a day like pretty much every day i did that

like pretty much every day i did that for a while bad bad bad i was

for a while bad bad bad i was sh

sh my god i got wired in doing that [ __ ]

my god i got wired in doing that [ __ ] man what is this right here

man what is this right here so this is

so this is this is when i ran um i ran 150 mile

this is when i ran um i ran 150 mile trail race

trail race so the year before

so the year before i did the same race it's 150 mile trail

i did the same race it's 150 mile trail race i did it in i think around uh 40

race i did it in i think around uh 40 hours and i had to walk the last 60

hours and i had to walk the last 60 miles kind of i i had pneumonia here we

miles kind of i i had pneumonia here we go yeah

go yeah and then i told the race director

and then i told the race director hey [ __ ] i'm coming back here

hey [ __ ] i'm coming back here next year and i'm breaking the course

next year and i'm breaking the course record i went back and then like 32

record i went back and then like 32 hours

hours wow same race

wow same race wow

wow now no when you 33 hours so when you're

now no when you 33 hours so when you're running what what shoes do you use

running what what shoes do you use right now i'm wearing brooks and i also

right now i'm wearing brooks and i also wear um asics so it just depends on you

wear um asics so it just depends on you know what kind of train i'm in where i'm

know what kind of train i'm in where i'm at stuff like that for trails what do

at stuff like that for trails what do you what run for trails i actually for

you what run for trails i actually for the longest time i wore a street running

the longest time i wore a street running shoe

shoe really for trails yeah for the longest

really for trails yeah for the longest time how come because first of all my

time how come because first of all my body was so messed up the only shoe i

body was so messed up the only shoe i could ever wear was this brooks

could ever wear was this brooks addiction and i hate even giving brooks

addiction and i hate even giving brooks credit right now because back in the day

credit right now because back in the day they wouldn't help a brother out i was

they wouldn't help a brother out i was running so many miles yeah so brooks i'm

running so many miles yeah so brooks i'm not trying to i'm not promoting brooks

not trying to i'm not promoting brooks right now

right now yeah merry christmas on that one

yeah merry christmas on that one i caught him up a million times hey man

i caught him up a million times hey man can i get like a discount or some [ __ ]

can i get like a discount or some [ __ ] hang up nobody nothing so but they do

hang up nobody nothing so but they do have a good shoe

have a good shoe and i uh and i and it was not good pr

and i uh and i and it was not good pr horrible pr man you know what i'm saying

horrible pr man you know what i'm saying like you know so

like you know so but um yeah i love their shoe the only

but um yeah i love their shoe the only thing i could wear was that brook's

thing i could wear was that brook's addiction because my my bio mechanics

addiction because my my bio mechanics was so messed up i tried so many

was so messed up i tried so many different shoes and and that was a so i

different shoes and and that was a so i can now wear a neutral shoe so how i

can now wear a neutral shoe so how i used to run and very few people know

used to run and very few people know this i used to have heel wedges

this i used to have heel wedges inserts heel wedges and

inserts heel wedges and get compression tape

get compression tape because my body was pushed so far in

because my body was pushed so far in from being so tight in my hip flexors

from being so tight in my hip flexors that so how i got such bad stress

that so how i got such bad stress fractures

fractures was my bio mechanical there's a picture

was my bio mechanical there's a picture of my toe in there because my my toes

of my toe in there because my my toes just jammed in front of my shoes because

just jammed in front of my shoes because my whole body just got this

my whole body just got this like bent in so you when you're saying

like bent in so you when you're saying bent in for people just listening you're

bent in for people just listening you're if your hands are flat on a table you're

if your hands are flat on a table you're turning the outside of your hands in up

turning the outside of your hands in up so that your thumbs are going down those

so that your thumbs are going down those are my so yeah so that's those big toes

are my so yeah so that's those big toes right going down or going down and into

right going down or going down and into the shoe and the outside of your foot

the shoe and the outside of your foot was up was above it right so what i had

was up was above it right so what i had to do to run because i was like god i

to do to run because i was like god i got stress fractures all the time

got stress fractures all the time and my feet were so [ __ ] up sometimes

and my feet were so [ __ ] up sometimes you see that with people's shoes like

you see that with people's shoes like how they're worn out worn out worn out

how they're worn out worn out worn out on the sideways example like a wedge

on the sideways example like a wedge right can you look at it from behind

right can you look at it from behind this crazy yeah that was my shoe so i

this crazy yeah that was my shoe so i had to get a heel wedge

had to get a heel wedge to keep my heel from going down got

to keep my heel from going down got severe tendonitis in the back of my

severe tendonitis in the back of my ankle

ankle actually you had to make it thicker on

actually you had to make it thicker on one side that's right just to force on

one side that's right just to force on the inside flat right so the inside i

the inside flat right so the inside i had to push up and i had to get

had to push up and i had to get compression tape so it was compression

compression tape so it was compression tape heel wedges

tape heel wedges and an insert

and an insert and that's how i ran every [ __ ] day

and that's how i ran every [ __ ] day did you go to a running coach or

did you go to a running coach or anything did you i don't know

but didn't you want to know what you were doing wrong you know what man that

were doing wrong you know what man that was part of that garanimal mindset man

was part of that garanimal mindset man [ __ ] it man i'm supposed to be broken

[ __ ] it man i'm supposed to be broken you know

you know but then

but then i got smarter as time went and said oh

i got smarter as time went and said oh man this is some painful [ __ ] running

man this is some painful [ __ ] running 100 mile races with this kind of

100 mile races with this kind of tendinitis and my feet being [ __ ] up

tendinitis and my feet being [ __ ] up it was so painful

it was so painful so i was like you know what so then

so i was like you know what so then after i started stretching

after i started stretching i was like my god all this was from

i was like my god all this was from having a tight i got so massive my god i

having a tight i got so massive my god i was i was in all these different

was i was in all these different contraptions

contraptions and now i just wear normal running shoes

and now i just wear normal running shoes wow yeah so i went from

wow yeah so i went from being contraptioned up man

being contraptioned up man like literally contraption up so it's

like literally contraption up so it's all just the stretching that opened up

all just the stretching that opened up the range of motion

the range of motion now when people talk about range of

now when people talk about range of motion they don't understand how tight i

motion they don't understand how tight i was like no one understands like when

was like no one understands like when you repeatedly

you repeatedly do what i was doing to myself

do what i was doing to myself and you were born with the stress i was

and you were born with the stress i was born under

born under like i hate i can't paint a clear it's

like i hate i can't paint a clear it's it's pretty clear in the book

it's pretty clear in the book man

man my life was bad the stress i endured on

my life was bad the stress i endured on a daily i had two people

a daily i had two people and my body was proof of literally

and my body was proof of literally what my life was doing to me it

what my life was doing to me it literally was

literally was knotted all my muscles up because i was

knotted all my muscles up because i was always under this fight or flight you

always under this fight or flight you know my my dad had made me so [ __ ]

know my my dad had made me so [ __ ] scared of [ __ ]

scared of [ __ ] you know to to unwind this [ __ ]

you know to to unwind this [ __ ] man was like

man was like it was it was it was a hard task you

it was it was it was a hard task you know i it was a hard it was a hard task

know i it was a hard it was a hard task man so it's a lot of times it's not just

man so it's a lot of times it's not just all the hard training no but it's also

all the hard training no but it's also the mind the mind because think about it

the mind the mind because think about it man when you're under stress

man when you're under stress that hip flexor that that psoas muscle

that hip flexor that that psoas muscle which is attached to your t12

which is attached to your t12 that that's the only muscle that

that that's the only muscle that attaches your lower body to your upper

attaches your lower body to your upper body

body and that's the muscle that's that's your

and that's the muscle that's that's your fight or flight whenever you get nervous

fight or flight whenever you get nervous or scared or something like that that

or scared or something like that that [ __ ] was tightened up i mean i

[ __ ] was tightened up i mean i mean your whole body is

mean your whole body is i lived in that like almost fetal

i lived in that like almost fetal position in my mind

position in my mind for so many years

for so many years so i was always on this like tight-knit

so i was always on this like tight-knit tension [ __ ] guy

tension [ __ ] guy but i walked around like i'm some cool

but i walked around like i'm some cool here's my new hairstyle

here's my new hairstyle pants are sagging i'm a cool dude man

pants are sagging i'm a cool dude man right but that was another costume the

right but that was another costume the costume wore every day yeah got tired of

costume wore every day yeah got tired of running that [ __ ] man next

running that [ __ ] man next costume i want you to be in is a jiu

costume i want you to be in is a jiu jitsu guy with a white belt on i'm going

jitsu guy with a white belt on i'm going to send you a picture man i got it i

to send you a picture man i got it i know you're listening to the picture i

know you're listening to the picture i know you're gonna cause i already

know you're gonna cause i already planted that oh my god i know it's

planted that oh my god i know it's bouncing around yeah it is it is i'm

bouncing around yeah it is it is i'm gonna set it up nashville i know there's

gonna set it up nashville i know there's some places out there nashville holler

some places out there nashville holler at me

at me oh trust me

oh trust me i'm sure they will we'll find you a spot

i'm sure they will we'll find you a spot we'll have a funny spot um listen man

we'll have a funny spot um listen man this book is [ __ ] fantastic i'm

this book is [ __ ] fantastic i'm halfway in i can't wait to finish it and

halfway in i can't wait to finish it and uh just thank you thank you for the

uh just thank you thank you for the inspiration thank you for being so

inspiration thank you for being so honest and expressing yourself i

honest and expressing yourself i appreciate the [ __ ] out joe appreciate

appreciate the [ __ ] out joe appreciate you brother thanks again thank you

you brother thanks again thank you bye everybody

bye everybody man thanks a lot brother

man thanks a lot brother thank you so much

thank you so much [Music]

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