0:02 What if I told you that your addiction
0:05 is not a curse, but a language, a secret
0:07 way in which God speaks to his chosen
0:10 ones? Carl Jung made a discovery so
0:12 shocking that religion could never
0:15 accept it. Addiction is not simply human
0:17 weakness. It is the whisper of a higher
0:20 force trying to awaken something buried
0:23 deep within the soul. You see, while
0:25 most people see addiction as punishment,
0:27 Jung understood it as a spiritual
0:30 dialogue. The endless craving, the
0:32 obsession, the guilt, the cycle of
0:34 falling and rising again. None of it is
0:37 random. It is how God communicates with
0:40 those he intends to transform.
0:42 Every addiction carries a message, a
0:45 hidden code meant only for those strong
0:47 enough to face it. Alcohol, lust,
0:50 control, ambition, pain, they are not
0:52 accidents. They are symbols of hunger
0:54 pointing to what your soul has
0:56 forgotten. And only those marked by
0:58 divine purpose experience this inner
1:01 fire so intensely. Do you ever feel
1:03 trapped by your own desires yet unable
1:06 to let them go? That paradox is the
1:09 proof because Jung found that the more
1:12 you fight what you crave, the further
1:14 you move from what it's trying to teach
1:17 you. Addiction is not here to destroy
1:20 you. It's here to reveal you. God speaks
1:22 through the storm of your compulsions,
1:24 through the urges you don't understand.
1:26 He speaks in the silence after every
1:29 fall when you can't recognize yourself
1:31 anymore because that's the moment he
1:34 begins to reshape you. So before you
1:37 condemn your addiction, listen. It may
1:40 be the most personal conversation you've
1:42 ever had with God, one that can only be
1:45 heard by souls chosen to awaken. There
1:47 is a hunger inside you that nothing
1:50 seems to satisfy. You try to fill it
1:52 with substances, with people, with
1:55 achievements, with distractions. But no
1:57 matter how much you consume, the
2:01 emptiness returns stronger, deeper, more
2:05 demanding than before. Jung called this
2:08 the spiritual thirst. He believed that
2:10 every addiction begins as a search for
2:13 something sacred, something lost. When
2:15 you reach for that drink, that
2:17 substance, that forbidden pleasure, you
2:20 are not simply being weak. You are
2:22 responding to a call you do not yet
2:25 understand. Your soul is screaming for
2:28 meaning. And addiction is the only
2:31 language it knows how to speak. This
2:33 thirst is ancient. It has been with
2:35 humanity since the beginning. But not
2:37 everyone feels it with the same
2:41 intensity. Only certain souls carry this
2:43 burden, this relentless craving that
2:46 refuses to be ignored. These are the
2:49 ones Jung identified as chosen, marked
2:51 by a divine restlessness that will not
2:54 let them settle for ordinary life. You
2:56 see, most people can drink without
2:58 becoming addicted. Most people can
3:00 experience pleasure without losing
3:04 themselves to it. But you cannot. And
3:06 that is not your weakness. That is your
3:09 sign. The thirst that cannot be quenched
3:11 is proof that something greater is
3:13 trying to reach you, trying to pull you
3:15 toward a transformation you keep
3:18 resisting. Jung discovered that
3:20 alcoholics in particular carried a
3:23 unique spiritual wound. He saw that
3:24 their addiction was not about the
3:27 alcohol itself. It was about the
3:28 desperate attempt to touch something
3:31 transcendent, something beyond the
3:33 mundane reality that felt too small for
3:36 their souls. They drank to feel
3:38 connected, to feel alive, to feel
3:40 anything other than the suffocating
3:44 emptiness of a world without magic. But
3:47 here is the twist. The addiction itself
3:50 becomes the barrier. The very thing you
3:52 use to satisfy your thirst becomes the
3:54 thing that keeps you thirsty. You drink
3:56 to feel whole, but the drinking
3:59 fractures you further. You chase the
4:02 high to escape the pain, but the high
4:06 deepens the pain. It is a paradox, a
4:08 cruel cycle that seems designed to break
4:11 you. Yet, Jung insisted this was
4:14 intentional. This cycle is not random
4:17 chaos. It is a divine mechanism, a
4:19 spiritual test designed specifically for
4:22 those strong enough to endure it. God
4:23 does not speak to everyone through
4:26 addiction because not everyone needs
4:28 this particular lesson. But for those
4:32 who do, the message is always the same.
4:34 What you seek outside yourself can only
4:38 be found within. The thirst you feel is
4:41 real. But you have been looking in the
4:44 wrong direction. You have been trying to
4:46 satisfy a spiritual need with material
4:49 solutions. You have been trying to fill
4:52 a god-shaped hole with things that can
4:55 never fit. And every time you try, the
4:58 hole grows larger. The thirst grows
5:01 stronger and you feel more lost than
5:03 before. This is where most people give
5:06 up. They see the endless cycle and
5:08 conclude they are broken, cursed,
5:11 unworthy. But Jung saw something
5:14 different. He saw that the intensity of
5:17 your craving is proportional to the
5:19 depth of your calling. The more you
5:21 suffer, the greater your potential for
5:24 awakening. The thirst that cannot be
5:27 quenched is not your punishment. It is
5:30 your preparation. God speaks to his
5:32 chosen ones through this impossible
5:35 hunger because only through it can they
5:37 learn the most important truth. Nothing
5:40 in this world will ever be enough. Not
5:43 success, not love, not power, not
5:46 pleasure, nothing. And once you truly
5:47 understand this, once you stop fighting
5:50 it and start listening to it, the thirst
5:53 begins to transform. It stops being
5:55 about filling yourself and starts being
5:58 about emptying yourself. It stops being
6:01 about escape and starts being about encounter.
6:02 encounter.
6:04 The craving that once drove you to
6:07 destruction becomes the doorway to
6:10 something you never imagined possible. A
6:12 direct connection to the divine source
6:15 that has been calling you all along. But
6:17 you cannot reach this point while you
6:19 are still fighting. You cannot hear the
6:22 message while you are still drowning in
6:25 guilt and shame. You must first accept
6:27 that your addiction is not your enemy.
6:29 It is your teacher, your guide, the
6:31 thorn in your flesh that will not let
6:34 you rest until you finally turn inward
6:36 and face what you have been running
6:40 from. The thirst will never be quenched
6:42 by anything outside you. That is the
6:46 brutal truth Yung understood. But here
6:48 is the hope. It was never meant to be.
6:52 The thirst is the call. The craving is
6:55 the invitation. And your addiction is
6:57 the only thing powerful enough to force
6:59 you to finally answer. You have tried to
7:02 quit a thousand times. You have promised
7:05 yourself, promised others, maybe even
7:06 promised God that this time would be
7:10 different. And yet you fell again and
7:14 again and again. Each relapse feels like
7:17 proof of your failure. evidence that you
7:20 are too weak, too broken, too far gone
7:24 to ever be saved. But what if falling is
7:26 not the opposite of rising? What if
7:28 every collapse is actually a step
7:31 forward in a journey you do not yet
7:34 understand? Jung believed that the
7:37 repeated cycle of addiction and relapse
7:40 was not a sign of failure but a
7:43 necessary descent into the parts of
7:45 yourself you have spent your whole life
7:48 avoiding. He called it the encounter
7:50 with the shadow.
7:52 This is the dark side of your
7:55 personality. The aspects of yourself you
7:59 reject, deny and bury deep beneath the
8:02 surface. Your anger, your shame, your
8:04 fear, your hidden desires, everything
8:07 you pretend does not exist. But
8:09 addiction has a way of dragging all of
8:13 it into the light. Every time you fall,
8:14 you are forced to confront something
8:17 true about yourself, something you would
8:19 never face if life were comfortable. The
8:22 addict cannot hide behind social masks
8:24 or polite pretenses. The addiction
8:26 strips away all the layers, all the
8:29 defenses until you are standing naked
8:32 before yourself and before God. And that
8:35 is precisely the point. Most people go
8:36 through life never truly knowing
8:39 themselves. They build identities based
8:42 on what others expect, what society
8:45 approves, what feels safe. But the
8:47 chosen ones, the ones marked by
8:50 addiction, do not have that luxury. They
8:52 are forced into the depths whether they
8:55 want to go or not and every fall takes
8:57 them deeper. Jung understood that this
9:01 descent is sacred. In ancient myths and
9:03 spiritual traditions, the hero always
9:05 has to descend into the underworld
9:08 before they can ascend to the heavens.
9:10 They have to face the monsters, the
9:12 demons, the parts of themselves they
9:15 fear most. Only then can they claim
9:18 their true power. Only then can they be
9:21 reborn. Your addiction is your
9:23 underworld. Every relapse is another
9:26 layer peeled away. Another illusion
9:29 shattered, another false self destroyed.
9:31 It feels like death because in a way it
9:36 is. But death is not the end. It is the
9:38 beginning of transformation. And God
9:41 speaks most clearly in the places where
9:44 you feel most lost. You see, the falling
9:47 is not random. It follows a pattern, a
9:49 rhythm that Jung recognized as deeply
9:52 spiritual. You rise with hope. You fall
9:55 with despair. You rise again with
9:58 determination. You fall again with guilt
10:01 over and over. And each cycle teaches
10:03 you something essential. You cannot save
10:06 yourself through willpower alone. You
10:08 cannot overcome this through discipline
10:11 or control or sheer determination. This
10:14 is the hardest lesson for the chosen
10:17 ones to learn because most of you are
10:20 fighters. You are strong, capable, used
10:22 to conquering obstacles through force of
10:25 will. But addiction does not respond to
10:27 force. The harder you fight it, the
10:30 stronger it becomes. The more you resist
10:33 it, the tighter its grip. And so you
10:35 must learn to stop fighting and start
10:38 surrendering. Surrender does not mean
10:41 giving up. It means recognizing that you
10:43 are facing something more powerful than
10:46 your ego, something that requires a
10:48 different kind of strength. It means
10:51 admitting that you need help. That you
10:54 cannot do this alone. That the path
10:57 forward is not up but down. Further into
11:00 the darkness, further into the unknown,
11:02 further into the parts of yourself you
11:05 have spent your whole life running from.
11:07 Jung found that those who eventually
11:09 break free from addiction do not do so
11:12 by conquering it. They do so by
11:14 integrating it. They stop seeing their
11:17 shadow as the enemy and start seeing it
11:20 as a part of themselves that needs to be
11:23 understood, accepted and transformed.
11:25 They stop fighting the fall and start
11:27 learning from it. Each time you
11:30 collapse, you are being given a gift. A
11:33 chance to see yourself more clearly. a
11:36 chance to understand why you crave what
11:39 you crave. Why you run from what you run
11:43 from, why you hurt in the ways you hurt.
11:45 And with each fall, if you are willing
11:48 to look, you come closer to the truth
11:50 that will set you free. The path is not
11:53 a straight line upward. It is a spiral
11:57 downward and then upward again and again
12:00 until you finally reach the center. And
12:02 at the center you will find what you
12:05 have been searching for all along. Not
12:08 in the substance, not in the high, not
12:11 in the escape, but in the person you
12:14 become through the journey of falling
12:18 and rising, breaking and healing, dying
12:21 and being reborn. There is a part of you
12:23 that watches from the corner of your
12:26 mind. It knows every secret you keep,
12:28 every lie you tell yourself, every
12:30 moment of weakness you pretend never
12:33 happened. This is not your conscience.
12:35 This is something older, something
12:38 deeper. Jung called it the shadow, and
12:40 it has been with you since birth,
12:42 growing stronger with every truth you
12:45 refuse to face. Your addiction feeds on
12:48 this shadow. It thrives in the darkness
12:50 of everything you deny about yourself.
12:53 The rage you swallow. The pain you
12:56 ignore, the desires you label as
12:58 shameful. All of it gets pushed down
13:00 into this hidden place. And there it
13:03 waits, gaining power until one day it
13:05 erupts in ways you cannot control. You
13:08 think your addiction is about weakness.
13:10 But Jung saw it differently. He
13:12 understood that addiction is the
13:14 shadow's way of forcing itself into your
13:17 awareness. It is not trying to destroy
13:20 you. It is trying to be seen, to be
13:23 heard, to be acknowledged. Because what
13:25 you refuse to face in the light will
13:28 eventually consume you in the dark.
13:30 Every craving carries a message from
13:32 your shadow. When you reach for that
13:35 drink, that drug, that destructive
13:37 behavior, you are not simply seeking
13:39 pleasure or escape. You are responding
13:41 to a part of yourself that has been
13:44 silenced for too long. A part that holds
13:47 truths you are terrified to admit. A
13:49 part that knows exactly who you are
13:52 beneath all the masks you wear. Most
13:54 people spend their entire lives running
13:56 from their shadow. They build
13:58 comfortable lives, surround themselves
14:00 with distractions, and never look too
14:03 closely at the darkness within. But God
14:05 does not choose those people for this
14:08 particular journey. He chooses the ones
14:10 who cannot run. The ones whose shadows
14:13 refuse to stay hidden. The ones whose
14:15 inner darkness becomes so loud it drowns
14:18 out everything else. This is why your
14:20 addiction feels so powerful, so
14:23 overwhelming, so impossible to resist.
14:25 It's not just a habit or a chemical
14:28 dependency. It is your shadow demanding
14:31 recognition. And the more you fight it,
14:33 the more you judge it, the more you hate
14:35 yourself for it, the stronger it
14:38 becomes. Because shadows grow in
14:40 proportion to the light you try to force
14:42 upon them. Jung discovered something
14:44 revolutionary. You cannot kill your
14:47 shadow. You cannot prey it away,
14:49 discipline it away, or shame it away.
14:51 The only way forward is through
14:54 integration. You must turn toward the
14:56 darkness, look it in the face and say
14:59 its name. You must acknowledge the parts
15:00 of yourself you have spent years
15:04 denying. The anger, the selfishness, the
15:07 fear, the weakness, the hunger for
15:09 things you were taught to reject. This
15:12 is terrifying work. It requires a kind
15:14 of courage most people will never need.
15:16 Because when you finally look at your
15:19 shadow, you see everything you have been
15:22 taught to despise. You see the monster
15:25 you were convinced you could never be.
15:27 You see the truth that society, family,
15:30 religion all told you to hide. And in
15:32 that moment, you have a choice. Reject
15:36 it again and sink deeper into addiction
15:38 or accept it and begin the process of
15:41 transformation. The chosen ones are
15:43 given this burden because they have the
15:46 capacity to bear it. God knows that not
15:48 everyone can face their shadow and
15:51 survive. Not everyone can stare into
15:52 their own darkness without being
15:55 consumed by it. But those marked by
15:58 addiction have no choice. Their shadow
16:00 will not let them rest. It will keep
16:03 pushing, keep demanding, keep destroying
16:06 everything they build until they finally
16:09 stop running and turn around. When you
16:12 do, something unexpected happens. The
16:16 shadow does not destroy you. Instead, it
16:19 reveals gifts you never knew you had.
16:20 Hidden within your darkness are
16:23 strengths you suppressed, talents you
16:26 ignored, truths you were afraid to
16:29 speak. Your shadow knows who you really
16:32 are, stripped of all pretense and social
16:34 conditioning. And once you integrate it,
16:37 once you accept it as part of yourself,
16:40 the addiction begins to lose its power.
16:43 Because addiction only has control when
16:46 you are divided against yourself. When
16:48 part of you wants to stop and another
16:51 part cannot. When your conscious mind
16:54 says no but your shadow says yes. This
16:56 internal war is exhausting and the
16:59 addiction feeds on that exhaustion. But
17:01 when you finally make peace with your
17:03 shadow, when you stop fighting yourself
17:05 and start understanding yourself, the
17:07 war ends.
17:10 Jung believed that this integration was
17:13 the true goal of spiritual development.
17:16 Not perfection, not purity, not becoming
17:19 some idealized version of yourself, but
17:21 wholeness. Becoming complete by
17:24 accepting all parts of yourself, light
17:26 and dark, good and bad, noble and
17:29 shameful. This is what it means to be
17:31 truly human. This is what God is trying
17:34 to teach his chosen ones through the
17:36 brutal classroom of addiction. Your
17:39 shadow knows your name because it is
17:42 you, the real you, the complete you. Not
17:45 the version you show the world, but the
17:47 version that exists beneath all the
17:50 layers of conditioning and fear. And
17:52 until you acknowledge it, until you
17:54 speak its name out loud and claim it as
17:58 your own, you will never be free. The
18:00 addiction will continue because the
18:02 shadow will continue demanding to be
18:05 seen. But once you do this work, once
18:07 you face what you have been running
18:10 from, something miraculous happens. The
18:13 craving that once controlled you becomes
18:16 a compass pointing toward your hidden
18:18 self. The addiction that once destroyed
18:20 you becomes the catalyst for your
18:23 greatest transformation. And the shadow
18:25 that once terrified you becomes your
18:28 most trusted guide into the depths of
18:31 your own soul. The bottle promises peace
18:34 but delivers chaos. The substance offers
18:38 freedom but brings chains. The behavior
18:41 guarantees pleasure but produces pain.
18:44 This is the great deception of addiction
18:46 and Yung understood it completely. What
18:48 you crave is never what you actually
18:52 need. You already know this. Every time
18:54 you give into the craving, there is a
18:57 moment of relief, maybe even joy, but it
19:00 never lasts. Within hours, sometimes
19:04 minutes, the emptiness returns deeper
19:07 than before, hungrier than before, and
19:09 you find yourself right back where you
19:12 started. Except now you carry the
19:14 additional weight of guilt and shame.
19:18 This cycle is not an accident. It is a
19:21 design. Because the craving is not about
19:23 the substance or the behavior at all. It
19:26 is about something missing inside you.
19:28 something that has been absent for so
19:30 long you have forgotten what it feels
19:34 like. Jung called this the god-shaped
19:36 void and he believed that every
19:39 addiction is ultimately a misdirected
19:42 search for the divine. You are looking
19:44 for transcendence in a bottle. You are
19:47 searching for meaning in a high. You are
19:49 trying to find love in behaviors that
19:52 isolate you. The direction is wrong, but
19:55 the impulse is sacred. Deep within your
19:57 soul, you know there is something more,
20:00 something greater, something beyond the
20:02 ordinary experience of life. And you
20:05 will do anything to touch it, even if it
20:08 destroys you in the process. This is why
20:11 simple solutions never work. People tell
20:12 you to just stop, to have more
20:14 willpower, to think about the
20:17 consequences, but they do not understand
20:19 that your addiction is not about the
20:21 thing itself. It is about what that
20:25 thing represents. It is a symbol, a
20:27 placeholder for the spiritual connection
20:30 you have lost or never had. When you
20:32 drink, you are not really drinking. You
20:35 are trying to dissolve the barriers
20:38 between yourself and something infinite.
20:41 When you use, you are not really seeking
20:44 a high. You are trying to escape the
20:46 prison of your limited perception. When
20:49 you engage in destructive behaviors, you
20:51 are not really pursuing pleasure. You
20:55 are trying to feel alive in a world that
20:58 has made you numb. Jung saw this pattern
21:00 in every addict he worked with. They
21:03 were not morally weak or fundamentally
21:05 flawed. They were spiritually hungry in
21:07 a world that had forgotten how to feed
21:10 the soul. They were seeking God in all
21:12 the wrong places because nobody had
21:14 taught them where to look. and their
21:16 addiction was both the problem and the
21:19 pointer, simultaneously destroying them
21:22 and showing them what they truly needed.
21:24 The great tragedy is that what you crave
21:27 will never satisfy the need beneath it.
21:30 You can drink an ocean and still be
21:33 thirsty. You can chase every high and
21:35 still feel empty. You can engage in the
21:38 behavior a million times and still feel
21:40 disconnected because you are using
21:43 finite things to satisfy an infinite
21:46 hunger. You are using material solutions
21:49 for spiritual problems and it will never
21:51 ever work. But here is where the
21:54 teaching becomes profound. The fact that
21:58 nothing satisfies you is not a curse. It
22:01 is a clue. It is God whispering through
22:03 your dissatisfaction,
22:05 telling you that you were made for
22:07 something more. Your inability to be
22:09 content with ordinary pleasures is
22:12 actually evidence of your extraordinary
22:15 calling. You are marked by divine
22:17 restlessness and that restlessness will
22:20 not let you settle until you find what
22:23 you are truly looking for. Jung believed
22:25 that addicts were closer to God than
22:27 most people precisely because of this
22:30 hunger. They could not be satisfied with
22:32 comfortable lies or shallow pleasures.
22:35 They needed something real, something
22:37 deep, something that could actually fill
22:40 the void. And though their methods were
22:43 destructive, their instinct was correct.
22:45 There is something more, and it is worth
22:48 any sacrifice to find it. The shift
22:50 happens when you stop trying to satisfy
22:53 the craving and start investigating it.
22:55 When you pause before reaching for your
22:58 substance and ask, "What am I really
23:00 looking for right now? What do I hope
23:03 this will give me? Connection, peace,
23:06 escape, meaning." And then you ask the
23:09 deeper question, where can I actually
23:11 find that? This is when the addiction
23:14 begins to transform from master to
23:17 teacher. The craving becomes a signal
23:20 alerting you to unmet needs, unhealed
23:24 wounds, unfulfilled longings. Instead of
23:27 judging it or fighting it, you start
23:29 listening to it. You start treating it
23:31 as valuable information about your inner
23:34 world. And slowly you learn to
23:36 distinguish between the surface desire
23:40 and the deeper need beneath it. What you
23:44 crave is not what you need. The alcohol
23:48 is not the answer. The drug is not the
23:51 solution. The behavior is not the cure.
23:54 But the craving itself, when properly
23:57 understood, becomes the map that leads
24:00 you home. It shows you exactly what is
24:02 missing, exactly what your soul is
24:05 starving for, exactly where you need to
24:07 direct your attention. And when you
24:09 finally give yourself what you actually
24:12 need when you feed your soul instead of
24:15 your addiction, something shifts. The
24:18 craving does not disappear immediately,
24:21 but it changes quality. It becomes less
24:24 desperate, less consuming, less powerful
24:26 because you are no longer trying to fill
24:30 a spiritual void with material things.
24:32 You are finally addressing the real
24:34 hunger that has been driving you all
24:37 along. There is a wound inside you that
24:39 never closes. You have tried everything
24:42 to make it go away. You have numbed it,
24:44 ignored it, covered it with distractions
24:47 and achievements and relationships. But
24:51 no matter what you do, it remains raw,
24:54 open, bleeding beneath the surface of
24:56 your carefully constructed life. Jung
24:58 understood that some wounds are not
25:01 meant to heal in the conventional sense.
25:03 They are not mistakes or accidents or
25:06 punishments. They are sacred marks
25:09 placed deliberately on souls chosen for
25:12 a specific purpose. These wounds are
25:14 doorways and your addiction is what
25:16 keeps forcing you back to stand in front
25:20 of them whether you want to or not. Most
25:21 people have pain in their lives.
25:24 Everyone experiences loss, betrayal,
25:27 disappointment, trauma. But for some,
25:30 the pain runs deeper. It becomes woven
25:32 into the fabric of who they are. It
25:35 shapes every decision, colors every
25:37 relationship, drives every
25:39 self-destructive behavior, and no amount
25:42 of therapy, medication, or positive
25:45 thinking seems to touch it. This is the
25:47 sacred wound. It is the thorn in your
25:50 flesh that will not be removed no matter
25:53 how much you beg. It is the burden you
25:54 carry that makes you different from
25:57 everyone around you. And Jung believed
26:00 it was the price of being chosen. The
26:02 mark that separates those destined for
26:04 ordinary lives from those called to
26:07 extraordinary transformation.
26:09 Your addiction exists in direct
26:11 relationship to this wound. When the
26:14 pain becomes unbearable, you reach for
26:16 your substance. When the wound tears
26:19 open again, you seek your escape. The
26:21 addiction and the wound are locked in an
26:24 eternal dance. Each one feeding the
26:26 other. Each one keeping you trapped in a
26:29 cycle that feels impossible to break.
26:31 But here is what Jung discovered. The
26:34 wound is not your enemy. It is your
26:37 greatest teacher. Every time it opens,
26:39 every time it bleeds, every time it
26:41 reminds you of its presence, it is
26:43 trying to show you something essential
26:46 about your purpose. The wound contains
26:49 the very thing you came here to learn,
26:51 to heal in others, to transform into
26:54 wisdom. Think about it. The deepest
26:57 wounds create the deepest sensitivity.
26:59 The person who has never experienced
27:01 abandonment cannot truly understand
27:04 someone who has. The person who has
27:07 never felt soul crushing shame cannot
27:10 sit with someone drowning in it. But you
27:13 can. Your wound has given you access to
27:15 levels of human suffering that most
27:18 people will never comprehend. And that
27:21 access is not random. It is intentional.
27:24 God wounds his chosen ones in specific
27:26 ways because he needs them to reach
27:29 specific people. Your pain is not
27:32 meaningless. It is preparation. Every
27:34 moment you have spent in the darkness,
27:36 every night you have cried yourself to
27:38 sleep, every time you have wanted to
27:42 give up, you were being trained. Trained
27:45 to understand, to empathize, to guide
27:48 others who will one day walk the same
27:51 path. But you cannot access this gift
27:53 while you are still fighting the wound.
27:55 While you are still trying to make it
27:57 disappear, still treating it as
27:59 something wrong with you, still
28:00 believing that healing means never
28:03 hurting again. Jung taught that true
28:05 healing is not the absence of the wound,
28:07 but the transformation of your
28:10 relationship to it. The sacred wound
28:12 becomes sacred when you stop seeing it
28:15 as your weakness and start seeing it as
28:18 your strength. When you stop asking why
28:20 it happened to you and start asking what
28:23 it is trying to teach you. When you stop
28:25 demanding that it close and start
28:28 learning to live with it open, using it
28:30 as a source of compassion rather than a
28:33 source of shame. This is incredibly
28:36 difficult work because everything in you
28:38 wants the pain to stop. You want to be
28:41 normal, to be free of this burden, to
28:43 live without this constant ache in your
28:47 chest. But the wound refuses. It keeps
28:50 reopening, keeps demanding attention,
28:52 keeps forcing you back into the pain you
28:54 desperately want to escape, and your
28:56 addiction becomes the only relief you
29:00 can find. Jung saw this pattern clearly.
29:03 The addict runs from the wound into the
29:05 addiction, but the addiction eventually
29:08 drives them back to the wound. It is a
29:12 cruel circle, but also a sacred one.
29:14 Because each time you return, you have
29:16 the opportunity to see the wound
29:18 differently. To understand it more
29:20 deeply, to recognize that it is not
29:23 destroying you, but refining you. The
29:26 chosen ones carry wounds that refuse to
29:29 heal because those wounds are meant to
29:32 stay open. not forever in the same way,
29:35 but open as channels, as pathways, as
29:38 points of connection between their pain
29:40 and the pain of others. The wound that
29:43 will not close becomes the very thing
29:45 that allows grace to flow through you.
29:47 It becomes the crack where the light
29:50 gets in, the broken place where healing
29:53 begins for everyone you touch. But you
29:55 must first stop fighting it. Stop hating
29:58 yourself for being wounded. Stop
30:00 believing that your pain disqualifies
30:02 you from purpose. Stop treating your
30:04 sensitivity as weakness and your
30:07 struggles as failure because the wound
30:09 is not evidence that God has abandoned
30:12 you. Is evidence that he has marked you
30:14 for something you cannot yet see. Your
30:16 addiction has been protecting you from
30:19 the full weight of this wound. It has
30:21 been a buffer, a shield, a way to
30:24 survive pain that felt unservivable.
30:27 And perhaps it was necessary for a time.
30:29 Perhaps you needed that protection until
30:31 you were strong enough to face what lies
30:35 beneath. But eventually the protection
30:38 becomes the prison. The very thing that
30:40 helped you survive becomes the thing
30:43 that prevents you from living. When you
30:45 are ready, when the pain of staying the
30:48 same finally exceeds the fear of change,
30:50 you will begin to approach your wound
30:53 differently. Not with hatred or shame,
30:56 but with curiosity.
30:58 Not demanding that it disappear, but
31:01 asking what it has to teach you. And in
31:03 that moment of turning toward instead of
31:07 away, everything shifts. The wound does
31:10 not close, but it transforms. It becomes
31:13 less about your personal suffering and
31:16 more about your shared humanity. It
31:18 becomes less about what was done to you
31:20 and more about what you can offer
31:22 others. It becomes the source of your
31:25 greatest gift. The ability to sit with
31:28 someone in their darkest moment and say
31:31 without words, I know. I have been
31:34 there. You are not alone. This is why
31:36 God speaks to his chosen ones through
31:39 addiction and through wounds that refuse
31:41 to heal. Because only those who have
31:43 descended into the deepest darkness can
31:46 guide others out of it. Only those who
31:48 have carried unbearable pain can help
31:51 others bear theirs. And only those who
31:53 have learned to live with a sacred wound
31:55 can teach others that brokenness is not
31:58 the end of the story, but the beginning
32:02 of a new one. So now you stand at the
32:04 edge of understanding, looking back at
32:07 everything the fire has revealed. The
32:09 thirst that could not be quenched was
32:11 teaching you that nothing in this world
32:14 will ever be enough. The falling that
32:16 felt like failure was actually the
32:18 descent you needed to meet your truest
32:22 self. The shadow that terrified you was
32:24 simply waiting to be recognized, to be
32:27 integrated, to become your guide instead
32:30 of your tormentor. The craving that
32:32 consumed you was always pointing towards
32:35 something deeper, something sacred that
32:36 you were seeking in all the wrong
32:39 places. And the wound that refused to
32:42 heal became the very crack through which
32:46 your light now shines. This is what Yung
32:48 understood and what few others have
32:51 dared to say. Your addiction was never
32:54 the enemy. It was the messenger. God
32:56 does not speak to everyone through such
32:59 devastating means because not everyone
33:01 needs to be broken open in this
33:04 particular way. But you did. And now you
33:06 know why. You were chosen not for
33:09 comfort but for transformation. Not for
33:12 ease but for depth. Not to live a simple
33:14 life, but to walk a path that would
33:17 forge you into something unbreakable.
33:19 Every moment of suffering, every
33:22 relapse, every shamefilled mourning,
33:24 every desperate prayer, it was all
33:27 preparation. You were being trained in
33:29 the darkness so you could carry light
33:32 into places where others cannot go. The
33:36 conversation is not over. God is still
33:37 speaking through your struggles, through
33:40 your questions, through your ongoing journey.
33:41 journey.
33:44 But now you can finally hear him. Not in
33:47 the noise of your addiction, but in the
33:50 silence after you stop running. Not in
33:52 the high, but in the hunger that the
33:54 high could never satisfy. Not in the
33:57 escape, but in the return to yourself
33:59 again and again. No matter how many
34:02 times you fall, you are awake now. And