0:03 going to respond to hiding in my room,
0:06 Daniel, cuz uh he's being delusional
0:09 again. And yeah, I just didn't want to
0:11 leave only comments. So, as most of you
0:13 know, a pretty big YouTuber called
0:16 Turkey Tom made a video about me a few
0:18 weeks ago, and it's gotten well over a
0:20 million views. And you might have been
0:22 thinking, "Aren't I happy about this
0:24 because the channel finally grew?" Um,
0:26 not really. And your channel did not
0:28 grow because you disappeared, man. You
0:31 made your all your videos private or
0:33 whatever. You had like no videos. You
0:36 basically had not no channel. Nobody
0:40 could even leave a comment like a a a
0:43 hate comment or a fan comment or or any
0:45 type of compliment or any type of
0:48 criticism cuz you were gone and people
0:50 thought that you just quit YouTube and
0:53 yeah, nobody was looking after you. Like
0:55 yeah, that's what
0:58 happened. And it's kind of dis and wait.
1:00 You know why this did happen? Cuz
1:02 because you simply can't stand up for
1:05 yourself, man. You you just just quit
1:08 YouTube for a chick. Uh that doesn't
1:11 even respect you. Droped my life in
1:14 several ways. Namely, that my mom now
1:16 hates me and I broke up with my
1:18 girlfriend. Your mom hates you, man.
1:20 because you did not do the dishes and
1:22 you you did not clean your room or
1:25 whatever and instead you just meant hang
1:28 out with with Sunny and yeah, don't
1:31 don't overexaggerate things, man. You're
1:34 just being a victim again because of it.
1:36 So yeah, in the beginning I was really
1:37 happy about it because the channel
1:39 hasn't actually grown for about 5 years.
1:41 So, it was nice to see some new people
1:44 joining the channel, but I didn't expect
1:46 that I would end up losing my girlfriend
1:48 and falling out with my mom. And
1:51 then, you did not lose because of
1:53 Turkey, Tom, man. That that girl wasn't
1:56 really into you. His she was just trying
1:58 to manipulate you or whatever. But yeah,
2:01 she was not really into you and that's
2:03 why she left. If she was really into
2:06 you, she would be been putting up with
2:08 everything. Like let's say you have been
2:13 more successful and somewhat more uh I
2:16 don't know how to how to put this
2:18 somewhat more more better looking or
2:20 whatever. She would would stayed with
2:24 you like like forever. I don't know. She
2:25 clearly had some better options and
2:28 that's why she bounced. Then a few weeks
2:30 later after it's been a while since the
2:32 video came out, the channel has
2:33 basically just died again and gone back
2:36 to Sunny right now is is with a with a
2:40 guy that is that she really likes and
2:42 yeah, that's what's happening. She has
2:44 better options and she left. It's not
2:46 about your YouTube. It's not about
2:49 haters. It's not about bullying. I did
2:51 not bully you or whatever. I just I just
2:54 told you as it is how it was before the
2:56 channel, but now my life's all messed up
2:58 and I'm not really happy about it to be
2:59 honest. The reason why me and my mom
3:01 fell out about it is because well,
3:03 basically, as you can imagine, the video
3:05 didn't exactly paint me in a very good
3:08 light. Like most of these documentaries
3:11 about me, it's pretty hard to to paint
3:13 you in a good light when you're making
3:16 like u fake videos. Like some of them
3:17 are really fake, but some of them they
3:21 really seem to be real. And um yeah,
3:23 that's just what is going to happen.
3:25 Some some people are are going to
3:27 misunderstand it. Mis they're going to
3:30 misunderstand your sarcasm and yeah,
3:32 you're just going to be in a bad light.
3:35 I know that um some of your videos you
3:38 were just faking them like the love doll
3:41 or whatever. And uh yeah, I know about
3:44 that, but not everybody understands the
3:46 context. And yeah, they are just going
3:48 to to turn on you for for cheating on
3:51 your wife or for for
3:53 uh being with the love doll instead.
3:55 Yeah, those are controversial topics,
3:58 man. And yeah, people are going to have their
3:59 their
4:02 opinions and you can't just expect just
4:06 positivity when you do such things. Even
4:08 if you would do good things, even then
4:11 you would you would not get only only
4:15 like good attention from your
4:17 viewers. Make me look like a crazy
4:19 person and make me seem like this
4:21 horrible human being and they don't put
4:22 any effort. I don't think you're
4:25 horrible. I mean, you you can't really
4:27 be horrible. You you're kind of
4:29 innocent. You just talk a lot of things,
4:31 but you don't do much. into trying to
4:34 understand why I do horrible things. I
4:36 don't do horrible things for zero
4:37 reason. I have my reasons. It's just
4:39 that most people don't really seem to
4:40 care about my reasons and are happy to
4:43 label. Yeah, it's fair if if if um
4:45 someone like let's say your
4:47 ex-girlfriend or whatever mistreated you
4:50 and you you just just talk back and
4:54 stand up for yourself or or whatever or
4:55 you you say that you're just not putting
4:57 up with this, then yeah, that's totally fine.
4:59 fine.
5:02 me with such words like psychopath,
5:05 sociopath or the word begin. Well, those
5:07 are just labels like it it doesn't they
5:09 don't really mean much, man. You should
5:11 not take them seriously
5:13 think with an I and I was scrolling
5:15 through the comment section of the video
5:17 and you know I was used to all of the
5:19 insults. All the insults I've been
5:21 expecting and I've been getting those
5:23 kind of in. So yeah, there's nothing new
5:24 in salts for years and years and years.
5:26 If you have been on the internet for
5:28 this long, you should already be be used
5:31 to that type of comments. But what I
5:33 wasn't expecting was a comment, quite a
5:36 lengthy comment written by a girl named
5:38 Holly who actually Oh, she said
5:40 something that triggered you. Wow,
5:42 that's rare. Used to be this girl who
5:44 was my neighbor when I was a very young
5:46 kid. She lived behind my house and I
5:48 would often go over to her house to play
5:50 video games cuz her dad used to have a
5:54 massive PlayStation video game library.
5:57 And I was quite shocked and upset that
5:58 she wrote this very long comment about
6:01 me basically just bashing me saying that
6:03 my family was really nice as she
6:05 remembered when she was a kid and she
6:07 can't believe that I treat my family so
6:09 horrible so horribly. So I was kind of
6:11 upset that she was judging me when she
6:12 doesn't really understand the full story
6:15 or the full picture. And the full story
6:18 is you refuse to you refuse to clean
6:20 your room. you refused to do the dishes
6:24 because of sunny or whatever. You just
6:26 didn't wanted to do them and then you
6:28 got upset with your mom and then you
6:30 packed your your car with your stuff and
6:34 you just moved out. That's the reason.
6:36 In order to defend myself, I kind of had
6:39 to say some not very nice things about
6:41 my mom and my mom found out about it and
6:44 was not happy about it and we had this
6:46 argument and she kind of cancelled my
6:48 birth cuz you can't
6:52 uh you can't take any uh how to say any
6:55 criticism and you you you just you're
6:57 still responsible, man. Birthday trip.
6:59 So, it was actually my birthday around
7:02 the time the Turkey video dropped. And
7:03 my mom and my sister were supposed to
7:05 drive over to Devon, which is where I'm
7:07 living now, to come and visit me for my
7:08 birthday. And I was quite looking
7:11 forward to it. We were going to go to
7:13 places in Devon and go traveling and see
7:15 places. And it would have been nice. And
7:17 I guess they did not come cuz yeah, you
7:19 you left some horrible criticism. You
7:21 should never talk like that like that
7:23 about your mom, man. And no matter what
7:26 she did, I I I don't think she did
7:29 anything wrong to you cuz first of all,
7:31 uh she gave you a a place to live. You
7:33 you you had a nice house. I don't know
7:36 why would you pay rent, expensive rent
7:38 when when you do have a nice house to
7:40 live. You could you you should just be
7:43 in harmonious relationship with your
7:45 mom. But I guess because of your diet or
7:47 something, you're just hormonally
7:50 imbalanced. And yeah, you you take
7:52 everything for granted to catch up with
7:55 them. But my mom ended up not coming and
7:56 canceling the trip, which meant my
7:58 sister couldn't come. And also, my mom
8:00 didn't even wish me a happy birthday on
8:02 my birthday cuz she was still mad at me.
8:04 And she's actually still mad at me now,
8:06 even though I tried to apologize and
8:08 we're still on bad terms thanks to the
8:11 whole fiasco. So, I'm not really on
8:13 good. So basically you are not on good
8:15 terms because
8:20 um you you just couldn't take any uh
8:22 responsibility for your actions that
8:24 yeah you did that and some people are
8:27 just not going to like you for it and
8:29 because of that it's not your fault that
8:31 you left those comments about your mom.
8:34 It's Turkish Tom's
8:38 fault. Now that's a logic man terms with
8:40 my mom anymore because she me I mean
8:43 it's lack of logic me to apologize for
8:45 everything take all the blame and she
8:48 refuses to take any responsibility or
8:51 even admit she did anything wrong.
8:55 Listen, woman or or your mom or anybody
8:58 when you don't treat them fairly
9:01 uh but especially women when you don't
9:04 make them feel good about themselves
9:06 they are just going to ignore you and
9:08 yeah they they they not not going to
9:11 going to listen to you whatsoever and
9:14 that's how it is which I find very
9:16 upsetting and I disagree and you should
9:19 be nicer with your mom with very
9:21 strongly. So, I'm not talking to anymore
9:22 and I'm not going to go back home and
9:24 I'm going to stay here in my house in
9:26 Devon. And then I also broke up with my
9:30 girlfriend. So, slightly before the
9:31 Turkey video dropped, me and my
9:34 girlfriend had this big argument. Well,
9:36 we've had several big arguments in the
9:39 span of just a few weeks. First of all,
9:40 there was an argument because she you
9:42 were trying so hard to hold on to that
9:45 relationship, but for nothing,
9:49 man. She just wasn't into you. And yeah,
9:52 that's all it wasn't about bullying or
9:55 whatever. If PewDiePie or someone that
9:57 she or let's say her favorite YouTuber,
10:00 maybe it's not you, I don't know. Her
10:02 favorite YouTuber would want to be with
10:04 her and and
10:08 uh would be like a handsome guy. She
10:10 would put up with all the haters, man.
10:13 should just turn off the phone and and
10:15 yeah, maybe get off the social media,
10:17 maybe move somewhere and like in a nice
10:20 place together and yeah, that's about
10:22 it. And they would just have kids or
10:26 whatever. Yeah, they they they would not
10:29 uh they would not put up with you the
10:31 way they would put up with them just
10:33 because um yeah, they offer like a
10:35 better life.
10:36 had a fight with her mom and she wanted
10:38 me to come and pick her up, but I was
10:39 streaming and then she got mad at me.
10:41 So, I didn't really feel like stop. I
10:42 would say it's not really your fault.
10:44 It's your diet. And I pointed it out to
10:47 you many times that your diet is bad and
10:49 it causes you to be hormonally
10:51 imbalanced and everything. And yeah,
10:53 that's why you have
10:56 this type of things going on with you.
10:58 Stopping the stream and going to pick
10:59 her up. So, I carried on streaming. I
11:01 ignored her. That caused a big fight.
11:03 She blocked me for a few weeks and it
11:05 took a lot of If she blocked you, it is
11:09 over, dude. You if if someone blocks you
11:12 once, it's Yeah, man. There's not much
11:15 you can do about that. Work and effort
11:16 to be able to get her to talk to me
11:18 again. I finally managed to get her
11:26 Wow. I mean, yeah, you you do reach out
11:28 once, you let them know, and yeah,
11:30 that's about it. It's not much effort.
11:33 So, you need to do called me again. We
11:35 fixed the problem and got back together
11:37 again. But that didn't last very long
11:39 and we had another fight within a day
11:41 because she came over to my place. She
11:45 was on my laptop and she found naughty
11:49 videos. I know about this. I think the
11:53 naughty videos about him and his ex-wife
11:57 were in like recycle bin or something.
11:59 And yeah, she found them and yeah, she
12:01 got mad.
12:04 So I had saved on my laptop with exes
12:06 that I re more with exes like with
12:09 multiple people not just not just one
12:12 recently was watching because we had
12:14 broken up and I was bored and feeling in
12:15 the mood. So, she found those videos,
12:18 stormed out my house, went home, blocked
12:20 me again, and I did that 3-day stream
12:22 where I was basically having a
12:25 breakdown. And that was around the time
12:29 the Turkey Tom video dropped. And she
12:30 she reached out to me. No, around the
12:32 Turkey Tom video went dropped. You
12:35 already did not have H. Maybe I found
12:37 out a little bit late about the Turkey
12:39 to video. I'm not sure about the timing.
12:41 Yeah, probably. You're right. when I was
12:43 doing that 3-day stream said we could
12:46 meet and talk about things and I said I
12:48 would do anything to fix what I had done
12:51 about the whole
12:54 anything. I mean, yeah, I I I can
12:56 understand that. But yeah, you should
12:59 not delete your YouTube channel,
13:02 man. Yeah, your YouTube channel is is
13:04 fine. Like
13:06 seriously, I I get it that you're not
13:08 getting as many views cuz you're not
13:11 doing as much controversial things, but
13:12 yeah, you should not get rid of your
13:15 YouTube channel, man. I don't know about
13:18 that. I don't think anybody's I mean,
13:20 it's not that they are not worth it, but
13:22 that's just a that's just a crazy idea
13:25 to ask someone to delete their channels.
13:27 I mean if they are like this they should
13:29 just never started a they should have
13:32 never started a relationship with you.
13:35 They should know that what they are
13:38 getting into and haters exists and not
13:41 everybody likes you and I I I don't have
13:44 anything against you man like uh if I
13:46 watch your videos it means yeah I want
13:47 to see what's up with you. It's like an
13:49 old friend. That's how I see you. You
13:51 might not know me but yeah that's how I am.
13:54 am.
13:56 naughty video situation. So, I wiped
13:59 everything on my cloud servers. That's
14:02 just funny, man. I mean, I know she was
14:04 hurt and you were hurt, but it's just
14:07 funny that she found that that videos
14:10 and she should have also been laughing
14:14 at it cuz Yeah, it's it's her fault that
14:17 she did not come over so you had to do something.
14:18 something.
14:22 Yeah, that's how it is, man.
14:25 instead of um getting a new girl, you
14:27 you watch some old content. It's fine.
14:29 It's your choice. It's your life. I
14:31 don't know why she's being so
14:34 criticizing like such a nagging Nancy.
14:36 Uh I could never be with such a nagging
14:39 Nancy. That's
14:42 100%. And my drives. So, there's none of
14:44 this naughty content around anymore. And
14:46 I thought that would be enough to fix
14:49 the relationship and get things back on
14:51 track. So, she comes over and we have
14:54 the talk and she drops this bombshell on
14:56 me that I just wasn't expecting. She
14:58 wanted me to quit YouTube and just
15:01 delete everything, stop doing YouTube,
15:03 walk away from it cuz it was toxic and
15:05 not good for me and just get a normal
15:08 job and get a I wouldn't say it's
15:10 completely toxic cuz there are people
15:12 like me and other peoples who are
15:15 offering you good advice and u genuinely
15:18 want the best for you. full-time job and
15:20 work full-time hours. And I stupidly
15:22 agreed to it because I was at a really
15:23 low point in my life. I really missed
15:25 her. I really wanted it to work between
15:27 us because I did genuinely really like
15:30 her. And I thought, okay, maybe she's
15:32 right. Maybe the YouTube channel is very
15:34 toxic. It doesn't make that much money.
15:35 It's not like I'm a millionaire thanks
15:36 to the YouTube channel. Maybe I can just
15:39 get a normal job and live a normal happy
15:42 life. So, I agreed to it and I took down
15:45 all my channel content and I agreed that
15:46 I would not live stream and make videos
15:48 anymore. Although, she did say she
15:50 wouldn't mind if I made video gaming
15:52 videos and tech stuff, which I thought,
15:53 okay, that's great. So, I'll just do
15:56 that. So, for me, um, being a YouTuber
15:58 is very important. I've been a YouTuber
16:00 for the last 8 years, and I really like
16:02 being a YouTuber. Okay, I might not be
16:04 the if you like something, it's not
16:06 going to be bad for you unless you meet
16:08 some crazy fan or whatever. Yeah, that's
16:12 that's not a good idea. But uh yeah,
16:14 the best YouTuber in the world. I might
16:16 not make the best content. I might not
16:19 have the best channel or work ethic. You
16:21 make decent content, man. You just have
16:23 this high expectation that maybe 1
16:25 million people should watch your live
16:27 streams or whatever just like you would
16:29 be I show speed or I don't know who
16:32 else. And uh yeah, that's your that's
16:34 your problem. Not everybody gets the
16:38 same attention and that's how it is.
16:39 when it comes to editing, you're still
16:41 getting decent views and people come and
16:43 donate, man. You're just not thankful
16:46 for them and you would just quit that
16:49 and go do a normal job. I would
16:51 understand that you would to do that for
16:53 a girl and uh yeah, I would understand
16:56 doing like gaming content instead of so
16:58 much like u sharing your life. If you
16:59 don't want to share your life, just
17:02 don't share it. And you you could have
17:04 negotiated something with her if you
17:06 really wanted this. But yeah, you just
17:09 just can't negotiate, man.
17:11 And making videos and that kind of
17:13 stuff. But I really do like being a
17:14 YouTuber. I like having my own
17:16 community. I like having Exactly.
17:18 something that you like. It's always
17:20 going to be good for you. Viewers to
17:22 talk to cuz I don't have any friends. I
17:23 don't have a social network. I don't
17:25 really have anyone to talk to outside of
17:28 my YouTube channel. So, I really do
17:30 value. Yeah. The internet is a good way
17:33 for you to find people who who you get
17:35 along with like like Yeah.
17:38 you place a lot of value on having a
17:39 YouTube channel and also the financial
17:42 aspect. It's it's actually it's
17:45 absolutely crucial for me financially to
17:46 have my YouTube channel otherwise I
17:48 would just not be able to financially
17:50 survive. Unfortunately, I kind of have
17:52 this problem where I guess you could say
17:55 I'm addicted to my community. I spend
17:58 way too much time and I pay way too much
18:00 attention to interacting with my
18:03 community either on Discord or same as I
18:06 got a comment. I I have to like like
18:08 respond. I I know I have to respond to
18:10 all my comments. I that's how I Okay,
18:14 I'm not as as big as you, but I'm just
18:16 saying this is how I am. Hater, not
18:18 hater, I always respond to them and I
18:20 take in consideration what they have to
18:23 say. streaming all day almost every day.
18:25 And I have had problems in previous
18:28 relationships where my partner just
18:30 wasn't happy because I neglected the
18:32 partner and I didn't talk to them much
18:34 and I spent Well, you should not do
18:37 that. I mean, I get it that u YouTube is
18:39 important or whatever, but you should
18:41 not neglect your partner. That's not
18:44 nice. It doesn't feel nice to them. Way
18:46 too much time talking to my viewers or
18:48 on my Discord or just streaming. I would
18:49 spend hours and hours and hours talking
18:52 on streams and Discord and then I would
18:54 put very minimal effort into
18:56 communicating with my partner and as you
18:59 can imagine they get upset over that and
19:00 this time was no different. It's just
19:03 that this time uh she tried to make me
19:06 quit YouTube. So my theory is so her
19:08 explanation was that the YouTube channel
19:09 is very toxic and she's been getting a
19:12 lot of abuse over the previous year cuz
19:14 my viewers don't really like her for
19:17 some reason. They wonder that's that
19:20 what that reason is. Like to call her
19:22 names and because um she doesn't like
19:25 them back or whatever. Yeah. And yeah,
19:28 that's that's not going to some some
19:29 people are just trolls. Yeah. They they
19:33 they genuinely want to to leave uh bad
19:34 comments and
19:37 Yeah. fun of her appearance and she said
19:38 it had an effect on her. Okay, that's
19:40 understandable and everything, but I
19:41 don't think that's a good reason to
19:43 break up with your boyfriend if you
19:45 really loved him. So I have this theory
19:48 that exactly if you were meant to stay
19:50 together, you would have stayed together
19:53 no matter what. Even if you were
19:55 homeless, even then she would would
19:58 would stay together with you. Maybe
20:00 watch some Blackbeard content or
20:03 something. And no, man. There's another
20:05 underlying reason why she wanted me to
20:07 quit YouTube, and that would be because
20:08 of the attention thing. She was
20:10 obviously not happy that I prioritized
20:13 my community and streaming and channel
20:16 over her. And I just take part in the
20:19 streams, man. Like, oh, come on, man. If
20:21 if she was really into you, she would
20:23 have just done everything with you. I
20:26 mean, not really be there in 100% of the
20:28 streams, but sometimes, hey, can I join?
20:31 Yes, sure. Why not? Yeah, just just be
20:33 more confident. I guess she thought if
20:35 she could get me to quit YouTube, I
20:37 would then give her all my attention and
20:39 focus and I wouldn't have this community
20:42 anymore to interact with. Unfortunately,
20:44 she was wrong because even after I quit
20:46 YouTube, I still didn't really put much
20:48 effort into texting her or talking to
20:50 her much when she wasn't at my place.
20:54 Well, um here's my theory. You were not
20:58 really interested in her. And uh yeah,
21:00 this is what it happened. because when
21:03 when I'm interested in someone, I I text
21:06 them very often and yeah, it's not like
21:09 I just neglect them for for YouTube or
21:11 whatever other
21:13 activity and that kind of led into
21:15 another argument. So, I was feeling kind
21:18 of down, not really good about myself
21:19 because I really missed doing YouTube
21:21 and it had now been a few weeks since I
21:23 stopped doing YouTube and I really
21:24 wanted to come back to it and I thought
21:27 this is a mistake. I can't let a girl
21:29 make me give up YouTube, which I've been
21:31 doing for such a long part of my life
21:33 and it's such a big part of my identity
21:35 and it's this thing that I I'm proud of
21:38 you that you said that really love doing
21:41 and I I kind of regretted that I let her
21:43 win and I agreed to her terms and I
21:44 decided to quit YouTube and I was
21:46 thinking yes you finally listen to your senses
21:47 senses
21:50 man it's not worth it anymore and then I
21:52 wasn't feeling very good this one
21:54 evening and I was listening to music and
21:56 she was texting a trying to have a
21:57 conversation and I wasn't really putting
21:59 much effort into it. I was just doing
22:02 very short replies and she got mad about
22:09 days. Yeah, it must not feel nice to her
22:11 for her that you're not you're not
22:13 really into her. Yeah, that's just my
22:15 theory that you're not really into this
22:18 girl and um yeah, she can sense that and
22:21 it's not really about the the bullies or
22:23 whatever. It's just that you're not into
22:26 her and she wants a guy that she is that
22:30 uh that that is into her. Supposed to
22:32 come over the next day to make burritos
22:35 and she said she asked me if I could go
22:36 and pick up the ingredients while she
22:39 was at work. And I said, "Okay, sure."
22:41 And she gets very triggered when I say
22:44 very sure. And you said, "Okay, sure."
22:47 Bought things like, "Okay." Like we had
22:49 another fight about a month or two ago
22:51 because I said, "Yeah, you should
22:55 respond like AI." Um, let's see. Like
22:59 instead of um let's just ask AI
23:12 girlfriend
23:32 Sure instead of okay sure to not upset
23:42 her. And this is what AI is going to
23:44 respond. Nice one. Sometimes simple.
23:47 Okay. sure can sound too dry or
23:50 dismissive even if you don't mean it
23:53 this way if even if you don't mean it
23:55 that way. Yeah, that's exactly what she
23:57 was saying. See that your replies are
24:00 dry. Here
24:05 are here are few warmer, more thoughtful
24:08 ways to say okay. Sure. Without sounding
24:11 like you're brushing her off. Of course,
24:14 babe. Sounds good to me. Yeah, I'd love
24:16 that. Absolutely. Let's do it. Sure
24:19 thing. You got
24:22 it. You need to you need to like learn
24:24 to talk or something or just pretend
24:25 that you're interested. If you're not
24:28 interested, then yeah. Or maybe it's not
24:30 not because of that. Maybe you just you
24:32 just this is your way to respond cuz
24:35 you're low on energy or whatever. Okay.
24:37 Thanks. So, after I said, "Okay, sure."
24:39 She then said, "Aren't you going to ask
24:42 what the ingredients are?" LOL. So,
24:44 every time she says LOL after a
24:46 sentence, I kind of know that she's
24:48 upset cuz she kind of tries to mask her
24:51 anger with things like lol lma mao or
24:54 like a crying laughing emoji. And I just
24:56 know she's not happy. So, I just I'm
24:59 also not happy by the way. So, I you
25:01 should just have said to her that you're
25:04 going to Google all the ingredients.
25:06 I say, "Well, I thought you were just
25:07 going to tell me what the ingredients
25:10 are without me having to ask." While Let
25:13 me tell you a good burrito sip. You
25:16 don't buy the grain sludge part like no
25:19 flour. Just buy some nice um grass-fed,
25:22 grass-finished raw beef and you have it
25:25 as it is. No cooking. Yeah. If you and
25:27 your girlfriend would eat that, um,
25:30 yeah, she would be in a better shape
25:33 and, uh, you would you both of you would
25:35 be more hormonally imbalanced and you
25:37 would have a wonderful
25:39 relationship, but you're too brainwashed
25:41 to do that. She said she was just giving
25:43 me a chance to contribute more to this
25:45 totally one-sided conversation. And I
25:47 just said I wasn't feeling very chatty
25:49 and I wasn't really in the mood. And I
25:50 was hoping she'd be supportive and be
25:53 like, "Aka, you're like not into her or
25:55 I don't know, man. It could be because
25:57 your hormonal imbalance that you're not
25:59 very interested in girls or something. I
26:01 don't know. Okay, I'll give you some
26:03 space. We can talk tomorrow." But
26:06 instead, she gets angry at me because
26:09 I'm down and not feeling very chatty and
26:11 not really talkative. So, I'm not really
26:13 in the mood to argue, so I just say,
26:15 "Well, I'm going to go to bed." And then
26:17 she says that she doesn't feel like
26:19 coming over anymore the next day. So I
26:21 just say, "Okay, good night." And I go
26:23 to bed. I wake up the next day. I feel a
26:25 lot better cuz I slept on it. And I
26:27 apologize to her. I sent her a message
26:29 saying that I'm sorry that I wasn't very
26:31 talkative and I was just feeling down.
26:33 Thinking that I'd resolve things, but
26:35 actually she was still mad at me. And we
26:38 ended up arguing and it went from
26:41 talking about the burrito thing. So much
26:43 drama, man, for a burrito.
26:46 Yeah, it's this is how what it happens,
26:47 man. When you think about that you have
26:50 to cook things and do a burrito or
26:52 whatever instead of just eating raw
26:56 meat, you're just going to start arguing
26:58 and arguing and arguing cuz you're
27:01 already stressed out about cooking and
27:03 doing the
27:05 dishes to now she's saying that she was
27:07 building resentment towards me and upset
27:10 with me because even though I agreed to
27:12 quitting YouTube, she realized I was
27:15 still making tech and gaming videos and
27:17 cooking videos on my second channel,
27:19 which I thought she was okay with cuz
27:22 she literally said, "You can make." That
27:25 woman just can't make up her mind. Man,
27:27 video game videos. So, I thought, "Okay,
27:29 I'll just spam out a load of video game
27:30 videos." But she was upset that I was
27:32 making video game videos and spending
27:36 all this time making What was her idea?
27:38 Second channel videos instead of putting
27:40 effort into trying to get a full-time
27:42 job, which is what she wanted me to do.
27:44 I was kind of hoping that if I agreed to
27:46 stop making content on my main channel
27:48 and stop streaming that we wouldn't
27:49 argue anymore. But in the back of my
27:52 mind, I also thought this wouldn't work
27:53 because most of our arguments had
27:55 nothing to do with YouTube. There were
27:58 other things like I didn't text much or
27:59 I didn't compliment her enough. And
28:01 okay, maybe the YouTube channel and streaming
28:02 streaming
28:05 didn't h compliments. It's kind of
28:08 impossible for me to be with a girl that
28:11 I really like and to not compliment her
28:13 every 5 minutes. Okay, maybe I'm
28:16 exaggerating, but but yeah, just just
28:18 calling her beautiful and just saying
28:20 funny things and whatever. I don't know.
28:22 That's just my theory. Or either you
28:24 were not into her or you're just
28:27 hormonally imbalanced and you're not you
28:30 don't you don't find girls attractive. I
28:32 don't know what's going on, man.
28:34 help matters and made things worse
28:36 sometimes, but YouTube wasn't the cause
28:38 of a lot of the arguments. So, I never
28:41 thought or I never agreed that it was
28:44 going to actually help things a lot if I
28:45 quit YouTube. And at that point, I was
28:47 kind of fed up. I thought if I can't
28:50 even make tech and gaming videos and I'm
28:52 expected to not make anything at all on
28:54 YouTube, which I just didn't want to
28:58 agree to. And at this point, she just
29:02 likes to put you down in my opinion.
29:04 She just likes to put you down cuz if
29:06 she puts you down, she gets happy from
29:09 it. And uh yeah, that's that's not a
29:11 good relationship, man. It's toxic. And
29:13 uh I get it that it's going to hurt to
29:16 break up with her, but yeah, that's the
29:19 only that's your only choice, man. Also,
29:22 we were still fighting over things that
29:24 weren't even related to YouTube, like me
29:26 not texting very much. So, in the end,
29:29 not YouTube was the problem, like I said
29:31 in the beginning of the video. And I
29:32 guess she thought without YouTube I
29:34 would spend more time texting her, but
29:36 then I didn't really because you know
29:37 sometimes I have days where I am very
29:39 chatty and I would text a lot and she'd
29:41 be happy. And then there's days and
29:43 that's okay where I'm kind of like in
29:46 deep thinking mode and I'm not really
29:49 talkative or wanting to text much. And
29:50 also because we were going to see each
29:52 other the next day anyway, I thought I
29:54 don't really need Exactly. If you see
29:56 each other anyway next day, then what's
29:58 the big problem, man? Like it's not like
30:01 you need to text her like all the time.
30:02 If you're seeing each other, you're
30:04 going to be like full day, day and night
30:06 together. And yeah, that's plenty of
30:09 time, man. Need to text much cuz we're
30:11 going to see each other and then we will
30:13 talk a lot in person. But for her,
30:16 texting is very important. So, we were
30:19 still fighting. She should just get
30:23 um she should just just text chat GPT
30:26 instead. and yeah talk with chat GPT
30:30 instead of uh using you like like a chat
30:32 bot or something. Even after me quitting
30:34 YouTube, I was very unhappy and she
30:36 wanted me to completely stop YouTube.
30:40 Maybe you should have set up like a like a
30:41 a
30:45 JP responsor. Like she she thinks that
30:47 she talks to you, but she actually talks
30:51 to Chad GP Daniel.
30:53 No tackle gaming videos at all. then but
30:56 then she would have gotten mad on you
30:58 for for doing that cuz maybe she would
31:00 have realized that hey this is AI this
31:02 is not my boyfriend I just didn't want
31:04 to agree with so I just said I won't be
31:06 happy if you stop me from doing YouTube
31:09 and she said she wouldn't be happy if
31:10 she's with me and I'm still doing
31:12 YouTube so we just couldn't come to an
31:15 agreement and we decided to break so
31:22 man this is what people argue about when
31:25 they have like an empty life.
31:26 We've had a lot of arguments over the
31:28 past year, but she's never told me to
31:30 stop doing YouTube. And actually, we met
31:32 because she was a viewer and that's how
31:35 we met. We met through YouTube. So, I
31:36 was expecting that she would be okay
31:38 with me doing YouTube and she would
31:40 never tell me to quit. And I thought
31:42 she'd be a great girlfriend cuz she was
31:44 very supportive
31:47 of great girlfriend.
31:50 Seriously, supportive. This this is what
31:52 you call supportive. I don't think so,
31:55 man. of my YouTube and Oh, all I ever
31:57 wanted was to be in a relationship where
31:59 the girl knows you wanted to know about
32:02 to to be in such a relationship, but
32:04 yeah, that's just a fantasy for you. I
32:06 don't know why you can't get a a
32:08 girlfriend that that is into YouTube.
32:10 Maybe you should just date one of your
32:14 viewers who has already already know you
32:17 for like many many years. Yeah, maybe
32:20 maybe find some girl that is in your
32:21 comment section and she's been
32:24 commenting and she's single for many
32:26 many years. She already has been
32:28 following you for for years and knows
32:30 about you and yeah, that's what you
32:32 should do. Not just meet a random girl
32:35 and expect her her to know about your
32:38 YouTube channel and to appreciate what you're
32:38 you're
32:41 doing about my YouTube and she's okay
32:43 with it because that's very hard to
32:45 find. Most girls don't want to date me
32:48 because I do YouTube and the kind of
32:50 content I do is here in your comment
32:54 section, man. Just just find a girl or
32:57 maybe when you're live or something,
32:59 just just say that you're looking for a
33:01 girlfriend or make a video that you're
33:03 looking for a girlfriend in your
33:06 community. It's not very appealing. And
33:08 I don't really think it's a coincidence
33:10 that she decided to try and get me to
33:12 stop doing YouTube exactly at the same
33:14 time that the Turkey Tom video dropped.
33:15 She was probably seeing I was getting
33:17 lots of new viewers, getting a lot of
33:19 exposure and she was probably worried
33:21 that because of this I would now spend
33:24 even more time dedicated to YouTube.
33:27 It's not ruined your relationship, man.
33:30 I mean when when you receive money
33:33 online it means that you have done
33:36 something and some people appreciate
33:39 what you have done like I I don't think
33:42 a hater would would give you like uh his
33:45 money just just so just to hate on you
33:47 or whatever. I I mean sometimes they
33:50 they do u um like pay like a super chat
33:53 or something just to insult you. I I get
33:56 that. But but yeah, when you receive
34:00 money, you are going to have uh like it
34:03 means you're somewhat like a like a like
34:06 a celebrity, man. And uh yeah, people
34:08 are going to make a videos about you
34:11 just like I'm making now and pay even
34:13 less attention to her and things would
34:15 get crazier now that my channel is
34:17 growing. But in the end, I lost my
34:20 girlfriend. I fell out with my mom. The
34:22 channel stopped growing and I'm back to
34:24 the same kind of numbers that I was
34:26 getting be. All you have to do is just
34:29 text her that you're sorry and you
34:31 you've been wrong and you you will never
34:33 do it again, but you're not going to quit
34:34 quit
34:37 YouTube for the Turkey video. So, the
34:39 only thing I gained out of it was a
34:40 couple hundred, I guess, when I was
34:43 doing that stream. and I missed out 3
34:45 weeks when the video was hot because I
34:48 agreed to stop doing YouTube to save
34:50 exactly what I said in the beginning of
34:52 the video. So, you are aware of it. Good
34:54 relationship which in the end wasn't
34:57 really savable and now I don't know what
34:58 to do with my life. So, yeah, thanks
35:01 Turkey Tom.
35:03 Yeah, thanks Turkey
35:05 Tom. Okay, man. Um, yeah, that's the
