0:02 You're tired, aren't you? You look
0:04 around and everything seems still. Too
0:07 much silence, too much rejection. It
0:09 feels like the more you try to do the
0:11 right thing, the more doors close. And
0:13 then comes that question you try to
0:15 avoid, but it imposes itself like a
0:18 shadow that insists on staying. Has God
0:22 forgotten me? No, he hasn't forgotten
0:24 you. But he's doing something you don't
0:27 understand right now. And it's not
0:30 punishment. It's formation. It's always
0:33 like this. It always has been. Joseph
0:36 had big dreams but ended up in a pit and
0:38 then in prison. Moses grew up among
0:41 riches but ended up tending sheep in
0:44 anonymity. David was anointed but lived
0:47 as a fugitive. And why? Because before
0:50 God raises someone up, he breaks them.
0:52 And he doesn't break them because he
0:54 hates them. He breaks them because he
0:57 needs to remove everything that's wrong
1:00 inside. That thing that you yourself
1:03 don't see. That thing you disguise with
1:05 good intentions. That thing you believe
1:08 is faith, but deep down is just fear
1:11 disguised as control. You think you're
1:13 ready. You think you've prepared, but
1:16 you still trust in yourself. You still
1:18 rely on your abilities. You still depend
1:21 on your own strength. God doesn't use
1:23 those who are still too whole. Because
1:26 those who are too whole don't bend. They
1:29 don't listen. They don't depend. That's
1:31 why he allows the ground to slip from
1:34 under your feet. Not because he wants to
1:36 see you fall, but because it's on your
1:39 knees that you learn to listen. Watchman
1:41 Knee said that God doesn't look for
1:44 beautiful vessels, but broken ones.
1:46 Because it's through the cracks that his
1:49 life can flow. While you insist on
1:51 protecting your reputation, your image,
1:53 your plan, he's trying to protect the
1:56 eternity he placed inside you. But you
1:59 resist. You complain. You ask for relief
2:02 when what he wants to give you is
2:04 transformation. You want the process to
2:07 end, but he wants the process to fulfill
2:10 its purpose. And it hurts. I know it
2:13 hurts. It hurts to lose. It hurts to
2:15 wait. It hurts to see others moving
2:18 ahead while you're left behind. It hurts
2:20 to see doors closed after so much
2:24 prayer. It hurts to see silence as an
2:27 answer. But it's in that place, in that
2:29 exact place where you feel you have
2:31 nothing left, that he works most
2:34 intensely. Because while you still had
2:37 something of your own, a strategy, an
2:40 escape, a strength, you weren't ready
2:43 yet. But now, maybe now that you don't
2:45 know what to do anymore. Maybe now he
2:47 can begin. You think you're late, but
2:50 God is not in a hurry. You want to go
2:53 up, but he wants to dig deeper. Because
2:55 the deeper the foundation, the higher
2:57 the building can be. And what he wants
3:00 to build in you is not small. But the
3:03 problem is that you still dream of
3:07 visibility, of recognition, of results.
3:09 And he's calling you to obedience in the
3:12 dark, to faith in the invisible, to
3:15 trust when everything collapses. Moses
3:17 had to unlearn everything he learned in
3:20 Egypt. David had to trust even while
3:22 being persecuted by a king he didn't try
3:24 to overthrow. Joseph had to keep
3:27 believing even after being forgotten by
3:29 the one who promised to help him. And
3:31 you, you're still waiting for everything
3:34 to make sense. But faith doesn't rely on
3:38 explanations. It's based on who God is,
3:41 even when nothing else seems reliable.
3:43 And that's what he's doing with you.
3:45 He's removing the layers, the false
3:48 security, the dependence on others, the
3:50 need for approval. He's cutting off what
3:52 you thought was strength, but was just
3:56 pride. And he does it in silence without
3:59 warning, without asking permission,
4:02 because he knows that if he asks, you'll
4:05 refuse. So he empties. He stops
4:08 everything. He undoes your plans and you
4:11 revolt. But later when the dust settles,
4:14 when you've cried all you had to cry,
4:16 you realize that something is left.
4:18 Something you didn't know. Something
4:21 firmer. Something that no longer depends
4:24 on praise nor on results nor on
4:27 feelings. Real faith. Watchman Knee
4:30 wrote that God prefers to use a broken
4:32 man than a brilliant man. Because
4:35 fragility when surrendered becomes space
4:39 for the spirit to operate. And you are
4:41 you trying to appear strong or are you
4:43 willing to be broken? Because only when
4:45 there's nothing left of you can he begin
4:48 to use what is his in you. Before that
4:51 it's just a dispute. A dispute between
4:54 your will and his will. Between what you
4:56 idealized and what he planned. Between
4:59 your haste and his eternity. There's no
5:01 use in forcing it. There's no use in
5:04 trying to rush the process. When God
5:06 wants to raise someone up, he first
5:07 dismantles them. It's not about
5:10 punishment. It's about purpose. And as
5:12 long as you don't understand that,
5:14 you'll keep fighting against the process
5:16 that was made to set you free. Because
5:19 yes, you need to be freed. Not from
5:21 people, not from demons, but from
5:23 yourself, from your control, from your
5:26 vanity, from your logic. You're still
5:28 waiting for the crown. But you forgot
5:30 that before it comes the cross. The
5:31 cross of
5:34 renunciation. The cross of silence. The
5:37 cross of waiting. And you carry this
5:40 cross without understanding. But you
5:42 don't need to understand now. You just
5:44 need to continue because God isn't
5:46 trying to prove something to you. He's
5:48 molding you for something that only
5:51 someone who is broken can carry. You
5:53 haven't been rejected by chance. You
5:55 haven't been forgotten by accident. You
5:57 haven't gone through the desert as
6:00 punishment. Everything has a purpose.
6:02 And it's not just a generic purpose.
6:05 Nice to say. It's a purpose that changes
6:09 who you are inside. That transforms you
6:11 into someone he can trust. Because he
6:13 doesn't entrust his plans to those who
6:16 still need a stage. He doesn't deliver
6:18 weight of glory to those who haven't
6:21 learned to walk in the dark. Do you want
6:24 to be used by God? Then stop running
6:27 from the furnace because it's in it that
6:30 those who have structure are revealed.
6:32 Those who have roots, those who don't
6:34 give up. And it's not about strength.
6:36 It's about surrender. You've thought
6:38 about stopping, haven't you? You've
6:40 thought that maybe you've misinterpreted
6:42 everything, but you haven't. You're just
6:45 in the middle of the process. And the
6:47 middle always seems confusing. It always
6:50 seems dark. But it's at this point that
6:52 it's decided who continues and who goes
6:55 back and you've come too far to go back
6:57 now. So don't ask God to take you out of
7:00 the process. Ask him to teach you to
7:03 endure because he won't waste anything.
7:06 No tear, no waiting, no silence.
7:09 Everything will make sense. But not now.
7:11 Now there's only one thing to do.
7:14 Remain. Even without applause, even
7:17 without direction, even without results,
7:20 remain. Because those who don't give up
7:22 in the dark will see the light when it
7:25 finally comes. And when it comes,
7:27 because it will come, you won't need it
7:30 to confirm anything anymore. Because you
7:32 will have learned that God is faithful
7:35 even when everything seems lost. And
7:39 then yes, he will raise you up, not for
7:41 your glory, but because you have become
7:43 someone who no longer lives for
7:46 themselves, because someone who died
7:48 with Christ no longer needs to prove
7:51 anything. And someone who was broken by
7:54 God doesn't get lost when he lifts them
7:57 up. Write in the comments, "God is my
8:00 strength." If you believe that he
8:02 sustains you in all battles, and when he
8:05 finally raises you up, it's not as you
8:08 imagined, it's not with noise, it's not
8:11 with honor, it's not with recognition,
8:13 he doesn't make a fuss. God doesn't need
8:16 others to see what he's doing in you. He
8:18 just wants you to see, for you to
8:21 understand that you no longer confuse
8:23 position with purpose, nor visibility
8:25 with value. Because those who were
8:28 molded in secret no longer need an
8:31 audience. And that's exactly why they
8:34 can be entrusted with eternal things.
8:36 Because they have already died to the
8:38 desire to impress. Because they are
8:41 tired of justifying themselves. Because
8:43 they have learned that in God what
8:47 matters is to be, not to appear. You
8:49 didn't get here by merit. And you won't
8:51 continue by strength. The journey
8:54 continues, but now the steps are
8:57 different. Before you walked fearing to
9:00 lose. Now you walk knowing that you have
9:03 already lost everything that could hold
9:06 you back. Before you looked at others
9:08 with comparison. Now you look with
9:10 compassion. Before you thought you
9:13 needed to prove your worth. Now you know
9:15 that your worth is in the one who chose
9:17 you even when you had nothing to offer.
9:19 Watchman Knee said that true ministry
9:21 begins when the work of the cross has
9:24 been completed in us. And do you know
9:26 what that means? It means that
9:28 everything that is yours needs to die
9:31 first. Your ideas, your motivations,
9:34 your methods, your desires. The cross is
9:37 not just a symbol, it's a process. And
9:39 what it touches, it kills. Not to
9:42 destroy, but to liberate. How many times
9:43 have you tried to hide behind
9:46 activities, behind service, behind
9:49 titles, and all this crumbled? Because
9:51 God doesn't want what you can do. He
9:53 wants what you are when you can't do
9:55 anything. It's that you without
9:57 performance, without a shield, without a
10:00 mask that he wants to reach. And that's
10:03 why he allows the collapse because he
10:05 knows that as long as you still have
10:07 something to hold on to, you won't
10:10 surrender completely. And maybe you're
10:12 still trying to fix what he's trying to
10:14 destroy. Maybe you're still trying to
10:16 rebuild something that he himself is
10:19 tearing down. Not out of malice, but
10:22 because that was never part of the plan.
10:25 It was your idea, not his. And no matter
10:27 how well-intentioned it was, it won't
10:31 survive the fire. Gold survives. The
10:34 rest turns to ashes. And what he wants
10:37 is pure gold. Not the appearance of
10:40 gold, not the sound of gold, but true
10:43 essence. Do you realize now how his
10:46 silence was grace? How that closed door
10:48 was protection? How that separation was
10:51 deliverance? Do you see now that it
10:54 wasn't rejection but correction? Because
10:57 whom he loves, he disciplines. And
11:00 discipline hurts, but it heals. It frees
11:01 you from what you didn't have the
11:04 courage to abandon yet. It distances you
11:07 from what would distance you from him.
11:09 And it's this severe love that you're
11:11 experiencing. A love that doesn't pamper
11:14 you, that doesn't deceive you, that
11:15 doesn't leave you comfortable in a
11:18 shallow faith. A love that wants your
11:20 eternity more than your immediate
11:22 well-being. You may still feel the
11:24 weight of everything you lost, but what
11:27 you lost was no longer necessary. God
11:29 doesn't leave you with excess. He
11:32 aligns. He cleans. He adjusts. You think
11:35 you're empty, but he's creating space
11:37 for the new, for something that doesn't
11:40 fit in the middle of the old structure.
11:42 And only those who accept the process
11:45 realize this. Those who stop resisting,
11:47 those who stop trying to understand
11:51 everything before obeying. Watchman Knee
11:53 pointed to that inner place where only
11:56 the spirit can touch. He spoke of a work
11:58 that no one sees, but that changes
12:01 everything. A work that silences the
12:04 restless soul, that disciplines desires,
12:08 that disarms pride. A slow but
12:11 definitive work. And it's this work that
12:13 is happening in you now. Even if
12:15 everything seems still, even if
12:18 everything still hurts, even if the
12:20 answers haven't come yet, God doesn't
12:22 need to explain to transform you. He
12:25 just needs you not to run away. And
12:27 that's why you're still here. Even with
12:29 the cracks, even with the pain, even
12:31 with the unanswered questions, there's
12:35 still faith inside, there's still fire.
12:37 Even if it seems like embers. And he
12:40 values that remnant of faith because
12:42 with that, he can rekindle everything.
12:44 You don't need to have much. You just
12:46 need not give up. You just need to
12:48 continue. Even when you don't feel
12:51 anything, even when praying seems like
12:53 talking to the walls, even when
12:56 worshiping seems like a lie, continue.
12:59 Because it's precisely at this time when
13:02 everything in you screams to stop that
13:04 transformation is happening. God doesn't
13:06 just want your obedience when everything
13:09 is going well. He wants your
13:11 faithfulness when everything seems to go
13:13 wrong. Because that's where faith is
13:16 proven. Not on stage, but in the desert.
13:18 Not when there are witnesses, but when
13:21 no one sees. And you are in that place.
13:23 That place where everything is being
13:26 redefined. where you need to decide
13:28 whether you will follow by conviction or
13:30 whether you will stop by discouragement.
13:33 Where the sky seems mute, but where God
13:36 is closer than ever. He is teaching you
13:39 to walk without guarantees, to trust
13:42 without explanations, to love without
13:45 return. And that's not weakness. That's
13:48 maturity. That's what he wants to form
13:51 in you. A faith that doesn't waver, a
13:53 heart that doesn't negotiate, a
13:56 surrender that has no plan B. Because
13:58 it's this kind of people that he uses,
14:01 not those who shine on the outside, but
14:02 those who were crushed on the inside
14:06 until no vanity remains. You don't need
14:08 another revelation. You need to obey the
14:11 one you have already received. You don't
14:14 need new signs. You need courage to
14:17 continue with what you already know.
14:19 Faith doesn't grow with emotion. It
14:22 grows with renunciation. And each
14:25 renunciation you make in secret builds a
14:27 foundation that no one can see, but that
14:30 sustains everything that will come.
14:34 Because it will come. What God started,
14:37 he will complete. But not in your time,
14:40 not your way. And you need to reconcile
14:43 yourself with that. with the idea that
14:45 control is not yours, that the path is
14:48 not yours, that the result is not yours.
14:50 You were not called to understand
14:53 everything. You were called to believe.
14:55 And true faith begins where
14:58 understanding ends. When you accept that
15:00 there is no more logic, that there is no
15:02 more how, that there are no more
15:05 answers. And even so, you decide to
15:08 continue this faith God honors. This
15:11 faith God rewards not with applause but
15:13 with transformation and that
15:16 transformation is worth more than any
15:18 visible result because it changes who
15:20 you are. It changes how you live. It
15:23 even changes what you desire. Watchman
15:25 knee taught that the spiritual Christian
15:28 is not the one who does more but the one
15:30 who has been most deeply touched by the
15:34 cross and this cross is acting in you.
15:36 Each refusal, each silence, each
15:38 frustration has a purpose. No suffering
15:41 is wasted. No waiting time is useless.
15:43 Everything is being used to make you
15:47 like Christ. And Christ was broken, was
15:50 rejected, was betrayed, was silenced.
15:52 Did you expect an easier path?
15:56 Disciplehip is dying. And dying hurts.
15:58 But only those who are being prepared to
16:01 resurrect die. And when you resurrect
16:03 with Christ, nothing dominates you
16:06 anymore. neither fear nor the opinion of
16:09 others nor the losses nor the past. You
16:11 no longer live reacting to what happens
16:14 around you. You live responding to what
16:17 God is doing within. And that changes
16:19 everything because peace no longer
16:22 depends on circumstances. Hope no longer
16:25 depends on time. And strength no longer
16:27 depends on what you feel. You no longer
16:30 need to pretend that everything is okay.
16:32 Because your faith is no longer
16:34 sustained by feelings. It has been
16:37 purified. And the fire that burned your
16:40 illusions now warms your conviction. You
16:42 know who you are. You know who you
16:45 believe. You know in whom you hope even
16:47 when nothing else makes sense. That's
16:49 what God was doing all this time. He
16:52 wasn't punishing you. He was freeing
16:54 you. He wasn't delaying you. He was
16:57 aligning you. He wasn't testing you. He
16:59 was molding you. And now that you no
17:02 longer need certainties to continue, you
17:03 are ready. Because those who have
17:06 learned to walk with God in the dark
17:08 never get lost when the light comes on.
17:11 So don't fear what's coming. You were
17:14 trained in pain. And whoever was trained
17:16 in pain doesn't give up at the first
17:19 obstacle. You might even fall again, but
17:22 it won't be the same fall. Now you know
17:24 the way back. Now you know where
17:28 sustenance is. Now you no longer depend
17:30 on external stability to have internal
17:32 stability. You've been through something
17:34 many couldn't handle and you're still
17:38 here. That's already a victory. That's
17:40 already a sign that God protected you
17:42 even when you thought you were alone.
17:44 And if he protected you until now, he
17:47 will continue to. Not because you
17:49 deserve it, but because he is faithful.
17:51 And his faithfulness doesn't depend on
17:53 your performance. It depends on his
17:56 commitment to what he promised. Watchman
17:58 N used to say that God doesn't work
18:00 hastily because his goal isn't
18:03 efficiency, it's eternity. And that's
18:05 what he's building in you. Something
18:08 that lasts, something that isn't
18:10 fleeting, something that withstands the
18:14 seasons, the crises, the losses. You
18:16 were marked by something eternal. And
18:18 now everything in you will start to
18:21 align with that. You'll realize that
18:23 some things no longer attract you, that
18:26 some voices no longer influence you,
18:29 that some desires no longer control you,
18:31 not because you tried hard, but because
18:33 you died to them. And someone who has
18:36 died no longer responds to the same
18:38 stimuli. That's why you feel this
18:41 internal silence, this strange calm.
18:44 It's not emptiness, it's healing. It's
18:47 not coldness, it's stability. You are
18:50 being established, grounded, rooted, and
18:52 that can't be seen from the outside, but
18:55 it's felt on the inside. Keep going.
18:57 Don't back down because you're closer
19:00 than you think, more prepared than you
19:02 imagine, more free than you've ever
19:05 been. God is raising you up. Yes. But
19:07 not to a place of exposure, to a place
19:11 of authority. Authority that comes from
19:14 conquered pain, from proven faith, from
19:17 complete surrender. And no one can take
19:19 that away from you because it wasn't
19:22 given by men. It was forged by God.
19:25 Write in the comments, "Jesus, my
19:27 savior." If you acknowledge that he gave
19:30 his life for you, and when that
19:32 authority comes, it doesn't need to
19:35 raise its voice or demand space. Because
19:37 it doesn't come from strength. It comes
19:40 from brokenness. It doesn't impose
19:43 itself. It simply is. And whoever was
19:46 marked by God carries a presence that
19:48 speaks even in silence. You start to
19:50 notice this not through the eyes of
19:53 others, but through the fruits that
19:55 didn't sprout before. Fruits of
19:58 gentleness where there was agitation,
20:01 fruits of forgiveness where there was
20:03 resentment, fruits of trust where there
20:06 was fear. You start to act differently,
20:08 not because you memorized a new
20:11 behavior, but because the old you is no
20:14 longer there to react as before. What
20:17 God broke in you, he won't rebuild with
20:19 the same materials. He didn't take you
20:21 to the bottom to return to the same
20:24 place. You were deconstructed so that
20:26 something completely new could be
20:28 generated. And this new doesn't mix with
20:31 the old. That's why so many things are
20:33 falling out of place. Relationships that
20:37 used to make sense now sound strange.
20:39 Conversations that used to excite you
20:41 now tire you. ambitions that used to
20:44 drive you now seem empty. It's not
20:47 arrogance. It's growth. It's that you no
20:49 longer fit in the places where you used
20:51 to hide. It's no longer possible to
20:54 settle for distractions when you've been
20:56 touched by the eternal. And now that
20:59 you're starting to see more clearly, you
21:01 also perceive the risks. Because when
21:04 God raises you up, you become a target,
21:07 not of people, but of spiritual forces
21:09 that resist everything that is true,
21:12 everything that is pure, everything that
21:14 comes from the cross. And this is where
21:17 many stumble. They confuse opposition
21:20 with rejection. They confuse battle with
21:22 defeat. They confuse pressure with
21:24 abandonment. But if you remember where
21:26 you came from, what you've already
21:29 endured, what has already died in you,
21:31 you'll know that there's no turning
21:34 back. There's no more old normal.
21:36 There's the new path, the narrow one,
21:39 the silent one, but also the true one.
21:40 You're not being tested to prove
21:43 something to God. You're being revealed
21:47 to yourself. Each crisis reveals where
21:49 you still trust yourself. Each pressure
21:51 reveals where the cross hasn't touched
21:54 yet. And there's no room for disguises
21:57 here. What's at stake isn't your
22:00 reputation. It's your character. God is
22:02 more interested in who you are becoming
22:05 than in everything you can do for him.
22:08 Because what you become sustains what
22:10 you will carry. And maybe you look ahead
22:13 and still see nothing. No promise
22:15 fulfilled, no clear sign, just the
22:17 memory of what he said, of what once
22:20 made you get out of bed full of faith.
22:22 And now that seems so distant. But
22:24 understand the promise hasn't been
22:27 cancelled. It was buried. Because every
22:30 true promise needs to die before it can
22:33 be resurrected. It's in this burial that
22:36 it purifies itself. That it frees itself
22:39 from your wrong expectations. That it
22:42 stops being about you and starts being
22:45 only about God. Do you remember Abraham?
22:48 He received a promise and waited years
22:50 until it was fulfilled. And when the son
22:53 finally arrived, God asked him to give
22:55 him up. It seems crazy, but it wasn't
22:58 the son that God wanted. It was
23:00 Abraham's heart. The promise cannot
23:03 become an idol. What God promised you
23:05 can never take his place. And that's why
23:07 sometimes he allows the things you've
23:10 waited for the most to become silent,
23:13 distant, almost lost. because he's
23:15 asking you if I don't give you anything
23:18 else would you still follow me? That
23:20 question hurts. It pulls you out of a
23:22 place where your faith was disguised
23:25 interest and you start to realize that a
23:27 lot of what you called faith was just
23:30 attachment. It was just an attempt to
23:33 control the outcome. But now you're in
23:36 another place. Now your answer doesn't
23:38 need to be pretty anymore. It needs to
23:41 be sincere. And if you're honest, you'll
23:43 admit that sometimes you don't want to
23:45 continue. That sometimes you think about
23:48 stopping, that sometimes faith seems
23:51 useless. And it's exactly here that God
23:53 manifests himself, not when you're
23:55 strong, but when you admit that you have
23:58 no more strength. Watchman knee wrote
24:00 that God takes us to the point where we
24:03 can't do it anymore. And it's at that
24:06 point that he acts. It's not at your
24:08 limit that he gets frustrated. It's at
24:10 your limit that he reveals himself.
24:13 Because while you can still do it, you
24:15 still control it. But when you can't do
24:18 it anymore, all that's left is to trust.
24:21 And that trust when everything fails is
24:23 what he calls faith. You need to
24:26 remember God's silence isn't
24:29 disinterest. It's an invitation, a call
24:33 to go deeper, to go further down, to
24:35 leave the surface of emotions and enter
24:38 the stability of the rock. Faith that
24:41 survives silence is faith that can carry
24:45 glory. But glory not as men think. Glory
24:48 that manifests itself in secret, in the
24:50 breaking of bread, in serving in
24:54 silence, in obeying when no one sees.
24:56 And you'll realize little by little that
24:59 this silent faith carries an authority
25:01 that needs no explanation. You don't
25:04 need to prove anything anymore. You
25:06 don't need to chase after what you lost
25:10 because what is yours in the kingdom is
25:13 not lost. God keeps it. And he will give
25:16 you what is necessary at the right time.
25:19 Neither before nor after. And if it
25:21 hasn't arrived yet, it's because it
25:23 wouldn't be a blessing yet. It would be
25:26 a burden. God doesn't anticipate
25:28 blessings that you don't have the
25:31 structure to sustain. That structure
25:34 he's forming now. And it's built on
25:36 daily obedience. Not in big events, but
25:39 in the yes said when everything says
25:41 it's not worth it. When you choose to
25:44 love even hurt. When you choose to stay
25:47 even tired. When you choose to believe
25:49 even in the dark, that's where the
25:52 kingdom advances, not on platforms, but
25:55 in locked rooms, in silent deserts, in
25:58 decisions that no one applauds. You need
26:00 to understand it's not about what you
26:04 feel. It's about what you believe. The
26:06 feeling will fluctuate, but faith can be
26:08 strengthened. You won't be stable by
26:12 nature, but by choice. Therefore, stop
26:15 waiting to feel to act. Start acting
26:17 even without feeling because faith is
26:20 not born from emotion. It grows in
26:22 obedience. And when you start to obey
26:25 even without motivation, God starts to
26:28 breathe new breath into you. Watchman
26:30 Knee used to say that the secret of the
26:33 Christian life isn't in trying to
26:35 improve the old man, but in living the
26:38 new life. And the new life only
26:40 manifests itself when the old man is
26:44 left aside, not treated, not perfected,
26:47 crucified. And that means that it's not
26:49 you who lives anymore. It means that
26:51 your arguments, your wills, your
26:55 opinions no longer have the last word.
26:56 It means that you've become a channel,
26:59 not the center. That's freedom. Because
27:01 there's no lighter burden than not
27:04 having to defend your own will anymore.
27:06 There's no deeper rest than knowing that
27:09 you don't need to prove any worth. You
27:11 were accepted before performing. You
27:13 were loved before changing. You were
27:16 called before understanding. And all you
27:18 need now is to respond. Not with pretty
27:22 words. But with sincere surrender, you
27:24 will still cry. You will still be
27:26 frustrated. You will still have days of
27:29 silence, of confusion, of pain. But now
27:32 you know where to look. Not inward, not
27:35 outward, but upward. And looking up, you
27:38 will remember that you are not alone,
27:40 that you are not abandoned, that you are
27:42 not lost. You are in process, and
27:46 process hurts, but transforms. Process
27:49 tires, but builds. Process is not
27:52 punishment. It is care. Continue. Not
27:54 because everything makes sense, but
27:57 because you've seen enough to trust. And
28:00 if he hasn't failed until now, he won't
28:03 start with you. You may even fall again.
28:05 But now you know how to get up. Now you
28:07 know where your strength is. And your
28:10 strength isn't in you. It's in the one
28:11 who chose you before you knew what
28:14 choice was. And whoever is chosen
28:17 doesn't walk alone. He walks sustained.
28:20 Watchman Knee used to say that whoever
28:22 has died to himself is no longer afraid
28:25 of death. And you are learning to die
28:29 every day, to die to pride, to die to
28:32 control, to die to dreams that weren't
28:34 born in God's heart. And at the same
28:37 time that you die, you live. You live
28:40 with an intensity that the world doesn't
28:42 understand. You live with a peace that
28:45 chaos cannot steal. You live with a hope
28:48 that doesn't depend on circumstances.
28:50 You live with a light that comes from
28:53 within. You are being prepared to carry
28:55 something that the world cannot explain.
28:57 Something that can only be sustained by
29:00 someone who has already gone through the
29:03 cross. And when the time comes, and it
29:05 will come, you will realize that
29:07 everything was worth it. Every tear,
29:10 every loss, every weight, because
29:13 nothing was in vain. God doesn't waste
29:16 pain. He transforms. He refineses. He
29:19 prepares. And when he raises you up, no
29:21 one will be able to say that it was you.
29:24 Everyone will see that it was him and
29:28 only him. So follow, even trembling,
29:31 even without understanding, even with a
29:33 heavy heart, because you are exactly
29:36 where you should be. And whoever is in
29:39 God's hands is never out of place. Write
29:42 in the comments, "God renews me." If you
29:45 feel that he restores your strength when
29:47 you are tired, you will remember these
29:50 days. You will remember the night when
29:53 you thought everything was over, but you
29:55 still couldn't give up. You will
29:57 remember the moments when faith was just
29:59 a thread, but that thread was enough to
30:01 keep you standing. You will remember
30:04 when no one believed, when no one
30:07 understood, and yet you remained not by
30:10 strength, not by talent, not by
30:12 strategy, but by grace. The same grace
30:15 that sustained you until here is the one
30:17 that will lead you from now on. You
30:19 didn't imagine that this path would be
30:23 like this. So narrow, so lonely, so
30:26 silent. But you also didn't imagine that
30:29 there would be so much depth, so much
30:31 truth, so much revelation in this place
30:34 where everything that is superficial
30:38 dies. What remains now is real. What you
30:42 carry now has weight, has roots, has
30:45 history. What you live now cannot be
30:48 imitated, cannot be borrowed, cannot be
30:52 copied. It was forged. You were forged
30:55 by fire, by waiting, by pain. How many
30:57 times have you tried to get up on your
30:59 own? How many times have you forced
31:02 exits that weren't doors? How many times
31:03 have you thought you had found the
31:06 solution only to be taken back to the
31:08 place where it all began? Total
31:11 dependence on God. He never wanted your
31:14 effort. He always wanted your surrender.
31:16 You don't need to be strong. You need to
31:18 be surrendered. You need to trust even
31:21 when you don't see anything. You need to
31:24 believe even when everything seems lost.
31:26 You may be living the end of a season.
31:29 And that's scary because the new hasn't
31:32 started yet. Because there are no clear
31:35 signs. Because what sustained you before
31:37 no longer works. It's the interval
31:40 between what was and what will be this
31:42 time between the known and the
31:45 invisible. But it's in this space that
31:47 God builds the invisible within you.
31:49 It's here that he pours out what the
31:52 eyes don't capture. It's here that he
31:54 establishes your identity, not in what
31:58 you do, but in what you are in him. It's
32:00 in this emptiness that he plants eternal
32:02 convictions. The old you might try to
32:05 accelerate this process. Maybe you were
32:07 already looking for another mission,
32:10 another direction, another occupation.
32:13 But now you've learned. You've learned
32:16 that it's not about doing, but about
32:20 being, being present, being available,
32:23 being sensitive. God is not after
32:26 activity. He is after intimacy. And if
32:28 he brought you to this point, it's
32:30 because he trusts that you no longer
32:33 need proof to obey. You already
32:35 understood. You've already been through
32:38 the school of brokenness. You've already
32:40 been visited by the cross. And whoever
32:43 was touched by the cross no longer lives
32:46 according to their own plans. You will
32:48 realize that God starts to send you to
32:51 places you wouldn't choose. to talk to
32:53 people you would avoid before, to
32:56 perform tasks that don't seem big, but
32:58 that carry a weight of eternity. Because
33:01 now you no longer live to impress. You
33:04 live to obey. Now you no longer measure
33:07 God's will by logic. You just respond.
33:09 You no longer wait for motivation or
33:13 confirmation. Just listen. Just feel.
33:16 Just know that it's him. That's enough.
33:18 Watchman Nay used to say that true
33:21 ministry is not something you seek but
33:23 something that finds you when you no
33:26 longer have ambitions. And that's what's
33:29 happening to you. The glory of God is
33:31 beginning to manifest itself in the
33:33 small things in the firmness of your
33:36 voice when you pray in the presence you
33:38 carry without saying anything in the
33:41 answers that don't come from the mind
33:43 but from the spirit. in the peace you
33:46 transmit even when you are silent. It's
33:48 the testimony of a soul that went
33:51 through the process and survived. More
33:54 than that, it flourished. God didn't
33:56 raise you up to live on the memories of
33:58 a past revival. He is writing a new
34:01 story where each chapter is written with
34:03 your daily surrender. He didn't call you
34:06 to echo voices. He called you to be a
34:08 voice. A voice that is born from the
34:11 secret place, from obedience, from
34:13 intimacy. And this voice doesn't need a
34:15 spotlight because it carries its own
34:18 light. The light that comes from within.
34:20 The light that was lit in the dark. And
34:23 you're going to start seeing fruits. Not
34:25 the ones the world applauds, but the
34:28 ones heaven recognizes. Quiet
34:31 conversions, restored hearts, lives
34:34 touched by a gesture, a word, a prayer.
34:36 You might never hear the applause. You
34:38 might never see the full impact. But God
34:42 sees and he notes everything. Because he
34:45 weighs hearts, not numbers. He measures
34:47 faithfulness, not fame. He answers the
34:49 hidden, not the displayed. And you've
34:52 chosen the path of the hidden. And on
34:54 that path, there's no rush. There's
34:56 purpose. You're going to feel the
34:58 resistance. You're going to feel like
35:00 you're carrying something the world
35:02 doesn't understand. You're going to feel
35:05 the spiritual opposition that only
35:07 exists when the kingdom is advancing.
35:10 But you're also going to feel the grace.
35:12 The grace to keep going even when you're
35:14 tired. The grace to love even when
35:17 you're hurt. The grace to remain even
35:19 when you're despised. That grace won't
35:22 abandon you. It sustains you. It covers
35:25 you. It surrounds you on all sides. And
35:28 when the enemy tries to remind you of
35:30 what you've lost, you'll remember what
35:32 God has built. When he tries to accuse
35:34 you of your failures, you'll remember
35:37 that you've already been justified. When
35:40 he tries to steal your hope, you'll
35:41 remember the blood that has already
35:44 guaranteed your future. You're no longer
35:47 vulnerable to the voices of fear because
35:50 your mind has been renewed. Your soul
35:52 has been healed. Your faith has been
35:55 rooted. And nothing that comes against
35:57 you can destroy what God has already
35:59 sealed. This doesn't mean everything
36:02 will be easy. It means you now know how
36:05 to wage war. Now you know that fighting
36:08 in God isn't struggling, it's resting.
36:10 It's not running, it's remaining. It's
36:13 not shouting, it's trusting. You've
36:15 learned that the most powerful weapon is
36:18 obedience. That the strongest shield is
36:20 truth. That the most effective armor is
36:23 presence. You've learned to remain. And
36:26 whoever remains bears fruit, and whoever
36:29 bears fruit glorifies God. You don't
36:32 need to make noise. Your consistency is
36:34 already a miracle. Your gentleness is
36:37 already a testimony. Your faithfulness
36:40 is already an altar. And God is being
36:42 glorified in your journey. Not because
36:45 it's perfect, but because it's real. Not
36:48 because you always get it right, but
36:51 because you always return. Return to the
36:54 cross. Return to the altar. Return to
36:57 the voice. And this constant return is
37:00 what makes your life a living sermon.
37:02 Watchman Knee said that the true work of
37:06 God is invisible to the natural eye. It
37:09 begins where no one sees and ends where
37:12 only God can measure. You are being part
37:14 of that work. And even if you don't
37:16 understand everything now, even if the
37:19 pieces don't fit together yet, you know
37:22 you're on the path. And that's enough.
37:24 Knowing that you are where God has
37:26 placed you is the greatest security you
37:29 can have. Because where God plants you,
37:32 he also sustains you. And where he
37:35 sustains you, no one can remove you. You
37:37 don't need to chase after doors anymore.
37:40 God will take you where you need to be.
37:42 Not through your connections, but
37:44 through his direction. Not through your
37:47 contacts, but through his hand. Not
37:49 through your effort, but through his
37:51 grace. You are no longer living by
37:54 opportunity. You are living by design
37:56 that changes everything. You are not at
37:59 the mercy of circumstances. You are
38:01 aligned with heaven. And heaven has a
38:04 perfect time. You will see. You'll look
38:07 back and realize it was necessary. Every
38:10 loss, every silence, every fall, every
38:12 day of discouragement, it was all part
38:15 of the plan. You weren't left out. You
38:18 were set apart. You weren't forgotten.
38:20 You were hidden. You weren't punished.
38:24 You were prepared. And now what is to
38:26 come is not a reward for effort. It is
38:29 the fulfillment of an eternal purpose.
38:32 So breathe. Keep going. Trust. Because
38:34 now you carry something that cannot be
38:37 explained, only lived. You carry the
38:40 mark of brokenness, the light of hope,
38:43 the firmness of the cross. And the world
38:45 needs that. Not more discourse, not more
38:47 appearance, but lives that have been
38:50 transformed from within. And you are one
38:53 of those lives. Therefore, continue.
38:55 Even when it doesn't seem worth it, even
38:57 when the weight seems too much, even
39:00 when everything in you wants to stop,
39:03 continue because God is still writing.
39:06 And what he writes, no one can erase.
39:08 And when this process finally makes
39:10 sense, when you realize everything he
39:13 has built, you will understand. It was
39:16 worth every second because it wasn't
39:19 about what you could do. It was about
39:21 who you needed to become. And now you
39:25 are. Now you know. Now you have seen.
39:28 And no one can take that away from you
39:30 because it was God who did it. It was
39:33 God who wrote it. It was God who raised
39:35 you up. And what he raises up, no one
39:37 can tear down. Write in the comments,
39:40 "Jesus heal my heart." And if you
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